This is the secret story of my life

Random talk session 211: SWOG

2012-02-01T21:12:00.007+08:00

hello diary.. today is 1/2/2011.. it's february ya..

emm.. ryan's new video is up.. it's about SWOG LOL

i love Garcia's way of saying 'swag' LOL but chester's is the most LOL though "SWWAAAAAG" LOLOL

and a special mention for dtrix's "my toilet paper, GUCCI!" LOLOL

the bloopers are also so funny XD and sorry to say this, but dang Ryan sounds gay when he said, "5, 6, 7, 8 and" LOLOL still, he looks soooo cute XDDDD

lol i just noticed sumthing:

00:37-00:40

Ryan: what's up dude

Dtrix: what's up man

Ryan: hey nice outfit bro

dude, man, bro? LOL Seriously, ryan? XD

that remind me, where the heck is kevin? i guess he's still busy wit his new movie, hang loose.. i miss seeing him wit ryan XDDDD

Random talk session 210

2012-01-31T17:23:00.005+08:00

hellod diary.. today is 31/1/12.. i m off today.. seriously, i loving it so much XD

ok, anyway, hav things to blog, before i forget lol i went to town today.. i went to everwin. suddenly i heard a very familiar song... it's part rock anthem LOLOL THUMBS UP EVERWIN. I never heard this song on radio (typical malaysian radio *rolls eyes* and i bet the i m sexy & i know it music video is totally banned here.. ) so anyway, i was like, wow, this song! and i was immediately reminded of kevin XDD gah, seriously this guy, he made me listen to kpop and even liking that song (i never even like suju, or even kpop).. and then he made me listen to and watch LMFAO weird music videos lol

ok, another one, i want to tell the story when there was a black out during the nite shift in which i was working.. the funny thing, was that there were 3 ivs to titrate lol seriously, there isnt even lite, it's so hard to see the end point.. my shift leader used his car's lamplight to flash the lab.. lol that time was really funny..

emm.. what else? i had so many ideas before lol guess that's it then? bye..

PS: LOL at my 'ryan n kevin' tag.. anyway, since i didnt talk about ryan here.. emm.. i watched his 'sh*it everyone says' vid, and it's so funny XD (DUH!) My fav part, the vampires LOL repeated that part the most XD .....though, towards at the end of the vid, it was getting boring *stabbed* teehee

LOL. ok, for real this time.. BYE~~~

Random talk session 209: Another day

2012-01-28T12:58:00.005+08:00

hello diary.. today is 28 of jan.. it's saturday..

i am at home.. today working at nite shift wit shift a.. anyway, yeah... emm.. ok, as usual, want to talk about kevin again LOL so, i was thinking... and i just wanna blog it out..

so, like i said before, i saw kevin's video at some point yearsss ago, but i didnt get hook to him immediately.. it's so different wit ryan. i like ryan's instantly and subscribed to him on the spot. ALso, when i saw Kevin again, on 2012, which was in one of ryan's video, immediately fell for the guy, but the strange thing is i didnt subscribe to kevin, until like 1 week later lol

My point is that, i realized that i dun really want to subscribe to a channel when they put a "please subscribe" at the end of video. coz, u see, ryan didnt tell anyone to subscribe or anything, but i sill subscribed to him without hesitating.. This kevin guy, eventhough i like him immediately, but i didnt subs to him immediately.. weird huh.. well, ok, i am weird.

so, anyway.. that is all i wanted to say lol i want to think of more kevin XD cant get enough of him.. wish he can the ytf gang can come to malaysia one day.. before this passion ran out lol

em, that's all~ bye ^.^

ps: i need to think of a tag for kevin and ryan XD

Random talk session 208

2012-01-15T21:52:00.004+08:00

hello diary.. today is 15/1/12. it's sunday... just a quick post.. i want to get to sleep ASAP, but dang, Kevin kept me awake, coz i just cant stop thinking of him XD

ok, so i was watching the ho ho ho song video (LOL) by ytf, and then realize sumthing. Ryan's videos are mostly skit and rants, and then we have andrew garcia and jra, which are singers, and most of their videos involved music, and then we have dtrix and victor, which, are dancer/singers. And then, we have kevin. Who make videos about... well.. about himself.. then i realize, he is one of the vlogs people... he mostly talks about his life, and makes little skit from them... And then it hit me, like, he can be this popular just by talking about himself? LOL well, doesnt matter, all i know is he's my latest obsession, and i cant believe i didnt know about him before. thank u ryan for giving the chance of knowing him LOL seriously, now that i think of it. ryan make me laughs like a mad person, and he also, is actually very very cute and handsome, and not to mention, he is a freakin japanese (and i hav a thing on all thing japanese lol), but i didnt make him as my obsession... but this kevjumba guy just bam, get my ovaries want to explode coz he is so cute and adorable, and sometimes can be so sexy and smokin hot *_*

ok, enough about that.. actually i want to make an entry on the feliz navidad song uploaded by the ISA team.. kevin is soooooo cute here~! but maybe tomoro? XD and i hav this urge to make tons of kevin's GIF LOLOL

ok, bye! XD

Random talk session 207: KevJumba

2012-01-10T21:50:00.005+08:00

hello diary.. today is 10/1/12. ok.. hey look, i m updating lol well, of coz, since i am in 'love' now LOL

ok, joke aside, i am seriously in those obsession thingy again.. been long time since i m like this XD i cant stop thinking of him, when i m about to asleep, i repeat the song that hav him in it, coz i want to hear his voice.. i keep missing him whenever i dun see him.. i m so.. obssess! XD Gah, so glad i know him.. lately, i am kinda sad, and worry a lot.. But when i think of him, and watch his videos, sees his smiles, i'll get a little better.. i m glad i got to know him in this time of my life...

*sigh* this post is getting emo-er! i dun want to be sad! i shud be happy! XD KevJumba, my new obsession. I dun know how long this one gonna last, but as usual, i might as well enjoy it while it last..

Dang, i really love this guy XD He's so cuteeee XD while watching his videos, i notice a few things, like his other eye kinda shut a little bit when he's trying to make a point, and he tends to smirk, a lot XDDD.. and dang, that mole of him is really sumthing XD

and i seriously cant get over this pic (eventhough there's a girl wit him.. and i know he looks so adorbale happy coz of the girl..)

he's sooo cute *____________* i wanna squish him and pinch his cheeks XD

em, it's getting late, i think i shud get to sleep XD

bye!!

Random talk session 206: OMG Guess what?

2012-01-08T19:37:00.018+08:00

ello diary.. it's 8 jan.. today is sunday, and it's finally a proper day off for me.. been laying on the bed since morning LOL (it's nite already now)

yesterday, i sign the contract as a permanent staff in kirana. Havent tell anybody.. i am really thrill, that i finally, seriously has a real job. wow. i seriously never thought i will be working. me, the stupid, and good for nothing me.. wow. thank u God..

i am really happy, but also at the same time, very sad. i am living very far from home, and also from my friends. my original plans was to get a job at Kuch after my contract was over. i thought that i'll get job easier now that i hav some experience... emm.. it's so sad T_T i miss my friends in kuch.. and i am kinda lonely here in bintulu.. *sigh*

ok, enough rants about my life... next.. actually this is what i really want to write XD I HAVE A NEW OBSESSION!!!!! XDDD In my last post, about the meme, i wrote that i dun hav any new fandom in 2011, but looks like, i got one for 2012 now, and a really early one! (it's only january! LOL)

Well, so, what is that new obsession?? jeng jeng jeng, it's KEVJUMBA XDDDDDDDD from youtube XD lately, i think about him a lot and i think he's very very very very very cute when i watch his video XDDDDDDD So, ok, actually it's a very long and interesting

story XD

(Wow, this is seriously gonna be long....)

Let's start wit the usual, how, when and why did this obsession start?? What's the spark?? Here's what happened (LOL, this is a spoof of monk btw XD). So, i was on the internet and was boring.. dunno what to see.. so i went to my youtube page, and decided to check on nigahiga's videos. Ok, now, this guy, i also love him, but not as much that i made him as my obsession. Discover him, about, a year ago i think? I admit, this guy is very funny. i laugh like crazy to his videos. And this guy is an youtube celebrity actually. He has 4 millions subscriber, and now closing to 5 millions (i think he has 3 millions sumthing subscriber when i subscribed to him last year). He is seriously made of crack. Just yesterday i was watching his off the pills video, i cant see the screen properly coz i was laughing so hard that i closed my eyes, and not to mention the tears in my eyes LOL Anyway, and then i continue to watch his other videos that i havent watched... and then this one video, called, "that akward moment when...".

and this guy.. on the left.. for sec there, i thought: wow, he's taller than ryan (i think ryan is tall, and to see someone who actually dwarf him, is really a sight for me XD)

and then i see this... and i was like: omg, this guy wit the beanie is super hot *_* Who is this guy??? And this guy also make videos like ryan.. (in this scene, he was caught watching his own video lol)

And then this dhfkjsdhfjsdhfjsd WHO IS THIS GUY????????????????? YOU HAVE A FREAKIN NICE BODY YUM YUM WHO ARE YOU?????

And then, i (as usual) watched the video again, and realized it's the same person from the beginning.. Since he also had a youtube channel, and i realize i need to c more of him LOL so i read ryan's description and try to find this guy's channel.. i went to all the channels, and thought, "ehh?? i dun see this guy anywhere.. which one it is???" And then i remember this scene:

on the right... i thought: "wait.. this is... the kevjumba guy channel.. ?? eh?? what? but he doesnt looks like that hot guy wit the beanie... what??" i was seriously confused. Then i also read some of the comments, and confirmed that this guy is kevjumba. So then i check out this "kevjumba"'s video, and discover sumthing.. that i watched one of his video before.. long time ago. and i did thought he was funny, and then just forgot about him. And yeah, it is affirmative, that the hot guy wit the beanie is really kevjumba. i watched more of his videos, and story made short, i serious has fallen for this guy. He is hot, but also damn adorable. and cute. and adorable. and cute. i wanna squish him XDDDDD Seriously, now i think of this guy all the time XDDD Not to mention, he's not only hot and cute, but also very funny XD (But, ryan still funnier to me though XD WHen i watch kevin's videos, i keep on saying "cute" while laughing XD)

and then, i watched some of ryan's old videos, and OMG i've seen Kevin too, and again, dun really take notice of him (guess i only pay attention to ryan and dun care of the others? LOL)

........ So that's it? my story of kevjumba? LOL.... yeah, i think that's it.. totally fallen for this guy so much right now XD He's so hot.. and can be so cute... and hot and cute... and cute.. and hot.. and jkdfjkdshfkjsd SO FREAKIN CUTE ESPECIALLY WHEN HE SMILE. JUST LOOK AT THIS DAMN PIC BELOW. GAWD *_______________* HE LOOKS SO DAMN HAPPY. MY OVARIES *___________*

(pic credit to the jumbahiga's tumblr)

and.. just.. just jkfhgkjshfkjd especially when he has long hair! now his hair is short again though T_T

a screenshot from his latest video

he looks like how he looks like in his old videos, when he was so young XD

oh, and pS: i totally love his mole XD

ah, i think that it for today XD it's been really long since i made a long post XD Guess, it's true that i only write so many when i'm 'in love' XD

Random talk session 205: It's the new year!

2012-01-01T22:54:00.004+08:00

hello diary... omg, again, havent update forever.. last post, 4 months ago.. getting lazier by the day.. anyway.. it's the new year! 2012, so i just hav to make a post about it..

this new year, i was at the lab... last year, i was at home..

just gonna make the usual meme XD

--Meme for the year 2011--

Meme for this year:

What fandoms did you acquire in 2011?

...... lemme think... none it seems? ... Does monk counts? I watched this long time ago, and love it too, but then i didnt watch it for so long, until recemtly, and i hav to say, i really really love the show.

AH, finally remember, this year, i dl loads of kamiya n onoD stuffs lol

What fandoms did you let go of in 2011?

Also none..

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2012?

I dun think i can as i already work now, so cant spend much time on any fandom..

What fandoms do you think you might let go of in 2011 unless things significantly improve.

Regarding my prediction last year, I still love Merlin LOL. For this year, emm..dunno..

What fandoms do you think you'll never let go of no matter how crappy they get? Why?

Same as last year. NEWS and the anime fandom. I dun really follow NEWS as frequent, but i still keep update about them..

What show impressed you most in 2011?

Dexter again for 2 years in a row lol Supernatural is.. maa maa.. The new Gintama' still hilarious as ever XD ... Merlin also, maa maa... And then, monk, that i absolutely love! ^^

What show impressed you least in 2011?

............. i cant give an immediate answer to this.. emm, .. seriously i cant even give an answer..

OK, that's all... REally quick one LOL

PS: Really regret i cant get to the 300th post before the end of last year... lol

Random talk session 204: October..

2011-10-04T01:22:00.002+08:00

Hello diary.. today is 4/10/11.. tuesday.. since it's already passed 12am.. now is 1:23am btw..

so, what's up wit me.. it's october, so u know what that mean, i hav started working at night... i guess it's ok.. XD i dunno.. recently i feel no motivation.. feel depressed and so useless.. if i was more smarter, maybe i wont feel this down *sigh* The first nite, for some reason i feel soooo nervous.. i wonder why lol i was quite busy.. and then the 2nd nite, there was no pk, so i was quite free, and time seems sooooo slow.. the 1st nite, i didnt feel very sleepy, but the 2nd nite (maybe coz there wasnt much work), i felt really sleepy.. i just wanted to go home and sleep... btw, aitsu asked me, and i answered very simple.. of course, i was so happy to see him and also that he talked to me, but it was so suddend that my mind went blank and i was.. seems cold to him.. or sumthng... and now i feel so guilty... gah, really want to forget.. ok, enough of that.. seriously, when i talk about my life, it always make me feel depressed..

let's talk about fandom.. i wacthed the gintama x sket dance crossover lol it's just so epic lol the humor kinda overdone, but i really like the seiyuu jokes XD and nw i m downloading sket dance ep that hav gintama's characters.. hihi..

oh, also merlin shud hav started to on 1st oct.. and dexter, 3rd oct.. i'll download those later too.. cant wait to watch..

emmm.. so, what else? oh, tegomasu new pv.. tegomasu no maho? lol i havent finished streaming the video, but my commnt from the 1st few sec of the pv: damn yuya looks like a girl! like, omg!! 0_0 and massu, cute as usual :3

em. i think that's all for today.. gudnite..

Random talk session 203: Life and tv series update

2011-09-25T19:58:00.004+08:00

hello diary.. today is 25/9/2011, Sunday..

ok.. so, finally went to the kite festival.. it was so cool, especially the group perf.. here are some pictures:

i love how the puffer fish is like all "OoO" LOLOLOL

more fishes lol

ah, and dang i missed akim's af performance!! arghhhhh!! there goes my chance of seeing that cute face of him LOL thankfully i am not really his fan or anything.. but still, gahhh!!! kuyashiiii sssuu~!!

emm.. ok, next, like i said yesterday, wanna talk about tv series... Supernatural new season (season 7) has started.. and i just watched ep 1 not too long ago... my comment??? emmm.. (OK, SPOILER ALERT) Actually i was really sad that Castiel became the bad guy.. but looks like he came to his senses at the end of the ep, until that thing called Leviathan or sumthing just had to control his body.. Misha playing the bad guy T_T i miss the cute, innocent Castiel T_T. And then seems like Lucifer is back??? Where has Sam gone too???? And LOL at dean watching hentai LOL

ok, that's it i think lol Hopefully season 7 not gonna be too disappointing..

Merlin is premiering on 1st of October, while Dexter is on 3rd October. Cant wait to watch these shows ^o^.

em, wat else? seems like i hav no idea again lol

so, that's it for today yeah.. bye..

Random talk session 202: Life and anime updates

2011-09-24T21:53:00.006+08:00

hello siary.. today is 24/9/11. Saturday..

went to town tis morning.. bought another phone lol.. wow, now that i hav money, i buy things like crazy lol. Next time i want to buy some stuffed toys XD.

anyway.. there's also a kite show at town.. but i didnt go coz i dunno how to go there lol tomoro i m going to town again, and try to watch the final show of the kite festival..

em, oh, another update.. seems like i am gonna be working in shift this october.. but my boss really knows how to scare me and get me so unmotivated.. all that responsibilities.. can i really do it? well, like always, i just go wit the flow of life *sigh* But i guess i m glad i m gonna be in shift coz i dun need to wake up so freakin early every morning 6 days a week! .... emm.. anyway.. what else.. oh.. the guy.. i miss him.. gah.. missing him everyday.. what am i gonna do wit this troublesome feeling of mine *sigh* oh, and the other day,i finally got close enough wit him (yes, i am afraid of getting close of him) and then i smell his nostalgic smell *sigh* ok, enough of that.. next, gonna talk about anime~ ehehe..

so, this few weeks, i m wacthing anime again.. last time, i was in a j drama mood, and now, finally got the anime mood kicks in again XD Actually it was the j drama that made me watch anime again lol... To be more precise, it was the Wallflower drama.. i wanted to watch Yuya, so i dwld-ed the drama lol.. it was ok i guess, but then i got curious of the anime, so i dwld-ed the anime too.. and what do u kno, i think it is not that bad XD As a matter of fact, i think the anime is better and funnier than the drama... The wallflower.. i guess it's ok.. my fav character.. well, i d say Takenaga XD He's just so kakkoi XD

next! Dennou Coil. Downloaded this coz it was in my 'wanted to watch' list in myanimelist lol. It is not bad, really. And i cried so freakin hard at one part in the last ep (DENSUKE T_T)... Anime that manage to make me cry is consider "great" anime to me XD。 Anyway, my fav character is... Haraken! i am surprised myself lol Usually i hate male characters that is voice by a female seiyuu.. but for some reason, i really love this boy +_+ (i am no pedophile yo!! lol).. And then i realize i guess it's ok if it's Paku romi XD She's too cool~ Now i wanna watch more anime that has her voice XD i think my pass obsession of ueki also contribute some of this too lol (strangely, i kinda dislike her as hitsugaya in bleach though...)

ok, enough of dennou coil, moving on, 3 new animes tat i currently downloading.. Sket Dance, Arakawa Under the Bridge and Mr. Keaton. Ok, first, Sket Dance. I decided to download this coz the characters are gonna appeared in Gintama episode.. So, i wanna check their characters lol.. i think this anime is really.. plain/dull/boring.. the comedy is... ok, i guess, but not that hilarious.. and then, i think it's too much of resemblance to Gintama.. But i am stickin to this series coz i wanna c Tsubaki LOL At first, i thought he is really interesting and funny, and then after i watched ep 19, i just totally fell in love wit him XD he's soooo cutttttteeeeee +_______________+ i wanna cuddle him XD OK, some comments on the trio main characters.. The leader Bossun, i dun actually feel anything.. He's just too ordinary.. Actually i thought of the same thing to Gintoki too in Gintama (yes, he is not exactly my fav characters until, like ep 100 sumthing lol).. who knows, maybe someday, Bossun gonna do sumthing that will make me like him? lol... and then, we hav usui kazuyoshi a.k.a. Switch.. Apparently he is supposed to be an ikemen.. But, once again, i think he is.. plain... He is not bad. Really. i admit, he is really good looking, but in a very plain way. emm.. ok, next, the female of the trio, Himeko. She's ok i guess... thankfully, not that annoying lol... em.. dunno what else to comment lol.. oh, a special mention of the president of the student council, agata soujirou (?).. Sekitomo~!!! GAHHH I MISS HIS VOICE DANG ITTTT +_+ And now i am actually desperate to watch anime that has him in it... guah.. really, long time since i hear his voice.. and, i realize i hear lots of sugita these days lol he was in wallflower, in gintama that i hav been watching regularly, he was usui in sket dance and also in the next anime i m gonna talk about, Arakawa under the bridge.

Arakawa under the bridge.. why in the world did i watch this..lol. ok, i think it's bcoz of the live action too XD i mean, the anime was just aired not too long last year, and then it also adapted into a live action not long after that.. so, the anime must be really popular.. so i wanted to kno what's so good about this anime XD.. ok, first of all, my comment when i watch the 1st ep: KAMIYA!!! LOL gah, love this guy LOL anyway.. So, yeah, kamiya voiced the main character.. and then, like i said bfore, there's also sugita as the weird hoshi lol.. oh, about this anime.. wow, WEIRD. in a good way LOL. I thought gintama was a crazy anime, and then, i watched Hetalia, which was also crazy and weird, and now, Arakawa under the bridge. This anime is in the same categories wit Gintama and Hetalia coz of it's off the wall humor LOL. Oh, note: Zetsubo sensei is also weird, but i hate tat anime lol

lastly, Mr. Keaton. Ok, watched this just bcoz it is adapted from the manga by Urusawa Naoki. i only watched until ep 3, and i find it's quite boring lol but i am still gonna watch this, coz it is Urusawa Naoki for goodness sake.

ok, i also watched summer wars... read few posts that highly praised this anime., so i figured i try it. but it did not give such impact to me.. it's just ok i guess..

emm.. wow, that was really long.. i think this is it from me for now.. will post again next time, and talk about my fav tv series..

bye!

Random talk session 201: Depression

2011-09-12T20:27:00.005+08:00

hello diary.. today is 12/9/11.. it's monday..

today i am feeling very down.. gah.. really hate this feeling.. i feel so useless... i dunno how to work, i am not smart, etc.. gahhhh i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so depressed wit this feeling..

not to mention, this feeling of that certain someone.. i am supposed to like him, but why do i feel sad and mad whn i think of him.. am i angry at him? why? he didnt do anything or say anything that could hurt me.. but then again, maybe that is EXACTLY the reasons i am feeling this way.. i'm sad coz he didnt talk to me at all.... i want to hear his voice, but cant even get myself to talk to him.. i want to c him, but i refuse to hav an eye contact wit him.. my actions are different from what my heart want to do..

i hate this complicated feelings.. i want to forget about him so that i dun hav to feel this way again.. oh, emotion, please go away..

today.. is quite depressing for me.. i hope tomoro is a better day..

-ja-

Random talk session 200: wow, 200!!!!

2011-09-10T23:13:00.004+08:00

hello diary! today is 10/9/2011, saturday...omg, IT HAS BEEN MONTHS!!!! MY LAST POST WAS... ON APRIL.. THAT WAS LIKE, 5 MONTHS AGO !!! HOW ARE YOU MY VIRTUAL DIARY?? I AM REALLY SORRY FOR ABANDONING YOU!!! AND OMG, IT TAKE ME THIS LONG TO REALIZE THAT I FINALLY COME TO MY 200TH POSTS!!! OH MY!!! 200 YO!!! LET'S AIM FOR 300 BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR. YES/NO? XD

anyway.. i think i shud start blogging again.. i dun want my memories just fade away like that.. especially when it's about.. him... *sigh*

ok..let me start... of coz,, it's about my kataomoi...yesterday.. 9/9/11. He made me look twice!!! Like, seriously!! i was standing near the door, wit.. i dun even remember wit whom, nor what we were talking abt, then i saw him and i thought, "oh, there he is" (yeah, i kinda want to see him too), and was gonna take a peek at him... but he totally made me look twice.. and dang, once again that feeling come rushing in... my heart was like shouting, "SUKI DESU! SUKI DESU!! KEKKON SHITE KUDASAI!!!!!" yeah, my reactions were kinda extreme than the usual lol i think it must be bcoz "that day of the month" ... Also, he was wearing a black shirt underneath.. gah that is so kakkoi.. and his hair... his unruly hair... dang my hair fetish LOLOLOLOLOL YEAH, NOW I REMEMBERED. IT IS THE HAIR. I LOOKED TWICE BECOZ OF THE HAIR. Emmm.... ok, anyway, mm.. where was i.. oh, so yeah, and then he went back to **** (censored for classified purpose lol).. i was kinda disappointed coz i want to look at him for a little longer lol .. and then, he did come back. ah, i was happy.. and this time, i want to talk to him, so i kinda look at him, and want to ask/say sumthing, but my mind went blank.. Y? COz he was looking at me back... Thankfully, he knew, so he asked, how's my condition, "r u still sick?" (awww~ i wanna hug him).. i replied, (shyly), "yes". and he asked again, "really, still sick? wht illness?" (LOL seriously???) And i replied again (more shyly, i even look away and went closer to the table"), "Yeah, still sick.. Flu.........." My head once again draw a blank... I dunno what to say.. Y u ask? coz when i looked at him carefully, i realized he had a hige LOL GAWD AGAIN THOSE FEELINGS... i wanted to ask if he's ok too (coz at that time, our boss asked that coz he looked kinda tired..) after that.. i dunno what happened.. i simply hav no memories of what happened next coz all i remember was his unruly appearance and that moment when he asked how i was doing.. *sigh*

it's sept... wow,so this kataomoi also has been last for 5 months.. i dunno what else to write.. i shud write a long post since i havent update for 5 months, but i just hav no idea.. so i guess that;s it for today..

ja..

Random talk session 199

2011-04-28T19:50:00.003+08:00

hello diary.. today is 28/4/2011.. it's thursday.. can u believe it, almost 2 months i m at bintulu..

anyway.. yeah, got some bad news.. these few days, my mole on my hand has been hurting so much.. so i look into it in the internet.. found out some scary stuff.. it might be skin cancer.. and reading the symptoms, it probably is.. and i ve been trying toto c the dermatologist, but has no time and i am so afraid.. i am so sad.. what will become of me?? i just dunno what to do.. i feel like crying..

emm... i just dun hav any mood to update anymore.. eventhough it's about that my kataomoi.. it doesnt really matter anymore.. i dunno.. *sigh*

well, i think that is all..

Random talk session 198: ano hito to mou hitotsu no hito?

2011-04-17T22:49:00.004+08:00

hello diary! today is sunday, 17/4/2011.. em, it's almost 11pm, and i am stil not asleep.. tomoro is gonna be hard to wake up..

so anyway... need to say this somwhere.. so, these few week, seems like i've change my 'target' LOL i dunno.. ever since that day.. maybe coz i dun see him as much anymore.? so he has become much more precious? LOL. and recently, i think of him more than my original crush.. besides, i dun even feel as nervous when i m near that crush of mine.. *sigh* i dun even know.. guess i am gonna wait for that 'want to vormit feeling' to confirm this feeling LOL i just feel nervous and shy when he's near... much alike when i was in the first stage of felling crush towards the my original crush (i dun even sure of my feeling towards this crush anymore.. seems like i am overwhelmed by the other guy..) the comparison:

crush: likes to talk (talkative) & extrovert (gets along wit everyone)
potential crush: does not talk much (but nt that quiet.. he's the kinda guy that only talks of the important thing..), not introvert, but not extrovert too.. just in the mddle? LOL

crush: average takaso LOL (i am not gonna reveal everything xD)
potential crush: takai su!! XD

crush: nice guy, not that..how to say.. mischievous?? yeah, that sounds about right XD
potential crush: also nice, and kind.. ur typical nice, decent, smart guy.. (sometimes can be schematic LOL)

crush: personality: cute (personality wise LOL) and funny XD
potential crush: personality - neither of the above LOL well, i guess his main quality is he's hontoni yasashii!! and i think that is the main reason why i m feeling this way..

em, i m really sleepy right now.. so, tat is for today.. gonna think of other comparisons in my sleep XD

ja~!

Random talk session 197

2011-04-04T19:27:00.004+08:00

hello diary.. today is 4/4/2011.. it's monday..

i made a huge blunder today.. i think i just broke the pump for doing the impurities in lab 1.. gahhhH!!! i knew it!! that sumthing bad is waiting to happen coz today i feel kinda happy.. the main plant sample's testing and also the storage tank's, hav been moved to lab 2, so i was kinda free.. beside, i dun need to meet that someone that i dun really like... and then, i also went sampling anohito to.. aitsu, aikawarazu, omoshiroi deshita..

ok, now to the bad part.. about the pump.. i feel sooooo bad about it.. i will regret this for a long time.. aiiiihhhhh... stuuupppppiiiiddd meee!!!1 GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

em.. enough of blaming self.. some extra thing.. tht guy.. he cut his hair.. so it is shorter now.. what a shame.. he look really hot when he's hair is longer LOL em, how i wish he didnt cut it! LOL

em, that's all for today.. i still feel pretty bad now, so actually dun have any mood to write anymore.. or even to do anything..

PS: oh, i forgot.. Gintama's new season is aired today.. so fast.. i still remember when i keep hoping april to come faster... But, truthfully, i am still sad about what happened today, so i am not really excited about it..

Random talk session 196

2011-04-01T21:33:00.006+08:00

hello diary! today is 1/4/2011.. it's april fool? LOL today is friday..

ok, actually lots of things happened, and sadly i didnt manage to blog it (or maybe too lazy to write it lol) but today is overflow wit emotion, so i am gonna blog it LOL

emm.. then again, it would be dangerous to write it coz then everybody would kno what i think LOL but anyway, i am gonna write it anyway LOL even if he finds out, i want to say this, "dun worry, it's not that i 'like' u XD i have another crush anyway XD i just think u r hot lol"

ok, so i was in the lab.. blah blah.. and the sampling team this time is D and J (lol sorry, no real name XD)... and then, they are back, and guess what, D's shirt is not tug in anymore LOL well, that's a given since they had to climb the storage tank and take many samples.. and wit that sweaty looks *self stabbed many times*.. he looks so freakin amazingly HOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT *_____________* hey, u r already handsome wit your skema looks, but wit another image, u falls into the "HOT" category XDD the other day, one of the staff said, "D was popular and used to be fitter and handsome in the past" in which he replied, "no lah" HAHAHAHAHAHA how humble can u get??? gah, this guy just prove that there is still a handsome good /kind guy left in the world LOL and then, to comment the staff said. He is still handsome LOL

anyway, so, D looks so smokin hot wit his shirt not tug in XD.. but, this is not the first time i saw it actually LOL he didnt tug in before too, and i thought it was hot too XD but i guess when he's all sweaty, it adds in the HOT factor LOL but today is different, he didnt tug in the whole day and i was a little distracted by the hotness LOLOLOL i dunno, maybe he just forget to? he is usually the smart, decent, good guy.. so, when he suddenly changed his image, it has a more deepen impact XD LOL what the hell am i talking about LOL

... and then.. ano hito mou kitanda.. hontoni bikurishimashita! it was kinda a while since ano hito wo deata LOL and then everything starts going wrong wit me! i was so nervous and cant concentrate at all wit aitsu around.. seriously, i was a mess!! nothing i do was right that time... i feel like grinning when aitsu wo chikazuite.. omg, i cant stand this.. i cant work wit aitsu iru.. ano hito miteru toki wo, i guess the feeling is nice, but not that good.. kinda like drug? LOL

emm... that's all i think LOL oh, and if someone who knows me and knows D reads this, pls dun misinterpret ok? i do has a crush, but not D. he is just someone that i like to see coz he's nice, kind and well, handsome XD

bye bye!

PS: i feel like i am talking about ono daisuke, coz his nickname is also D lol

Random talk session 195: "Crush" is a weird feeling

2011-03-14T20:04:00.006+08:00

hello diary, today is 14/3/2011.. it's monday..

em.. today i wanna talk about sumthing call "crush"... when i had a crush, i had this feeling, "butterflies in my stomach".. and at times, i even feel want to throw up. At first, i am confuse of this feeling.. When that someone i like is near, or when i think of him, i suddenly feel sick and want to vomit.. I thought i didnt like him anymore, coz, normally, anything that disgust u make u want to throw up right? not the thing that u like.. but then, i look it up on the internet, and turns out it is a normal feeling after all lol

having a crush is a weird sensation, but falling in love must be much more wonderful feeling.. i dunno if i will ever fall in love... all i have all this time is only little crush and tegomasu's song, kataomoi no chiisana koi is my fav theme for my crush LOLOL Here's the translation lyric:

i really love you that I cannot sleep
I just thought that this love will never be
It's because of you, it is all because of you
As I tried to sleep, I just thought of something

Everything 'bout you is so beautiful
As if I cannot reach you after all
I've tried to forget and erase you in my mind
But now you're troubling me from deep inside...

Please tell me if there is an end
To the unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
But please do listen to my plea--feel me in every beat
Of this heart that loves you in a way that's irreversible...

"Are you alright? Does something bother you?"
You asked me one day with a worried face
It's because of you, it is just because of you
But I want to hide everything running in my mind...

Your words are very gentle to my ears
That all of my face couldn't help but blush
How I wish that I could tell you every single thing
That bothers me every now and then...

It's just fine if there is no end
To this unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
Please let me protect this feeling that's very dear for me
But often I can't do anything--
Yes, that is me, indeed...

What if I just told you everything
Then I'll never be able to see you (shining) smile again...
But I'm satisfied to keep this to myself...
This, I'll never regret...

It's just fine if there is no end
To this unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
Please let me protect this feeling that's very dear for me
For I still cannot do anything...

Please tell me if there is an end
To the unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
But please do listen to my plea--feel me in every beat
Of this heart that loves you in a way that's irreversible...

..... been repeating this song for days now LOL My fav part is:
Kono kataomoi ni owari ga nai no nara Sore demo ii Kono kataomoi wo mamotte hoshii Mada nani mo dekinai boku nan desu

XD

............ on a random note, i think i really like Kamiya now LOL just a matter of time until i add him in the official list LOL

Kamiya: i m #1

LOL isnt he's just so preciously cute? XD

dang it, and now, i also think that Nakamura guy is not bad XDDD how many seiyuu would i fall for??? they all are so.... charming XD emm... i think that's all from me today.. until next time! bye..

Random talk session 194: Depress!!

2011-03-11T20:51:00.005+08:00

hello diary! today is 11/3/2011.. Hisashiburi!!! Quite a while since i update.. well, i have been busy coz of my new job and i feel so lazy to reload my broadband..

anyway, yeah, like i said, really been a while, and there are lots of things happened that i didnt managed to blog in.. so many things actually..

i am now at bintulu.. precisely at the GT Plywood quarters... been here for about 2 weeks..

anyway, to make it very short, i feel depressed working in the lab.. i has forgot everything i've learned in university.. i cant do the analysis.. to sum up, i suck so bad!!! aarghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate myself.. seriously. i cant do anything right.. arrghhh!! i feel so frustrated..

aii, enough of that.. next, is about.. my new kataomoi LOL so yeah, atarashii no kataomoi ga mitsuketanda.. LOL new place, new kataomoi, how typical of my life.. anyway.. there's a bit story on it, so before i forgot, i want to wrte about it..

it started on the first day that i went to the.. that place lol... And, soko de, ano hito ga iru.. at first, i dun think of anything towards aitsu, demo.. when anohito watashi ni hanashita, i think that was the time that i starts to.. u kno, koi wo hajimeru?? LOL haiya, it's so hard to tell the story wit my random japanese wording lol

and after the 2 weeks, today i got the infamous feel like throwing up when i think of anohito.. LOL

emm... i think that's it for today.. actually there are lots of things i want to write, but somehow, i dunno how to lol

Random talk session 193: crush and burn

2011-02-19T00:15:00.004+08:00

hello diary! today is 19/2/2011. friday..

now at kuching. arrived yesterday. went to kuching to sent my big bro to the airport. he got a new job at selangor.. today got up so early coz of that. i woke up at 3am...

emm.. on another story. so after we sent him off, we went back to my cousin's house.. i fell asleep again lol and i had the strangest dream.. *sigh* no, strange is not the word...it's about watashi no kata omoi.. in the dream, for some reason, i took a glimpse of ano hito, then, watashi ga, try really hard to find ano hito.. watashi wa sagashite, sagashite, then i wake up, and.. i feel so sad coz ano hito aeru mae ni, yume ga mezameshita...

and i realize sumthing, watashi wa, ano hito no koto ga sugoku aitai desu.. ai tai, ai tai wo tamaranai.. i hate part of me that feel this way.

the end.. yeah, very short i kno.. just wanna record that i had this feeling before...

Random talk session 192: finally got a job

2011-02-10T19:31:00.003+08:00

hello diary! today is 10.2.2011. thursday..

got some news today.. the kirana company from bintulu, finally call.. and yeah i got the job. i am not happy at all. now, that is weird. like i said, things that i dun want, i will always got. aii.. i guess i am going to bintulu.. i hate this..

ok, let me start again.. i was sleeping actually until the phone rang. i thought it was that stupid person coz the number is maxis. so ignored it. and then suddenly there was a message (i thought that stupid person again..) but turned out it was the chemist from kirana. she call me to tell me i got the job. i didnt feel happy at all.. i waited until like 2 hours to message her and told her to call me call her back coz i dun have enough credit.

that's about it..

em, ok, another story, my father bought a new car today, so i was at home alone when i received the call..

i am not happy wit the car coz it is so expensive for a 2nd hard car!!

em... ok, actually yesterday something happened.. a mouse suddenly ran pass my feet his fur brushed my feet lol i this like some kind of sign of what's happening today? who knows lol

i was very surprised, but i guess i am not that creep out by mouse. what i really hate is creepy crawlers, spider especially..i cant stand just seeing them!! *goosebumps*

ok, i think that's all for today.. em, today was some day.. emm..

k, bye!

Random talk session 191: Time capsule

2011-02-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

hello diary! today is 9/2/2011 it's wednesday

ok, so today, after giving answer to yahoo answer, i suddenly decide to visit my old gendou music account.. and then i started to read the posts tat i posted at the forums, way back then! haha the result, omg, amusing!!! hahahahahaha!!! omg i sounded so.. hyper and happy??? lol and back then i often used Japanese words randomly, omg i feel embarrassed reading them for some reason hahahaha

and reading the posts, i once again realized i really, really, really love anime back then.. it was my life..

and wow, i actually love seiyuu frm 2005! and my fav seiyuu was seki tomo hahahaha it's funny reading my post about it haha and i also like houshi souichiro and miyata kouki.. haha..

ok, here are some more of my discoveries lol
- i was seriously mad in love wit yuki LOL i keep calling him my husband lol
- i used to love naruto. like, really love it. but now...*sigh* i feel like i have betrayed myself T-T
- i proclaimed sasuke as my fav character lol and it seems i also love kakashi and itachi <3
- i used to think raito is a hot villain omg lol
- i also love tamahome (lol of coz XD even now i guess XD)
- back then, i didn't have any idea how to download anime hahahh

- seriously, i was so.. like a different person.. is this really me? LOL
- lol and then, at some point, i dun say sekitomo as my fav seiyuu anymore... it has changed to noriaki sugiyama (and that is totally bcoz of sasuke lol)
- my habit of writting "bcoz' is since 2005 hahahahaha
- oh, i also love Mr. K. i wonder if i realized okiayu's voice back then haha
- lol @ my point of view at shika x temari
"i dont think masashi kishimoto's sensei will go deep into the character's pairing.....hey,after all naruto is not a romance manga/anime....
but, i still think shikamaru & ino is better than shimaru & temari
reasons: 1.temari is older than shikamaru
2.shikamaru is shorter than temari
hehehe O_o "
- hahahaha wow, i use to like shika x ino???? but now i kinda support choji x ino hahaha
- em, and i also love gin (bleach) (and still am now of coz XD)
- "Re: Any Manga's you would like to see as Anime's?
Hitman Reborn" hahahaha i also love reborn back at the days XD and i only watched the anime, 3 years later XD
- wow...looks at this: "Re: Are you a fan of Naruto
i totally love naruto!!! from the begining until forever~" my heart seriously hurts so much right now... i am now saying the same thing to Gintama... but in the future, this is gonna change.. i made up my mind!! i wont say gintama my fav anime anymore (except for questions in YA haha.. it just from now on, i wont say it so.. bluntly? or sumthing like that..)
- em, i thought i love sasuke, but in the thread about fav naruto character, i answered kakashi sensei.. and itachi... emm..
- Quote "to me, anime(and manga) is my life! it is the only thing that make me really happy.
i would be very sad also when people critize anime (they dont even understand what it is)"
- another quote, a long one

"Re: Share your favorite anime n' why..

i love anime so very much!!! it is my life!!!! without anime, i dont think my life is worth living for...

Dragon Ball is the most special anime to be. i read it's manga when i was 10 years old, i watched the anime when i was 13.

Now, i hav watched a lot of anime....so much that i dont know which one is the true my fav. Saw this, loved it, beacame my fav...then, watched that, loved it too, and became my fav also, then it goes on and on.... "

- just....just.. wow...
- my reply to the peach girl thread: "the ending is quite predictable(at least to me...)" what?? so i watched the anime before???? really?? i dun remember at at all! o_o

haha, it was so much fun reading my old posts.. it reminds me of the old days that i have forgotten... this is why i want to make blog like this.. so that, in 10 years in the future, i would read this blog again, and just remembering the good old days...

and.. ah, this gendou website, my friend introduced it to me.. i kinda miss her.. havent contact her for a while, i hope she has not forgotten me.. aimi, do u remember me? T-T

Random talk session 190

2011-02-06T22:04:00.004+08:00

hello diary! today is sunday, 6/2/2011.

em, so these days i've been thinking about mikishin a lot lol dang this is seriously bcoz of that dream i had lol and now i dun want to watch/hear any yaoi anime/bl drama that has him in it lol it feel awkward lol

ok, anyways... em, dunno what else i want to say... guess that's all..? lol just want to write about mikishin??

now, this is what i call a real quick post lol

maybe i'll add sumthing if anything comes up to mind lol

EDIted on 7/2/11 XD ok, i am kinda bother that this post is too short lol

anyway, continue from my miki shin story.. i listen to abunai series 1 once again recently.. it has the 3 nostalgic lol i meant sekitomo, koyasu and mikishin XD i love miki shin character here lol

before this, i hear about the word "moe" a lot and actually i dunno what is this moe, what kind of character is moe??? but after listening to the drama, now i know lol especially when mikishin said, "kyaa!" LOLOLOLOL NOW THAT"S WHT I CALL MOE LOL

haha, ok that's all hahahaha

Random talk session 189: INTOXIC BY VOICES

2011-02-01T19:08:00.007+08:00

hello diary..it's 1/2/2011.. tuesday... continue from the last entry lol

nnnnnnnngggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh toochika koichi (yay, i memorized his name lol)

gah, ok, starts from here, when i get this 'excited' feeling, i'll call it intoxic lol

gah! this guy voice nnghhh.. but then again, actually i havent hear his usual talking voice in the song lol

ok, back to the original entry that i wanted to make lol

anyway.. i was watching/downloading one of weiss perf from utube... the song is called it's too late... love this song.. hehe.. actually i downloaded the song quite a time ago, and this afternoon, i so happen to listen to it again, and ever since then i ve been repeating it lol and then i found the live perf in utube.. so, wanna comment some few things heh

1stly, lol this is the 1st time i see mikishin since that awkward dream i had lol i still feel shy when i see him hahahaha and kya love the way he hold the mic XD

and then, sekitomo looks restless lol he is wit the most movement XD koyasu singing so.. what's the word? like, so unenergetic or sumthing XD he looks kinda tired lol yuki and mikishin also doesnt have any movement, but it;s not bad as koyasu lol no, i'm not complaining XD i think he's really tired.. he;s like sweating a lot! poor guy XD

emm....i think that's all.. lol

Random talk session 188: valentine kiss rants

2011-02-01T11:05:00.008+08:00

hello diary! today is 1/2/2011. it's tues..and whaddaya kno, it's feb...and i'm still jobless... so sad..

anyway.. i was listening to vk.. and forgot to blog about it XD this year vk already leaked in the internet XD and it is sung by ohtori and michiru (i dunno who's this guy was lol)

.....namikawa daisuke and kishio daisuke.. both are daisuke s LOL

this is the 1st time i hear kishio sings XD it was ok i guess.. and that michiru guy is so funny LOL

ohtori vk is..fine i guess XD he sounds so weird at first XD i dunno maybe it's bcoz i hear too much italy song haha

ah, really love how hyoutei sings the song every year lol now it's only jirou and kabaji who havent sing... who knows, maybe even the kantoku will get too sing it lol

emm...what else i wanna talk about...

i'm stumped XD guess that's it XD bye..

edit:

am listening to digimon memorial song.. gah.. it's that excited feeling again!! GAHHHH the guy voice is soooo nnnnghhhhhh!!!!! ok, as of now, the seiyuu tht has able to make me feel this way are: okiayu, suwabe, kiuchi, yusa (the most current one i guess XD), sugiyama, mikishin, sekitomo..that's it i think.. lol while hiroki's eiji always make me feel amaze lol

edit 2

the guy that made me go all 'nngghh' lol his name,.. i think it;s tochika? lol i shud start memorizing his name lol at first i thought it was kondo takashi's voice.. how can i make this terrible mistake lol (well, in the past i even mix toriumi and namikawa voices lol they are like so differen when i come to kno their voice XD)

Random talk session 187: weird dream

2011-01-29T22:33:00.003+08:00

hello diary! today is 29/1/2011 it's saturday..

this is just a very quick post.. just wanna write down my weird dream last night... i dreamt of MikiShin LOL kinda scary? i didnt see any of his pic or video.. and yet i still dreamt about him lol i only hear one of his song yesterday XD

and now i am gonna feel awkward of him for a while XD

ok, tht's all haha

Random talk session 186 i love layton & pokemon

2011-01-27T22:44:00.005+08:00

hello diary.. today is 27.1.2011. it's thursday..

and i am at the bintulu terminal bus station... am going back to betong.. taking the 11:30pm bas.. now is still 10:50pm..

emm.. so, i had the interview this afternoon. once again, complete fail. i cant speak properly, i was incoherence, i mumbled...darn it i hate myself..

em, actually i kinda want the position, but after the interviewed, i kinda dun want it anymore lol i dun want to work on saturdays!! i dun mind the shift, but working on saturdays??? Gahhh!!! i hope they dun take me lol but for some reason, thing that i dun like, i usually get..and truthfully, i really, really dun want this job lol

about the interview, it was nothing much.... just ordinary, nothing skema or anything... em, for some reason i dun want to think of it.. ok, i'm dropping this subject..

what else can i talk about? i have no more idea, so i guess that's it XD bye2 until next time..

EDIT 1:
ah i forget to mention.. i've also finished playing prof. layton and the unwound future game... i was so impatient to know the ending, so i didnt think much of the puzzle, and usually just go to the super hints button lol

and what can i say.. i cried at the ending... especially the part when layton starts to cry, my tears was already running on my cheeks lol gah i love that dang gentleman. seriously XD hershel layton, i declare u as one of my fav anime people from now on XD

and then, we finally got to see what's under layton's hat.. (and for some reason, now i am reminded of the naruto ep when they try to see kakashi's face lol)... ok, and then, i was also sad when luke cry coz he and the prof. hav to part ways..awww i wanna hug him >,<

ok, about the plot, i kinda expect they were really not in the future XD but of coz! XD the 2 previous game r the proofs XD nothing is what it seems XD and also i kinda guess future luke was the evil mastermind XD gah, oguri sounds so hot XD haha..

the secret to the 'future' london was really amazing too lol just like the secrets in the curious village n the diabolical box..

kya.. really love the kinda mystery in prof layton game.. cant wait for the next installment hehe

EDIT 2:
oh, besides that i also finish playing pokemon diamond hehe.. i defeated the elite 4 and the champion.. next, i want to play the heart gold version hehe..

So now i only havent finish apollo justice game... i am so slow i know lol i guess it's bcoz i dun really like apollo that much compare to phoenix.. eemm.. i think that's all.. until next time. (again).. haha..

bye..

Random talk session 185: Quick update

2011-01-24T06:21:00.007+08:00

Hello diary! it's 24.1.2011, monday... 6:27am now... emm..

Ok, i am going for an interview this thursday. at bintulu for goodness sake!!!!!!!!!! i feel so lazy to go la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i just sleep, play game, and browsing the internet forever??? i am so lazy to work and even lazier to go for any interview.. that is what i've been thinking recently..

ok, another news, i finally finish playing ace attorney investigation miles edgeworth... i downloaded the ROM last year LOL took almost a year to finish the whole game.. and i havent even finish Apollo Justice which i downloaded even earlier LOL

and now i am playing pokemon diamond & prof. layton unwound future...

ok, that's all.. i so lazy to update anything...

bye..

Random talk session 184: 1st post of the year 2011

2011-01-11T02:02:00.008+08:00

hello diary! (2am) today is 11/1/2011. Tuesday..

ah, i am really dun have any mood to blog recently.. i mean, it's already 2011 now.. i dun even have a new year blog post. actually, even now i am still not in the mood to blog... i am just gonna do the regular meme post.. thingy..

--Meme on the year 2010--

Meme for this year:

What fandoms did you acquire in 2010?

DAVID ARCHULETA!!!! XDD

I also watched more american series LOL Before this, i already watched and love CSI. House, Heroes and Supernatural. Now, i am adding Dexter and Merlin into the list XD I specially love Dexter XD The series is really.. dramatic and so emotional XD there is so many times when i feel sympathized towards Dexter,, even-though he's a serial killer...

Also, Durarara!! is my fav anime in 2010 XD Read more about it on the question below..

What fandoms did you let go of in 2010?
another year of not watching any bleach or naruto ep LOL and now, even Reborn is having the same fate...i still watch Hetalia though XD haha and then as usual. some people that i obsessed of and love in 2009, for some reason, i dun feel the magic anymore.. but i still like them nonetheless..

i had a sudden fandom hiatus (anime, news and seiyuu) when i went for the GEMS program... and there was also someone distracts me from my fandom LOL and then, Gintama ended on March, making me grows more distance from the anime fandom.. it was until i watched Durarara!! (sometimes around oktober/november?) that i begin to watch anime again XD

Found it, -THIS- is the entry i talk about durarara and how did i come to watch it XD

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2011?
............ i'm thinking of watching for american series XD But no specific fandom...

What fandoms do you think you might let go of in 2011 unless things significantly improve
LOL kinda bullseye to the question in 2010, i didnt care much about reborn nowadays... as for this year.. emmm... fandom that i might let go in 2011 ka...dunno.. maybe, Merlin? LOL i am looking forward what will be my respond next year XD

What fandoms do you think you'll never let go of no matter how crappy they get? Why?
NEWS and the whole anime fandom..maybe?? though, i have to admit, i dun have that passion like before (then again, what is my passion now really?? seems like nothing seems to satisfied me anymore... *sigh*

What show impressed you most in 2010?
Durarara!! and Dexter? LOL they both start wit the letter 'D' XD

What show impressed you least in 2010?
Supernatural. I was rather disappointed at season 6...

end!!! :)

Random talk session 183: All about RAVE

2010-12-30T19:38:00.008+08:00

....hello, again? 2nd post of the day...xD ok, brings out the picture.. haha..

this is from the rave manga... now, am i the only one saw the subtle suggestive hints in this image????? the 5 4 girls in the balloon is musica's love interest XD and for some reason, haru is in the bubbles too.. though his bubble was cross-out for some reason hahaha.. ..seriously, these mangaka.. they really like to tease. male and female, they are all the same. the mangaka of rave is a male btw, haha..

ok, since i am in musica love interest topic.. for some reason, i kinda like reina wit musica XD they are kinda cute.. (i rarely supports het u know!!) and i kinda dislike nagisa coz musica seems to like her.. i dun want him to forget about reina.. haha..

emm... what else i want to write here... ah, i know.. rave actually meet a (demon) town where they publish manga lol they find a manga similar wit a story to their quests.. it is so funny.. the characters is totally different from the real ones LOL haru is an old man!! haha..

seriously, anime/manga that have a parody of their own show is likely to be an awesome show (ex: gintama and yakitate japan)
- gintama to kintama LOL
- yakitate japan becomes takitate japan LOLOL

... what else to write????? ........ i love haru XD haha.. ok, bring out the next picture!

LOL at haru's face XDD ok, that is for this post... i'll think of a new post for later.. haha...

EDIT: Gah i feel so sleepy.. seems like i cant make another post today... ah, there goes my wish in making a total post of 87 for this year... (on 2006 i had 47 posts, 2009 was 67.)..thats y i wanted to make 87 posts this year,,, but looks like almost impossible.. tomorrow is the last day of the year and i only have 76 post... and my bb expired today too...

Random talk session 182: Shinsengumi

2010-12-30T18:43:00.004+08:00

hello diary... today is 30/12/2010, thursday.. omg 2 days into the new year!!

em, ok, today gonna talk about shinsengumi LOL i have been thinking about it in my heads these few days.. ok, so recently i watched hakuoki, and like i said, it was really hard for me to watch it because the image of wascky shinsegumi of Gintama already imprinted in my head XDDD not too mention kondo in both gintama and hakuoki looks almost the same..!! the others have obvious different.. hijikata of hakuoki looks like the young hijikata..

But Gintama is not where i learn about the shinsengumi. the really first one i heard of shinsengumi is from samurai x / rurouni kenshin anime. and the character is nanto, saito hajime. now, dun get me start on this character XD he is just one of those 'hated first, but after a while become like' character of mine XD yup, at 1st i didnt like his character because he hurt sano.. he was kinda bad. but then, he becomes one of the good guy (well, kind of XD he help kenshin maa..haha) ... wait.. i think the real turning point was when saito mace a joke.. i vaguely remembers it, but i think it was about him cooking or about his/someone's wife??? nonethess, i become to like him XDD especially when he was shown really cool in one of the ending.. that's my story if saito haha

ok, the 2nd time i heard of shinsengumi is from the peacemaker kurogane anime that i bought LOL i hate that anime.. and most of all, i hate that damn okita. so girly!! gah i really hate girly characters.. saito was.. somewhat weird in this anime LOL i think he has the ability to see ghost or sumthing??? and i remember the ninja was kinda cool XD ah, now i remember, he was yamazaki... haha.. the ninja in shinsengumi .. hehe..

and then, it was Gintama. ah, the modern shinsengumi. with bazookas hahahaha so much win. oh, sorachi. u r a a genius in making stupid crack hahah.. ok, anyway.. i am glad there isnt anymore girly okita, instead we have sadist one lol though, there is not saito in this anime though.. only the famous 3 were given major role, oh wait, make that 4, include yamazaki.

next, hakuoki. like i said, i've watched and love gintama tooo much, so, the shinsengumi image is really imprinted hard in my brain haha.. when i watch the first ep of hakuoki, i had to pause it coz i need to laugh watching kondo being all serious.. seriously, i laughed so hard XDDD ... em, so anyway, saito hajime is a total hottie in here *_* i am really, really glad he was voice by toriumi XDD heheheh... Gah, a calm, quiet character like him have real charm to me XDDD he's my fav.. hijikata is cool too, but to be honest, he looks was kinda generic *bricked* Souji is not bad too.. and then, Sano get a special treatment just bcoz he is voice by yusa koji XDD hahaha.. emm.. ah, yamazaki, he is so chibi XD ....ahhh i suddenly remember the last ep T___________T so sad!! and i was liking to like yamazaki T_T

emm... i think that's it for my shinsengumi story.. hehe... actually i wanted to post some picture, but the server is too slow for me to find some picture, and then also to upload them.. to troublesome.. haha.. that's all for today.. i think i'll post some more later if i have anymore ideas.. bye2

Random talk session 181

2010-12-27T03:32:00.007+08:00

hello diary.. today is monday, 27/12/2010. it's 5: 53am now..

emm... what i want to talk about toady? i have no idea actually.. countdown to 2011. 4 days!! so fast!!! T-T

emm... i seriously dunno what to say.. LOL i am wacthing haruka 2005 now (as i write this LOL) awww naozumi was crying awwww~~~ i wanna hug him haha.. i guess he was really touch and happy during that event. LOL houshi is so noisy hahahhahaha i can hear his laugh hahaha and then kazuhiko-san scolded him hahahah .... em, houko-san also cried, aww... they are really happy about this yeah.. but dangm houshi was laughing LOL so evil!! haha.. LOL miyata pretending to cry hahah cute.. ah, yeah, this 2005 event was the 1st haruka only event, that is why they are really touched ne... LOL seriously, i keep on hearing houshi's laughing voice hahah *watching* seki tomokazu talking... emm... oh, owari-su! he's the last one... now listening to the tv op song lol i forget the title..

ahhh.. i am stumped! i dun want this entry to be so short though.. emmm... am still watching theh haruka matsui event.. disc 2. ah, i really wish my japanese was better.. haha.. ok, no idea, bring out some random picture.. but i cant upload any dang it gah.. i guess that's it for today LOL

Random talk session 180: mainly about seiyuu

2010-12-26T00:13:00.001+08:00

hello diary.. today is saturday, 26.12.2010 (1:38am). yesterday was the 25th, s0:

Merry Christmas, everyone... MeriKuri, minna ^_^

anyway, here is a post i wrote the other day..

say, i was watching namikawa and realize sumthing, he's not in my official fav list eventhough truth is, i am really crazy about him for quite some times haha.. ok, ok, i guess he wasnt in my list bcoz at that time (when i made the list) i still havent recognize his voice (i've even mistaken his voice as others).. maybe i should add him in the list somehow? then again, i have to add the others too coz i have more fav in term of voices XD well, might as well put in the other list here..
- namikawa daisuke
- houshi souichirou
- sugiyama noriaki

ok, i am gonna stop here before i start to add in all the voices i know LOL

btw, the offical list, i think i never even mention the list here... it was only in my LJ profile i think LOL anyway, here is the original 7:
- Suwabe Junichi
- Okiayu Ryoutarou
- Suzumura Kenichi
- Toriumi Kousuke
- Takahashi Hiroki
- Hidenobu Kiuchi
- Yusa Kouji (tis few month, i seem to intoxic by his voice more too often XD)

for special edition:
- Miki Shin'ichiro
- Seki tomokazu
- Takehito Koyasu
(these 3, are the earliest seiyuu name i know of)

more sp edition:
- midorikawa hikaru <- the very first seiyuu that i was able to recognize! (coz he was in one of the earliest anime that i've watched in real japanese audio....) rukawa and tamahome. and i think one of the reason i actually watched fushigi yuugi till the end XD LOL i realize suwabe and okiayu even have a tag of their own XD that just how much i love them back in the days XD emm... it's almost 2011.. a new year... looking back at my fandom.. yeah, i surely have change.. especially toward news fandom... i dun love them like i use too! it's sad. but at least, i dun lost interest in them! hey, there was 1 time when i lost interest in anime.. for like 2 years of loving news like crazy XD and now, i can say i am back in the fandom, and like news, just not as much as i was.. gah, seriously, i use to think anime is my sole purpose in life LOL like i said sumwhere (in Lj actually XD) it was the thing tht supported my life.. and then news came to my life.. and then, the seiyuu fandom.. (i think it's bcoz i am a casual fan, so i always feel 'refresh' wit this fanfom..) and at 1 point, david archuleta XD ahaha.. that kid... so adorable.. hehehe... ok, i think that's all for today.. i'll post again tomoro if i have any idea to write.. jaa~

Random talk session 179: Ono Daisuke etc

2010-12-20T21:06:00.005+08:00

hello diary, it's monday, 20.12.2010.

nothing spesel again.. i am still at home, feeling depress..

i was watching the vitamin x dvd event..the reason i suddenly downloaded it? who else, if not bcoz of that ono guy LOL dang it, i think i am beginning to become fond of him XD this is seriously kamiya fault LOL i kno this guy quite a time, but i just never actually have any interest in him.. until now LOL and now, i am even begin to consider watching anime wit him in it *sigh* ok, before i proceed wit my vitamin x story, let me tell the story of how i got to like this ono guy before i forget haha..

ok, so actually i've seen him in one of the earliest seiyuu vid i downloaded (btw, it was neoromance..lol no wonder..) at first, i think i confuse him wit kishio daisuke haha.. too many daisuke la.. hirakawa daisuke, namikawa daisuke, ono daisuke, kishio daisuke, sakaguchi daisuke.. who else??? this is the only one i can remember now, i think there should be more than this XD haha.. em, where was i.. oh yeah, so actually the 1st time i saw ono was from the neoromance clip. and then, that's it. i dun really take notice of him lol i only come to realize him from the kuroshitsuji event intro that i download from utube.. he and his taxi driver cosplay (as said by suwabe LOL) at that time, i thought he was ok.. XD but i still didnt have that feeling... so, anyway, then i saw him few times here and there (recently, when i was in kamiya mood lol) and also, when i read the article of durarara. i thought he was a little funny XDD so anway, i think it was until i downloaded the durarara mini event that i suddenly have a liking towards him.. again, cosplaying, he wore a bartender clothes XD and i think it is bcoz i really like shizuo in durarara (ah, now i get it. in order for i to like that seiyuu, i must like his character XDD hahah) ok, anyway, i thought he was kinda charming wit that bartender suit (and he remind me of shizuo XDD) and now, i think i can recognize his voice.. now, that's the important part for me XD

and then....i was at kuching LOL and i wanted to download some yusa's video haha.. dunno what else to download, then i remembered the kuroshitsuji event. i downloaded/watched a few clips from utube, and i thought it was pretty much interesting (argh, i regret for not downloading it earlier, there are awesome casts there...) i didnt manage to download it, but i downloaded the shuffle live dubbing from dgs lj. omg, it was so funny!! my fav is totally wit the yusa one bcoz he burst out laughing during the dubbing LOL the one wit ono and sugiyama also LOL his foreign voice, gotta love that hahaha XD gah, i really wish i downloaded it when i was at kuching.. there is also the 2010 event.. ono dj-ing during the 'yes my lord' .. that maybe is one of the reason i begun to like him LOL

end of ono story, coz i am gonna continue the vitamin x dvd event XD actually i didnt manage to download all of the dvd... only the first 10 min or sumthing.. i love the op song XD houkago eden.. ono was so funny at the beginning XD i also LOL-e when he was soing the 'A, B. C' gestures hahaha during the op song, i can see he was giggling doing some of the choreo LOL when i saw it, i was like, "how precious is that????" LOLOL XDDDD isnt he just so cute like that?? XDDDD tatsuhisa was more serious XDD ah, talking about tatsuhisa.. i know that was him when i heard his voice XDDD apparently, i watched the kamen rider event too much, that i come to memorize his voice XDDD hahaha..

em, ok, emough of that, i need to comment this 1 thing about det conan. i watched lots of ep already.. and i can pretty much guessed the criminal in almost (yeah, only ALMOST) cases XD sadly, the criminal is usually the person that i like haha.. 1 person that i mostly heard (or at least, notice XD) is yusa koji XD and 2 times, he was the criminal haha.. and he was also the fireman and random forensic XD gah, i can hear his voice even the slightest... XD

ah, i think that's all from me today.. hehe.. bye2...

Random talk session 178

2010-12-17T00:23:00.003+08:00

hello diary, today is 17.12.2010. it's friday (the time is 12:46am)

em... back at home again now... today, still wanna talk about seiyuu-san lol yeah, the mood is back i guess XD i downloaded a few more dvd event.. i've known more and more seiyuu, and i like all of them lol this is different when i was in the jpop fandom, i would only like 1 group and ignoring the others lol

seiyuu really do interesting stuffs XD i love it when they do ad-lib XDDD i downloaded the live dubbing of the kuroshitsuji event, and it was so funny!!

ahh.. i wanna download more of the event, but my connection is so slow.. emm...

ok, next, i finally finished watching dexter season 5. poor dexter, alone again.. oh, actually i really dislike Lumen bcoz i somewhat like Rita more.. so i am not fond to see a new woman in dexter's life.. eventhough it was sad seeing dexter sad that lumen had to go, but i think it was better that way XDD

good news is there is gonna be season 6! yaay~ i wonder, what plot they are gonna have.. and i think it's about time that deb know about dexter's secret.. though, if she kno, that it will be kinda impossible for the show to continue... how in the world is he gonna be serial killer if he was chased by the police?? emm...

em, i think that's all... no more idea.. bye..

Random talk session 177

2010-12-13T20:02:00.004+08:00

hello diary, today is 13.12.2010. it's monday...

guess where i am? at kuch lol i went here yesterday. y am i at kuch suddenly? bcoz i have interview... the post is admin clerk at Score A Sarawak Centre. It's some kinda of tuition. em, well, i had the interview at 3 pm. i was so scared.. but it was not that bad. i didnt get the job though.. she said (SOMEDAY) she would call again for the 2nd interview.. i was really bad.. i didnt answer the interviewer well. seems like people dun even want to take me for a clerk.. gah, i realize once again, i hate myself. i am worst at everything, pretty much useless.. why am i alive??? damn it..

enough of that depressing story.. i guess i dun really want the job, bcoz i dun want to work on saturday.. the good thing is i get to online for a bit here in kuching..

em.. there was sumthing i want to write.. what was it.. oohh! now i remember! i am listening to hakuoki op song.. it's called izayoi namida (i wonder what it means lol).. see, i love this song.. i think hakuoki is boring, but it's op song is awesome XD it really has been some times since i hook to any japanese song..

k, that's all for today.. until next time.. bye..

Random talk session 176: Seiyuu event

2010-12-10T06:19:00.001+08:00

hello again diary.. today is 10/12/2010, Friday. well that's bcoz now is 6 am haha

just a quick post.. anyhow, i was watching the bleach soul sonic 2005 event, (yusa was still 'young' LOL he was 35 btw XD i dunno if it's just my imagination or what, but he still wears that skull ring XD i love it when men use the same thing for a long time, bcoz it's kinda indicate how loyal they are XD unlike girls who gets boring so fast and want changes all the time...that includes me hahahahahaha XD)

ok, that aside, as i said, i was watching the bleach event, and wondering, why they didnt have any events anymore. the last time was 2006. bleach is one of the popular manga/anime, so it's kinda weird they didnt held any event. same goes for naruto (which is worst, they dont even have any!).. or, maybe they have the event, but it was never released on dvd? kinda weird though... even reborn now kinda have it once a year.. some goes for tenipuri... and not to mention the neoromance event.. emm, maybe the casts are too busy?

reborn and tenipuri is more into concert though.. nothing weird there, they like have plenty of image songs.. tenipuri especially. they didnt even stop the music after the anime end.. osoroshii lol

neoromance is also based on singing, while haruka matsuri is more on the life dub (more talking) there's little on singing.. ala mode is more interesting XD

random thoughts: morita and itouken.. they are both in neoromace XD

i think that's all.. no more idea..

Random talk session 175

2010-12-09T22:31:00.007+08:00

hello diary. today is 9/12/2010/ it's thursday..

ok, some good news from the internet today lol so it seems the Gintama (seiyuu) event will be released on dvd next year. yay!! really, i was wondering about this the the other day. i remember when i heard of the event, i commented i hope there will be s dvd for the event.. and it will have!! heheh.. yay!! i want to see their live dubbing, and also expecting some random and funny things (well, this is gintama we r talking about XD)

next news, next year's vk is choutarou!!!! and i though hyoutei reign of vk was over, but obviously i was wrong XDD namikawa singing vk *hearts* hehehehe.. i wanna hear jirou singing vk too.. maybe 2012 is the year? XDD haha...

i think that's all the gud news from seiyuu world XDD

em, so recently i find myself obsessing yusa's voice a little too much lol this is what i feel when i hear him : his voice is driving me crazy!!! i love the freakin 40 years old guy *shake heads* what the hell is happening to me lol i am pretty sure it;s the darn VOICE and also his laughs XDDD ah well, this feeling will pass after a while haha i wonder who is the next voice that will drive me crazy.. before yusa, okiayu's and suwabe's also made me crazy haha...

oh, somehow, i have to say this: gawd, hakuoki is so boring i cant stand it.. seriously, the only thing that get me going was becoz of the seiyuu T-T i wanna dropped it, but.. but.. this anime have so many bishonen, which is basically the thing that feeds my soul lol but dang the story is so boring!!!!!!!!!! i am finishing it at a very slow pace.. anyhow, gonna comment a few thing, i kinda like chizuru wit heisuke haha.. they are both chibi and somehow, looks cute together XD though, it is kinda impossible for them to be together, bcoz of coz the heroine is gonna be wit the hero, which is hijigata btw.. or even souji.. emm... i dun mind, as long as it's not saito XDD hahahaha

ok, i also finished reading Rave manga, and this is what i say: EPICCCCCC!!!!!!!!!! love it love it love it so freakin much dang it!!! oh my, it almost rank on the same par as my fav manga, 20th century boys.. but not yet lol i guess i can say it's my 2nd fav manga? and the fact that i dun read much manga also helps in the ranking lol

OMG the most shocking thing for me was the identity of the skeleton that has been guarding resha's grave for 50 years omg the emotion was over flowing so much when i read that part!!!! i think i was so shock bcoz i didnt even expect it at all ..omg.. i was stunned so much at that part.. oh Sieg, no wonder i love u so much XDDDD

ok, next, commenting on musica love interest lol. Gah, this guy, such a playboy! haha.. but i kinda like seeing him wit Reina XD which is kinda rare for me supporting het couple hahahahaha

and, Julia is cool!! eheheh..

ok, that's all i think.. until next time..

Random talk session 174

2010-12-01T13:51:00.007+08:00

hello diary, it's wed, 1/12/2010. wah, it's already december... it's almost the end of the year..

i am watching the kamen rider live event.. i am not a kamen rider fan, but the casts are incredible, so i downloaded it anyway lol

after i watched it, this is my comment: i need more yusa lol though, the reason i download that kamen rider event was actually bcoz of kamiya hiroshi (since last time i need more kamiya lol) but now, i think i need more yusa koji lol i miss him XD and his laugh is so...unique lol

ok, last time i said i want to talk sumthing bout anime.. ok, here i go.. i've been thinking, i am really picky watching anime now, so different compare to 8 years ago, when i would try watching any anime in axn... i watch all of them.. and i even watched the dub anime at our local tv..

there is so much anime out there, and how do i pick them???? now, i pick which to watch base on the seiyuu lol i know, this is really a bad way of deciding anime to watch but i cant help it.. aiihh... it's sad i know... hmm....ok, i think that's all.. for some reason i dunno what else to say.. there should be more when i compose it in my head XDD oh well, next topic..

ok, i just reading this. Gintama is returning on April next year dang it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and now i am planning to rewatch the series again XD heh, i have still some anime that i havent finished, but who care XDD i wanna watch Gintoki XDDD hahaha
i am so happy and glad i got to see Gintoki again hehhe...

i wonder are they gonna make more filler eps? i hate fillers, but if it's gintama, maybe it's ok. as long i can see gintoki XD i just hope they wont make a arc kinda filler.. 1 shot fillers are ok.. there are many things thy can make, since it gintama.. for ex: ep on ginpachi sensei or kintoki or even gintaman lol if they really make it, then it would be epic XDD hhahah

em, enough of that . wanna comment sumthing on some anime that i watched recently.
1) Paranoia Agent.
- i was expecting of sumthing that would blow my mind, but in the end, it was rather...weird.. But it's still ok i guess.. but not sumthing that i would rec to people...

2) Spiral
- Rio is cute lol i love when she said "hau" haha XDD so cute~~!! ok, this anime, also mediocre...
- in the end, i was like: so, what is actually 'Blade children"????? i had to download the manga bcoz i was curious lol
- this anime kinda remind me of death at some point lol
- and also, the overly use bombs is kinda annoying lol

3) Hakuoki
- i hate historical anime (had some bad experiece bcoz of peace maker kurogane)... watched this bcoz of the amazing casts XDDD bcoz of yusa and toriumi actually XDDD hehehehe
- and now, i've watched until ep 6 or 7, and i still not enjoying them.. only enjoying the voices and the characters lol
- another thing, when i watched ep 1, i was giggling XDDD i just cant take them seriously bcoz of Gintama XD

oh, random: as usual i was answering some question in YA, when i come about this funny answer. The question:
Why do the Akatsuki wear nail polish? I've kept wondering about this and then I went online to find answers but there were none. So why do they?

Answer:
I don't think it has a purpose and it's just how Masashi designed them. All members wear black nail polish on their fingers and toenails, although the colors vary in the anime, and may also wear a straw hat with small ornamental torques and tassles hanging down over their faces. I guess they are just a very fashionable organization, haha.

LOL

ok, that is all for today..~ to end this post, here's a picture of my fav character in hakuoki:

it's okita soji. i am really glad he is voice by toriumi XD when i saw some of the pictures of the anime, i was immediately attracted to the blue-haired and very curious of his seiyuu XDD

until next time~~

Random talk session 173: GEMS officially over

2010-11-24T19:37:00.006+08:00

Hello diary... it's 24/11/2010.

Refering to the subject lol GEMS programme is officially over. my last day at sedc was yesterday, 23/11/2010. it was so sad T_T i said i wont cry, but darn, eventually i did cry.. i am so gonna miss the staffs, the other gemmies, also, the cbgs people from sedc. eventhough we had a short meeting, but thy were all friendly.. .. oh, and that certain person.. lol he called me on the last day. heh, he is sure gonna be in part of my sp memory..XD

our boss was on holiday, so did not hav the chance to bid him farewell... what a cruel boss lol

that nite (yesterday nite), we had a little farewell party. went to kubah ria. we had some nasi goreng, mee mamak and ayam panggang.. it was nice~

so sad.. i am not gonna set foot on sedc anymore... i feel so lonely..

.... ok what else.. so, i am now downloading like crazy.. Det. Conan esp.. it has 595 eps and still on going..and now i am downloading ep 383. about 200 ep more to download o_o that is a lot..

em, i think tht's all.. actually i have other thing i want to write (about anime) but i think i am gonna save that for tomoro XD bye.

Random talk session 172: hatafutte parade

2010-11-17T18:26:00.005+08:00

hello diary, it's 17/11/2010. Wednesday and it's public holiday today, so no working :P

i just downloaded England's and Japan's version of hatafutte parade.

Gah, suddenly i feel wanna cry hearing England's voice. ok, sugiyama's voice to be exact XD i dunno, is it bcoz i havent heard his voice for a while, or bcoz his version is so good and dang he can sing alrite, or bcoz i miss sasuke hahahaa XDDD noriaki's voice will always make me think of sasuke XDD

As for Japan's version. it's ok, but i have to say, my fav is gotta be England's XD

Lastly, here is a picture of David archuleta's back lol

look at the way he's sitting!hahaha XDDDD so cute XDDDD

ok, that's all for today... gonna repeat england's hatafutte parade for a while now hahaha bye..

Random talk session 171: 2nd post of the day

2010-11-15T21:34:00.005+08:00

hello diary. like the title said, this is my second post today. it's still 15/11/10 monday..ahaha..

the first post was written on noon, at the office, and now i am writing again (9:37pm) at the house.

there is just sumthing i need to say about today.. ano hito, mata denwa wo shimashita. shikamo, ni kai desu yo!! i seriously dun kno what to feel? angry? happy?? confused??? ahh...whatever..

on a random note, i was watching some kamiya hiroshi's video on tube earlier, and dang, i think kamiya kinda look like him hahahaha oh well, maybe that's just me.. my head playing tricks on me. if not, it is only the hair that's almost the same hahaha

ok, i think tht's for today..bye..

Random talk session 170: Durarara!!!

2010-11-15T11:42:00.006+08:00

hello diary! it's 15/11/2010, monday..

emm, today, wanna talk about a new anime that i had just finished watching. it's durarara. all i can say, it's awesome!!! i have heard of this anime for quite some time ago. i saw it in the magazine scans share in seiyuu comm. i kno kamiya and daisuke ono was in the anime.. but i didnt want to watch this anime bcoz i thought it would be like the same shonen anime like bleach or naruto, u kno, the shonen cliche of being stronger, and the whole nakama concept.. for some reason, i am kinda tired of that kinda of anime now... the reason i suddenly watched this anime was bcoz of that izaya guy XD i was watching some fukiretta songs in youtube and i came across his character.. he looks kinda cute XD besides, for some reason, i wanna hear kamiya's voice. so i downloaded the anime without any much expectation from it.. but what do u kno, it was really good! i'm glad i download it. thank u izaya and kamiya hahaha XDD

the opening song totally remind me of baccano! opening though. so much resemblance..

also, 1 thing i have to comment, the casts are awesome as the anime itself! so many famous seiyuu. kamiya hiroshi, ono daisuke, that chibi guy which i cant remember his name, also that tall guy who play raito in death note, etc etc.

another thing that i like abt this anime is bcoz it also cameo lots of other anime (baccano, darker than black). and the epic moment is when the characters from baccano was in it too. i mean, when i watch the op, it remind me of baccano too much. and then, suddenly the characters was in it. and they even show some clips from baccano lol i just love when this happened. just like what gintama do when they do parody. same things also for yakitate japan.. gah i love parody.. hahaha..

next, my fav character. i watched the show bcoz of izaya, but sometimes, he is kinda annoying. i love it when shizuo throws dust bin at him hahaha.. ah, the headless rider aka celty is so funny and cute sometimes.. when she was afraid of aliens and the police traffic lol i dun usually fond of female character, but she was ok and not annoying XD haha..

ok, i think that's all for today.. bye~!

Random talk session 169: woot NEWS Live Live Live DVD

2010-11-12T13:51:00.003+08:00

hello diary. today is 12.11.2010. it's friday. i am still in holiday. didnt go to work. and i feel soooooooooooooo bad about it....*sigh*

that aside. ok, i just read about NEWS dvd. it's gonna be out this december! talk about fast! they use the Live Live Live concert which was recorded on september... i was wondering of this the other day. i thought their dvd is gonna be released next year.. haha.. but the downside, is i am gonna be in betong on december, bcoz i already finish my job training at sedc. and the internet connection at my hometown is so bad, i wanna throw up! now, how in the world i want to download the dvd later... *sigh* there's also the choice of buying the ori dvd itself (u kno, since i hav some money from my job training), but the problem, is i am planning to save that money to go to ddavid archuleta concert haha.. i really hope david can come to malaysia again, i wanna see that cutie pie myself wit my very own eyes!! i really really hope!!! ah, he is supposed to be in singapore on 14 november..

emm, i think that's all for today.. nothing much... these few days, i was busy downloading det conan.. i downloaded about 40++ ep already.. also downloading durarara ahaha.. though, the real reason is bcoz i am beginning to fond of kamiya XDDDD hehehehe.... oh, i also spent lots of time at yahoo answer these days. promoting Gintama and monster... hahah...

ok, now is really the end of this post today... bye bi :)

Random talk session 168

2010-11-09T10:26:00.005+08:00

hello diary.. it's 9/11/2010. tuesday..

emm... havent heard from him a long time, and suddenly he called *sigh* i miss him, really, but i would rather i didnt hear from him at all. bcoz now, after the call, i have become to miss him even more. darn u emotion..

............. bye..

Random talk session 167: new obsession

2010-11-07T13:10:00.003+08:00

hello diary, it's sunday 7/11/2010..

emm, i am downloading dexter. i realize sumthing, i think i have a new fav series.. yup, it's dexter! woot~ haha.. i mean, it even have a label of it's own! and now i think it's not fair for the other series.. haha.. ok, let me first talk of the series that i currently watching. it's supernatural and merlin. i am downloading the series every week. the other series that i watched are house, csi and heroes (which sadly, was already canceled T_T). and now, i can safely state that dexter is my new fav series.. haha..

ok, so i finished watching the 4th season and omg what a shock!!!! i like Dexter, but i am not really jealous when he's with rita. i just want him to be happy haha.. but different case when i see quinn with that reporter girl. i dunno, maybe bcoz the girl is so annoying.. i hate seeing quinn wit her! grr... em, anyway, dexter's villains are really hateful. i need to say nice work to the writers for able to create such a hateful villains. i am always happy to see dexter kill them all haha.. i even thinking of doing a top 10 lists of villain in dexter, but i end up cant make 1 bcoz i really hate them all much equally haha..

well, i think that's all for today..bye..

edit: 8/11/2010
want to say sumthing bout spn. i am getting more and more annoyed by sam!! i really dun want him to be bad... i was watching the 'u cant handle the truth' ep, and i saw misha's name in the credit lol my point is that i really hate it when i spoiled by the name.. haha.. gah, i miss cas. i hope he can get more screentime in the future.. huhuhu...

and also, about merlin. i am beginning to love merlin more now haha.. am crazy about the actor, colin morgan hahaha.. oh well...

Random talk session 166: Dexter tv

2010-11-04T20:33:00.007+08:00

hello diary, today is 4.11.2010. it's thursday..

em..nothing much, just wanna write sumthing on a tv show i watch recently, which is Dexter. Just finished watching the 3rd season. Dexter is married.. haha.. he's kinda a dweeb, but that makes him kinda cute XD and there is 1 more character that i like haha.. it's quinn, haha. i remember watching him in ep 1 of season 3, and i was like, "who's this bald guy?" haha..

and after a while, i thought he's very handsome haha.. at some point, i think in the middle of the 3rd series, he grown his hair.. haha..

in ep7, dexter was wondering if he should invite quinn. he said: "shud i invite quinn? he's so...tan." hahahah i love his expression when he said "tan" hahah oh dexter... he's cute like that XDDD and then, at the season finale of season 3, seems like he invited quinn haha.. i wiki-ed him earlier, and he has a bigger roles in season 4. though, i am guessing he's gonna be deb's next bf.. *rolls eyes* oh well..

emm,. nothing much to say anymore.. i think that's all for today.. bye. until next time..

Random talk session 165

2010-11-02T21:07:00.006+08:00

hello diary. today is 2/11/2010. it's tuesday.

em, argh, i had to handle quite an annoying people today, regarding PUTERA. gah. so much hate.

anyway. the main point of today's post. as usual, ano hito no koto... haha, no matter how many times i said i wanted to forget, i just cant do it...gah. anyway, i just want to write about these things he said. i dunno, maybe it's just a coincidence, or people really just say that a lot.. u see, he says the same thing wit boss. the first one, is about doing things himself. he can get all the things done himself, just it's gonna takes some more time. i agree with this though. sometimes ur employee cant do things right, so u has to do the work urself. the second thing that he said that was same with boss was about me being too honest. the amusing thing is that he and boss gave the same advice, about i cant be too honest in this world, especially involving work or business. i understand all of this, but it is really hard for me to change... anyway, my point. he says, the same (or maybe, almost the same) things like boss, so maybe 1 day, when he become a boss, he can become a good boss, just like boss. hey, that's a compliment u kno. XD he just had to work out his relationship wih his employees, and i know he can be a good boss one day.

emm, i think that;s all for today.. bye..

Random talk session 164: me in the web

2010-10-31T22:11:00.004+08:00

Hello diary! it's 31.10.10. Sunday..

happy halloween day! em, today, there was a cosplay competition at the hills. it was rather amusing lol i love the judge who cosplayed wolfwood haha XDD he's kinda good looking mah hahahaha

......ok, as usual.... i think i can forget him now? can i? i want to forget really bad! but, this is one of the time that i think i am starting to forget him. i guess it's thanks to david XD

dunno what else to write.. that's all...bye..

edit: i am not satisfied that this post was too short, so i am editing.. hehe..

i have many site/account in the web, so this is me, listing it down, for fun lol:

1. of coz, this blogspot. was originally called unknownsolution.blogspot,com, but i changed it since my fren found out about it.. this is the place where i write about my life. it started as my 2nd fandom blog, where i write about seiyuu and anime, but gradually i started to write more about myself.

2. my multiply site. unknownsolution.multiply.com. yeah, u can see, i really love the phrase 'unknown solution' haha.. where i write about my fandom, esp NEWS. but nowadays, i rarely write there. it's kinda sad. i used to love NEWS like crazy! my posts there has come to more than 200 (i was really obssessed!).

3. my twitter. i think u can guess my url haha yup, it's unknownsolution again.. nothing much there. i just created it to support my fandom..hehe..

4. my facebook. the only thing that i keep locked from public lol

5. youtube channel. also unknownsolution. actually that's my second account. my 1st one was deleted. argh, so mad! well, what can i do.. haha...

6. almost forget. my another blog. livejournal. which is basically dead. lol just using it to view various community and to comment on them..

i think that's all? is there more? emm... nope, dun think so.

Random talk session 163: kataomoi chiisana koi

2010-10-29T13:04:00.004+08:00

hello diary. it's 29.10.10. friday.

writing from the office. at lunch hour. so, hmm. today i feel sick to my stomach. when? after i got a called from him. i feel like throwing up when i think of him. he make me sick! i obviously hate him *roll eyes* and, i just had to say this sumthing. he called me the 2nd time, and it was really awkward. especially the ending, i dunno if he hung up or not, bcoz i can hear it's not. the sound is like he's waiting for me to hung up or maybe he thought he already hung up. seriously, it was really awkward!

well, i think that's all for today...bye..

Random talk session 162: kimi ni mune kyun

2010-10-28T22:43:00.004+08:00

hello diary.. it's 28/10/10. thursday nite...

hmm, i ve been updating almost everyday lol if u look at the archieve, there was a time when i didnt write for 2 months or so (june and july). i realize sumthing. same thing happened before. seems like i write more when watashi ga koi ni ochiru haha more like kata omoi though haha.. ahh.. moshi ga koi wa konnani suteki nara...

lol dang it, now i have to write in broken japanese so that nobody understand if any of my friends found my blog again lol

but anyway, aii.. actually now i feel like i wanna throw up when aitsu ga omoidasu.. argh..

ok. i think i should write the iro iro no koto when ano hito wo iru..

1. neko! lol there was this time, there was suddenly a cat jumps onto him lol kawaii deshita yo!

2. gin iro no kuruma i seriously need to get this out of my system, like seriously!

3. i drank too much, but i was too embarrass to tell that i wanted to go to the toilet, so i held it. i even drank some more lol but in the end i had to borrow one of the participants toilet lol ok, fast forward to time, then it was his turn to want to got to toilet lol it was kinda funny, bcoz i remembered he was also feeling sleepy.. lol i have a thing when watashi no kata omoi wined lol argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh there it is again, that feeling!!! the butterfly in my stomach T-T

when i started to list them, seems like the memories i had is not that much... about no.3, that was also the time when this guy makes a lot of jokes. (i can tell, he was really bored and very sleepy lol) i dunno why i feel very very amused. it was so hard for me to contain my laughter. omg i miss those times T-T that was one of watashi no saikou omoi desu yo.. to be futari kiri ,ano hito to..

*siiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

i think that's all..

bye..

Random talk session 161: Anata wo omou hodo mune ga kurushii

2010-10-27T11:15:00.009+08:00

hello diary! It's 27.10.10, tuesday.

Now at grand margerita for sedc integrity day. The chief minister is here lol emm..nothng much. Listening to cermah,etc on integrity. So boring. Blah. Ok,that's aside. Aitsu ga kuru! Omg i dunno wht to freakin feel abt this.. I guess i am a little ureshii,demo,this is gonna be so awkward since my friend found out my blog and my himitsu lol And also, my mijikai minikui kami wo miserarenai wake ga nai yo! (lol i so fail at my japanese).

edited:

argh... i was on my way back to the office and was thinking of a way to avoid him.. there i was, punched my card and was about to go in and i saw boss, my thought: "oh, boss, what he's doing there?" few mili second later i saw a red shirt... i know who it is right away (though i dun even saw his back, just saw the red shirt lol). i was having doubt of going in, but finally i went, bcoz i need to settle about the payment... and then, we went to boss' office.. and talk about the bill format.. well, not a very good 'meeting' bcoz i feel very very very very very bad and very very very very guilty. it's one of those days when i feel like it's better if i was not here.. if other people were assigned to this, i think things will go more smoother. this feel of guilt, it's so overwhelming. usually i cry, but for some reason, my tears just wont come out. i dunno if it's bcoz of ano hito, or maybe some other reasons..

i also want to say 1 thing to ano hito... i am sorry. hontoni gomensai. Oh God, please let him kno that i am really sorry. whether it's through a dream, a thought or whatever, i just want him to kno, i am really sorry... i want this feeling anata wo todoke.. Gah, almost cry there..

i went in the file room to get a moment alone, and listen to music loudly. my friends were kinda worried that i cry inside lol thanks all.

emm, what else? oh, want to comment sumthing. about that akai fuku lol GAH KAKKOI DESU YO XD

GAH ....................................... I HATE THIS FEELING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aitsu no koto wa wasurenai demo wasurarenai..

i said to myself, DAIKIRAI!!! DAIKIRAI!!!!. and when i think of it, nanka, nami ga.. please, make this feeling go away. my heart is to weak to bare it. omae nanka, ni doto ai ta kata, ni doto kangai ta..

that's all..

Random talk session 160: no title

2010-10-26T21:02:00.003+08:00

hello diary. today is 26/10/10. it's tuesday...

lot happened today. so much office drama lol it's not really thing i want to keep in memory, so i guess i dun want to write about it haha... ah, but then again, . it's just about the payment. and bil format. HAR made a different fornat from the other suppliers.. it was kinda a big deal. a whole rombongan came to sedc to talk about this lol

ok, wanna talk about other things. just found out that legenda hang tuah will be animated by japanese studio...lol it's cool, but seeems like they are gonna make it in malay! there goes my hope of hearing my fav seiyuus in this 'anime'

emm... i think tat's all for today....

Random talk session 159

2010-10-25T19:43:00.006+08:00

hello diary....today is 25/10/10. it's monday..

emm,. i still havent finish my claim.. argh.. i admit, i am kinda slow, but this is too slow... arghhh... i hate myself..

emm.. ok, new topic..1 thing i learned after my fren found out about my blog is that it's better if i dun talk about my crush too much, (bcoz it's so damn embarrassing!) but dang i cant... it's new, so my feeling towards that person is quite strong now. when i see anything related to him, i'll automatic think of him, eventhough i am trying very, very hard to forget about him... argh.. stupid emotion...

i have this weird urge to write all the things that remind me of him also the memories about him. u kno why? bcoz i am sure, i'll forget about him after this. so, i need to write it, so that in the future i kno, i had this feelings before..

but i am kinda busy these days. i wonder if i will have the chance to write those things...

em, that's all for today. until next time.. bye..

EDIT: it's funny that i want to write sumthing that remind me of him when i am trying to forget him lol

Random talk session 158

2010-10-23T17:02:00.004+08:00

hello diary. today is 23/10/10. it's saturday,

at MaryBrown again today. is downloading SPN ep 5. heck, i havent even finish watching ep 4. these days busy watching Dexter XD He's a serial killer, but i always feel sad seeing him with his problems.. poor guy.. *shakes head*

what else... emm.. i changed my blogspot url. gah, and i really like the previous url.. well, shoganai yo, after what happened..

i realized sumthing, my blog is so wordy haha em, i dun have any interesting pict to post..

........................... my mind is blank. so, that's all i guess? haha.. another pointless post for today..

bye2..

Random talk session 157: speechless

2010-10-22T19:02:00.009+08:00

hello diary...today is 22/10/10. it's friday..

now at marybrown.. dun want to go back home yet..

still havent finish the claim.. i am seriously so slow, it makes me mad... aii... well, tomoro i'll go to the office again and try to finish it..

em, sumthing happened today. seeems like my fren found this blog. omg i should have known this would happened after he found my wordpress... eventho i said i want to delete this blog, but that's just not possible. this thing is basically is me. in reality, i dun really show my emotion. u can say, i am tezuka-ish lol poker face XD i dun really show how i feel to the world, well, except when i'm sad. sadness. that's one feelings i totally cant hide.. few ocassion has been the proof of that.. anyway (ah, i think i havent use this word for quite some times haha) what was i saying, oh yeah. i dun show my emotion , but i write about it. this blog records my happiness, my sadness, my anger which i almost never show in public. if i delete it, it's like i'm deleting my own life... oh, i think i know a solution.. emmm... so, i guess now my fren know my most embarrassing secret, which is my crush. eventho i dun really say it directly, but i think he figure it out. actually i dun really mind if he reads this blog, but what's really make me so embarrass i bcoz i wrote to0 much about that crush of mine... it's only a crush ok. this feeling totally not gonna last. heh, it's funny that i dun like changes (wear the same things, buy the same things, eat the same things, etc) but when it comes to feeling of crush/like/love, it never last.. that's y i cant get married. i'll totally have scandal haha..

what can i say, i already kn0w the risk of making my blog public. if i wanted privacy, of coz i'll use LJ or MP.. em, what else.. oh, i think i should talk about what i wanted to talk bout yesterday. about my hair.

my hair is so short right now. it's really saddens me. u see, i have this pact i that i make about 2 or 3 years ago, when my obsession wit NEWS was at it peaks. my hair was already long, and i made this weird promise that i wont cut my hair until i go to Japan and meet NEWS. But i think after i join GEMS, i kinda neglected NEWS, and when my GEMS friends told me to cut my hair, i just compliance wit it. i guess, my dreams of going to japan is not that important to me now.. this is kinda sad... the old me would be so disappointed.. emm.. i think that's all..

until next time.. bye..

Random talk session 156: lots of things stuff in 1 post

2010-10-21T08:07:00.007+08:00

(edited) alt title: a day in the life, david arculeta in malaysia, and layton vs ace attorney game..

hello diary, it's 21/10/10. thursday..

emm. at the office now. wow, i think it's the first time i wrote from the office.. emm, i have so many works to finish, and yet i stll hav time to blog.. yeah, it's true, i'm stress and i am postponing my works..

need to finish the claim asap.. i dun want to make boss disappointed. he said, dun be slow, and i am trying not to be, eventho, i am a really slow person in whatever i do... it's sad...i know..

emm.. what else to say.. i dun have idea..this morning, bought McD. emm... seriously dun have anything to blog now..

that's all i guess? another short one.. if i'm rajin, i'll edit this later..

bye..

EDIT: (at about 10pm)
was reading about a rumored / unconfirmed news about david archuleta coming to malaysia . omg, if only it's true, then i will be very happy! and this time, i'll make sure i go to his con haha XD last year, he did come to malaysia, but i didnt kno at all. i guess it's bcoz i was still in the mood of another fandom. that's the benefit of having a blog, i can re-trace what i like lol at that time i was in monster mood. i love tenma so much lol

ok, next one, about the crossover game. layton vs phoenix! actually found out a little earlier, yesterday i think, i think i was too excited, i forgot to blog about it haha.. i saw the trailer and omg omg it's so beautiful! and the fact that these 2 are my most fav ds games. love the trial, and also love the puzzle (eventhough i cheat at times hahaha XD) i cant wait to play the game! i think the english version will take longer time to be released...so sad! em, that remind me, i really, really, really need to finish apollo justice and also ace investigator ASAP, and also Layton's third game, the unwound time...gah..i dun have time... mmm.. i think that;s all for today. actually there is 1 more topic i want to write, but i think i'll save that for tomoro... hehe..

bye.

next post preview: (LOL) i had always this pact wit my hair, but obviously, i had broke it...

Random talk session 155: My hair tragedy

2010-10-16T18:50:00.004+08:00

hello diary.. today is 16/10/10 saturday..

i had a hair cut earlier and i didnt like it bcoz it's too short!!!!! I HATE ITT!!!!! I HOPE MY HAIR WILL GROW FASTER!!!!!!

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........SO FREAKIN SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually before this, i dun really mind of my appearance, but now i kinda care bcoz there is someone who i kinda like... something about love, huh.. love make people do stupid things and also make people feels stupid things... i hate this. i wanna forget him so freakin much!!!! i dun want him to c my hideous hair style T_T i hope he wont be coming to SEDC againnnnn!! but sadly, what i really wish usually dun come true.. arghhhh i am so afraid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! before this, i hope he would come to sedc again, but now, i really, really hope he wont be coming back..

oh God. please give me strength to forget him...

i hate this... that;s all or today.. bye..

Random talk session 154

2010-10-14T22:03:00.008+08:00

halo diary :P today is 14/10/10, thursday..

em...nothing much to write. or should i say, what i dun write.. been thinking of it lately. i dun really keeping update wit NEWS as much anymore. i dun even write about them. Bcoz of this, my Multiply site, which was dedicated to NEWS, has no update for the longest time... i just dunno what to write about them. it's like i am slowly abandon them.. i dun want that to happen, but looks like it is happening right now. but i guess it's not just NEWS, but also the other fandom, such as anime, or should is say, my interest in japan has decline. like i said before, now i rarely listen to any japanese songs or even watched any japanese drama/anime/movie. my interest now is david archuleta (music) and english series such as spn and merlin... but, seeing how my previous fandom have become, i think it just a matter of time untill i lost interest in these things too... em, wait, but i had always prefer to watch english series than japanese drama XD

it's not just NEWS u see. i also dont have the mood to watch any anime now, or read any manga.. so lazy lately.. besides tat, there's also the seiyuu fandom. i still love the voices, but i dun even bother to check any new videos/songs/pictures of my fav seiyuu...

it's like i changed my interests so easily. not just on music or tv, but also in love. now, i am kinda having a crush wit someone (that i seriously shouldnt hav), but i am pretty sure, after a month or so, i am so totally gonna forget this feeling.. just like how i forgot about my crush at penview lol i think it's bcoz i didnt see him ever since then...

em, i think that's all from me today...

bye..

PS: i havent finish my work, so i am so afraid of going to work tomoro i bet boss is gonna ask me about it *sigh*

Random talk session 153

2010-10-13T23:33:00.004+08:00

Hello diary, today is 13/10/2010. it's wednesday.

emm.. i started watching Dexter today. this series is really psycho! haha.. i mean, the hero is a serial killer! at first, i didnt think the hero (dexter) was handsome, but after watching until ep 3, i think he's kinda ok XD the series is not bad i guess, i guess it's bcoz i like the investigation kinda story XD i wonder who is the ice truck killer! emm... guess i'll have to watch XD i am now watching until the middle of ep 4 XD i didnt finish bcoz i wanted to online...and then go to sleep XD haha.. continue tomoro...hohoho..

emm.. there is sumthing i want to wrrite, but i cant remember.. lemme see... what was it...

oh, i remembered!

i eat a lot these days! eat much more than usual.. and u kno what that means, i am a little upset and sad... what else, it's about my work at sedc.. *sigh* i eat when i upset. but when i'm really sad, i'll not eat anything at all... ahah... ok. that is the thing that i want to mention.. haha..

until next time~

Random talk session 152: 2nd post of the day

2010-10-10T22:14:00.006+08:00

hello diary. yup. it's still 10/10/10 ahaha.. i dun want to edit the previous post XD

emm... today went to unimas to c my fren (her graduation day)... and then we went to the spring to eat sushi. yummy~ thanks for the food friend!! she paid rm100. so expensive! 0_0

she didnt kno the way to go to kuch, so she dropped me at saberkas's bus stop. i took the bus to go home. i was walking at india street when i heard elevator (david's song) lol elevator is only a song from the album, so i was really shocked when i heard it. i wonder if it's from the radio.. elevator needs more love! everybody should listen to it XD a very catchy song~

ok, enough about that..i wanna blog of sumthing else...

when introvert like me had a crush.. the more i like a person, the more likely i will NOT talk to him. he gets me nervous and he makes me wanna get away from him, yet i wanna stay close to him.. it's so complicated... emm... i was thinking sumthing, it's totally the hair lol i hope he cuts his hair so that i wont think he's cute anymore, and i can forget of him faster.. *looooong sigh*

.......oh yeah, finally i downloaded david archuleta's album, the other side of down. i havent finish listening to them. sadly, i still havent really like them much... and now still looping SBL and elevator, and also the newest obsession, touch my hand XD that remind me, bcoz of this newest obsession for david archuleta, i havent watch any japanese dramas or songs lately, i am kinda afraid that i will forget that language XD emm... i better listen to NEWS album now... haha..

em, i think i am gonna rants about the series i currently watching. Merlin and Supernatural.

Merlin season 3 ep 5: Crystal Cave. i dun really like this ep. i cant stand Morgana. Merlin's guilt also kinda annoying. i dun like both uther and morgana, let them kill each other lol

ok, next, supernatural season 6, ep 3. 1 word: CASTIEL !!!! Hello love, i miss ya! haha.. My comment, sam is really getting more and more annoying.. argh.. come on, sam!!! there is really sumthing wrong with him... aiii.. i m really sad seeing him this season...

ok, i think that's all... until next time :) bye,,,

Random talk session 151: 10 OCT 2010

2010-10-10T02:38:00.003+08:00

hello diary! today is 10/10/10 very nice date eh? ehehe... it's sunday.. and yes, it's also sakata gintoki's birthday~ WOOT~ happy bday love~

emm... actually i dun really have no idea what to write... now, suddenly obsessed with david archuleta's song, touch my hand. omg love this song~ so catchy~ i watched some more of his video in utube earlier, and he's really too cute i almost cry lol

i really hope he can occupy my mind for this time being.. i dun want to think of that person T-T please make me forget about him asap. i hate this feeling arrrghh...

emm...what else...i dun even know...i think maybe that;s all. another short entry from me..

bye..

Random talk session 150: u make me bingung...

2010-10-08T19:20:00.007+08:00

hello diary...today is 8/10/10. it's friday..

my fav word now is "bingung".... aiihhh...

so..i want to quit next week, but i feel bad to just go like that.. there are too many things i need to do.. argh....

got a free lecture from that 'someone' ~~i like~~ today lol i know la, i know, but i cant easily change myself ok. i dun even like the way i am. i want to change, but i am so stubborn, not towards others, but towards myself...... *sigh*

suddenly i wanna sing 'something bout love'...sumthing bout love that breaks ur heart... yes.. it really breaks my heart..

love hurts so much, i wish i never had that feeling in the first place..arrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............hate this feeling..!!!! arghhhh!!!!

i dun even know why i like guy so freakin fast!!! arghhhhh I HATE THISSSS!!!!!!! GO AWAY EMOTION!!!!!! DAVID ARCHULETA, PLEASE NEUTRALIZE THIS FEELING!!!! I CANT STAND THIS HURTING IN MY HEART T_T

Random talk session 149: woo hoo!

2010-10-06T23:45:00.004+08:00

hello diary. today is 6.10.2010. It's wednesday. today, went for 'delivering" again. actually it's more of getting the pengesahan" haha.. megabumi still havent finish, still 1 more. most probably tomoro, and that wil be the official last of my delivering..so sad T_T. i regret for not going myself for the delivering. all of them are good and nice guys XD

today, was...what can i say? i am really happy that i get to get out of the office.

i went to matang/bau/lundu/santubong. arrived home quite late, at 6.30pm sumthing...

i just wanna say this, that haziq guy is really funny. lol. he made me want to LOL so hard! haha.. it was so hard to contain my laughter. i had to think of all the troubles and problems i had... haha.. thanks for making my day dude! and now, some bad things are awaiting me, bcoz i had a really good day today. and i am really scared now...

that's it...lol very short

Random talk session 148: Even my patience has limit

2010-10-01T21:49:00.006+08:00

hello diary! today is 1/10/2010. it's friday,

lots of things happened this week. once again, my patience is tested by that inconsiderate person. YOU ARE SOOOO ANNOYING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO ANGRYYYYYYYY!!!!! i hate this feeling!!!! GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i almost explode yesterday... i took a breathe, and managed to control my anger.

ARRGGHHHHH!!!!! I FEEL LIKE QUITTINGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this morning, i cried thinking of my problems.... argh, so embarrassing... so many people saw me.. aii...

em, this whole week, i went delivering. ah, so happy bcoz i dun need to see that annoying face in the office. i mostly went wit HAR. today was the last delivering, i am gonna miss them, hehe. ah, i also miss the satok jaya guys haha. i saw them on wed, and they still remember me. haha..

i think that's all..

Random talk session 147: today i'm happy

2010-09-27T21:32:00.005+08:00

hello diary. today is 27 sept. it's monday.

everything i do today dun seems to be right.. but, one thing for sure, i am happy XD and the reason is bcoz i finally got to went delivering with megabumi...heheheheheheheh... ok, today was really interesting... let me write it here for future reference lol

so, monday morning and i feel very lazy to work in the office today. i wanted to go out... But the problem is, Abg Malek would go with Satok Jaya, and Abg Amit with Megabumi, while HAR had no delivering on monday. And then suddenly Abg Malek said that Abg Amit is taking a leave sick today. so i got to go with megabumi!!! woooo!! hahahahah i was soooo happy and scare at the same time lol so then, i settle some few things and get ready for the delivering. after i finished all that, i remember i had to call haziq and tell him that i would go with him. I was about to call him, when suddenly afida said there's a call for me. i was like, 'omg who is it? boss" i was really scared lol turns out it was haziq lol i think i can recognize his voice now. hehe. i love it when i can recognize people voice (i really love voices ok hehe). so then, i tell him that i am the one going with him. i thought to myself, "finally i can see megabumi's truck" lol. ok. that's settle, and then...dun remember much after that lol so, then i got a message from haziq, wanted me to check some of the participants tel numbers. I was about to call him to tell him the numbers. i dial the operator and asked them to connect to haziq's hp. Guess what. 10 secs after that, my hp rang and it was haziq! lol and not long after that, the (SEDC's) tel rang and afida had to take it for me. .. They cant get through the number i was asking. of coz they cant, he's calling me lololol i am so highly amuse of this...hehehehehhe...so then, skipped again to the part that i go down to meet haziq. i was looking for a huge truck, but there was none. haziq was using hilux. lol there goes my hope of riding their truck XD well, i guess it's ok. so, i walked towards the hilux and feeling scared lol Let's pause, can we? i need to talk about this guy first lololololol

the 1st time that i talked to him was through the phone.
- I was assigned to monitor PUTERA monitoring. I need to call the 3 suppliers and asked if they had any delivery that day. my image of him was...an average joe lol. That was the 1st time i talked to him. i remember what he said vaguely. their company is the only 1 who still havent start delivering..

the 1st time i saw him, i thought he was someone else. who, u ask?
- i was sitting there at my usual place, and suddenly i saw this guy.. he was heading to Abg malek's table. he look like a chinese, and young! i was like, "eh? he's not even bumiputera. he want to apply for PUTERA ka? ....... he's kinda cute" ok, 1,2,3. Let's laugh together. AHHAHAHAHAHA. Done? ok. Done. wanna kno who's the young guy? of coz. it is the infamous haziq that i called before lol

the 1st time that i message him...i dun remember when, but i remember y...
- i dun like talking and phoning people, so i message him. as usual, he was asking for the participants numbers. there was this time, i was asking him about delivering, and he replied wit a very amusing way lol he used "hehe" it's really amusing to me, bcoz to me, i only use that kinda expression wit friends. so when he used that word, i feel like i am actually his friend. hehe..

fast forward >>>>>>

through out the days (lol) he came to the office few times, but i never actually talked to him even though i message him for quite some times. i am too shy ok! haha... i only took a little glimpse of him, dang he's...really amusing lol

...where were we.? oh, i walked closer and closer to the hilux... and then, i was bout to go in, when suddenly i slipped!!!!!!!! arggghhhhh!!!!! i feel so embarrassed!!! this was the official meeting, and that incident just have to happened to me!!

here's the self-explanatory image for my slipped lol

that was kinda a bummer...emmm... so i sit there.. i was really nervous.. that's just the way i am. i dun really like meeting new people (though, he is not that 'new' XD) But after i while, i think i got used to him, we were almost the same age, so dun really feel like when i'm wit older people. i am still with my quite self. dun really had a conversation with him... fast forward again. we got lost and i feel so bad. and he was getting a little mad... i feel so bad bcoz i am totally not helping hm. i feel useless... i said "sorry sorry sorry sorry" in my hearts many times. and i think i was really close in tearing up. i dun even have any appetite.... it was 1pm.. we went to lunch neway. i didnt finish my food though. we talked about more things here..(and of coz, he's doing the talking and i'm just listening). what can i say..he's funny xD he said some funny things XD and he's also very wise for a.. u know, someone so young XD for some reason, all the employed people will says this to me: so hard to find work nowadays. Damn right it is hard! emm... ok, next go to more sad topic. i really hate it when people asked my race....*sigh* i hate my face... he asked the same thing... and i had to spill the bean out! nasib baik la ko a little cute, so i am not that angry lol that's what i thought hahaha... turns out, we are the same. no wonder he also looks a bit like chinese. i think awang is also like us, we can totally form a group lol... emm.... i hate this topic. so moving on! oh, 1 thing very much worth to be noted. in the car, we listened to hitz fm all the way. and i heard 'sumthing bout love' twice lol thank u hitz and thank u david. i think i was managed to be distracted from him for a while when i hear this song lol btw, sometimes he sings too lol dang it...stop being cute....haha.. emmm... what else i want to write about... i have no idea nomore, so i guess that's it?

bye2...

Random talk session 146: Music in my life

2010-09-26T01:29:00.008+08:00

hello diary.. it's 1:31 am now...Sunday.

yesterday (saturday) i went wit HAR to deliver. it was so tiring... what i hate most is that i had to wake up so early in the morning. Arrived at kuch at 4pm. thank goodness it didnt extend to 6pm pr sumthing..i assume so, bcoz we had to go to asajaya, serian and then bau...

i have this strange dilemma now. should i go with megabumi for delivering?????? Part of me says, "GOOOO" and part says, "NOOOOOOO".

The part that says "GO" want me to go because i want to see Megabumi's truck XD i already went with HAR and Satok Jaya, so i am really curious bout Megabumi's truck lol and there's also this very strong urge to meet that...guy, u kno. XDDDDDDDDD yes, actually that's the sole reason why in want to go deliver barang PUTERA with Megabumi XD

ok, next is the part that says "NO". it's because i'm to shy to meet him. yes, like usual, i'm so twisted in the inside. i kinda like the guy, but i dun want to meet him...*sigh* i shouldnt have message him to much. before. arghhh i want to divert this feelin dang it...Archuleta is not here, so he cant really do (eventhough he's doing a pretty good job XD lol)

well, i still havent made my mind... i guess we'll wait and see, this monday...

ok, next...still wanna talk about archuleta. this has been in my mind for days, and i think it's worth to blog.

u see, i have been repeating archuleta's songs (notably: crush, evelator and sumthing bout love). and i sing along. and i even look for the lyric. when u think about it, actually it's kinda amazing u know. because, i am a japanese freak, and i have been only listening and singing and memorizing japanese songs for like 9 years ago. and the last time that i love english song was when i was obsessed wit westlife. i memorized all the songs in the coast to coast album for goodness sake! but after i started watching anime, i totally abandon english song. there was this 1 point where i actually dun listen to english song at all! and now, thanks to david archuleta, i even think his songs are even better than japanese songs lol i cant believe this is happening.. sumthing actually win over my japanes overly obsession. or maybe i was just boring? emmm... if that's the case, then how sad it is... oh well, i think that's all... i dunno what else to say..

bye~

PS: sumthing amusing i forgot to mention. i was in sarawak plaza, and then on my way out i heard 'sumthing bout love' on the speaker. i went up to LEA centre and wandering there just to hear that song lol Good job LEA centre for airing that song XD i think the person that played the songs has almost the same taste in music wit me XD last time, they played 911 songs and made me download 911 songs after that XD

Random talk session 145: David Archuleta

2010-09-12T22:54:00.011+08:00

hello diary. today is 12.9.2010. it's sunday.

tomoro has to go to work, i feel so lazy la! emm.. anyways, the reason for this post.

i am in archuleta mood again XD i think he's so innocent and cute XD

but he's not very popular compare to Justin Bieber. it breaks my heart. *starts singing 'sumthing bout love'* i have nothing against bieber, i actually like his baby song.. emm...

This is 16 years old bieber (2010)

vs

16 years old Archuleta (2008)

i think it's either the eyes or the.. smile XD arghhh he's so cute it hurts! XD

biever wins the popularity. but to me, archuleta totally wins the cute XD

... btw. sumthing bout love is so catchy song!! i am so addicted to that song now.. *goes listen to it*

there's some interesting story about how i get into archuleta mood again. em, let me start wit how i knew of him a year ago. emm... come to think of it.. i dun really remember lol lemme think ya...

.......... i dun remember 0_o emm... i think it all started with the English version of 'ai nante' and then my friend asked me if it's someone name Daughtry sang it. and then i kinda curious of who is this guy and 1 thing leads to another, i think i came about david archuleta.. and then, i checked his american idols clips and i actually remember seeing it on tv. the kid wit the vocal paralysis XD and then, i downloaded a few other of his perf in american idols. i love the kid. just wanna squish him XD there was this time, where i was dining with my friend at Pohon Mas (RHB), and heard of this one song... and i recognized archuleta's voice XD ok, fast forward to time.. i was sitting at the office, and my friend was boring, so she listens to the radio from her hp. and then, there was this song, i found very catchy, and the singer sounds very, very familiar. i thought it sounded like david archuleta? . i havent listen to his song for like a year, so i was kinda in doubt. so i google the song, and dang! i was right. it was really david archuleta XDD deja vu much? XD and then after that, i begin to wacth and download his old videos again.. and 1 thing for sure. he's still so cute XDDDD i wanna keep him haha..

ok, i think that's all of my archuleta story.. bye2. until next time.

EDIT:
the story about my encounter wit david, i think it is a false memory lol. read here for the maybe more accurate story, i still cant really remember, so i cant confirm..

Random talk session 144: ANGRYYYYYY

2010-08-23T19:49:00.002+08:00

hi diary!

today is 23/8/2010. it's monday. i just want to say this:

"wow, you are so freakin annoying!"

that's all...

Random talk session 144: Life in GEMS part 24 (end)

2010-08-18T10:16:00.004+08:00

hello diary~

emm.. today is 18/8/2010. it's wednesday. I havent write here for so long.. that's most probably because ever since i started working, I have lost all mood to update my blog. A lot hav happened the past months. Especially the experience I got working with SEDC. I went travelling to Bau, Serian, Simunjan, Sri Aman, etc. There's also some bad things happened. I cried a lot more than ever since working in SEDC, in another word, I've become more emo. I dun like working here. Eventho my work is not that hard, but there is just too many things happened.. I want to get away from this place ASAP.

Oh, i think i will have to end this "life in GEMS" titles... so, this is gonna be the last..

Ok, enough of SEDC.. next is gonna talk abt my fandoms.. First, NEWS. They are gonna realease an album this september, and finally having a con at the end of this year. I feel happy, but obviously, my reaction was so much different that how I use to be. Like I said, the magic is gone.. I still wanna support them and I dun want them to lose though...

ok, next is about the seiyuu fandom. Lately I dwld-ed quite a few videos. And my highlights is the Hetalia DVD event XD It was...interesting, I guess XD I love namikawa XD I kinda hope he sings the tomato songs, but in the end, he didnt. There was not much of singing in the event.. They only sang marukaite chikyuu, and also that prussia guy got to sing 1 song. I dunno his seiyuu and not really a fan of the character, so yeah.. oh! And 1 amazing thing happened in the event XD At first, the casts are asked, who are the other the characters they wanted to do (beside their own character), and Konishi answered “Malaysia” XDDD I was really surprised when he said that. I wondered how in the world he kno about malaysia? My silly head even thought Morita must have mention to Konishi about his (morita) trip to Malaysia XDDDD The live dub in the event was also fun! I love it when they swapped characters XDD

After watching the dvd, I started to catch up wit the others ep of Hetalia. The anime is only like 5 min per ep, so it only took me 1 day to catch up about 40 eps XD emm.. oh, that remind me. Gintama anime had ended.. it's so sad T_T. I guess they ran out of stock material. The gap between the anime and the manga was too close. Well, there's a rumour that Gintama will do a second season after a while.. I do hope so! em.. dunno what else to write about.. so I guess that's it. Bye~ hona~! <-that's like “see u again next time” in kansai ben XD

Random talk session 143: Life in GEMS part 23

2010-05-29T21:01:00.008+08:00

hello diary. today is 29/5/2010. it's saturday.

argh, i simply hate my life. nothing seems to satisfy me except for money... i am always living with fear and anxiety..

life usually dont go according to plan, then why do we still making plan??? continuation of my SEDC story...at first i feel relieved when they said that my placement was gonna be at betong (which is at my hometown). And the next day, i got red eye, and was told to rest at home. so i didnt go for the induction, and who knows, this little act of not going for the induction was the cause of all my anxiety, my concerns. my misery, my sadness, my hardship,etc...arrrgghhhhh.. from my friend, i found out that my placement is at sri aman! but i didnt really believ it and tried to call them the whole day. i dun want to go to sri aman!!! if i cant get my hometown, then i would prefer kuching. but what can i do.. i wanted to call them and ask them to change me to HQ but i couldnt reach the person in charge. so, i just get ready to go back to my hometown.. the next day i finally able to contact her, and i finally get to transfer to HQ. but then, another problem arised. my mother already come to take me home, so i had to go back. and also on my way home, i found out that my friend cant rent the house that i was staying in before this.. i feel like "sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga" so many bad luck.. and that times, i wish i was in sri aman. can u see the irony? before this i really resent to go to sri aman... *sigh* but at that time, i really wish i just accept the offer to go to sri aman...

now, i feel like crying. i hate my week self... why cant i be stronger????

ok..enough of emo-ing, sambung later, i have to write abt what i am worrying so much abt now...

tomoro i will going back to kuch. the van is gonna pick me up at 6:30am. so early, rite? i am worry about tomoro. i wonder abt the new house. i think i dun mind even if the house is buruk, as long i hav place to live for the next 6 months... but then again, maybe i will mind it after all? the place is quite near to my work place though.. the pros and cons are balanced.. *sigh*

and also abt tomoro, how in the world i want to bring my stuffs to that place after i arrived at parkson??? i have too many stuffs! esp the computer. this is one of the times i really really regret for not having a laptop *sigh* i dunno if i should bring my computer tomoro? but if i dun bring it, life gonna be so boring..

and then, another major concern, is about my intern wit SEDC. arrghhh i bet i have made a very bad impression to them?? did i touble them for making me transfer to HQ? i hate to trouble people the most... i rather to be unnoticed.. i should have go to their office last wed (the closing ceremony) and discuss abt my placement with them rather than making it's so sudden like what i did..

and there also this batik day thing... i dun have batik clothes... better buy 1 then..

and also, the MC stuffs... what is that gonna be i wonder. i kno iwill hav to do it soon or later and i am so gonna be so much fail. T_T arghhhh

i hate this..so many things to concerns abt...

and most of all, i feel so sad for having to leave home again... sobs..

to be continue...

Random talk session 142: Life in GEMS part 22

2010-05-26T23:00:00.004+08:00

hello diary! today is27/5/2010. it's 12:46 am now.. Thursday..

finish the 2.5 moths indoor course on 12th may. gah, miss my company so much! miss my roommates! miss penview!!!

ah, i was re-reading my past entries about how i really hated to go for the GEMS program, but now i really miss it a lot!

emm..been soooo long since i update.. many things happened, but i forgot.. so i guess, it will only remain in memory and not in this blog lol

ok...about induction in SEDC.

i came for the 1 day only. bcoz i had red eye on the 2nd day! i went to the office, but then i was advised to go to clinic and rest. ah, i feel so lost. thankfully, one of the SEDC staff helped me to go to the clinic. i feel so bad, bcoz i had to trouble him.

emm..so also didnt go for the closing ceremony for the induction. wuu, so sad! i wish i was there..

emm.. ok, so i was place at sri aman! but i dun want! i want to change to HQ. i called SEDC earlier abt this, but they didnt called me back... i want to work at kuch... the internet is quiet fast here, and i also still hav that plan to go karaoke wit my friend!!! wuuu!!! so sad!!! i love kuch..

randoM, one of the non-GEMS intern was kinda cute ahahahaha

ahaha... oh, abt the guy in GEMS... i found his FB. the real one...omg he's 6 years younger than me!!! i feel like a pedophile *slap self* this feeling is sooo wrong!! i should forget him!!! ..but then again darn he' s so cute *_* *stares at pic that i stole form his FB* omg i still love him aarrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ok, to be continue...

Random talk session 141: Life in GEMS part 21

2010-04-25T13:31:00.001+08:00

hello diary...today is 25/4/2010..it's sunday..

emm...lots of things happened the past week, but i am so lazy to update..i guess, the reason that i update so much before this was bcoz i want to say sumthing about the guy..but since i dun see him anymore, i really dont have the mood to update..

i am still sad..

so...

i dunno what to say...

-to be continue-

Random talk session 140: Life in GEMS part 20

2010-04-15T12:35:00.005+08:00

hello diary! today is thursday, 15/4/2010.

wow, been 3 days since i updated...

emm...today is the 2nd day for the problem solving module...this module is ok..bcoz it doesnt involve interacting with people, but more on how to solve problems..

yesterday..was not so good day..for this week's speaker corner, we r doing impromtu speech..i, once again, cant control my emotion and starts to cry when i cant do the speech for speaker corner. i dun want to cry, but tears just keep on flowing!! i am so mad at myself!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID EMOTION!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's y i hate presenting..emm...

what else happened? .... emm...nothing much i guess... this week i do newsletter...lol, tu pun nk bgtau...

i still havent see the guy... it's more than a week now... maybe he quit being t he secretriat??? nooooo!!!!!!!!!!! i am so sad T_T he is the sunshine in my rainy day, he is the moon in the lonely nite, he is the joy in my sad GEMS life...T_T i hav the feeling that i wont be seeing him again...this is so freakin sad...

-to be continue-

edited on 5:34pm..
emm..the internet is so sllow..i cant attach the newsletter... ok, the real reason for this edit.

during the gathering of all the companies who r doing problem solving module, one of the secretriat took the pictures. that made me thinking...looks like he really isnt here anymore... T________T i mean, this job is usually done by him...

aiiii....

Random talk session 139: Life in GEMS part 19

2010-04-12T12:43:00.003+08:00

hello diary! today is 12 april. it's monday. today starts the interpersonal comunication module. truthfully, i hate this module. but what can i do? i still must give my full attention and participate in the class. i just dun care anymore...whatever la... i still hate speakin in front... just doing this for the sake of the company...arggghh!!!!!!!!! i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..enough about that..

wanna tell the story of what happened this weekend. On friday, i go back to my hometown. in the morning, i go to our company..something not so good happened...it's like a express ur feeling session..what am i not satisfied with?? nothing. really nothing. if there is someone or something i am not satisfied with, it's just me. i hate myself for being so incompetent, for being so lack of knowledge and so not smart...ok, this is getting depressing, let's move to the next topic..

on saturday, i go to sri aman for the SPA test.. i dunno how to answer the questions.. esp the general knowledge part. and then the math test, i only manage to answer half of the questions. and then the essay..wow, i am only writing nonsense. even the penyelia peperiksaan said what i wrote is wrong...

and then on sunday, i go bcak to kuch..arrive at penview at about 1pm. and then later that evening, i suddenly received a phone call from my friend, and invite me to go to jalan2 and karaoke-ing. There was 5 of us. at first we went to Spring, but sadly, the place is full. so then we went to BDC. After that we went to eat at pizza hut. yum~ i have been wanting to eat pizza for a while..i still want to eat..hehe.. That night, we actually had briefing with Tn Haij, so we were really worried that we were gonna be late, thankfully we did make it on time..after thet briefing, we go out again...at first we want to go watch movie, but it was close. so we just went to water front and eat the donuts that we bought in spring earlier..we went home at about 1:30am..wow.. so late..hehe

ok, next topic...the cute guy!! omg i havent seen him for almost 1 week!! i wonder where he is!! where??? :0 i miss that darn guy so much!!!

-to be continue-

Random talk session 138: Life in GEMS part 18

2010-04-06T19:46:00.003+08:00

hello diary~ today is 6/4/2010. it's tuesday. emm..today i present again..so many presentation..well, it is the presentation skills module...emm...i still dun like speaking.. maybe i've gain a little bit knowledge on presentation skills, but my speaking skill isnt improving...

emm...i m sad. i did some blunder...i am so bad in doing things... and what's more, i didnt see the guy today... when i'm sad, i miss him even more...aiiii...

dunno what else to write..

emm...ok...what abt this...this guy i am always stalking..i wonder how old he is...i thought he is 20 sumthing, maybe even older than me..but, most probably i'm wrong. i heard some rumor that he just finish his spm..that's means, he's 17 sumthing. omg and i have been liking this guy like crazy. i so dont want to be a pedophile!! haha..well..i guess, no matter what, i am still gonna gaze just a little bit longer at him..as he and his smile is the ease for my sad heart..

-to be continue-

Random talk session 137: Life in GEMS part 17

2010-04-05T13:11:00.005+08:00

hello diary! today is 5/4/2010. it's monday...now is 1:13pm. i had just lunch and now at the lab com.

today we start a new module, which is presentation skills. oh, and also today is my 3rd speaker corner. the topic is "the most memorable moment in my life" i told the story about my PKN times. my speech this time, i guess a little better than the last time, but still very bad. i am just never gonna good speaker, as i really hate to speak and i totally hate people looking at me.

today, during lunch just now..i saw the guy XD ahhhhhh seriously i cant stand to c him bcoz he's sooooo cute!!!! geram tengok dia XDD he was taking the drinking water, and that time i also wanted to take the water. at first i just want to look at him from the back, but it would look too obvious if i just stand there. He went to take the glass, and then i took mine too. i smell the glass, and then he was like, smell his glass too. oh god he's sooooooooooooooo cute XDDD somebody kidnap him for me please!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDD

-to be continue-

Random talk session 136: Life in GEMS part 16

2010-04-03T14:08:00.004+08:00

Hello diary..today is 3/4/2010, it's saturday..

emm, as usual, this week was a busy week, i didnt update my blog for days...

today was the english fair...i am so happy bcoz our company won the newscasting category. yay!! good job mellisa, norlida and mildred!!

2 days ago on 2/4/201o, i was really sad bcoz we were beaten at the semi final for debate... we also didnt get to the final for the sales presentation..but i still want to say good job to all the members..eventho we didnt win, we did try our best..

ok next...dun remember anymore..

about the guy.. today.. i saw him..and he was kinda close (maybe about 30 cm) kyaahhhhh...i am so happy XDDD i wanted to see him a little longer, but there were so many people, so i cant be to obvious...i want to c him again..aarrghhh..this feeling...i dun like it, but i also like it...so complex...

dunno what else to say...

oh..on thurday, i slept so late bcoz i was doing the newsletter...i slept at 3am...

what else...emm...dunno anymore..so..

-to be continue-

Random talk session 135: Life in GEMS part 15

2010-03-30T13:36:00.002+08:00

hello diary..today is 30th mac. it's wed...

emm....we will have the 2nd preliminary round for debate tonite..our company will be facing Ruby...wuu...i hope we can win..

i am involve in sales presention...but it doesnt go really well it seems...emm... i kinda hope we can go to the final at least...

yesterday finally i saw the guy XDD i didnt see him for 2 days, so i am really glad when he came to the debate 1st preliminary XDDDD

and then, this morning, i saw him again XDD as usual, he is taking pictures of the class..haha.. also, i saw him earlier too...he was bringing some kotak to the lab com?? or sumthing...

emm..i am still feeling not good today..so...

-to be continue-

Random talk session 134: Life in GEMS part 14

2010-03-28T13:22:00.003+08:00

hello diary~ today is 28/3/2010. it's sunday..

emm....yesterday (sat) didnt c the guy...and today too...i wonder wht's he's doing..where he is..i didnt even see him during lunch or dinner...emmm...

ahh...on friday..i took off the decoration in the office...i think i made quite a stir...aiiii...i feel so guilty!!!! what should i do to repent???? .............i am so sad.....

tomoro start english class...wuuu...

emm...i have no idea...

wait...i dreamt of NEWS.. i have been neglecting them for quite some time ever since i start stalking the guy...haha..i am such a bad fan!!! i am so sorry oh my dear NEWS....

oh, and on fri, finally watched hyoutei eternity's perf in tenipuri festa..i lol-ed XDDDD hahaah...i dun kno...it's kinda funny...i still love the guy nonetheless XDD

ok, no more idea again..

-to be continue-

Random talk session 133: Life in GEMS part 13

2010-03-26T18:06:00.005+08:00

hello diary! today is 26/3/2010. it's friday...

emm...today..no class, but we have a public speaking competition between companies. sadly, we didnt win. Our representatives (zarina n aizuddin) did a good job, it's just they were not lucky enough to pick the hard topic...well, better luck next time i guess... oh, addditional note, that termizi guy was so funny! haha he's so selamba~ haha.. in the end, he was like, "peace!" and said "spread love!!" lol and that aziz iban guy, also funny...he said he dun really sing english song, but only sing iban songs hahaha...and also, lol @ aizuddin, singing "i believe i can fly" hahaha

ok..next, on the afternoon, at 4:30pm we have sport activities...i was watching the ping pong competition..again, we lost...but i think our team done a very very good job!!!! ian and rizal, GOOD JOB!!!

....next topic~~ about the cute guy...during the sport activity, i saw him XD at one time, he was just in front of me...he's sooooooo cute~~~ i feel like kissing his cheek..HIS CHEEK, OK!!!!!!!! NOT THAT KINDA KISS!! ahh...why so cute...

oh, i also saw the guy in the morning during the public speaking corner...he was in front of me too...not that close, but not that far too also..like, medium only XD i was staring at him while trying to avoid eye contact wit him...i really hope he didnt notice me...... i am a really twisted girl in the inside... i dun want the person that i like to kno my existence, and most importantly, i dun want him to kno my feelings...aii..so complicated..

during the short break of the public speaking, there was a acara selingan, and one of our company member read a joke...but sadly seems like nobody get the joke, even that guy, haha. i was really amused seeing the guy looking blur XD haha blur blur pun, masih nampk kiut XDDDD hahahah

emm...what else..oh, a little about the class..

on tuesday and monday was the grooming module..our trainer was haji shukri. it was..kinda fun i guess XD eventho i really dislike doing make up and stuffs...

and then on wed and thurs is the project management module. we were soooo busy!!!! omg really busy!!! that's y i didnt hav time to update my blog...

on wed, we work until 12:30am to finish the slide show...

on thursay nite pula, we hav auditoring session...thank goodness i didnt get chosen to be interview... we went back at a bout 11pm...

and my 2nd speaker corner was on thursday. my topic was the advantage of self employment..as usual, my speech is bleh....

emm...need to do sumthing..i guess that's all...

-to be continue-

Random talk session 132: Life in GEMS part 12

2010-03-23T10:04:00.005+08:00

hello diary~ today is 23/3/2010 it's tuesday...

yesterday...was a tough day..in all means...i dun want to talk about it...

emm...yesterday...i didnt eat anything...wow...i didnt have breakfast, lunch or dinner...and this morning, i didnt take any breakfast too..and now it's lunch time, and i am still not eating, but doing this blog entry instead... i am surprised i am still have the energy now...*sigh* oh, i also didnt drink anything since yesterday afternoon..omg..i am surprised i can hold that long. usually i can tahan x makan, but i really cant tahan x minum...well...it's obvious, i was really, really, really sad yesterday. it is officially one the black moments in my life...well..like i said, life goes on. i cant dwell on it for long time...

what else...about that guy..emm...did i saw him yesterday let me think..oh yes, i did. now i remember. i saw him when i was about to go to lunch, while waiting for my friend near the stairchase to the basement...

and that's it...i didnt see him again after that T_T

today i saw him at our office XD ah, why so cute~ and to be honest, he's really distracting. esp when he's behind me...and when he's in front of me...he became more distracting..i just want to stare at him forever..XD

emm...that's all..

oh yeah, today i'm a little sick...has slight fever...i woke up wit the weirdest voice..haha..

that's all for today..

-to be continue-

Random talk session 131: Life in GEMS part 11

2010-03-21T14:39:00.004+08:00

hello diary~ it's 21/3/2010. it's sunday...emm....

today also didnt see him... i didnt see him for 2 days now..where are u???? T_T aitakata... last nite, i dreamt of him again.. and it's the 3rd time in a row XDDD

woke up wit a sore throat...ahh...so uncomfortable... i think i am gonna be sick after a few days...aii..

emm...yesterday..i berendam in the tub. hahaha. and i berendam so late, at 12am.. is that related to my sore throat? haha..

at noon, i went to the everise to buy sumthing for the office..i also bought ANOTHER shoes. aaaghhh..i hope this is the last shoe i need to buy... also bought some make up stuffs..haiya..next week is grooming..i am so uninterested wit this kinda thing...

that's all...

-to be continue-

Random talk session 130: Life in GEMS part 10

2010-03-20T20:35:00.002+08:00

hello diary. today is 20/3/2010. it's saturday.

today...i didnt see him T_T

last nite, was the voting for the new CEO. i saw him on the way to the office...after the voting we went to the basement, for the so-called induction for the new GEMS participants. i saw him again.. i notice sumthing about this guy, so small, but he laugh so loud! haha! i think he's the Do-S type hahaha.

emm....what else...dun much to say...

-to be continue-

Random talk session 129: Life in GEMS part 9

2010-03-18T17:12:00.004+08:00

hello diary! today is 18/3/2010. it's thursday.

during lunch, sumthing really good happen to me..i'll tell the story later...so, anyway..that sumthing, it made me really, really, really, really happy, and then i kno, sumthing bad, real bad gonna comes up next. and how true was it. i cried during the bi class. i felt so ashame of myself!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MYSELF. I DONT BLAME ANYONE, i dont blame or hold any grudge to the person who chose me to go, or the trainer or even the one who criticize me, bcoz i kno, what they had said were the truth, and i dun mind. the one who really made me mad and angry and sad is myself. i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO STUPID!!!!!!!! WHY THE HELL AM I LIKE THIS??????????? BEING SO OVERLY EMOTIONAL OVER SUCH SMALL MATTERS!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!! STUPID!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FREAKIN DAMN HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our mentor even gave me some advice and all... i made such a fool out of myself. and now everyone kno how weird i am!! arghhhhh!!

ahh!! dun want to talk about this anymore...what pass have pass la. i dun want to remember it anymore, specially when it involve an unpleasant memories like this...*sigh*

...ok...about the good thing that happen...what else...about that guy la haha. i had been wanting to eat on the same table with him since..i saw him eating in the basement (meal time) XDDD and then, finally today, my wish was realized XDDDD it was like...fate lol no la... actually i didnt want to go lunch today, but my friend persuade me bcoz i didnt even took any breakfast or eat anything during tea time. i'm so glad that i did XDDD

his friend was on the same table where i and my friend were eating..so he went there to eat... at first we was like, only brought the rice lol he said sumthing like this: how silly! why did i only take the rice??? oh gawd the cuteness kills me XDDDDD hahahaha i want to cuddle him like a teddy bear XDDDD when he said that i looked at his plate and saw the rice and i tried really hard to contained myself from laughing too hard XDDD and not to mention my heart was beating like crazy bcoz he was too close XDDDDDDDD but the problem when he's so close, i cant stare at him, bcoz if i do, of coz he is gonna found out! i dun want him to notice me.. ah, i also tried to take a pic of him, but i fail bcoz it's too hard!! cant have a good view..he's too close..it's really obvious if i try to take picture of him... ahhhh..i miss him already..i wish i can see him during dinner at 6:30pm XD (now is 6pm) hahahahah

eemm...what else??? dunno what to add...so..

-to be continue-

Random talk session 128: Life in GEMS part 8

2010-03-17T13:24:00.003+08:00

hello diary~ today is 17/3/2010. it's wednesday...

today...still bi class...aii.. dunno what to write...emm...bi class is..ordinary...still not happy... everybody is on a higher level, i feel so out of place here

i hate this GEMS stuffs. haiya. i hope time would pass more faster...i want to get out of here a.s.a.p. but still... there's someone that i am very fond of here... to just have a little glimpse of him, make my day..and i'll forgot for a while the suffering in this program...

saw him at the basement, during lunch... he was quite close this time XDDD i wanted to take some picture of him secretly, but i dun hav the opportunity*sigh* besides, there are too many people, i dun want to kantoi myself hahahaha... maybe next time la XDDD

...emm..dunno wht to say anymore...that's it i guess...

-to be continue-

Random talk session 127: Life in GEMS part 7

2010-03-16T16:31:00.008+08:00

hello diary. today is 16/3/2010. it's tuesday.

today is very tiring day. i feel so sleepy and sometimes had some headache bcoz i didnt hav enough sleep last night..here goes the story..

yesterday nite, we had a sudden meeting at 10pm. it was about the speaker corner. i ~~foolishly,~~ volunteer myself to be one of the 4 speakers...well, i was just want it to be over as soon as possible... aii. i thought it's gonna be the last one, but seems like 1 participant will talk for about 4 topics. so for me, 1 down, 3 to go...

em, so my topic was "the characterictic of the best employee". The meeting ended quite late yesterday, at about 11pm. after that i went online to find some info on the topic. i came home at at about 11:30pm and then started to make the script for my presentation. I was already exhausted bcoz i never had enough sleep from the 1st time that i come here. i slept at 2am i think while still trying to memorize the script...and woke up at 7:00am...after woke up, still tried to memorize it again.... aii...so tired la!!! when i am writing this, my head feel so heavy! so much suffering here...

anyway,,about my presentation this morning. well, as always, very horrible. i just cant never able to speak well, and dun even make me to present well. i cant even talk with my closest friend properly, how do u expect me to speak or present well in front of many strangers??????????? many people said that this course will change us, will make us better in term of presentation skill, communication skills, but truthfully, i dun think i'll change that easily... it's not that i dun want to change, but it's my brain. i am not that bright, there's seriously sumthing wrong wit how my brain work... i cant think of any novel ideas and depends heavily on facts. i dun want to be like this too, but..what can i do????? this is who i am!

................................ saw him again. i thought i am not gonna c him today lol he was taking some sashin..

-to be continue-

Random talk session 126: Life in GEMS part 6-spamming

2010-03-14T17:49:00.013+08:00

hello diary! i'm spamming again...the 2nd post of the day..

now is 5:53pm...and i am still at the computer lab. and... suddenly he appeared! and at the moment that he came in, i dropped my pendrive's cap...lol i wonder if it was bcoz i was too shocked? haha. tho, i did kinda wish to c him not too long ago...

i heard he's talking abt the computer upstair (i think he meant in the office? or maybe in his room?) and i think he was surfing facebook lol he was saying sumthing about the computer (facebook) is too slow XD hahaha i am gonna give the same comment about gintoki: he's so cute when he's wining XDDDD hahaha

oh God, please dun make me see him again....i want to be sad and despair and in the most fear state so that i can face tomoro english class. i need all these negative feelings as my energy..i need to feel that way, so that tomoro is not gonna be as bad as it is, since it is already the worst...

-to be continue-

ps: by the time i finish writing this blog (6:08pm) he already left the room... :'(

EDIT:

it's 6:11pm. and he came back again *facepalm*

tomoro is gonna be worst than hell...

he went out at 6:20pm+ sumthing n said sumthing like want to go to sleep or sumthing hahahahahaha stop being so damn cute damn it!! XD i can imagine his cute smile XDDD oh massu, sorry, but he so wins the smile right now XDD

EDIT 2: 6:30pm he's back again lol and now wearing the man u jacket again lol and now i am kinda happy that my towel has man u logo on it hahahahahahaha

6:34 pm he's out :'C i think he went to go eat? should i stop online and stalk him at the restaurant?? XDDD hahahaha emm, oh now i kno, he was waiting for his friend XD

oh no, now it's only me in the com lab..should i ~~stalk him~~ go out too? emm...

ah, the server is kinda good right now, so i guess i'll wait for a little while..

EDIT 3: it's 7:05 pm. out of curiousity, i tried to find his facebook and i think i found it...this guy...is...really weird...like, really weird...lol and i think he's already in a relationship. it's ok, it's ok ~~*crying in the inside*~~ i love to stare at him, but that's bcoz i think i like him like an idol. like how i love yamapi or yuya or massu or shige or koyama...
EDIT 27/5/2010. FALSE ALARM. THE FB THAT I SAID I FOUND WAS NOT HIS. IT WAS A MISTAKEN IDENTITY CASE. THE GUYS IS NORMAL. HE'S TOTALLY NOT WEIRD LIKE I THINK LOL

so, once again, i want to emphasize, i like him like an idol only, like how i love the NEWS members..it's not really love. i dun think i can genuinely fall in love... even before this, when i start to hav this feeling, i had predicted, that after some while, i'll forgot about him, that this feeling wont last long..but i guess, since he is still here, i'll gaze at him for a little longer...

Random talk session 125: Life in GEMS Part 5-hate and love

2010-03-14T15:04:00.013+08:00

hello dairy. today is 14/3/2010, it's sunday..

i am still sad about the english placement...and getting nervous since the class start tomoro. DOOMSDAY TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! i like blogging in english but i totally totally hate to speak in english!!! cant they freakin understand?????? arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like cyring everytime i think of this. i cant stand it....i cant...

tomoro..is...gonna...be...hell.......

ok...i'll stop being emo now, and talk about...ya kno..the happy thing XD today...saw him again during lunch time.. i didnt expect to c him there XD haha

yesterday, i went to the secretriat's office to ask about the timesheet. i was sooo nervous that he might be in the room XDDDDDDDDDDD but at the same time, i want to c him..but i dun want him to c me, i dun want to talk to him.. i opened the door very, very slowly, so that i can prepare myself haha thankfully, he was not there! haha XDDD

i guess the only times i got to talk to him was during the register day...ops, i'll stop at that XDDDDD i cant reveal too much information XDDDD i'll start to giggle everytime i think of that..bcoz it's kinda funny...the only thing that i talk to him about..haha..

anyway, during the register day, i was still nervous and blur. i didnt even notice the guy until i sat down on the chair and lift my head to talk to him...and then i think something "spark" inside of me...~~wait..or maybe it was just me thinking he's too young to be one of the secretriat of GEMS lol~~ anyway, where was i...oh! after that, i didnt really think of him, bcoz i was feeling sad that i had to join this GEMS program...and that nite, during induction, i saw him again...

the next day... i saw him again... and before i knew it... i start to feel like i want to c him again and again and again and again and again...

...omg...wait!!!!!!!!!!!!! during the explorace...i think i was too excited, so i was shouting and he was there too. he must have heard me and thought i'm crazy???? omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *DIES*

-to be continue-

Random talk session 124: Life in GEMS Part 4-i hate speaking english

2010-03-13T20:06:00.012+08:00

hello diary. today is 13/3/10 it's saturday...

writing from the com lab. right now i am so sad and frustated, and sad and angry and sad and sad and sad...and sad...

the english test result..dh keluar. see, i dunno how to say that in english, see how bad it is!!!!!! WTH do i hav to be put in the high class???????????? arghhhHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE GETTING OUT OF THIS PLACE!!!!!!!!! WHY DID I HAVE TO BE SO STUPID WHEN I ANSWERED THE TEST!!! I AM TOO DAMN NAIVE AND DUN THINK OF THE CONSEQUENCES!!!!! ARGHHHH I AM SO MAD AT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULD HAVE PURPOSELY CHOOSE THE WRONG ANSWER SO THAT I WILL NOT END UP IN THE HIGH CLASS!!!!!!

when i'm blogging, i always use simple english and my grammar sux like hell!!!! and my english speaking ability is the worst of the worst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and now i have to compete with the other people who use english as their 1st language!!!!! I'm TOTALLY DOOM!!!!!!!! i dun really mind if it only involve me, but this also involve my company!!! i am gonna bring our company's BKSE down for goodnesss sake!!!!!!!! I WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...and then...he just had to show up ~~wearing a man u bright red jacket which was supposed to make him look like a cool handsome man but fail just bcoz he's too damn cute in my eyes~~...and i cried....i still want to stay here just to have a glimpse of him. i'm pathetic. i better jump of some cliff right now....

..to be continue....

Random talk session 123: Life in GEMS Part 3

2010-03-12T12:01:00.007+08:00

Hello diarY!!! today is 12th of mac!! it's friday!!!

i am at penview!!! joining the GEMS program...emm....i've been here 5 days already...but it felt longer....aii...baru 5 days...

about GEMS...omg..so tiring...and also..seems like this is gonna be a raal challenge to me...aiii..admin and bussiness...and project manageemnt...i dunno abt all that la...i am not really interested...i want to work in a closed environment actually..aiii....BUT...BUT!!! BUT!!!!!! omg....i...i..i...should i say it here????? i hope nobody reads it...but it's gonna be very very very very very very embarassing if any of my friends or any of the GEMS participate found this blog 0_o

ok...la...i tell la..but to be safe, i want to do it in japanese XD

koko wa, kawaii no hito ga iru!! cho kawaiiiii!!! DAISUKI DESU!!!!!!! demo, kono hito no namae ga shiranai lol i m becoming like kondo and sa-chan...a stalker XDD hahaha

seriously, watashi wa, kono hito ga zutto kangaiimasu (lol, i think this is a wrong sentence XDDD). i dun even think of my dear NEWS-tachi anymore *bricked real hard*

..to be continue...

Random talk session 122: GEMS Part 2

2010-03-05T01:10:00.003+08:00

hello diary! today is 5/3/2010. it's friday morning...1:12am now...

ok, i should write about the interview for GEMS last Monday earlier, but i didn't bcoz i was busy trying to dwld Gintama but failed in all darn times!! grrrrr!!!

so anyway...

on 1/3/2010, last Monday i went to Penview hotel for the GEMS interview. i dunno where the venue and was kinda lost. then, there was 1 guy told me that the GEMS session is at level 1 (i was at Ground Level). So, i went to the lift to go to level 1 and suddenly there was this girl called out to me, "malini ka?" she said. i replied yes XD i didnt kno her, (but she does look kinda familiar XD) i was like: ehh?? how she know me? lol turns out she was a friend of my friend XD

and then we went to this 1 room for the interview. we were the 1st ones lol

the interviewers came at 10am. and then they make a brief introduction about GEMS. after that we fill in a form and submitted misc certificates.

and then finally the interview. we were asked to make some kind of self introduction, tell our name, background and then why want to join GEMS, in english D:

......and then, it was my turn. omg, i look pretty calm on the outside, but the inside, everything goes all haywire!! my heart pumping like crazy, my mind going insane with intensity!!! and then, the result, me sprouting nonsense!!! arghhhhh!!! i really hate presenting (read: i hate people looking at me). what said was really a messed!

emm...really wish my english was better. i have been blogging in english 3 years. Looking back at my old blog entry in MP, it really bad (i actually feel ashamed reading them lolz
) lol esp my grammar, and i think i still sux at it now XDDD my vocabulary is quite ok i guess, but darn my grammar. *shakes head* ...anyway, like i said, 3 years. writing comment, interacting wit my fellow online friends for 3 years, i wonder if that has increase my english speaking ability a little bit..eventho i didnt really interact orally..

emm...what else...emm..oh, earlier, at abt 8pm, the person from GEMS called me, so i am confirmed to join in. Gonna go to Kuching this saturday. Register on Sunday, at Penview again. emm...

i've activated my broadband last tuesday, but the connection is really, really, very unstable!!! what's wrong celcom????? it's making me very angry!!! i need to watch and dwld gintama bfor i went to kuch this saturday yo!!! please!!!!!!!!!!

ok, that's all. *sigh* maybe i'll update times to times abt this GEMS...hope there's pc for me to online during the course...

Random talk session 121: GEMS?

2010-02-22T01:20:00.004+08:00

hello diary..

ok, i wrote abt this in my MP page, which is kinda rare...That page is supposed to be for fangirling purpose and i seldom post anything related to myself there...ah, anyway..want to add some more things abt it..

I HATE MY LIFE
I HATE THE PROGRAME I KNO I WILL BCOZ I NEVER LIKE PLKN
I HATE TO INTERACT WIT PEOPLE I DONT KNOW
I HATE SPEAKING ENGLISH
I HATE PRESENTING
I HATE ME

ok, that's all...

i am so sad ok!!!!!!!!!

Random talk session 120: tenipuri and JE

2010-02-15T19:05:00.004+08:00

Hello diary~ Today is 15/2/10. it's monday.

yesterday tv3 didnt air merlin T_T. ah well, i still hav hallmark XD This tuesday. hehe. oh, also yesterday's Raja Lawak. Caca's out. only 4 people remaining. i hope mamu can be in the top3, but dunno y i hav the feeling they are the next to go next week. aiii...

next topic. still struggling to dwld tenipuri festa backstage. i failed 2 time!!! gggrrrrr!! *pulls hair* i feel so mad!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRFGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*calms down. reads the quote at the right side of site. /sighs/*

..... ok, let's get to the random. tenipuri and JE.. i dun watch tenipuri. wait, that's wrong. i've watched it but just nvr finished it lol besides, i already kno the ending. i think. ryoma pretty much won everything. seigaku also pretty much won everything. the only thing that make me watch some of the eps is to c atobe XD and ended liking hyoutei bcoz of the voice actors haha.

ok, about hyoutei's tennis club. they are bunch of selfish people lol in a JE comparison, hyoutei is like kattun. the members are not that friendly wit each other, they hav problem wit team works, bunch of troulesome guys XD haha. it's very Kattun. well, i dun really kattun that well, or even hyoutei. this is just what i think. haha.

then...i thought...what about NEWS. which team of tenipuri r them? emm....truthfully i dunno.haha. i'm thinking seigaku XD

as for kanjani, i think they are shitenhouji. lolz i dunno anything abt shitenhouji, but i think they are bunch of funny people XD

as for arashi..emm..rokkaku maybe? lolz i dun have any idea..

HSJ..emm....higa? lolz jk jk. i dunno...emm...

i cant think anymore....the point is i think hyoutei is like kattun..haha. ok, end!!

Random talk session 119: tenipuri festa

2010-02-14T03:28:00.010+08:00

hello diary!! ohisahiburi!! today is sunday, 14/2/2010. it's Chinese New Year!!! Gong xi fa cai to those who celebrates! ^_________^

it's also valentine's day~

ok, nothing really special, worth mentioning happened to me. still having no job. *sigh*but there's a lot thing from fandom!! read my MP entry for NEWS updates XD

and! and! and!! tenipuri festa dwld link is uP!!!!!!!! khsdfhshf it exist!!! oh dear GOD. i thank u. bless the people who share these files!! unlike jpop, the seiyuu fandom is not that popular. it's almost impossible to find sub..wait. let me correct that. it's totally impossible to find sub for various seiyuu events. oh, before talking abt the sub, i should ramble about the actual videos (i meant the dvd of these events, cd, etc) first. not many eng-speaking comm share media:video stuffs.. sometimes i really feel like backing out from this fandom, and return to how things was. that is, to fangirl the "voice" only and not the person wit the voice.*sigh* But still, i cant consider myself a true fan right now. i am just someone interested wit seiyuu. yes. only that. i cant make myself to be too involve. how i wish NEWS can get more activities so i can be distracted from this fandom, just like the seiyuu fandom distract me from NEWS fandom 2 years ago XD anyway, back to tenipuri....the dwld link is up but i cant dwld it *cries a river* my internet connection is too slow and too unstable!!! the dvd is 1gb++ for goodness sake *pulls hair* arrghhhh!!!!! i am happy and frustated at the same time!!!! i wanna c namikawa!!!! suwabe!!!!! kiuchi!!! and the rest of hyoutei!!!! from seigaku, okiayu!!! hiroki!!!! arrghhhh!!!!!!!!!!

end!

EDIT: Since many people asked for it, click HERE for the festa.
And dont forget to thank the uploader ya :D TQ

Random talk session 118

2010-01-21T19:32:00.004+08:00

Hello diary! today is 21/1/2010, it's thursday~

yesterday my father was admitted to the hosp. wait, is that sentence right? sounds weird tho. i think the doctors made a wrong diagnose. the symptoms that my father had were the same wit me when i got the stomach flu sickness. they thought it was appendix. really make me wanna say "WTH??"

emm...what else...oh, about tenipuri event dvd. i wrote in my MP site.
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wow, i have no idea now. actually.yeah,really.

bye. hee?? so short!

EDIT:
someone made a very offensive comment in this post. i deleted it bcoz it makes me sad and angry. what did i do wrong????? are u the doc who diagnosed my father??? so u feel offended when i said the doctor mayb had made a wrong diagnosed?? then, i'm sorry!! but u shouldnt say that kind of thing in my blog. i was sad that my dad was sick and then this comment just make me even sadder. i hate conflict!! why human can be so mean????

Random talk session 117: lalala

2010-01-13T01:58:00.006+08:00

hello diarY! today is 13/1/2010, wednesday~ morning~

i finally dwld-ed nesa no ou~ i have been wanting to find this BL drama for quite some time. 1 year or so? XDD

comment? em. it's ok XD well, i love both seiyuu, so yeah XDDD ok, seriously, story-wise, i kinda like it XD in the beginning, the seme is too aggressive tho. i really dislike that kinda character. but in the midde, i think he's ok XDDD i think it's bcoz of my toriumi bias XDD haha. and suzuken is so cute XD. he's using the typical young voice, like hikaru in ouran. i'm REALLY relieve his character is not like an annoying girl!! bcoz his voice can be like that if he want too haha. as for toriumi, he is a serious character..his voice, like always, doesnt really change.

wuu, wanna hear more toriumi x suzuken~ i wonder if there's suzuken x toriumi? haha.

emm..i have been hearing a lot BL dramas lately. i feel so dirty...ahahahahahah..

enough of that topic, i must cleanse my soul ahaha besides, there arent any BL dramas i want to find anymore at this moment...

oh, early this morning, i watched a suwabe slide show in utube. gah. here's what i write while watching it...

Gah. what is this weird feeling when i c a slide show of suwabe's pictures in utube....why i feel so happy? toki doki feeling *_* the same feeling i got whn listening to his song.. i dun even kno the guy that much...but i want to kno more abt him....i dun think i love him that much (really?)...he's not that handsome. he's old. he has a short chin lol..he can be such a pervert sometimes lol. i should only adore his voice only but why do i feel like i want to meet him..why..why...??? darn suwabe. why is he making me confuse abt my feeling? lol

..........ok, i realize sumthing. one thing i really love abt him (apart from his voice XD)..his smile. OH GAWD. THAT SMILE WHEN HE LAUGHS HDSJFHSSKJFDFFDJDF. Now i remember, he kinda remind me of massu XD

when he had this haircut, he kinda looked like massu XD

*sigh* i miss him. i wonder what he's doing now. i dun even have a clue. for the last 2 years....

.............ok, now onto real life. there was fogging at our long house yesterday. but, there was no fog. i mean, no smoke. so weird! i wonder if it's new way of fogging now?? what else..em..nothing much. i am only sleeping at home. wish i can have a job and buy some suwabe's stuffs lol

that's all......bye~

Random talk session 116: facepalm

2010-01-12T03:47:00.009+08:00

hello diary! today is 12/1/09, it's tuesday since it's past 12am already XD nw is 3:48am

*facepalm* (again)

bcoz of this:

see the guy in the yellow shirt!!! wit that hair O_o

watch him HERE. he is doing the role of a wind (?) XDDDDDD hahahhhaa

it's suwabe...the pic is so small, but i can still recognize him XD WHY IS HIS HAIR SO PECULIARLY LONG?? o_o

......................emm........ i think i actually like the hair and that yellow shirt XD

yes, this is the 2nd time i facepalm at the sight of him, this week XDDD

the 1st time was bcoz of this.......

*double facepalm*

toriumi...looks like a real okama, so he scare me the most. hiroki also. suzumura is ok. thank goodness. yoshino cut his hair after that event???????? and the guy at the left (forgot his name DX) is just plain silly, but is a lot better than the rest haha. i bet kishio is relieve he is wearing that choujin costumes XDDD

end~

ps: i need to dwld that vitamin z even someday!!!!!!!!

Random talk session 115: tora-san and okami-san

2010-01-11T20:24:00.007+08:00

hello diary! today is 11/1/2010. it's monday.

i've dwld another yusa x toriumi drama entitle tora-san and okami-san. to be honest i didnt really like it. the seme is too aggressive!! and i think i am more into story where the uke slowly falls in love wit the seme as the story progress XDDDDDDD while is this drama, the uke already falls for the seme in the beginning...

em, toriumi play a more funny character in tora-san and okami-san, but his voice isnt really diff from in hisho no tashinami. he rarely change his voice ne. even if he did, not really major~

yusa voice is lower than in hisho no tashinami~ .........emm...that's all..dunno what else to comment XDD haha...

that's all i guess~ bye :D

ps: now dwld-ing nessa no ou (toriumi x suzumura)

Random talk session 114: Hisho no tashinami

2010-01-11T08:02:00.005+08:00

hello diary! today is 11/1/2010. it's monday~

finally i find yusa koiji x toriumi kousuke BL drama, hisho no tashinami XD There are 2 parts. i dwld-ed the 1st part XDD macam x percaya je dapat dwld fail 90mb tu XDDD and now i am still dwld-ing the the 2nd part (abt 60mb)

kyaa~ this BL sounds soo cute >_< and not very angst XDDD yusa sounds sooo cute XDD toriumi, sounds like toriumi XDD

when oikawa (yusa) mansion was on fire (?). he was like: ah onegai! terebi wa tasukete
hahahah SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUUUUUUUUTEEEEEEE XDDDDDDD

and also the part when izuhara drunk, oikawa's reaction is sooo cute >___________<
i feel wanna hug him XDDD

emm...but still, there are many parts i dun understand at all T_T i wish my japanese is better wuuu! T_______T

eh? sore dake?? too short...wuu..

what else ne...ahh...cant think anymore...guess that's all. bye~

edit: finally finish dwld-ing XDD kya, i wonder what's gonna happen to oikawa and izuhara xD
in the 1st part, everything seems going very fine XD

Random talk session 113

2010-01-10T02:26:00.008+08:00

hello diary!

today is 10/1/10 (sunday). it's 2:29am.

em....i am reading someone's LJ. there's a reason. so actually, at first i was at seiyuu LJ comm, looking for any scans i miss. there wasnt any. but then, i saw toriumi kousuke's icon. so, i checked that person's LJ. what's the best way to find out what happen in ur fandom that u r not update wit? of course, stalk a fan blog XD. so anyway..i read this person's many entries to read what she wrote about toriumi..so i read, and read, and read...i found out a few major things.

-so apparently, toriumi and yusa kouji had done few BL dramas together, i will try to find it..

-there's gonna be trigun movie this year!!!!!!!!!!!!! the trailer!! sjdhfshd OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOLFWOOD kjsdhfgdhsg I MISS THAT DARN GUY *______________* CURSE ANIME PRODUCTION FOR KILLING HIS CHARACTER jkfdhjdsf

ok...enough spazzing..lol

-toriumi's long hair
i think that's kondo takeshi beside him...wait, i think that IS him. look how short that guy is lol. anwyay, my comment on toriumi's hair. i was not that terrified whn i saw it lol. i guess it's kinda ok XD he's still cute wit the baseball cap XD. i still wonder why is this guy refuse to show his forehead XD

-also.. saiyuki manga is still ongoing, and now wit a new title. saiyuki reload blast. wow, i really need to catch up..

-yasumoto hiroki.......I FEEL LIKE PUNCHING SUMTHING. GAH. u c, lately i've seen this guys name for quite a lot in the seiyuu comm. i was like, "who is tis guy? lol". and that when i read this blog, i finally realize who he was. and i actually knew him from the beginning of my seiyuu obsession. he was in the bleach soul sonic!!!!!!!! he's chad!!!! the one wit the overly manly, husky voice and a NICE *o* body XDDDDDDDD shjkdhsdfhsf I FORGOT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!! sahdhsg *slapped self* GAWD, i need to watch that video again XD and damn, he is also Germany's voice in Hetalia. yes, i can hear him!!!!! jsdgffhdsh. WHY I DIDNT NOTICE HIS VOICE DX. ok, mayb bcoz i havent watch Bleach for like ages. XD

what else? em, that all i can think about XD. gonna continue reading 'that' toriumi fan blog XD

bye~

edit: ah~ i wonder how did these fans know the right place to look for info on their fav seiyuus. i am envious. wish i can read japanese so that i can kno their updates too...