Random talk session 139: Life in GEMS part 19

hello diary! today is 12 april. it's monday. today starts the interpersonal comunication module. truthfully, i hate this module. but what can i do? i still must give my full attention and participate in the class. i just dun care anymore...whatever la... i still hate speakin in front... just doing this for the sake of the company...arggghh!!!!!!!!! i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..enough about that..

wanna tell the story of what happened this weekend. On friday, i go back to my hometown. in the morning, i go to our company..something not so good happened...it's like a express ur feeling session..what am i not satisfied with?? nothing. really nothing. if there is someone or something i am not satisfied with, it's just me. i hate myself for being so incompetent, for being so lack of knowledge and so not smart...ok, this is getting depressing, let's move to the next topic..

on saturday, i go to sri aman for the SPA test.. i dunno how to answer the questions.. esp the general knowledge part. and then the math test, i only manage to answer half of the questions. and then the essay..wow, i am only writing nonsense. even the penyelia peperiksaan said what i wrote is wrong...

and then on sunday, i go bcak to kuch..arrive at penview at about 1pm. and then later that evening, i suddenly received a phone call from my friend, and invite me to go to jalan2 and karaoke-ing. There was 5 of us. at first we went to Spring, but sadly, the place is full. so then we went to BDC. After that we went to eat at pizza hut. yum~ i have been wanting to eat pizza for a while..i still want to eat..hehe.. That night, we actually had briefing with Tn Haij, so we were really worried that we were gonna be late, thankfully we did make it on time..after thet briefing, we go out again...at first we want to go watch movie, but it was close. so we just went to water front and eat the donuts that we bought in spring earlier..we went home at about 1:30am..wow.. so late..hehe

ok, next topic...the cute guy!! omg i havent seen him for almost 1 week!! i wonder where he is!! where??? :0 i miss that darn guy so much!!!

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Random talk session 138: Life in GEMS part 18

hello diary~ today is 6/4/2010. it's tuesday. emm..today i present again..so many presentation..well, it is the presentation skills module...emm...i still dun like speaking.. maybe i've gain a little bit knowledge on presentation skills, but my speaking skill isnt improving...

emm...i m sad. i did some blunder...i am so bad in doing things... and what's more, i didnt see the guy today... when i'm sad, i miss him even more...aiiii...

dunno what else to write..

emm...ok...what abt this...this guy i am always stalking..i wonder how old he is...i thought he is 20 sumthing, maybe even older than me..but, most probably i'm wrong. i heard some rumor that he just finish his spm..that's means, he's 17 sumthing. omg and i have been liking this guy like crazy. i so dont want to be a pedophile!! haha..well..i guess, no matter what, i am still gonna gaze just a little bit longer at him..as he and his smile is the ease for my sad heart..

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Random talk session 137: Life in GEMS part 17

hello diary! today is 5/4/2010. it's monday...now is 1:13pm. i had just lunch and now at the lab com.

today we start a new module, which is presentation skills. oh, and also today is my 3rd speaker corner. the topic is "the most memorable moment in my life" i told the story about my PKN times. my speech this time, i guess a little better than the last time, but still very bad. i am just never gonna good speaker, as i really hate to speak and i totally hate people looking at me.

today, during lunch just now..i saw the guy XD ahhhhhh seriously i cant stand to c him bcoz he's sooooo cute!!!! geram tengok dia XDD he was taking the drinking water, and that time i also wanted to take the water. at first i just want to look at him from the back, but it would look too obvious if i just stand there. He went to take the glass, and then i took mine too. i smell the glass, and then he was like, smell his glass too. oh god he's sooooooooooooooo cute XDDD somebody kidnap him for me please!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDD

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Random talk session 136: Life in GEMS part 16

Hello diary..today is 3/4/2010, it's saturday..

emm, as usual, this week was a busy week, i didnt update my blog for days...

today was the english fair...i am so happy bcoz our company won the newscasting category. yay!! good job mellisa, norlida and mildred!!

2 days ago on 2/4/201o, i was really sad bcoz we were beaten at the semi final for debate... we also didnt get to the final for the sales presentation..but i still want to say good job to all the members..eventho we didnt win, we did try our best..

ok next...dun remember anymore..

about the guy.. today.. i saw him..and he was kinda close (maybe about 30 cm) kyaahhhhh...i am so happy XDDD i wanted to see him a little longer, but there were so many people, so i cant be to obvious...i want to c him again..aarrghhh..this feeling...i dun like it, but i also like it...so complex...

dunno what else to say...

oh..on thurday, i slept so late bcoz i was doing the newsletter...i slept at 3am...

what else...emm...dunno anymore..so..

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Random talk session 135: Life in GEMS part 15

hello diary..today is 30th mac. it's wed...

emm....we will have the 2nd preliminary round for debate tonite..our company will be facing Ruby...wuu...i hope we can win..

i am involve in sales presention...but it doesnt go really well it seems...emm... i kinda hope we can go to the final at least...

yesterday finally i saw the guy XDD i didnt see him for 2 days, so i am really glad when he came to the debate 1st preliminary XDDDD

and then, this morning, i saw him again XDD as usual, he is taking pictures of the class..haha.. also, i saw him earlier too...he was bringing some kotak to the lab com?? or sumthing...

emm..i am still feeling not good today..so...

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Random talk session 134: Life in GEMS part 14

hello diary~ today is 28/3/2010. it's sunday..

emm....yesterday (sat) didnt c the guy...and today too...i wonder wht's he's doing..where he is..i didnt even see him during lunch or dinner...emmm...

ahh...on friday..i took off the decoration in the office...i think i made quite a stir...aiiii...i feel so guilty!!!! what should i do to repent???? .............i am so sad.....

tomoro start english class...wuuu...

emm...i have no idea...

wait...i dreamt of NEWS.. i have been neglecting them for quite some time ever since i start stalking the guy...haha..i am such a bad fan!!! i am so sorry oh my dear NEWS....

oh, and on fri, finally watched hyoutei eternity's perf in tenipuri festa..i lol-ed XDDDD hahaah...i dun kno...it's kinda funny...i still love the guy nonetheless XDD

ok, no more idea again..

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Random talk session 133: Life in GEMS part 13

hello diary! today is 26/3/2010. it's friday...

emm...today..no class, but we have a public speaking competition between companies. sadly, we didnt win. Our representatives (zarina n aizuddin) did a good job, it's just they were not lucky enough to pick the hard topic...well, better luck next time i guess... oh, addditional note, that termizi guy was so funny! haha he's so selamba~ haha.. in the end, he was like, "peace!" and said "spread love!!" lol and that aziz iban guy, also funny...he said he dun really sing english song, but only sing iban songs hahaha...and also, lol @ aizuddin, singing "i believe i can fly" hahaha

ok..next, on the afternoon, at 4:30pm we have sport activities...i was watching the ping pong competition..again, we lost...but i think our team done a very very good job!!!! ian and rizal, GOOD JOB!!!

....next topic~~ about the cute guy...during the sport activity, i saw him XD at one time, he was just in front of me...he's sooooooo cute~~~ i feel like kissing his cheek..HIS CHEEK, OK!!!!!!!! NOT THAT KINDA KISS!! ahh...why so cute...

oh, i also saw the guy in the morning during the public speaking corner...he was in front of me too...not that close, but not that far too also..like, medium only XD i was staring at him while trying to avoid eye contact wit him...i really hope he didnt notice me...... i am a really twisted girl in the inside... i dun want the person that i like to kno my existence, and most importantly, i dun want him to kno my feelings...aii..so complicated..

during the short break of the public speaking, there was a acara selingan, and one of our company member read a joke...but sadly seems like nobody get the joke, even that guy, haha. i was really amused seeing the guy looking blur XD haha blur blur pun, masih nampk kiut XDDDD hahahah

emm...what else..oh, a little about the class..

on tuesday and monday was the grooming module..our trainer was haji shukri. it was..kinda fun i guess XD eventho i really dislike doing make up and stuffs...

and then on wed and thurs is the project management module. we were soooo busy!!!! omg really busy!!! that's y i didnt hav time to update my blog...

on wed, we work until 12:30am to finish the slide show...

on thursay nite pula, we hav auditoring session...thank goodness i didnt get chosen to be interview... we went back at a bout 11pm...

and my 2nd speaker corner was on thursday. my topic was the advantage of self employment..as usual, my speech is bleh....

emm...need to do sumthing..i guess that's all...

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