Random talk session 291: GENE HAS BECOME MY LIFE

HELLO diary...sorry for caps lock lol.. anyway, today is 13/7/2017.. it is 1.19am.. today is thursday..

as usual, wanna talk about my fandom.. my life is totally all bout generations now.. i m so obsessed!! i even bought tickets to their mad cyclone tour.. i m going in less than a month lol when i first find out about the tour (somewhere in may), i was actually thinking of going, but cancel eventually coz ticket is really hard to get anyway, so i was only aiming for a world tour next year. but then, suddenly, they make available a general ticket for international fans!! and i was like, omg!!!! what's more, they announced it late june.. , and after much thought (as if!! lol) i decided to buy tix for the august shows!! only a month for preparation!! lol i m so freakin scare!! like no kidding!! i hate travelling!!! oh, why didnt i buy the nov or dec show then??? of course, at first, i was like, ermm... which prefecture shud i go lol.. it is a good chance to visit other places in japan anyway, i was thinking of going to osaka or mie (hayato's hometown!! haha) but then i remember alan's birthday is on august 4th lololol and i was like, omg surely thy are gonna celebrate him!! i need to see it live!! lol so, yeah, i decided to buy the shows in august, which is in saitama lol.. sadly, only a month to prepare everything!! flight tickets are expensive as hell!! also, hotels near the venue are all book out!! like omg!! i havent book accommodation.. ughh i m just still confused ok!! ughhh i m going crazy to be honest... all for these guys!! damn it!! i hate being a fan with money lol now that i have money of my own, i m spending it like water, just to freakin see these people live lol.. anyway... oh yeah, i wanna talk about the days before i was this obsessed with them lol

so, yeah, back in march, when i was watching high and low.. when i heard the song, "run this town" i thought it was very jpop lol it was catchy alright.... and then, i also downloaded high and low the live. but i only watch the performances of the theme songs from the show.. so, i watched run this town performance.. with no emotions lol i dun hav much impression towards the group at all lol.. i dun even watch their other songs lol... one thing i remember from watching them, is one of them had dyed their hair all white lol and i was like, he looks funny.. lol.. that was one of first gene's perf that i watched lol...

fast forward again.. so yeah, after watching too much exile casino, i coincidentally heard the song never let you go from one of the episode.. at first, i was only listening to the song (i downloaded the mp3) but i kinda got curious of the music video (I SWEAR THIS WAS THE TURNING POINT) so i i went to youtube and watched it... AFTER THAT I KINDA REPEATED THE MV FOR LIKE THOUSAND OF TIMES AND SUDDENLY I M A CERTIFIED FANGIRL. DAMN I M SO WEAK. after that i also check their other pvs and yeah, tldr i am obsessed!! 

like, i dont watch any anime at all for the past 2 months.. and all i wanna do is watch gene and listen to their songs.. THEY ARE THE FIRST THING I THINK ABOUT EVERY TIME I WAKE UP AND BEFORE I WENT TO SLEEP. WHEN  I WAS FEELING SLEEPY AND COULDNT WOKE UP, I WENT TO CHECK INSTAGRAM/TWITTER TO SEE IF THERE ARE ANYTHING NEW ON THEM WHEN I AM SO FREAKIN TIRED WORKING I'D THINK OF THEM THIS IS ALL FOR THEM I M WORKING TO EARN MONEY TO BUY THEIR STUFFS AND GO TO THEIR LIVE LIKE I M NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING HERE THEY ARE ON MY MIND 24/7 

I M SO OBSESSED!!

BYE

Random talk session 287: ugh i m so weak

hello diary. today is 3/5/2017/ (wed)

so............... i am currently watching generations' music video. never let you go. damn catchy song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have been repeating it from yesterday.. at first, i was only listening to the song, but then i just had to get curious of the music video, so i went to utube and watched it..and what a wrong move that was. WHAT A WRONG MOVE. damn. watching it makes me crazy coz everyone is soo cute!!!!!!!!!!! i am so weak damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just kno i will fall for all those cutie pies ughhhhhh like seriously... 

it all started wit high&low.. my world started to change. life started to get cloudly..

and then, watching interview and stuffs, and for some reason, i started to fall in love wit gun..  and my world starts to crumble from that moment.. the earth cracked, my life is on the verge of falling,, 

so, i watched more of gun.. and watch his band.. and i found out about exile and it sub group. but sandaime though. omi though. omigun though. my world starts to fall, while spontaneous combustion right on the spot. my life is on freakin fire while falling to the fandom pit. sandaime why why why i want to die watching their live.. ugh should i start talking about them too??? ok i should. at first i was only gonna talk about generations, but nope. i want to talk about sandaime too. (even though i already talk about them in the previous post?????) ok, so yeah.. i watched more of their pvs and listen to more of their songs. to the point i finally able to distinguish omi's and ryuji's voice. omi though ughhh after gun, i just had to fall for this guy???  and also his relationship wit gun is so cute??? i feel like he spoils gun so much??? i feel the love so much?? lol but sadly, nowadays i feel like not much of omigun love. they are so busy wit individual works. is it bcoz they are getting more popular i guess??? back in the days, omigun would always hav a date of their own like going to disney sea and las vegas, just the 2 of them  it's so cute i wanna cry but now, as if thy dont interact at all.. it makes me so sad. erm, what else, oh yeah, about sandaime.. i become to like the grup so much, i want to watch their live too someday. when i found out abt them, i thought thy are just another regular jpop artist, and not as big as johnny's..... HOW WRONG WAS IT. they are quite popular actually and getting to their live is as bad and as hard as getting live to johnny's concert.. damn it!!!!!!!!! whyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! i was so upset.. whyyyy???? i wanna see them wit my own eyes. watching from the computer screen is not enough.. ughhh oh yeah, so, i was looking at sandaime's website to check their concert tour, i even considering to spend rm5000 for a front row seat.. lol considering ok lol i m not that rich ok. but still, it makes me so sad and mad.. why did i just had to fall for a popular grup!!! i hate popular grup coz their live is always impossible to get. anyway, yeah.. about their concert. they actually had one, a dome tour. starting from nov/dec 2016? i forgot,, also in jan and feb 2017.. and last one is gonna be in august. i think that august one was actually postpone?? i dunno wat happened though?? yeah, that was the live that i was considering to buy for rm5k lol but maybe i will not.. who knows.. i just hope this obsession will go away by the time lol but looks like it is not??? damn heart!!! ... ok, while looking for sandaime's live i also found out about generations' world tour. you kno, tat time, i was like, SO ANGRY at them lol like, WHY DID YOU GET A WORLD TOUR???? SANDAIME IS MORE POPULAR THAN YOU BRATS" i was seriously, resent them just for that reason lol everytime there is a vtr abt them in casino exile or any video related to sandaime, i would always skip their part lol THE HATE WAS SO REAL... but as they are in the same circle as sandaime, i nvr actually can avoid them... while hating the group, a flicker of light also appear deep down lol.. they are just too cute!!! i just kno i will like them too someday! that is also why i try to avoid their stuffs.. coz i hate them and i kno i will like them eventually!! my emotion is so complex lol ok.... so yeah.... 

generations. they are so young it breaks my heart lol i hate this feelings. ok.. so.. erm.. i think at first, i was actually attract to katanose ryota? when i was watching the higher ground pv... he looks so cute and damn a very sweet voice too. he is like gun, has that "perfect prince" image to him. but maybe bcoz i dont really watch much videos about him, i actually kinda forgot abt him?? lol... and currently, i m actually liking.. shirahama alan lololol omg.. and maybe kazuhara ryuto and komori hayato too. but mostly alan now. lol. of all people right??? lol i m trying to remember when is it i actually come to like this guy??? i think i saw him first in the race viceo, lol when gun still wit the wild type image lol tbh i thought he looks kinda weird?? lol he has a very define feature actually, and it is most probably coz he is half filipino lol how dreamy lol i also saw him wit the shabekuri feat the high&low casts (coz i was in high&low mood at tht time) dont really hav much impression towards of him at all.. i was busy fangirling gun looking so cute wit the hat lol i think the moment that i really got to like generations was after i watch the casino exile ep when they had to eat spicy food lololol that was so hilarious!! sano vs spicy food is so freakin cute lol i wanna form a #protectsanofromspicyfood squad after watching that video lololol also, as a seiyuu fan, i need to say this, i really, like sano and hayato's voice lol they got such a deep voice for a very cute lookin face lolol ... and then i watched more of casino videos, and of course, i watched ryuto's kendama challenge. he always succeed in doing the challenge!! amazing ryuto!! i just had to like him.. also, his talking voice ugh.. tamaranai desu yo!! lolol anwyay, yeah, and then, there's alan.. now i remember.. the moment that my heart got captured lol is.. when he was doing the blowin the candle challenge lol that face when he said "ikemasu??" lol i dont usually post pic in my rant, but here: 

his face so epic lol i wanna hug him everytime i see this cutie pie now lol dammmmmm so much feels!!!! i cant handle it ugh ugh ugh guh guh guh ugh ugh 

so, yeah,,, em.. i dunno what else to write anymore lol gudbye until next time~

Random talk session 285: omg new obsession..

hello diary!! today is 26th of march. it's sunday. like the title says, yes, i hav a new obsession. it started almost a few days already, but finally got time to write it here lol

and.. it's iwata takanori and his band j soul brothers i guess? lol damn..  at one time i almost die from hyperventilation watching the band's music video lol 

anyway, i wanted to write how did i come across this guy lol

so, a few months ago, i saw this article, about clamp drawing the characters from a drama called high and low. for some reason, i dunno why, but i like got interested.. ok, actually, it's bcoz the drawing was kinda cute lol so, i got curious, about tis show. so i went to watch the first episode. at first, omg the intro is so long and boring lol.. my first impression of this show, was it has the anime feel to it. like the way they handle the long ass boring intro prologue lol and the characters, they are very colorful. and the humor is A+. these are the 2 main reasons that i kept on watching, and actually finishing all 10 ep in a day lol (1 ep is like, only 25 min long lol anime much?) the serious part of the story is really boring to be honest. and also, very very cliche. for example, the 5 groups that don't get along. i just know they are gonna combine their strength in the later arc to fight a more powerful enemy. and that did happen. so anyway.. yeah, it was ok i guess. then i also proceed to the 2nd season, which also i finished watching in a day lol my eyes and then.. i also watch the movie.. after the movie, i was like. erm. feel empty? lol damn i guess no matter how cliche the story was, i was really entertain by it lol... so, i went to youtube and look for any extra stuff, like interviews and some stuffs lol.. and then, i also did some research on the show.. like, it was a project made by this group from "EXILE"? and i thought, "erm, exile? they are kinda familiar..." yup, i heard of them from anime or drama i cant remember lol i m not that familiar wit japan's pop artist lol so yeah, then i was like, wow. ok. and then i found out that most of the actors are from that group.. so i wanted to see this group, and look at their music video. at first i was like amused seeing the characters dancing and singing lol and i watch some more music video from the series itself.. and for some reason i was attracted to the actor who play as cobra. he was the perfomer in this exile tribe group, also, on his own group, j soul brothers.  i watch more videos related to the series...and then before i knew it, i was falling head over heals on the actor lol he looks really really good wit black hair. btw his name is iwata takanori lol and i watch more videos with him, and one thing about him. he is absolutely the perfect guy lol damn boy y u do this to me lol 

also, i think now i m kinda into hiroto's (amamiya) actor too.. lol i will fangirl over him another time. fangirling iwata is already exhausting enough lol

my other notes from watching the series:

- white rascal's theme song sounds too much like kpop, i m kinda triggered everytime i heard the song lol at one point i thought the leader (omg i forgot his name?? ice i think?? [edited:it was actually rocky] lol) was kakkoi. i was applauding at him while muttering "mvp, mvp, u r mvp tonite" lol

- murayama got the most character development dont fight me on this

- amamiya masaki is so funny lol while his little brother get all the cool scenes lol hiroto looks too much like a kpop star i m always triggered seeing him lol (but his actor is sooooo cute..)
- my fav character was actually murayama lol but i ended liking cobra's actor lol

i think that is all for today.. i wanna watch more gun-chan on youtube lol "gun-chan" is iwata's nickname lol

bye

Random talk session 284: it still hurts, meme, and initial d

hello diary..  it is the new year already. i wanted to abandon this blog completely. but alas, i cant..  too many memories i guess? even if there are the bad ones,,

i m still not over my crush.. i want to, but everything still reminds me of him.. tat is why i try to abandon this blog too, coz my feelings are still here.. i feel so stupid.. i wanna forget.. ughh i hate myself..

anyway.... the point is ths post is actually is the yearly meme.. so, yeah.. last year --> 2016 edition


What fandoms did you acquire in 2016?
 initial d lol and also, boykira the game.. as of date, i spend about rm700 on the game.. i am not even that good at that game.

also, i wanna tell the story of my initial d obsession lol.. i clearly remember, in the past, i was like, "initial d" that is the one anime tat i swear i will nvr watch coz the art is so ugly lolz but now.. it has become one of the best anime i watched! how did it started then? at first, i was kinda in a sekitomo mood, coz omg his voice ugh.. after tat, i was like, i wanna hear more of him.. after a certain recommendation, i went to watch initial d. and what do u kno, i actually like it. the anime is very cheesy actually, but the reason i love it that much, is actually the seiyuu. the 3 golden trio. miki shinichiro, seki tomokazu and koyasu takehito.. ah who am i kidding, these 3 are not just golden trio, they are like, the holy trinity. no  matter how much i love the newer seiyuu, they will nvr compare to these 3 oldies i wanna cry

What fandoms did you let go of in 2017?
none? i kinda getting bored of supernatural also lol 

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2016?
more seiyuu craze

highlights for 2016 is, that i finally went to japan. 

that is all i guess? i cant stay here too long.. 

Random talk session 283: heartbroken...

hello diary..

ok, like the title says, i m currently heartbroken..

my crush already find his love, and he is really in love.. and it sadden me so..

i feel like a fool for liking him in the 1st place...

and now, i m slowly tending to my broken to pieces heart..

oh well.. actually i dont want to think about it anymore..

i just want to forget this feelings..

but, i need to say this.. ever since he is in a relationship, he definitely change.. and not for the good, but kind of in bad way.. he only care about his new found love now, and dun care about his other friends anymore. to shorten, he is not a gentleman anymore. he wont wait for his friends, he wont help his friends. he only cares for his new love now. dude, pls dont be like that. to be in a relationship, doesnt mean that you have to abandon your (girl) friends.. he used to be so kind before. but now, i guess that kindness is only for his love.. why did u hav to change man? now i feel like i started to dislike him for what he has become..

okay, that is all for today.

i dont want tis feelings anymore...i hate you..

Random talk session 264: HOUSE TALK (spoiler alert)

hello diary.. today is 14th march.. and i want to ramble about house today..

erm... so yeah.. 2 weeks has passed and i m still having house feels lol.. 

so yeah.. like i said, the reason i kinda lost interest in the show, is bcoz they changed the main casts in season 4. i was really sad when that happened.. and watching the shows, was really painful (back then0.. but i still watched them when i got the time, coz i still remember most of season 4 episodes.. 

so, the other day, when i started to watch the show again, i started from season 6.. and.. then.. at one point, the 3 main casts saw house, and house was like, "omg it's 3 years ago". as funny as that scene (coz of how house said it lol) i was kinda touched by that scene.. ugh u guys dun hav no idea how i miss them! the original 3!! anyway.. yeah.. when i first fall in love with this show, it was with the 3 of them, and it was a very precious memory for me... 

next, i wanna talk otp lol.. i really like chase and cameron together.. they were actually my otp lol so, how frustrated was i, when they broke up in season 7! ugh ugh ugh!!! why??? why???? why shore? why???? (note: shore is the series creator lol).. so yeah.. i was really sad.. i am not really into het ships, and got very few of them, so yeah.. CHASE X CAMERON OTP 4LYFE! lol 

also, then season 8 happened.. more substitute! ughh... i think the asian kid kinda ok i guess, but i cant stand adam.. i dunno, she kinda becomes cameron no,2? .. heh, whatever.. ok, gonna talk spoiler now... the thing about cancer in this show.. like, they are giving all of them cancer for some reason. cuddy got it in season 7, and then, wilson got it in season 8. somewhere in season 1 or 2, house even faked his cancer.. 

so, how did i feel about the season finale? making me sad! and i m thinking of their fate every nite...lol... in my mind,here is the version of the ending: wilson's cancer starts to remission, and he live!, and they live happily ever after. house finally stops his vicodin addiction, coz during those 5 months, he only can think of wilson dying, and he is gonna be all alone after he died, so he tries very hard to change. besides, they are on the road now, and getting vicodin's stock is not as easy anymore.. so he had to try to live without vicodin., the thoughts of wilson dying also makes him try harder, eventhough, at first, it was really hard for him to stop, 

at one point, i think house said sumthing like this: almost dying doest change anything, dying changes everything. we can think of this in what it is meant for house. dying changes everything. and as we all know, he was really "dead" to the rest of the world. so he need to change. he quit his vicodin, and learns to be a better person.. and as for wilson in my universe, his cancer was remission, so he live.. so maybe he got a new job, or get back to his old job, and secretly solved medical mystery with house.. or sumthing, tho, to be honest, i dun think that kinda scenario works.. i think after that, he and house continue to be on the road and just livin the life.. together *winks*................................. erm.. ok lolol ok, ok that was kinda weird.. maybe that is just me ok, but yeah, that is how it ended for me. i want house and wilson to hav a good ending.. 

erm.. i dun hav much to say anymore.. more like i dunno what else to write.. so that's all for today!

Random talk session 263

hello! it's 3rd of march.. i cant believe it's already march.. less than a month for me to go to singapore, and i m still terrified thinking about it.. it's not a bad thing, but stil, going alone, is so scary for me.. erm, anyway.. gonna talk about my new obsession..? erm, shud i call it obsession? lol actually, not really.. it's more like, things that hav been in my mind the past days.. and it's house md season finale. ok, yeah, i finally freakin finish watching this show..

so, i m gonna start with intro of how i start to watch this series.. as far as i remember, i watched it first on axn, and i watched it bcoz i saw chase lolol yup, i remember the reasons very clearly lol i saw chase and thought he was handsome, so i watched the whole episode.. so i like chase, so i watch some more episodes, and becoz the show is very much mystery-like medical drama, i started to like it as well, and not watching it for chase anymore lol.. besides, as i watched more, i think chase is such a jerk lol like, now i m rewatching the show again, and i cant believe it used to like this guy lol,, anyway, yeah.. and then, yeah, after that, i really kinda become a fan, and i watched house regularly on tv. 

and then, i kno i was kinda becomes a fan, coz i make the theme song as my ringtone lol.. also, i remember during my practical of my 2nd year, i watched the show too. .but i dun remember where did i got the dvd from.. did i downloaded it? or did i copy it from someone? i think it's the later, but yeah, the memory is kinda blurry..

ermm.. so yeah,,also, actually i mention about house too in this entry. 2009.. but i dun think i download much of the episodes.. i think i only manage to download 2 or 3 episodes? lol i think i was kinda occupied by other things at that time, and i forgot about house entirely,, until... 2011, the time that i was working at SEDC, and there was this friend, who said he has a few house ep, so it got me to rewatch the show again. so i did.. but then that's it.. lol.. i dun remember much about it anymore after that. i think, one of the reason, i kinda get disinterest on the show, becoz they change house's team. u know, the plot for season 4? i dislike changes, so when they do that to the show, i was kinda disappointed.. i really like the original 3, and when they got them replaced, i was like, "ugh.. no.. " and i becomes disinterest in watching more episodes.. that's y i never really watch the show again after that.. until now. 

so, yeah, remember the one friend, that got me some episodes to watch back in 2011 (when i was working with sedc)? i kinda saw his post on facebook (he never post before, so i was like, kinda weird-ed that he suddenly writing anything on facebook..), so i was getting nostalgic, and like, "ah.. this guy...wonder what he's up to now? erm, now i want to watch house".... so i did. i downloaded season 6 7 and 8. and then it begins.

so.. at first, i watched it coz of nostalgic reasons.. ah..how i miss them,, and i was really happy that up to season 6, they still used the opening from season 1. house is still a jerk lol and he's still as hilariously sarcastic as always.. i dun understand the medical jargon, but i still enjoy this show very much. so yeah,, i watch.. and i watch.. and i watch.. 

and i watch. when i was watching season 6 and 7, i think i started to like wilson more than usual lol, and it's bcoz he kinda becomes the butt monkey of the show lol.. he's always in a funny situation..like, ugh..i freakin like him.. dun get me wrong, it's not that i dislike him before, but i think i hav a natural feeling towards him. like's here's always there. but i m like, doesnt think much about him.. and i  always feel sorry for him every time house do sumthing mean to him, or play pranks on him.. but that's it, i never actually pay attention to the guy.. until... yeah.. now..

so..yeah.. then i was at season 8. the last season.. ok.. last season.. and in ep 2. house said he wants wilson to get over the thing that happened on the season finale of season 7, and yeah, he actually said he like wilson. just how slashy can their relationship gets at this point. and then i kinda.. felt sumthing.. sumthing that was actually has been there ever since i started watching the season 6.. it was, my fujoshi instinct, and yeah.. and then it finally started.. my "hilson" obsession. like ugh.. the more i watched the episodes, actually i wanted to see house and wilson together.. and then, they just make it worst by making the last few episodes all about them! like omg.. like omg.. like ugh ugh ugh.. after the finale, all i can think about is wilson dying, house is gonna be alone, and i m so sad thinking about it, but it doesnt stop me from do more thinking of them.. house freakin fake his own death just to be with wilson for the next 5 months!? like hello????  like omg.. all i can think about after the finale is them! seriously! i cant work, i cant concentrate! i refuse to watch other show! even anime is all halted coz i m feeling all these feels! so much feels!!!!!! ugh..!! and now i m only rewatching house. like ugh,, seriously..  ugh..ah, i think i should stop now, coz i want to watch more house lolol

ok bye..

Random talk session 259: ugh more terashii talk

hello diary!! today is 24th august..!! long time!!! remember my last entry? the one about anime that i m currently watching and/or planning to watch...well.. actually after that, everything is halted lolol i guess my seiyuu obsession has taken over my life lol

seriously, i m not watching anything (anime) at the moment.. none.. i rather watch family guy or american dad lol but i kinda finish watching most of the episodes (for both series) too now lol sometimes i gets bored, so i watch kindaichi,, also, i m only at ep 3 of free lol i think it's at ep 7 or 8 now? i dunno ok! i m not updated lol not just anime, but i also kinda stopped playing candy crush.. i m stuck at level 425. dondake just how hard this level is!!! ugghhhhh 

today... i still wanna talk about.. terashii lol.. ok.. like seriously.. he's so cuteeee!! i wanna squish his face ughhhhh whyyy so cuteee ughhhhh just a few hours ago, i was watching the famitsu gamer show, (the one wit suzu and maeno) and terashii is the guest.. thy were playing the old game, and terashii making those "yaaa yaa" sounds ughhhhhhhh SO CUTE I M GONNA DIE UGHHHHHHHH FSJ SDFSJD STOP IT

UGH i m so captivated by terashii currently lol... he's so cute.. esp his smile.. omg his smile.. and also, this guy makes too much peace signs lol he's so cuteee uuuughhh  i was like, brushing my screen (at his face) (on the monitor) lololol he's so cuteeeee

that makes me thinking.. like  i said before, i used to hate this guy! like, seriously..  i HATED HIM. I ADMIT I HATED HIM. i didnt even know him. but he kinda keeps on appearing lol so he's kinda like, "jamma" da! to me lolol and i i refused to watch the maji love event even tho shimono was in it. and that time i was OBSESSED with shimono.. i really want to watch the live, but i didnt just bcoz i hate that guy that i didnt know. i think i hate him bcoz, i dunno who he was, u know, i consider myself kinda seiyuu experts lol i can recognize about 100 voices (minimum). but suddenly, this guy, that i never heard of (his voice,not name) suddenly is in this event, where all the popular seiyuu (taniyama,suwabe,miyano) was also in...i know, i am really narrow minded person, for thinking that way, but, i really felt that way.. i cant help it.. i remember i downloaded the live for, maybe 2 weeks? but i did not watch it.. i dun really remember why i suddenly watch it tho.. maybe i kinda curious? or just bored? lol.. yeah, so i watched it. and was first, was obsessed wit the 1000% maji love song, so i kinda only repeated that one song, and just kinda skimmed through the other songs lol but then, i come across the catchy song amazing love, and was also obsessed wit that song.. if i must say, that song, was the reason i kinda take notice of terashii.. even tho, at that time, i was also kinda developing my suzu obsession. after that, my suzu obsession also starts, and i forgot about terashii's cuteness in amazing love.. i was drowning myself wit suzu... omg wow i was obsessed. if i look at this blog, the obsession kinda starts in may. it begins in april, but my obsession finally kicks in during may. and then come june. oh june. that is terashii's month lol. also after i watch utapri, i kinda accepted terashii, and i think the moment that i really fall in love, is when i suddenly hear him in baka to test anime. i was like, eh?? i know tis voice.. i heard of it sumwhere...  and then, i HEARD IT. i FREAKIN HEARD IT. HIS VOICE. i searched on the net, yeah, that is really terashii's voice. and then, i also downloaded 3rd stage, and uugghhh guess who got my most attention. surprisingly, it wasnt suzu.. but, terashii.. yeah, he's so freakin cute in there and i just cant!! i made gifs of him, and make me more conscious of him, and before i know it, i was googling his face for the whole week lol yup, i remember. i was freakin googling his face. in conclusion. he's sooo cuteee i m officially obsessed, and suzu become something of the past lol i still love him tho, really.. but now, it's most def is terashii's for me. the obsession is worst these few weeks. my anime is all halted bcoz i wanna watch and rewatch terashii videos lol.. aiiii... 

ok i think that's it.. i wonder how long this obsession gonna lasts lol and who is next.. well, diary, whoever it is, you will be the first one to kno lol bye!

Random talk session 241

hello diary.. today is 16 jun 2013.. it's sunday..

i wanna talk about blcd today hahaha

one of the first blcd is listen to is, it was miki shin x ... i dun remember the uke!! nojima kenji? i am too lazy to check ok haha. and then i download a few more.. which were not memorable enough for me... i guess i am not much of a fan of blcd.. i only listen to a handful of them.. anyway, i want to mention my few favs..

1. Gokudou Teki Junai (ItouKen x MidoriHikaru)
Comment: yakuza.. lots of non-con stuff.. and so much angst.. But if someone asking me for a good h scene, i guess i would be recommending this. Uke!Midorikawa is ughhhhhnngghh *_* after that i kinda downloaded  more blcd wit midorikawa as the uke, but none catch my attention.. except maybe koi suru boukun..

2. Hisho no tashinami. (Yusa x Toriumi)
Comment: i talked about this before. READ AGAIN? this is more light hearted story, and i guess i prefer this  than #1 above. i can already tell my taste in blcd haha.. the uke is very angst and use a very deep/low voice..

4. Nessa no Ou (Toriumi x SuzuKen)
Comment: here. erm, i wanna hear toriumi as seme? haha.. anyway..listen to this few years ago, didnt remember much my impression.. but it's ok? i think??

5: Koi Himeyamo (Hino x Tachibana)
Comment: it's not bl without the angst lol I was in hino satoshi mood after watching bakuman haha

6. Koi ni inochi wo kakerunosa (hahaha Nakamura x Kamiya)
Comment: since i am in nakamura mood these days, yeah, this one, i really like hahaha omg nakamuraaaa!! when he said "ok" in one of the h scene arrrrnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnhhghhhhhhh MY OVARIES!!! I AM PREGNANT *ehem*ehem* and ugh i also LOVE kamiya lover voice here &_& My point is that, all my fav  blcd, the uke is mostly wit a lover voice.. omg, is this some kind of fetish to me?? lol whatever...  oh, and also, the part when shinrai (kamiya) said, "motoke, dorobo" omg ksdfjsjdjsdhsdhsfsdhfhusd UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i just hav to make this  my fav blcd just coz of that line (and also nakamura's ok ugh ugh ughhhhhhhh)

erm.. i m getting kinda sleepy.. that's all for today..

nite..

Random talk session 237: feels

hi diary.. .today is 3rd of feb..sunday.. day offs..

it's feb and i am still fangrling 1d gahhhh i hate myself. so, let me see, 7 months???

at one time, ryan and kurobasu cure the 'infection' but then i get sick again..

gahhhhh!! so much feelsssss!!!!!!!!

i hate one direction for them has ruin my normal live..

u kno, u hav fallen to the pits of fandom when u hate ur fandom and love them as much.... *facepalm*

help me im feelingg!!!

arghhh... so yeah, i watched their old x factor's perf again, and yeah, feelssssss!!! i said this too many times already, eventho i only knew them for about 7 months, but i feel like i've known them forever!!

Random talk session 228: CANT EVEN…

hello diary.. today is 5th august..

I posted this on tumblr, but i just got to post it here too..

I am a new fan of One Direction. Do you know how hard it is to catch up to their 2 years of vids and interview and everything???? Tumblr makes me crazy too…all the GIFS, vids, quotes, photoset.. stop making me want to explode jdhfjsfhgjdfhjdgdfdgadfsh

when i fangirl, i fangirl really hard…The boys are killing me, there are so many feels and i drive myself crazy. This weak, i repeatedly listen to the Up all night album… i dun even know, how many, but many, i can say that since it’s the only thing that i listen to. yes, the only thing. Looping the songs til i m so dead sick of it, and the next day, listening to it again until i feel like throwing up. Repeat the next day. What am i listening to now while i m writing this post? yes, still the freakin songs from the album..

Save me. i m overwhelmed by my inner fangirly feeling..

end.

Random talk session 206: OMG Guess what?

ello diary.. it's 8 jan.. today is sunday, and it's finally a proper day off for me.. been laying on the bed since morning LOL (it's nite already now)

yesterday, i sign the contract as a permanent staff in kirana. Havent tell anybody.. i am really thrill, that i finally, seriously has a real job. wow. i seriously never thought i will be working. me, the stupid, and good for nothing me.. wow. thank u God..

i am really happy, but also at the same time, very sad. i am living very far from home, and also from my friends. my original plans was to get a job at Kuch after my contract was over. i thought that i'll get job easier now that i hav some experience... emm.. it's so sad T_T i miss my friends in kuch.. and i am kinda lonely here in bintulu.. *sigh*

ok, enough rants about my life... next.. actually this is what i really want to write XD I HAVE A NEW OBSESSION!!!!! XDDD In my last post, about the meme, i wrote that i dun hav any new fandom in 2011, but looks like, i got one for 2012 now, and a really early one! (it's only january! LOL)

Well, so, what is that new obsession?? jeng jeng jeng, it's KEVJUMBA XDDDDDDDD from youtube XD lately, i think about him a lot and i think he's very very very very very cute when i watch his video XDDDDDDD So, ok, actually it's a very long and interesting

story XD

(Wow, this is seriously gonna be long....)

Let's start wit the usual, how, when and why did this obsession start?? What's the spark?? Here's what happened (LOL, this is a spoof of monk btw XD). So, i was on the internet and was boring.. dunno what to see.. so i went to my youtube page, and decided to check on nigahiga's videos. Ok, now, this guy, i also love him, but not as much that i made him as my obsession. Discover him, about, a year ago i think? I admit, this guy is very funny. i laugh like crazy to his videos. And this guy is an youtube celebrity actually. He has 4 millions subscriber, and now closing to 5 millions (i think he has 3 millions sumthing subscriber when i subscribed to him last year). He is seriously made of crack. Just yesterday i was watching his off the pills video, i cant see the screen properly coz i was laughing so hard that i closed my eyes, and not to mention the tears in my eyes LOL Anyway, and then i continue to watch his other videos that i havent watched... and then this one video, called, "that akward moment when...".

and this guy.. on the left.. for sec there, i thought: wow, he's taller than ryan (i think ryan is tall, and to see someone who actually dwarf him, is really a sight for me XD)

and then i see this... and i was like: omg, this guy wit the beanie is super hot *_* Who is this guy??? And this guy also make videos like ryan.. (in this scene, he was caught watching his own video lol)

And then this dhfkjsdhfjsdhfjsd WHO IS THIS GUY????????????????? YOU HAVE A FREAKIN NICE BODY YUM YUM WHO ARE YOU?????

And then, i (as usual) watched the video again, and realized it's the same person from the beginning.. Since he also had a youtube channel, and i realize i need to c more of him LOL so i read ryan's description and try to find this guy's channel.. i went to all the channels, and thought, "ehh?? i dun see this guy anywhere.. which one it is???" And then i remember this scene:

on the right... i thought: "wait.. this is... the kevjumba guy channel.. ?? eh?? what? but he doesnt looks like that hot guy wit the beanie... what??" i was seriously confused. Then i also read some of the comments, and confirmed that this guy is kevjumba. So then i check out this "kevjumba"'s video, and discover sumthing.. that i watched one of his video before.. long time ago. and i did thought he was funny, and then just forgot about him. And yeah, it is affirmative, that the hot guy wit the beanie is really kevjumba. i watched more of his videos, and story made short, i serious has fallen for this guy. He is hot, but also damn adorable. and cute. and adorable. and cute. i wanna squish him XDDDDD Seriously, now i think of this guy all the time XDDD Not to mention, he's not only hot and cute, but also very funny XD (But, ryan still funnier to me though XD WHen i watch kevin's videos, i keep on saying "cute" while laughing XD)

and then, i watched some of ryan's old videos, and OMG i've seen Kevin too, and again, dun really take notice of him (guess i only pay attention to ryan and dun care of the others? LOL)

........ So that's it? my story of kevjumba? LOL.... yeah, i think that's it.. totally fallen for this guy so much right now XD He's so hot.. and can be so cute... and hot and cute... and cute.. and hot.. and jkdfjkdshfkjsd SO FREAKIN CUTE ESPECIALLY WHEN HE SMILE. JUST LOOK AT THIS DAMN PIC BELOW. GAWD *_______________* HE LOOKS SO DAMN HAPPY. MY OVARIES *___________*

(pic credit to the jumbahiga's tumblr)

and.. just.. just jkfhgkjshfkjd especially when he has long hair! now his hair is short again though T_T

a screenshot from his latest video

he looks like how he looks like in his old videos, when he was so young XD

oh, and pS: i totally love his mole XD

ah, i think that it for today XD it's been really long since i made a long post XD Guess, it's true that i only write so many when i'm 'in love' XD

Random talk session 196

hello diary! today is 1/4/2011.. it's april fool? LOL today is friday..

ok, actually lots of things happened, and sadly i didnt manage to blog it (or maybe too lazy to write it lol) but today is overflow wit emotion, so i am gonna blog it LOL

emm.. then again, it would be dangerous to write it coz then everybody would kno what i think LOL but anyway, i am gonna write it anyway LOL even if he finds out, i want to say this, "dun worry, it's not that i 'like' u XD i have another crush anyway XD i just think u r hot lol"

ok, so i was in the lab.. blah blah.. and the sampling team this time is D and J (lol sorry, no real name XD)... and then, they are back, and guess what, D's shirt is not tug in anymore LOL well, that's a given since they had to climb the storage tank and take many samples.. and wit that sweaty looks *self stabbed many times*.. he looks so freakin amazingly HOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT *_____________* hey, u r already handsome wit your skema looks, but wit another image, u falls into the "HOT" category XDD the other day, one of the staff said, "D was popular and used to be fitter and handsome in the past" in which he replied, "no lah" HAHAHAHAHAHA how humble can u get??? gah, this guy just prove that there is still a handsome good /kind guy left in the world LOL and then, to comment the staff said. He is still handsome LOL

anyway, so, D looks so smokin hot wit his shirt not tug in XD.. but, this is not the first time i saw it actually LOL he didnt tug in before too, and i thought it was hot too XD but i guess when he's all sweaty, it adds in the HOT factor LOL but today is different, he didnt tug in the whole day and i was a little distracted by the hotness LOLOLOL i dunno, maybe he just forget to? he is usually the smart, decent, good guy.. so, when he suddenly changed his image, it has a more deepen impact XD LOL what the hell am i talking about LOL

... and then.. ano hito mou kitanda.. hontoni bikurishimashita! it was kinda a while since ano hito wo deata LOL and then everything starts going wrong wit me! i was so nervous and cant concentrate at all wit aitsu around.. seriously, i was a mess!! nothing i do was right that time... i feel like grinning when aitsu wo chikazuite.. omg, i cant stand this.. i cant work wit aitsu iru.. ano hito miteru toki wo, i guess the feeling is nice, but not that good.. kinda like drug? LOL

emm... that's all i think LOL oh, and if someone who knows me and knows D reads this, pls dun misinterpret ok? i do has a crush, but not D. he is just someone that i like to see coz he's nice, kind and well, handsome XD

bye bye!

PS: i feel like i am talking about ono daisuke, coz his nickname is also D lol

Random talk session 182: Shinsengumi

hello diary... today is 30/12/2010, thursday.. omg 2 days into the new year!!

em, ok, today gonna talk about shinsengumi LOL i have been thinking about it in my heads these few days.. ok, so recently i watched hakuoki, and like i said, it was really hard for me to watch it because the image of wascky shinsegumi of Gintama already imprinted in my head XDDD not too mention kondo in both gintama and hakuoki looks almost the same..!! the others have obvious different.. hijikata of hakuoki looks like the young hijikata..

But Gintama is not where i learn about the shinsengumi. the really first one i heard of shinsengumi is from samurai x / rurouni kenshin anime. and the character is nanto, saito hajime. now, dun get me start on this character XD he is just one of those 'hated first, but after a while become like' character of mine XD yup, at 1st i didnt like his character because he hurt sano.. he was kinda bad. but then, he becomes one of the good guy (well, kind of XD he help kenshin maa..haha) ... wait.. i think the real turning point was when saito mace a joke.. i vaguely remembers it, but i think it was about him cooking or about his/someone's wife??? nonethess, i become to like him XDD especially when he was shown really cool in one of the ending.. that's my story if saito haha

ok, the 2nd time i heard of shinsengumi is from the peacemaker kurogane anime that i bought LOL i hate that anime.. and most of all, i hate that damn okita. so girly!! gah i really hate girly characters.. saito was.. somewhat weird in this anime LOL i think he has the ability to see ghost or sumthing??? and i remember the ninja was kinda cool XD ah, now i remember, he was yamazaki... haha.. the ninja in shinsengumi .. hehe..

and then, it was Gintama. ah, the modern shinsengumi. with bazookas hahahaha so much win. oh, sorachi. u r a a genius in making stupid crack hahah.. ok, anyway.. i am glad there isnt anymore girly okita, instead we have sadist one lol though, there is not saito in this anime though.. only the famous 3 were given major role, oh wait, make that 4, include yamazaki.

next, hakuoki. like i said, i've watched and love gintama tooo much, so, the shinsengumi image is really imprinted hard in my brain haha.. when i watch the first ep of hakuoki, i had to pause it coz i need to laugh watching kondo being all serious.. seriously, i laughed so hard XDDD ... em, so anyway, saito hajime is a total hottie in here *_* i am really, really glad he was voice by toriumi XDD heheheh... Gah, a calm, quiet character like him have real charm to me XDDD he's my fav.. hijikata is cool too, but to be honest, he looks was kinda generic *bricked* Souji is not bad too.. and then, Sano get a special treatment just bcoz he is voice by yusa koji XDD hahaha.. emm.. ah, yamazaki, he is so chibi XD ....ahhh i suddenly remember the last ep T___________T so sad!! and i was liking to like yamazaki T_T

emm... i think that's it for my shinsengumi story.. hehe... actually i wanted to post some picture, but the server is too slow for me to find some picture, and then also to upload them.. to troublesome.. haha.. that's all for today.. i think i'll post some more later if i have anymore ideas.. bye2

Random talk session 164: me in the web

Hello diary! it's 31.10.10. Sunday..

happy halloween day! em, today, there was a cosplay competition at the hills. it was rather amusing lol i love the judge who cosplayed wolfwood haha XDD he's kinda good looking mah hahahaha

......ok, as usual.... i think i can forget him now? can i? i want to forget really bad! but, this is one of the time that i think i am starting to forget him. i guess it's thanks to david XD

dunno what else to write.. that's all...bye..

edit: i am not satisfied that this post was too short, so i am editing.. hehe..

i have many site/account in the web, so this is me, listing it down, for fun lol:

1. of coz, this blogspot. was originally called unknownsolution.blogspot,com, but i changed it since my fren found out about it.. this is the place where i write about my life. it started as my 2nd fandom blog, where i write about seiyuu and anime, but gradually i started to write more about myself.

2. my multiply site. unknownsolution.multiply.com. yeah, u can see, i really love the phrase 'unknown solution' haha.. where i write about my fandom, esp NEWS. but nowadays, i rarely write there. it's kinda sad. i used to love NEWS like crazy! my posts there has come to more than 200 (i was really obssessed!).

3. my twitter. i think u can guess my url haha yup, it's unknownsolution again.. nothing much there. i just created it to support my fandom..hehe..

4. my facebook. the only thing that i keep locked from public lol

5. youtube channel. also unknownsolution. actually that's my second account. my 1st one was deleted. argh, so mad! well, what can i do.. haha...

6. almost forget. my another blog. livejournal. which is basically dead. lol just using it to view various community and to comment on them..

i think that's all? is there more? emm... nope, dun think so.

Random talk session 146: Music in my life

hello diary.. it's 1:31 am now...Sunday.

yesterday (saturday) i went wit HAR to deliver. it was so tiring... what i hate most is that i had to wake up so early in the morning. Arrived at kuch at 4pm. thank goodness it didnt extend to 6pm pr sumthing..i assume so, bcoz we had to go to asajaya, serian and then bau...

i have this strange dilemma now. should i go with megabumi for delivering?????? Part of me says, "GOOOO" and part says, "NOOOOOOO".

The part that says "GO" want me to go because i want to see Megabumi's truck XD i already went with HAR and Satok Jaya, so i am really curious bout Megabumi's truck lol and there's also this very strong urge to meet that...guy, u kno. XDDDDDDDDD yes, actually that's the sole reason why in want to go deliver barang PUTERA with Megabumi XD

ok, next is the part that says "NO". it's because i'm to shy to meet him. yes, like usual, i'm so twisted in the inside. i kinda like the guy, but i dun want to meet him...*sigh* i shouldnt have message him to much. before. arghhh i want to divert this feelin dang it...Archuleta is not here, so he cant really do (eventhough he's doing a pretty good job XD lol)

well, i still havent made my mind... i guess we'll wait and see, this monday...

ok, next...still wanna talk about archuleta. this has been in my mind for days, and i think it's worth to blog.

u see, i have been repeating archuleta's songs (notably: crush, evelator and sumthing bout love). and i sing along. and i even look for the lyric. when u think about it, actually it's kinda amazing u know. because, i am a japanese freak, and i have been only listening and singing and memorizing japanese songs for like 9 years ago. and the last time that i love english song was when i was obsessed wit westlife. i memorized all the songs in the coast to coast album for goodness sake! but after i started watching anime, i totally abandon english song. there was this 1 point where i actually dun listen to english song at all! and now, thanks to david archuleta, i even think his songs are even better than japanese songs lol i cant believe this is happening.. sumthing actually win over my japanes overly obsession. or maybe i was just boring? emmm... if that's the case, then how sad it is... oh well, i think that's all... i dunno what else to say..

bye~

PS: sumthing amusing i forgot to mention. i was in sarawak plaza, and then on my way out i heard 'sumthing bout love' on the speaker. i went up to LEA centre and wandering there just to hear that song lol Good job LEA centre for airing that song XD i think the person that played the songs has almost the same taste in music wit me XD last time, they played 911 songs and made me download 911 songs after that XD

Random talk session 142: Life in GEMS part 22

hello diary! today is27/5/2010. it's 12:46 am now.. Thursday..

finish the 2.5 moths indoor course on 12th may. gah, miss my company so much! miss my roommates! miss penview!!!

ah, i was re-reading my past entries about how i really hated to go for the GEMS program, but now i really miss it a lot!

emm..been soooo long since i update.. many things happened, but i forgot.. so i guess, it will only remain in memory and not in this blog lol

ok...about induction in SEDC.

i came for the 1 day only. bcoz i had red eye on the 2nd day! i went to the office, but then i was advised to go to clinic and rest. ah, i feel so lost. thankfully, one of the SEDC staff helped me to go to the clinic. i feel so bad, bcoz i had to trouble him.

emm..so also didnt go for the closing ceremony for the induction. wuu, so sad! i wish i was there..

emm.. ok, so i was place at sri aman! but i dun want! i want to change to HQ. i called SEDC earlier abt this, but they didnt called me back... i want to work at kuch... the internet is quiet fast here, and i also still hav that plan to go karaoke wit my friend!!! wuuu!!! so sad!!! i love kuch..

randoM, one of the non-GEMS intern was kinda cute ahahahaha

ahaha... oh, abt the guy in GEMS... i found his FB. the real one...omg he's 6 years younger than me!!! i feel like a pedophile *slap self* this feeling is sooo wrong!! i should forget him!!! ..but then again darn he' s so cute *_* *stares at pic that i stole form his FB* omg i still love him aarrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ok, to be continue...

Random talk session 120: tenipuri and JE

Hello diary~ Today is 15/2/10. it's monday.

yesterday tv3 didnt air merlin T_T. ah well, i still hav hallmark XD This tuesday. hehe. oh, also yesterday's Raja Lawak. Caca's out. only 4 people remaining. i hope mamu can be in the top3, but dunno y i hav the feeling they are the next to go next week. aiii...

next topic. still struggling to dwld tenipuri festa backstage. i failed 2 time!!! gggrrrrr!! *pulls hair* i feel so mad!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRFGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*calms down. reads the quote at the right side of site. /sighs/*

..... ok, let's get to the random. tenipuri and JE.. i dun watch tenipuri. wait, that's wrong. i've watched it but just nvr finished it lol besides, i already kno the ending. i think. ryoma pretty much won everything. seigaku also pretty much won everything. the only thing that make me watch some of the eps is to c atobe XD and ended liking hyoutei bcoz of the voice actors haha.

ok, about hyoutei's tennis club. they are bunch of selfish people lol in a JE comparison, hyoutei is like kattun. the members are not that friendly wit each other, they hav problem wit team works, bunch of troulesome guys XD haha. it's very Kattun. well, i dun really kattun that well, or even hyoutei. this is just what i think. haha.

then...i thought...what about NEWS. which team of tenipuri r them? emm....truthfully i dunno.haha. i'm thinking seigaku XD

as for kanjani, i think they are shitenhouji. lolz i dunno anything abt shitenhouji, but i think they are bunch of funny people XD

as for arashi..emm..rokkaku maybe? lolz i dun have any idea..

HSJ..emm....higa? lolz jk jk. i dunno...emm...

i cant think anymore....the point is i think hyoutei is like kattun..haha. ok, end!!

Random talk session 93: ishida yamato

hello diary! today is 5th November. it's Thursday..

yesterday...was wathing a funny video on utube. about brock (from pokemon). he looks so funny wit eyes open. LOL i cant stop laughing. repeating the video too many times make me love the background song. and waddya kno. it's matt's (yamato. from digimon) song. yamato!! i miss that guy. havent seen him for soo long. oh gawd. he is seriously, one of my all time fav character *_*. I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!! so, i try to find his pic in photobucket. and i found this cute love quote:
"you know you are in love when you cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"
aww~~ so cute. i am not really the mushy mushy a.k.a.jiwang type, but that was really cute ne XD

ok..back to bushiness...yamato~~
he's so dreamy *_____________________________* 6,7 years ago..i accidently saw him in ntv7 and i ended watching digimon lol evetho at first i hated digimon. yes, i did. i dun remember why though, hahaha. at first, i only watched digimon to see him only XD but he's rarely shown bcoz he is not (one of) the main character...in the end, i become to like digimon. it's kinda good, eventho sometimes very cliche. and then, finally the series (digimon 02) ended, and then, i found out there's a first season of digimon!! and there's chibi yamato XDD kyaaa!!

jsdfhhsdfjksdfhdgjhsdgdf *falls in love all over again*

i never think green would look so kakkoi XD and i think this is the reason i have a thing with sleeveless now XDDD and turtleneck XD GAH. i wish i can watch digimon again >,<

-right now, listening to yamato image song, it's his 02 song, not adv XD the title is..i cant remember! it's too long too remember XD haha yesterday i repeated it so many times, but i didnt like it. after i listen it to it again now, i actually found it quite catchy XD nice song eh! hehehe!!

that's all for today. goes to play mafia wars in facebook XD bye2

Random talk session 90: OTP

another post today!! besides i didnt post any entry on September!

neway! a new OTP! haha!!! it's gintoki x hijikata XD this new obsession is becoz of the awesome doujinshi by PLUG (circle's group name) @ Nagisa that i read!

PLUG's doujin is soooo cute and sweet!!!!!!! the most recent i dl is call "call" haha. mind the pun. anyway...it's really cute!! how many times must i say it? >o<