Random talk session 265: lantis festival sg

hello diary!! today is 2th april. lol almost one week after the concert! i almost forgot to write down my experience! i cant believe, a week ago, i was all freak out of going to singapore. and now, it is already over. i m so sad. i miss suzu so much.. these days i've been listening to his songs lol

ok.. when i found out that lantis was gonna do a world tour, i was really hoping malaysia was one of the stop. but alas, it was singapore instead. i was very disappointed. that time, i was very obsessed with terashii lol so, i thought maybe i will go if hav terashii as one of the artist. my other options were: if they hav the 2 suzu (suzuken and tatsu lol)

note the "consider" part lol. eventhough it's singapore, i really hate travelling and going to new places. it scares me very much. so, yeah..  then.. after months of waiting, they finally announced the artists. at this time, i was kinda in suzu and terashii mood.. so yeah, when suzu was announced as one of the artist, i was like, screaming softly in my room. i was rolling rolling around on my bed,..

suzu!!!!!!!!!!!  i was... going crazy! i tried to buy the ticket online but they need singapore IC or passport to register, and i hav none of that. i was so sad! so devastated! so vexing! after a few days of sulking, someone from tumblr finally help me to get a ticket. and eventhough it's only cat2, but i guess it's good enough, as long as i can see suzu with my own 2 eyes. so, then, i got busy preparing for my trips. make passport, flight ticket and hotel. the first month, i was going crazy thinking about the trip. this is the first time i m going abroad, and alone for goodness sake!!!! i was terrified as hell!!! people dun hav no idea how scare i was! and then by march, i was like, suddenly in house md obsession lol and i kinda forgot about singapore for a moment.. and by 26th march, (a week ago), reality suddenly hit me. this is really happening, i m really going to singapore. i m going to see suzu. omg. 

and finally the day of the event... and when i arrived in singapore. and stand in front of star theater. this is it. this is it. the day i've been waiting for! and i was in the concert hall. i was feeling all nervous.. and finally it begins!! my highlite of the concert is def suzu, i love him so much!! her is my full report on experience to see suzu live. (original post was on tumblr, but i think i want to delete that blog, so i m moving the post here)

the sole reason that i m willing to go to the con, all the way from malaysia, is freakin suzumura kenichi. this is a big deal for me, coz i really hate travelling. i rather just stay at home and watch anime or whatever.

ok, before suzu’s turn, it was kensho, and i was also very excited to see him, so, i started my “engine” during this performance. started to scream and flailing like a mad person lol.. and then, i was like, kinda tired, so i sat down lol.. but then, it was announced that suzu was the next performer, and i was like, jumped from my seat and then, there he was. i was screaming so damn hard and i want to imprint this feeling and that image of seeing him in person, in my brain for the rest of my life. so, what is my impression of seeing him live? he looks and sounds the same as on tv, well, of course. also, maybe it’s the outfit, but i thought he’s more, how to say? lol, when i saw him on tv, i think he’s quite thin, but that nite, he looks bulkier (?) lol also, i really love his outfit for this concert! during his talk session… i dun really remember what he talked about lol, i didnt pay attention to what he said, only that i was desperately trying to scream and to see him clearer from where i was. but he was so funny and dorky like his usual self *_* my legs started to hurt during the 3rd song, but i was still jumping till the end. the only thing i remember from this concert is me screaming and my legs hurting like hell lol and how sad was i at the end of the last song T.T to see him walk away.. i didnt get the high five session, so yeah, this is the last time (?) i m gonna see him. so, at the end, i screamed “SUZU, BYE BYE!!!!” 

… thankfully, all the casts came back after the encore call, and said their goodbye speeches. But damn fate, suzu was on the far right side of the stage (i was on the very far left lol). suzu said that he’s glad that everybody enjoys his performances even though most of the people probably didnt even know his songs. aww even though i didnt know the lyric, his setlist is the only one that all the songs that i heard of. Then. as the very last song, they sang starting style. my eyes is on suzu all the time lol so i saw that he was mouthing the lyrics when the other artists are singing awww~ i just want to hug him for some reason XD i m glad that they exited on the left side, so i got to screams and wave to suzu at a closer range. i hope he saw me lol

and that concludes lantis festival singapore 2015

i will never forget this moment! i hope suzu will come to malaysia too one day!! 

the few days, suzu is all i can think of! i miss him so much!! 

ok, that's all! actually lots of other thing happen, but my mind is preoccupied with suzu already, i just want to think of him and replay the memories of seeing him live.. 

that's all! bye!

Random talk session 264: HOUSE TALK (spoiler alert)

hello diary.. today is 14th march.. and i want to ramble about house today..

erm... so yeah.. 2 weeks has passed and i m still having house feels lol.. 

so yeah.. like i said, the reason i kinda lost interest in the show, is bcoz they changed the main casts in season 4. i was really sad when that happened.. and watching the shows, was really painful (back then0.. but i still watched them when i got the time, coz i still remember most of season 4 episodes.. 

so, the other day, when i started to watch the show again, i started from season 6.. and.. then.. at one point, the 3 main casts saw house, and house was like, "omg it's 3 years ago". as funny as that scene (coz of how house said it lol) i was kinda touched by that scene.. ugh u guys dun hav no idea how i miss them! the original 3!! anyway.. yeah.. when i first fall in love with this show, it was with the 3 of them, and it was a very precious memory for me... 

next, i wanna talk otp lol.. i really like chase and cameron together.. they were actually my otp lol so, how frustrated was i, when they broke up in season 7! ugh ugh ugh!!! why??? why???? why shore? why???? (note: shore is the series creator lol).. so yeah.. i was really sad.. i am not really into het ships, and got very few of them, so yeah.. CHASE X CAMERON OTP 4LYFE! lol 

also, then season 8 happened.. more substitute! ughh... i think the asian kid kinda ok i guess, but i cant stand adam.. i dunno, she kinda becomes cameron no,2? .. heh, whatever.. ok, gonna talk spoiler now... the thing about cancer in this show.. like, they are giving all of them cancer for some reason. cuddy got it in season 7, and then, wilson got it in season 8. somewhere in season 1 or 2, house even faked his cancer.. 

so, how did i feel about the season finale? making me sad! and i m thinking of their fate every nite...lol... in my mind,here is the version of the ending: wilson's cancer starts to remission, and he live!, and they live happily ever after. house finally stops his vicodin addiction, coz during those 5 months, he only can think of wilson dying, and he is gonna be all alone after he died, so he tries very hard to change. besides, they are on the road now, and getting vicodin's stock is not as easy anymore.. so he had to try to live without vicodin., the thoughts of wilson dying also makes him try harder, eventhough, at first, it was really hard for him to stop, 

at one point, i think house said sumthing like this: almost dying doest change anything, dying changes everything. we can think of this in what it is meant for house. dying changes everything. and as we all know, he was really "dead" to the rest of the world. so he need to change. he quit his vicodin, and learns to be a better person.. and as for wilson in my universe, his cancer was remission, so he live.. so maybe he got a new job, or get back to his old job, and secretly solved medical mystery with house.. or sumthing, tho, to be honest, i dun think that kinda scenario works.. i think after that, he and house continue to be on the road and just livin the life.. together *winks*................................. erm.. ok lolol ok, ok that was kinda weird.. maybe that is just me ok, but yeah, that is how it ended for me. i want house and wilson to hav a good ending.. 

erm.. i dun hav much to say anymore.. more like i dunno what else to write.. so that's all for today!

Random talk session 263

hello! it's 3rd of march.. i cant believe it's already march.. less than a month for me to go to singapore, and i m still terrified thinking about it.. it's not a bad thing, but stil, going alone, is so scary for me.. erm, anyway.. gonna talk about my new obsession..? erm, shud i call it obsession? lol actually, not really.. it's more like, things that hav been in my mind the past days.. and it's house md season finale. ok, yeah, i finally freakin finish watching this show..

so, i m gonna start with intro of how i start to watch this series.. as far as i remember, i watched it first on axn, and i watched it bcoz i saw chase lolol yup, i remember the reasons very clearly lol i saw chase and thought he was handsome, so i watched the whole episode.. so i like chase, so i watch some more episodes, and becoz the show is very much mystery-like medical drama, i started to like it as well, and not watching it for chase anymore lol.. besides, as i watched more, i think chase is such a jerk lol like, now i m rewatching the show again, and i cant believe it used to like this guy lol,, anyway, yeah.. and then, yeah, after that, i really kinda become a fan, and i watched house regularly on tv. 

and then, i kno i was kinda becomes a fan, coz i make the theme song as my ringtone lol.. also, i remember during my practical of my 2nd year, i watched the show too. .but i dun remember where did i got the dvd from.. did i downloaded it? or did i copy it from someone? i think it's the later, but yeah, the memory is kinda blurry..

ermm.. so yeah,,also, actually i mention about house too in this entry. 2009.. but i dun think i download much of the episodes.. i think i only manage to download 2 or 3 episodes? lol i think i was kinda occupied by other things at that time, and i forgot about house entirely,, until... 2011, the time that i was working at SEDC, and there was this friend, who said he has a few house ep, so it got me to rewatch the show again. so i did.. but then that's it.. lol.. i dun remember much about it anymore after that. i think, one of the reason, i kinda get disinterest on the show, becoz they change house's team. u know, the plot for season 4? i dislike changes, so when they do that to the show, i was kinda disappointed.. i really like the original 3, and when they got them replaced, i was like, "ugh.. no.. " and i becomes disinterest in watching more episodes.. that's y i never really watch the show again after that.. until now. 

so, yeah, remember the one friend, that got me some episodes to watch back in 2011 (when i was working with sedc)? i kinda saw his post on facebook (he never post before, so i was like, kinda weird-ed that he suddenly writing anything on facebook..), so i was getting nostalgic, and like, "ah.. this guy...wonder what he's up to now? erm, now i want to watch house".... so i did. i downloaded season 6 7 and 8. and then it begins.

so.. at first, i watched it coz of nostalgic reasons.. ah..how i miss them,, and i was really happy that up to season 6, they still used the opening from season 1. house is still a jerk lol and he's still as hilariously sarcastic as always.. i dun understand the medical jargon, but i still enjoy this show very much. so yeah,, i watch.. and i watch.. and i watch.. 

and i watch. when i was watching season 6 and 7, i think i started to like wilson more than usual lol, and it's bcoz he kinda becomes the butt monkey of the show lol.. he's always in a funny situation..like, ugh..i freakin like him.. dun get me wrong, it's not that i dislike him before, but i think i hav a natural feeling towards him. like's here's always there. but i m like, doesnt think much about him.. and i  always feel sorry for him every time house do sumthing mean to him, or play pranks on him.. but that's it, i never actually pay attention to the guy.. until... yeah.. now..

so..yeah.. then i was at season 8. the last season.. ok.. last season.. and in ep 2. house said he wants wilson to get over the thing that happened on the season finale of season 7, and yeah, he actually said he like wilson. just how slashy can their relationship gets at this point. and then i kinda.. felt sumthing.. sumthing that was actually has been there ever since i started watching the season 6.. it was, my fujoshi instinct, and yeah.. and then it finally started.. my "hilson" obsession. like ugh.. the more i watched the episodes, actually i wanted to see house and wilson together.. and then, they just make it worst by making the last few episodes all about them! like omg.. like omg.. like ugh ugh ugh.. after the finale, all i can think about is wilson dying, house is gonna be alone, and i m so sad thinking about it, but it doesnt stop me from do more thinking of them.. house freakin fake his own death just to be with wilson for the next 5 months!? like hello????  like omg.. all i can think about after the finale is them! seriously! i cant work, i cant concentrate! i refuse to watch other show! even anime is all halted coz i m feeling all these feels! so much feels!!!!!! ugh..!! and now i m only rewatching house. like ugh,, seriously..  ugh..ah, i think i should stop now, coz i want to watch more house lolol

ok bye..

Random talk session 262: meme & life

hello diary!! as always, it has been too long!

HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~

AH, it's 2015 already.. and u kno what that means. another meme XD

2014

What fandoms did you acquire in 2014?

I think, Suzumura Kenichi and Terashima Takuma XD 

as for anime... tokyo ghoul maybe? lol ermm.. actually watched quite few good anime last year.. oh, also, donten ni warau. damn i cry my eyes out watching it lol.. 

i also watch gravity fall. it's ok, for a cartoon show lol i think it is worth to mention here ^^

What fandoms did you let go of in 2014?

i think the youtuber ryan higa? i am not into him anymore.. tho, the experience of seeing him in 2012 was one of the best. tho, nowadays, i dun really watch his video that much anymore.. i think there shud be more, but ryan is the only one i can think about haha..

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2015?

lol bulleyes again for last year meme. i did get hook up to new seiyuu last year..  and also, i can say, the highlight fandom for 2014 is the seiyuu.. wasting my time watching seiyuu videos and making GIFs lol

as for this year, i dunno.. maybe another seiyuu obsession? 

What fandoms do you think you might let go of in 2015 unless things significantly improve.

one direction? nah, maybe i'll hang around for about a few years. at least until i get to meet them in person XD

What fandoms do you think you'll never let go of no matter how crappy they get? Why?

no answer again for this year. can i cancel this question? lol

What show impressed you most in 2014?

.... why i only think of tokyo ghoul? haha.. well, actually there are lots of good anime these year..

What show impressed you least in 2014?

Free. like, everyone is so into that show.. but i m like, meh.. i cant even finish watching both seasons.. but the songs is really good tho! haha.. at one times, i was like, repeating the songs for hours and hours and hours and hours!! 

ok, that's for for today :)

i think i shud write more. but i m so bore.. ok, since i m already on tis.. i shud write a few things on life..

new year in the lab this year.. same for christmas day.. and my birthday haha everything in the lab.. what a boring life.. 

oh.. also, a major update, i m going to singapore in march.. to see suzu..!! heeee!!! i m so scare and excited! i m scare coz i m gonna go alone. ugh.. this is gonna be the 1st time i m going abroad.. so scare.. but also excited, coz i m gonna see suzu, tatsu and kensho live!! ughh

oh, another thing,, i finally know how to buy things online (internationally) using debit card haha.. not the ordinary online shopping, but the one using paypal, mastercard/visa.. and now i cant wait for my stuffs to come haha.. kinda spend a little too much actually. the shipping costs is so expensive.. erm, what else shud i  mention? nothing.. ? so, good bye? haha until next time..

happy new year!! 

Random talk session 261

hello diary! today is 20october.. it's 1.17am

enough emo. today i want to talk about anime. so yeah..fall season of anime has started.. and i m watching a few.. lol before i talk about that, let me start with the anime that i finished.. 

TOKYO GHOUL.

- OMG!!!!! IT S SO GOOOODDDD AND ALSO WHAT S MORE, NO BIAS IN THE CASTS, SO MY JUDGEMENT IS KINDA NOT BIASED LOLOL 

- ok, so bcoz for this fall, i hav a few anime that i m kinda interested, in so i feel the need to finish the anime that i has been put onhold lol.. tokyo ghoul.. omg seriously.. there is no dull moment. i guess, some people say the show is kinda rush,  but actually i prefer show to be this way.. 

- i remember one of the first impression i got from watching this, is, tat, the show is very much fantasy like.. lol.. i dunno how to explain this..  maybe coz the anime is kinda too colorful for a horror show lol 

- i cant stop watching after ep 2.. like i watch the remaining 11 ep in one sitting..every episode is so interesting, and it makes u want to watch more! i m so glad i only watch this after the show end..

- 2nd season next year! yay!! cant wait!! 

- *SPOILER COMMENT* SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER STOP READING* the first ep ends with the sound of kaneki swallowing a corpse he was forced to eat (how to say this? u know, that noise u make when u swallow something lol).. while in the very last ep, also, that swallowing sound, but this time, he is not forced to eat, but it was on his own. like, seriously, this show is so good! i love it!! been a long time since i watch a really good anime.. but yeah, this one is def going in the one of the best one.. yay!!

.... that's it lol 

i also watched few ep of hamatora and free s2 but um, this show is.. so boring.. ugh.. i m sorry, but seriously.. oh, also, tokyo esp omg this is why i hate anime that has a girl as it's protagonist.. so boringgggg!!!!!! i hav download all the eps of those series (the shows already ended!) but i m just not motivated to watch them...

ok, next is, i m gonna talk about show tat i m watching this season..

1. Mushishi zoku shou 2nd season

- heck, it's freakin mushishi, i so watching this! and by weekly basis! 

- what more can i say? i love mushishi ok!

2. Donten ni warau.

- ok, i admit i m watching this for the casts lol and usually by the usual pattern, anime that i watched for the casts, never turns out good lol... but yeah, like i said, omg the freakin casts!!!!!! so many bias here lol the only one who's missing is terashii only lol

- i guess the first ep is kinda average? not that good, not that bad.. some mystery here and there.. 

3. World Trigger

- i was just gonna preview this show, and if it was bad, i would drop it immediately, but once again, damn bias lol i ll talk about that later

- the anime is so so.. it's from shonen jump i think? so yeah, fulls of those shonen element that i m really tired of lol 

- seriously tho, the show is very much mediocre to me, but i m watching it on weekly basis to, coz of that one bias...

4. Nanatsu no taizai

- same wit above, was only gonna preview it, but once again, THAT ONE BIAS!!!!!!!!! 

5. Psycho Pass 2nd season

- I WANT TO HEAR SEKITOMO AGAIN ... but he's not in this 2nd season! 

- but i guess the show is kinda good, so yeah, i m watching this... and hoping for a cameo from sekitomo's character lol i forgot his name..

6. Parasyte 

- erm, no bias lol but, i watched the first ep, and the show is kinda interesting.. so yeah, watching this on weekly basis too! 

7. Fairy tail

- of coz! haha!! oh, another comment, rogue!!!!!!!!!! suzu!!!!!!!!!! 

- ugh i hate bias lol.. so, when rogue was first introduce, and he was suzu, i was like, oh suzuken? ok. and that was it. but, this few months, my suzu obsession has come back, and omg he's like, my no.1 bias right now lol (but i also got this ultimate bias.. later later).. so this time, everytime i see rogue, i ll be like, omg precious!! so precious!! stop!! ugh11!! nOPE!!! get out!!!!!!

- yeah, stupid bias lol 

- also, i want to praise mashima again lol. i love the way he does the story/mystery here.. i hav to admit, i think i m really becoming a fan of his work in general lol

ok. also there another story i want to talk about..

so, yeah, so, the first 3 anime that i was planning to check for this fall are donten ni warau, world trigger and nanatsu no taizai. what does this 3 hav in common? FREAKIN KAJI YUKI. NO WONDER HE IS MY ULTIMATE BIAS. The first anime that i watched is Donten ni warau.. and right after that i watch world trigger. omg i still remember i was so shock to hear nakamura lol and then kaji again lol..and then, in nanatsu no taizai. kaji again, KAJI YUKI EVERYWHERE. 

the reason i want to watch world trigger and nanatsu no taizai is bcoz freakin kaji.. lol damn it.. 

anyway, i think this has been so long, so i m gonna stop here! until next time!

Random talk session 260

hello diary. today is 18th october...

ermm... too long since my last post.. almost 2 months
I m usually pretty calm and dun get my emotion take over me, but today i m so mad... i hate this feeling. i m sad. i m mad. i m angry. i want to stab the person's eye.. just like the gif.. where was it... erm.. oh here it is

anyway... enough of those angry talk.. anime update.. nothing.. i m still not watching anything.. but for some reason, i m watching gravity falls. it's cartoon lol i guess i just craving to watch some mystery anime.. u know, bcoz kindaichi returns anime has ended.. also conan ep updates are so late.. yeah.. that's the only thing.. i havent finish anything from last season!! i mean, the new season of anime has started! and i got my eye on a lot of series, but how can i start watching those if i dun even finish wtching the ones i started last season.. i dunno.. maybe tomoro.. lol 

next, seiyuu talk.. i m not feeling much terashii nowadays lolol but i m kinda reverting back to suzu lolol i guess it s bcoz i was marathoning banpresto lab and famitsu gamers dx episodes... suzu is sooo funny!!! like, the guy is 40, and i always wonder, why do i like this 40 years old guy???? ugh.. he's so charming..and funny.. ahh.. i really love him.. seriously, if there's someone who doesnt like suzu, u r so wrong!! he's so charming and loveable! ugh.. also, i m kinda having week spots towards ryota too the other day lol (yeaa i told u i watch a liitle too much of banpresto lab..)

ermm... what else? nothing much.. oh.. also, i m also watching anime joushi ... nanto ka nantoka cafe lolol i cant remember the title.. yeah, the one wit yoshino, yasumoto and hatano, the cooking show lololol. nothing much too say, except: YASUMOTO IS SO HOT AND HE COOKS AND THAT MAKES HIM 1000000x HOTTER I CANT WITH HIM DJKF FJHSUJSDJFFJIDIFFFFFFF

haha. . yeah.. maybe i will get the yasumoto feeling later lol..

erm, i guess that's all for today! bye

Random talk session 259: ugh more terashii talk

hello diary!! today is 24th august..!! long time!!! remember my last entry? the one about anime that i m currently watching and/or planning to watch...well.. actually after that, everything is halted lolol i guess my seiyuu obsession has taken over my life lol

seriously, i m not watching anything (anime) at the moment.. none.. i rather watch family guy or american dad lol but i kinda finish watching most of the episodes (for both series) too now lol sometimes i gets bored, so i watch kindaichi,, also, i m only at ep 3 of free lol i think it's at ep 7 or 8 now? i dunno ok! i m not updated lol not just anime, but i also kinda stopped playing candy crush.. i m stuck at level 425. dondake just how hard this level is!!! ugghhhhh 

today... i still wanna talk about.. terashii lol.. ok.. like seriously.. he's so cuteeee!! i wanna squish his face ughhhhh whyyy so cuteee ughhhhh just a few hours ago, i was watching the famitsu gamer show, (the one wit suzu and maeno) and terashii is the guest.. thy were playing the old game, and terashii making those "yaaa yaa" sounds ughhhhhhhh SO CUTE I M GONNA DIE UGHHHHHHHH FSJ SDFSJD STOP IT

UGH i m so captivated by terashii currently lol... he's so cute.. esp his smile.. omg his smile.. and also, this guy makes too much peace signs lol he's so cuteee uuuughhh  i was like, brushing my screen (at his face) (on the monitor) lololol he's so cuteeeee

that makes me thinking.. like  i said before, i used to hate this guy! like, seriously..  i HATED HIM. I ADMIT I HATED HIM. i didnt even know him. but he kinda keeps on appearing lol so he's kinda like, "jamma" da! to me lolol and i i refused to watch the maji love event even tho shimono was in it. and that time i was OBSESSED with shimono.. i really want to watch the live, but i didnt just bcoz i hate that guy that i didnt know. i think i hate him bcoz, i dunno who he was, u know, i consider myself kinda seiyuu experts lol i can recognize about 100 voices (minimum). but suddenly, this guy, that i never heard of (his voice,not name) suddenly is in this event, where all the popular seiyuu (taniyama,suwabe,miyano) was also in...i know, i am really narrow minded person, for thinking that way, but, i really felt that way.. i cant help it.. i remember i downloaded the live for, maybe 2 weeks? but i did not watch it.. i dun really remember why i suddenly watch it tho.. maybe i kinda curious? or just bored? lol.. yeah, so i watched it. and was first, was obsessed wit the 1000% maji love song, so i kinda only repeated that one song, and just kinda skimmed through the other songs lol but then, i come across the catchy song amazing love, and was also obsessed wit that song.. if i must say, that song, was the reason i kinda take notice of terashii.. even tho, at that time, i was also kinda developing my suzu obsession. after that, my suzu obsession also starts, and i forgot about terashii's cuteness in amazing love.. i was drowning myself wit suzu... omg wow i was obsessed. if i look at this blog, the obsession kinda starts in may. it begins in april, but my obsession finally kicks in during may. and then come june. oh june. that is terashii's month lol. also after i watch utapri, i kinda accepted terashii, and i think the moment that i really fall in love, is when i suddenly hear him in baka to test anime. i was like, eh?? i know tis voice.. i heard of it sumwhere...  and then, i HEARD IT. i FREAKIN HEARD IT. HIS VOICE. i searched on the net, yeah, that is really terashii's voice. and then, i also downloaded 3rd stage, and uugghhh guess who got my most attention. surprisingly, it wasnt suzu.. but, terashii.. yeah, he's so freakin cute in there and i just cant!! i made gifs of him, and make me more conscious of him, and before i know it, i was googling his face for the whole week lol yup, i remember. i was freakin googling his face. in conclusion. he's sooo cuteee i m officially obsessed, and suzu become something of the past lol i still love him tho, really.. but now, it's most def is terashii's for me. the obsession is worst these few weeks. my anime is all halted bcoz i wanna watch and rewatch terashii videos lol.. aiiii... 

ok i think that's it.. i wonder how long this obsession gonna lasts lol and who is next.. well, diary, whoever it is, you will be the first one to kno lol bye!