Random talk session 164: me in the web

Hello diary! it's 31.10.10. Sunday..

happy halloween day! em, today, there was a cosplay competition at the hills. it was rather amusing lol i love the judge who cosplayed wolfwood haha XDD he's kinda good looking mah hahahaha

......ok, as usual.... i think i can forget him now? can i? i want to forget really bad! but, this is one of the time that i think i am starting to forget him. i guess it's thanks to david XD

dunno what else to write.. that's all...bye..

edit: i am not satisfied that this post was too short, so i am editing.. hehe..

i have many site/account in the web, so this is me, listing it down, for fun lol:

1. of coz, this blogspot. was originally called unknownsolution.blogspot,com, but i changed it since my fren found out about it.. this is the place where i write about my life. it started as my 2nd fandom blog, where i write about seiyuu and anime, but gradually i started to write more about myself.

2. my multiply site. unknownsolution.multiply.com. yeah, u can see, i really love the phrase 'unknown solution' haha.. where i write about my fandom, esp NEWS. but nowadays, i rarely write there. it's kinda sad. i used to love NEWS like crazy! my posts there has come to more than 200 (i was really obssessed!).

3. my twitter. i think u can guess my url haha yup, it's unknownsolution again.. nothing much there. i just created it to support my fandom..hehe..

4. my facebook. the only thing that i keep locked from public lol

5. youtube channel. also unknownsolution. actually that's my second account. my 1st one was deleted. argh, so mad! well, what can i do.. haha...

6. almost forget. my another blog. livejournal. which is basically dead. lol just using it to view various community and to comment on them..

i think that's all? is there more? emm... nope, dun think so.

Random talk session 163: kataomoi chiisana koi

hello diary. it's 29.10.10. friday.

writing from the office. at lunch hour. so, hmm. today i feel sick to my stomach. when? after i got a called from him. i feel like throwing up when i think of him. he make me sick! i obviously hate him *roll eyes* and, i just had to say this sumthing. he called me the 2nd time, and it was really awkward. especially the ending, i dunno if he hung up or not, bcoz i can hear it's not. the sound is like he's waiting for me to hung up or maybe he thought he already hung up. seriously, it was really awkward!

well, i think that's all for today...bye..

Random talk session 162: kimi ni mune kyun

hello diary.. it's 28/10/10. thursday nite...

hmm, i ve been updating almost everyday lol if u look at the archieve, there was a time when i didnt write for 2 months or so (june and july). i realize sumthing. same thing happened before. seems like i write more when watashi ga koi ni ochiru haha more like kata omoi though haha.. ahh.. moshi ga koi wa konnani suteki nara...

lol dang it, now i have to write in broken japanese so that nobody understand if any of my friends found my blog again lol

but anyway, aii.. actually now i feel like i wanna throw up when aitsu ga omoidasu.. argh..

ok. i think i should write the iro iro no koto when ano hito wo iru..

1. neko! lol there was this time, there was suddenly a cat jumps onto him lol kawaii deshita yo!

2. gin iro no kuruma i seriously need to get this out of my system, like seriously!

3. i drank too much, but i was too embarrass to tell that i wanted to go to the toilet, so i held it. i even drank some more lol but in the end i had to borrow one of the participants toilet lol ok, fast forward to time, then it was his turn to want to got to toilet lol it was kinda funny, bcoz i remembered he was also feeling sleepy.. lol i have a thing when watashi no kata omoi wined lol argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh there it is again, that feeling!!! the butterfly in my stomach T-T

when i started to list them, seems like the memories i had is not that much... about no.3, that was also the time when this guy makes a lot of jokes. (i can tell, he was really bored and very sleepy lol) i dunno why i feel very very amused. it was so hard for me to contain my laughter. omg i miss those times T-T that was one of watashi no saikou omoi desu yo.. to be futari kiri ,ano hito to..

*siiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

i think that's all..

bye..

Random talk session 161: Anata wo omou hodo mune ga kurushii

hello diary! It's 27.10.10, tuesday.

Now at grand margerita for sedc integrity day. The chief minister is here lol emm..nothng much. Listening to cermah,etc on integrity. So boring. Blah. Ok,that's aside. Aitsu ga kuru! Omg i dunno wht to freakin feel abt this.. I guess i am a little ureshii,demo,this is gonna be so awkward since my friend found out my blog and my himitsu lol And also, my mijikai minikui kami wo miserarenai wake ga nai yo! (lol i so fail at my japanese).

edited:

argh... i was on my way back to the office and was thinking of a way to avoid him.. there i was, punched my card and was about to go in and i saw boss, my thought: "oh, boss, what he's doing there?" few mili second later i saw a red shirt... i know who it is right away (though i dun even saw his back, just saw the red shirt lol). i was having doubt of going in, but finally i went, bcoz i need to settle about the payment... and then, we went to boss' office.. and talk about the bill format.. well, not a very good 'meeting' bcoz i feel very very very very very bad and very very very very guilty. it's one of those days when i feel like it's better if i was not here.. if other people were assigned to this, i think things will go more smoother. this feel of guilt, it's so overwhelming. usually i cry, but for some reason, my tears just wont come out. i dunno if it's bcoz of ano hito, or maybe some other reasons..

i also want to say 1 thing to ano hito... i am sorry. hontoni gomensai. Oh God, please let him kno that i am really sorry. whether it's through a dream, a thought or whatever, i just want him to kno, i am really sorry... i want this feeling anata wo todoke.. Gah, almost cry there..

i went in the file room to get a moment alone, and listen to music loudly. my friends were kinda worried that i cry inside lol thanks all.

emm, what else? oh, want to comment sumthing. about that akai fuku lol GAH KAKKOI DESU YO XD

GAH ....................................... I HATE THIS FEELING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aitsu no koto wa wasurenai demo wasurarenai..

i said to myself, DAIKIRAI!!! DAIKIRAI!!!!. and when i think of it, nanka, nami ga.. please, make this feeling go away. my heart is to weak to bare it. omae nanka, ni doto ai ta kata, ni doto kangai ta..

that's all..

Random talk session 160: no title

hello diary. today is 26/10/10. it's tuesday...

lot happened today. so much office drama lol it's not really thing i want to keep in memory, so i guess i dun want to write about it haha... ah, but then again, . it's just about the payment. and bil format. HAR made a different fornat from the other suppliers.. it was kinda a big deal. a whole rombongan came to sedc to talk about this lol

ok, wanna talk about other things. just found out that legenda hang tuah will be animated by japanese studio...lol it's cool, but seeems like they are gonna make it in malay! there goes my hope of hearing my fav seiyuus in this 'anime'

emm... i think tat's all for today....

Random talk session 159

hello diary....today is 25/10/10. it's monday..

emm,. i still havent finish my claim.. argh.. i admit, i am kinda slow, but this is too slow... arghhh... i hate myself..

emm.. ok, new topic..1 thing i learned after my fren found out about my blog is that it's better if i dun talk about my crush too much, (bcoz it's so damn embarrassing!) but dang i cant... it's new, so my feeling towards that person is quite strong now. when i see anything related to him, i'll automatic think of him, eventhough i am trying very, very hard to forget about him... argh.. stupid emotion...

i have this weird urge to write all the things that remind me of him also the memories about him. u kno why? bcoz i am sure, i'll forget about him after this. so, i need to write it, so that in the future i kno, i had this feelings before..

but i am kinda busy these days. i wonder if i will have the chance to write those things...

em, that's all for today. until next time.. bye..

EDIT: it's funny that i want to write sumthing that remind me of him when i am trying to forget him lol

Random talk session 158

hello diary. today is 23/10/10. it's saturday,

at MaryBrown again today. is downloading SPN ep 5. heck, i havent even finish watching ep 4. these days busy watching Dexter XD He's a serial killer, but i always feel sad seeing him with his problems.. poor guy.. *shakes head*

what else... emm.. i changed my blogspot url. gah, and i really like the previous url.. well, shoganai yo, after what happened..

i realized sumthing, my blog is so wordy haha em, i dun have any interesting pict to post..

........................... my mind is blank. so, that's all i guess? haha.. another pointless post for today..

bye2..