Random talk session 277

hello diary.. today is 4th april..

erm.. still struggling wit my feelings.. i thought i was over him, but ugh, why do i still feel happy when i think about him..

i need to get over him. and ASAP. Oh pls heart, pls dont do this anymore.. i m already hurt so much now...

i dont suppose to fall in love so easily.. even though i hav been working wit the guy for this long, i nvr had any feelings towards him.. so, why does i felt this way now?? as i remember.. it started with jealously i guess? becoz he was my partner all this time, so when he suddenly partner wit other people, i felt kinda jealous? is this right?? am i really jealous? but if i got jealous, doesnt that mean, that i actually felt he was special to me all this time? but since he was always there i always take him for granted?? really? ahh.. i dont think so. but i think so too.. i dunno anymore.. all i know is i really, really am falling for him now..

ahhh.. it still hurts. love hurts my heart.. i cant.. i cant.. freakin stop..damn it..

i think of him too much, i will definitely be too shy to see him again in 2 days.. and yet, i cant wait to see him again..

ugh i cant handle this feelings..

am i this desperate to fall in love?? that i fall for just anyone, that is in my vicinity?? and since he was the one that i met the most, that i fall for him?? is that the reason for this crush?? i cant answer that at all..


that is all for today.

until next time...