Random talk session 311: Ezad Exists

 Hello diary

Today is 29.12.2025

Want to talk about Exists and Ezad again lol 

Honestly i don't remember Exists in my childhood nor my teenage years.. None that i can remember.. I know Spoon, Spring, Slam, New Boyz lol but not Exists lol 

Like how and why did i even search for their songs??? There's a video on YouTube that i remember watching coz i wanted to hear their songs.. 

Fast forward to 2025..

I really wanted to go to exists concert for some reason lol lol i remember checking up tickets for the Singapore concert lolol i remember it clearly coz i was disappointed that i can't get front row lolol (the ticketing was already open months before). 

About the members, i learn about the vocalists from tiktok lol i really didn't care much, lol i remember seeing Ezad on my fyp and i was like "meh" hahahah 

I also saw the ad for exists concert at jiospace, and was considering again, but coz i was not that big of a fan, i decided not to go alas. Months pass again, and there was the news about the postpone of the concert. I consider again hahah but nope, alas still not going haha 

Then. It's Dec. One day, the jiospace concert snippet appeared on my fyp. I was like "oh it's the concert that i wanted to go" so i watched it......and watch more of the videos..  I was like "damn the songs so good"... Before i know it, i was watching exists videos until 2am lololol I fell in love with Ezad lol (coz of his voice lol). Bcoz of this, i even went to watch old videos of exists on YouTube..... Watching those really made me more obsessed with Ezad lol 

Like i said earlier, i don't have memories of exists in my childhood, but somehow Ezad's voice felt very nostalgic..., this nostalgic feeling is not from my childhood, but maybe from 10, 14 years ago.. I must have heard of their songs from my colleagues. They always put on oldie songs when working so i terikut la jg dengar haha

The obsession was so real coz i didn't t even want to eat anything, and just want to watch and hear Ezad 😭 

I love Ezad soooo much..

I know, this is just a fangirl phase.. One day, my love for Ezad will fade away too, and i feel so sad thinking about it 😢😢😢

For now, i can say he's my fav person in the world. The one i love the most in the world. He brings joy and happiness to my lonely world.. I want to meet Ezad before this feeling go away.. 😢😢😢

Bye

Random talk session 310: 2025 fandom

 Hello diary

Today is 25.12.2025. Christmas desu lol

Anyways yeah yeah i know it has been so long. 

Need to blog to keep track of my fandom lol

Anyways 2025...  Last time, i was obsessed with the blue lock's voice imitation streamers, update on that.. I guess I'm still keeping up with them haha I'm still watching their regular broadcast on Wednesday.  I don't watch their individual broadcast as much now. Raki and Kamui particularly, coz they are my favs. Still love them of course. My heart squeeze when they interacts 🥹 so cute.. 

Oh.. I went to blue lock fes.. My first seiyuu event... 

Also, this year i skip Gene's concert... And with this, i can say it's an end of an era. I have been seeing them every year since 2017, and this year i didn't go. I don't plan to go for next year live also. Yes, they have announced next year live already. So early.. 

I'm also not obsessed over jozan anymore. I have stop posting on my tiktok.. This is what happens when there's nothing new.. 😢

What's sadder i never even met johan or zizan at all..

At one point i suddenly got obsessed with so7 😂 but it was very short period. Like maybe 1, 2 months? I was listening to their songs nonstop lol Pak Duta so cute lol alas, this obsession also didn't last long lol

Next, 1d and Harry lol i think i was too bored in life lol... I watched 1d old videos, narry videos... Just to satisfy my fangirl side.. It was fun but as usual didn't last very long...

Now... Now it's freakin Exists lol.. It's still fresh, like maybe 5 days 😂 so i need to write it before i forget lol... Before this, i already like Exists' songs, and would listen to them when I'm extra bore lol at one time I even considering to go to their concerts (as a casual fan). This was bcoz I missed going to concerts lol... One day, as usual I'm watching tiktok, suddenly clippings of Exists concert appeared on my fyp. And i was like, erm yeah this was the concert i wanted to go lololol so i watched a few bunch, and was like erm why this kinda good............. Their videos keep popping up on my fyp... Before I knew it i was searching their videos nonstop (not from fyp) lolol and that's how i got obsessed with Ezad Lazim. Damn his voice is soooooo goood 😭😭😭😭😭 it's so weird coz I've listen to their songs before, but i never noticed his voice lolololol... 

When i saw his face i was like..... Erm OK... Lol.. Not a shade ok. I'm a seiyuu fan ok. I'm attracted to voice more than the face lol..  So coz i was intrigued with Ezad's voice... Yeah i was scouring YouTube & tiktoks, watching Exists videos lol... Before i knew it, it was 2am, and then the next day I'm still watching lololol yeah, an obsession was born lol Ajai even appeared in my dream lololol yeah i like Ajai too loolol but Ezad's voice.. Man.. Really makes me crazy...

How i know it's real, coz i don't even feel like eating nowadays.. I feel so full just from watching Ezad lolololollolol this guy so cute and funny lol.. Even his gigi berlapis is cute lol 

What more can i say man.. 

I know this obsession will fade just like the others.   So sad when i think about it..  Anyhow i hope this time, at least i can see Ezad,and listen to his voice right in front of me.,not just from the screen.. 

Erm... Ok that's all i think lol.. Gonna continue watching Exists and Ezad videos lol.. 

Bye..  Until the next fandom lol...