Random talk session 148: Even my patience has limit

hello diary! today is 1/10/2010. it's friday,

lots of things happened this week. once again, my patience is tested by that inconsiderate person. YOU ARE SOOOO ANNOYING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO ANGRYYYYYYYY!!!!! i hate this feeling!!!! GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i almost explode yesterday... i took a breathe, and managed to control my anger.

ARRGGHHHHH!!!!! I FEEL LIKE QUITTINGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this morning, i cried thinking of my problems.... argh, so embarrassing... so many people saw me.. aii...

em, this whole week, i went delivering. ah, so happy bcoz i dun need to see that annoying face in the office. i mostly went wit HAR. today was the last delivering, i am gonna miss them, hehe. ah, i also miss the satok jaya guys haha. i saw them on wed, and they still remember me. haha..

i think that's all..

Random talk session 147: today i'm happy

hello diary. today is 27 sept. it's monday.

everything i do today dun seems to be right.. but, one thing for sure, i am happy XD and the reason is bcoz i finally got to went delivering with megabumi...heheheheheheheh... ok, today was really interesting... let me write it here for future reference lol

so, monday morning and i feel very lazy to work in the office today. i wanted to go out... But the problem is, Abg Malek would go with Satok Jaya, and Abg Amit with Megabumi, while HAR had no delivering on monday. And then suddenly Abg Malek said that Abg Amit is taking a leave sick today. so i got to go with megabumi!!! woooo!! hahahahah i was soooo happy and scare at the same time lol so then, i settle some few things and get ready for the delivering. after i finished all that, i remember i had to call haziq and tell him that i would go with him. I was about to call him, when suddenly afida said there's a call for me. i was like, 'omg who is it? boss" i was really scared lol turns out it was haziq lol i think i can recognize his voice now. hehe. i love it when i can recognize people voice (i really love voices ok hehe). so then, i tell him that i am the one going with him. i thought to myself, "finally i can see megabumi's truck" lol. ok. that's settle, and then...dun remember much after that lol so, then i got a message from haziq, wanted me to check some of the participants tel numbers. I was about to call him to tell him the numbers. i dial the operator and asked them to connect to haziq's hp. Guess what. 10 secs after that, my hp rang and it was haziq! lol and not long after that, the (SEDC's) tel rang and afida had to take it for me. .. They cant get through the number i was asking. of coz they cant, he's calling me lololol i am so highly amuse of this...hehehehehhe...so then, skipped again to the part that i go down to meet haziq. i was looking for a huge truck, but there was none. haziq was using hilux. lol there goes my hope of riding their truck XD well, i guess it's ok. so, i walked towards the hilux and feeling scared lol Let's pause, can we? i need to talk about this guy first lololololol

the 1st time that i talked to him was through the phone.
- I was assigned to monitor PUTERA monitoring. I need to call the 3 suppliers and asked if they had any delivery that day. my image of him was...an average joe lol. That was the 1st time i talked to him. i remember what he said vaguely. their company is the only 1 who still havent start delivering..

the 1st time i saw him, i thought he was someone else. who, u ask?
- i was sitting there at my usual place, and suddenly i saw this guy.. he was heading to Abg malek's table. he look like a chinese, and young! i was like, "eh? he's not even bumiputera. he want to apply for PUTERA ka? ....... he's kinda cute" ok, 1,2,3. Let's laugh together. AHHAHAHAHAHA. Done? ok. Done. wanna kno who's the young guy? of coz. it is the infamous haziq that i called before lol

the 1st time that i message him...i dun remember when, but i remember y...
- i dun like talking and phoning people, so i message him. as usual, he was asking for the participants numbers. there was this time, i was asking him about delivering, and he replied wit a very amusing way lol he used "hehe" it's really amusing to me, bcoz to me, i only use that kinda expression wit friends. so when he used that word, i feel like i am actually his friend. hehe..

fast forward >>>>>>

through out the days (lol) he came to the office few times, but i never actually talked to him even though i message him for quite some times. i am too shy ok! haha... i only took a little glimpse of him, dang he's...really amusing lol

...where were we.? oh, i walked closer and closer to the hilux... and then, i was bout to go in, when suddenly i slipped!!!!!!!! arggghhhhh!!!!! i feel so embarrassed!!! this was the official meeting, and that incident just have to happened to me!!

here's the self-explanatory image for my slipped lol

that was kinda a bummer...emmm... so i sit there.. i was really nervous.. that's just the way i am. i dun really like meeting new people (though, he is not that 'new' XD) But after i while, i think i got used to him, we were almost the same age, so dun really feel like when i'm wit older people. i am still with my quite self. dun really had a conversation with him... fast forward again. we got lost and i feel so bad. and he was getting a little mad... i feel so bad bcoz i am totally not helping hm. i feel useless... i said "sorry sorry sorry sorry" in my hearts many times. and i think i was really close in tearing up. i dun even have any appetite.... it was 1pm.. we went to lunch neway. i didnt finish my food though. we talked about more things here..(and of coz, he's doing the talking and i'm just listening). what can i say..he's funny xD he said some funny things XD and he's also very wise for a.. u know, someone so young XD for some reason, all the employed people will says this to me: so hard to find work nowadays. Damn right it is hard! emm... ok, next go to more sad topic. i really hate it when people asked my race....*sigh* i hate my face... he asked the same thing... and i had to spill the bean out! nasib baik la ko a little cute, so i am not that angry lol that's what i thought hahaha... turns out, we are the same. no wonder he also looks a bit like chinese. i think awang is also like us, we can totally form a group lol... emm.... i hate this topic. so moving on! oh, 1 thing very much worth to be noted. in the car, we listened to hitz fm all the way. and i heard 'sumthing bout love' twice lol thank u hitz and thank u david. i think i was managed to be distracted from him for a while when i hear this song lol btw, sometimes he sings too lol dang it...stop being cute....haha.. emmm... what else i want to write about... i have no idea nomore, so i guess that's it?

bye2...

Random talk session 146: Music in my life

hello diary.. it's 1:31 am now...Sunday.

yesterday (saturday) i went wit HAR to deliver. it was so tiring... what i hate most is that i had to wake up so early in the morning. Arrived at kuch at 4pm. thank goodness it didnt extend to 6pm pr sumthing..i assume so, bcoz we had to go to asajaya, serian and then bau...

i have this strange dilemma now. should i go with megabumi for delivering?????? Part of me says, "GOOOO" and part says, "NOOOOOOO".

The part that says "GO" want me to go because i want to see Megabumi's truck XD i already went with HAR and Satok Jaya, so i am really curious bout Megabumi's truck lol and there's also this very strong urge to meet that...guy, u kno. XDDDDDDDDD yes, actually that's the sole reason why in want to go deliver barang PUTERA with Megabumi XD

ok, next is the part that says "NO". it's because i'm to shy to meet him. yes, like usual, i'm so twisted in the inside. i kinda like the guy, but i dun want to meet him...*sigh* i shouldnt have message him to much. before. arghhh i want to divert this feelin dang it...Archuleta is not here, so he cant really do (eventhough he's doing a pretty good job XD lol)

well, i still havent made my mind... i guess we'll wait and see, this monday...

ok, next...still wanna talk about archuleta. this has been in my mind for days, and i think it's worth to blog.

u see, i have been repeating archuleta's songs (notably: crush, evelator and sumthing bout love). and i sing along. and i even look for the lyric. when u think about it, actually it's kinda amazing u know. because, i am a japanese freak, and i have been only listening and singing and memorizing japanese songs for like 9 years ago. and the last time that i love english song was when i was obsessed wit westlife. i memorized all the songs in the coast to coast album for goodness sake! but after i started watching anime, i totally abandon english song. there was this 1 point where i actually dun listen to english song at all! and now, thanks to david archuleta, i even think his songs are even better than japanese songs lol i cant believe this is happening.. sumthing actually win over my japanes overly obsession. or maybe i was just boring? emmm... if that's the case, then how sad it is... oh well, i think that's all... i dunno what else to say..

bye~

PS: sumthing amusing i forgot to mention. i was in sarawak plaza, and then on my way out i heard 'sumthing bout love' on the speaker. i went up to LEA centre and wandering there just to hear that song lol Good job LEA centre for airing that song XD i think the person that played the songs has almost the same taste in music wit me XD last time, they played 911 songs and made me download 911 songs after that XD

Random talk session 145: David Archuleta

hello diary. today is 12.9.2010. it's sunday.

tomoro has to go to work, i feel so lazy la! emm.. anyways, the reason for this post.

i am in archuleta mood again XD i think he's so innocent and cute XD

but he's not very popular compare to Justin Bieber. it breaks my heart. *starts singing 'sumthing bout love'* i have nothing against bieber, i actually like his baby song.. emm...

This is 16 years old bieber (2010)

vs

16 years old Archuleta (2008)

i think it's either the eyes or the.. smile XD arghhh he's so cute it hurts! XD

biever wins the popularity. but to me, archuleta totally wins the cute XD

... btw. sumthing bout love is so catchy song!! i am so addicted to that song now.. *goes listen to it*

there's some interesting story about how i get into archuleta mood again. em, let me start wit how i knew of him a year ago. emm... come to think of it.. i dun really remember lol lemme think ya...

.......... i dun remember 0_o emm... i think it all started with the English version of 'ai nante' and then my friend asked me if it's someone name Daughtry sang it. and then i kinda curious of who is this guy and 1 thing leads to another, i think i came about david archuleta.. and then, i checked his american idols clips and i actually remember seeing it on tv. the kid wit the vocal paralysis XD and then, i downloaded a few other of his perf in american idols. i love the kid. just wanna squish him XD there was this time, where i was dining with my friend at Pohon Mas (RHB), and heard of this one song... and i recognized archuleta's voice XD ok, fast forward to time.. i was sitting at the office, and my friend was boring, so she listens to the radio from her hp. and then, there was this song, i found very catchy, and the singer sounds very, very familiar. i thought it sounded like david archuleta? . i havent listen to his song for like a year, so i was kinda in doubt. so i google the song, and dang! i was right. it was really david archuleta XDD deja vu much? XD and then after that, i begin to wacth and download his old videos again.. and 1 thing for sure. he's still so cute XDDDD i wanna keep him haha..

ok, i think that's all of my archuleta story.. bye2. until next time.

EDIT:
the story about my encounter wit david, i think it is a false memory lol. read here for the maybe more accurate story, i still cant really remember, so i cant confirm..

Random talk session 144: ANGRYYYYYY

hi diary!

today is 23/8/2010. it's monday. i just want to say this:

"wow, you are so freakin annoying!"

that's all...

Random talk session 144: Life in GEMS part 24 (end)

hello diary~

emm.. today is 18/8/2010. it's wednesday. I havent write here for so long.. that's most probably because ever since i started working, I have lost all mood to update my blog. A lot hav happened the past months. Especially the experience I got working with SEDC. I went travelling to Bau, Serian, Simunjan, Sri Aman, etc. There's also some bad things happened. I cried a lot more than ever since working in SEDC, in another word, I've become more emo. I dun like working here. Eventho my work is not that hard, but there is just too many things happened.. I want to get away from this place ASAP.

Oh, i think i will have to end this "life in GEMS" titles... so, this is gonna be the last..

Ok, enough of SEDC.. next is gonna talk abt my fandoms.. First, NEWS. They are gonna realease an album this september, and finally having a con at the end of this year. I feel happy, but obviously, my reaction was so much different that how I use to be. Like I said, the magic is gone.. I still wanna support them and I dun want them to lose though...

ok, next is about the seiyuu fandom. Lately I dwld-ed quite a few videos. And my highlights is the Hetalia DVD event XD It was...interesting, I guess XD I love namikawa XD I kinda hope he sings the tomato songs, but in the end, he didnt. There was not much of singing in the event.. They only sang marukaite chikyuu, and also that prussia guy got to sing 1 song. I dunno his seiyuu and not really a fan of the character, so yeah.. oh! And 1 amazing thing happened in the event XD At first, the casts are asked, who are the other the characters they wanted to do (beside their own character), and Konishi answered “Malaysia” XDDD I was really surprised when he said that. I wondered how in the world he kno about malaysia? My silly head even thought Morita must have mention to Konishi about his (morita) trip to Malaysia XDDDD The live dub in the event was also fun! I love it when they swapped characters XDD

After watching the dvd, I started to catch up wit the others ep of Hetalia. The anime is only like 5 min per ep, so it only took me 1 day to catch up about 40 eps XD emm.. oh, that remind me. Gintama anime had ended.. it's so sad T_T. I guess they ran out of stock material. The gap between the anime and the manga was too close. Well, there's a rumour that Gintama will do a second season after a while.. I do hope so! em.. dunno what else to write about.. so I guess that's it. Bye~ hona~! <-that's like “see u again next time” in kansai ben XD

Random talk session 143: Life in GEMS part 23

hello diary. today is 29/5/2010. it's saturday.

argh, i simply hate my life. nothing seems to satisfy me except for money... i am always living with fear and anxiety..

life usually dont go according to plan, then why do we still making plan??? continuation of my SEDC story...at first i feel relieved when they said that my placement was gonna be at betong (which is at my hometown). And the next day, i got red eye, and was told to rest at home. so i didnt go for the induction, and who knows, this little act of not going for the induction was the cause of all my anxiety, my concerns. my misery, my sadness, my hardship,etc...arrrgghhhhh.. from my friend, i found out that my placement is at sri aman! but i didnt really believ it and tried to call them the whole day. i dun want to go to sri aman!!! if i cant get my hometown, then i would prefer kuching. but what can i do.. i wanted to call them and ask them to change me to HQ but i couldnt reach the person in charge. so, i just get ready to go back to my hometown.. the next day i finally able to contact her, and i finally get to transfer to HQ. but then, another problem arised. my mother already come to take me home, so i had to go back. and also on my way home, i found out that my friend cant rent the house that i was staying in before this.. i feel like "sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga" so many bad luck.. and that times, i wish i was in sri aman. can u see the irony? before this i really resent to go to sri aman... *sigh* but at that time, i really wish i just accept the offer to go to sri aman...

now, i feel like crying. i hate my week self... why cant i be stronger????

ok..enough of emo-ing, sambung later, i have to write abt what i am worrying so much abt now...

tomoro i will going back to kuch. the van is gonna pick me up at 6:30am. so early, rite? i am worry about tomoro. i wonder abt the new house. i think i dun mind even if the house is buruk, as long i hav place to live for the next 6 months... but then again, maybe i will mind it after all? the place is quite near to my work place though.. the pros and cons are balanced.. *sigh*

and also abt tomoro, how in the world i want to bring my stuffs to that place after i arrived at parkson??? i have too many stuffs! esp the computer. this is one of the times i really really regret for not having a laptop *sigh* i dunno if i should bring my computer tomoro? but if i dun bring it, life gonna be so boring..

and then, another major concern, is about my intern wit SEDC. arrghhh i bet i have made a very bad impression to them?? did i touble them for making me transfer to HQ? i hate to trouble people the most... i rather to be unnoticed.. i should have go to their office last wed (the closing ceremony) and discuss abt my placement with them rather than making it's so sudden like what i did..

and there also this batik day thing... i dun have batik clothes... better buy 1 then..

and also, the MC stuffs... what is that gonna be i wonder. i kno iwill hav to do it soon or later and i am so gonna be so much fail. T_T arghhhh

i hate this..so many things to concerns abt...

and most of all, i feel so sad for having to leave home again... sobs..

to be continue...