Random talk session 206: OMG Guess what?

ello diary.. it's 8 jan.. today is sunday, and it's finally a proper day off for me.. been laying on the bed since morning LOL (it's nite already now)

yesterday, i sign the contract as a permanent staff in kirana. Havent tell anybody.. i am really thrill, that i finally, seriously has a real job. wow. i seriously never thought i will be working. me, the stupid, and good for nothing me.. wow. thank u God..

i am really happy, but also at the same time, very sad. i am living very far from home, and also from my friends. my original plans was to get a job at Kuch after my contract was over. i thought that i'll get job easier now that i hav some experience... emm.. it's so sad T_T i miss my friends in kuch.. and i am kinda lonely here in bintulu.. *sigh*

ok, enough rants about my life... next.. actually this is what i really want to write XD I HAVE A NEW OBSESSION!!!!! XDDD In my last post, about the meme, i wrote that i dun hav any new fandom in 2011, but looks like, i got one for 2012 now, and a really early one! (it's only january! LOL)

Well, so, what is that new obsession?? jeng jeng jeng, it's KEVJUMBA XDDDDDDDD from youtube XD lately, i think about him a lot and i think he's very very very very very cute when i watch his video XDDDDDDD So, ok, actually it's a very long and interesting

story XD

(Wow, this is seriously gonna be long....)

Let's start wit the usual, how, when and why did this obsession start?? What's the spark?? Here's what happened (LOL, this is a spoof of monk btw XD). So, i was on the internet and was boring.. dunno what to see.. so i went to my youtube page, and decided to check on nigahiga's videos. Ok, now, this guy, i also love him, but not as much that i made him as my obsession. Discover him, about, a year ago i think? I admit, this guy is very funny. i laugh like crazy to his videos. And this guy is an youtube celebrity actually. He has 4 millions subscriber, and now closing to 5 millions (i think he has 3 millions sumthing subscriber when i subscribed to him last year). He is seriously made of crack. Just yesterday i was watching his off the pills video, i cant see the screen properly coz i was laughing so hard that i closed my eyes, and not to mention the tears in my eyes LOL Anyway, and then i continue to watch his other videos that i havent watched... and then this one video, called, "that akward moment when...".

and this guy.. on the left.. for sec there, i thought: wow, he's taller than ryan (i think ryan is tall, and to see someone who actually dwarf him, is really a sight for me XD)

and then i see this... and i was like: omg, this guy wit the beanie is super hot *_* Who is this guy??? And this guy also make videos like ryan.. (in this scene, he was caught watching his own video lol)

And then this dhfkjsdhfjsdhfjsd WHO IS THIS GUY????????????????? YOU HAVE A FREAKIN NICE BODY YUM YUM WHO ARE YOU?????

And then, i (as usual) watched the video again, and realized it's the same person from the beginning.. Since he also had a youtube channel, and i realize i need to c more of him LOL so i read ryan's description and try to find this guy's channel.. i went to all the channels, and thought, "ehh?? i dun see this guy anywhere.. which one it is???" And then i remember this scene:

on the right... i thought: "wait.. this is... the kevjumba guy channel.. ?? eh?? what? but he doesnt looks like that hot guy wit the beanie... what??" i was seriously confused. Then i also read some of the comments, and confirmed that this guy is kevjumba. So then i check out this "kevjumba"'s video, and discover sumthing.. that i watched one of his video before.. long time ago. and i did thought he was funny, and then just forgot about him. And yeah, it is affirmative, that the hot guy wit the beanie is really kevjumba. i watched more of his videos, and story made short, i serious has fallen for this guy. He is hot, but also damn adorable. and cute. and adorable. and cute. i wanna squish him XDDDDD Seriously, now i think of this guy all the time XDDD Not to mention, he's not only hot and cute, but also very funny XD (But, ryan still funnier to me though XD WHen i watch kevin's videos, i keep on saying "cute" while laughing XD)

and then, i watched some of ryan's old videos, and OMG i've seen Kevin too, and again, dun really take notice of him (guess i only pay attention to ryan and dun care of the others? LOL)

........ So that's it? my story of kevjumba? LOL.... yeah, i think that's it.. totally fallen for this guy so much right now XD He's so hot.. and can be so cute... and hot and cute... and cute.. and hot.. and jkdfjkdshfkjsd SO FREAKIN CUTE ESPECIALLY WHEN HE SMILE. JUST LOOK AT THIS DAMN PIC BELOW. GAWD *_______________* HE LOOKS SO DAMN HAPPY. MY OVARIES *___________*

(pic credit to the jumbahiga's tumblr)

and.. just.. just jkfhgkjshfkjd especially when he has long hair! now his hair is short again though T_T

a screenshot from his latest video

he looks like how he looks like in his old videos, when he was so young XD

oh, and pS: i totally love his mole XD

ah, i think that it for today XD it's been really long since i made a long post XD Guess, it's true that i only write so many when i'm 'in love' XD

Random talk session 205: It's the new year!

hello diary... omg, again, havent update forever.. last post, 4 months ago.. getting lazier by the day.. anyway.. it's the new year! 2012, so i just hav to make a post about it..

this new year, i was at the lab... last year, i was at home..

just gonna make the usual meme XD

--Meme for the year 2011--

Meme for this year:

What fandoms did you acquire in 2011?

...... lemme think... none it seems? ... Does monk counts? I watched this long time ago, and love it too, but then i didnt watch it for so long, until recemtly, and i hav to say, i really really love the show.

AH, finally remember, this year, i dl loads of kamiya n onoD stuffs lol

What fandoms did you let go of in 2011?

Also none..

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2012?

I dun think i can as i already work now, so cant spend much time on any fandom..

What fandoms do you think you might let go of in 2011 unless things significantly improve.

Regarding my prediction last year, I still love Merlin LOL. For this year, emm..dunno..

What fandoms do you think you'll never let go of no matter how crappy they get? Why?

Same as last year. NEWS and the anime fandom. I dun really follow NEWS as frequent, but i still keep update about them..

What show impressed you most in 2011?

Dexter again for 2 years in a row lol Supernatural is.. maa maa.. The new Gintama' still hilarious as ever XD ... Merlin also, maa maa... And then, monk, that i absolutely love! ^^

What show impressed you least in 2011?

............. i cant give an immediate answer to this.. emm, .. seriously i cant even give an answer..

OK, that's all... REally quick one LOL

PS: Really regret i cant get to the 300th post before the end of last year... lol

Random talk session 204: October..

Hello diary.. today is 4/10/11.. tuesday.. since it's already passed 12am.. now is 1:23am btw..

so, what's up wit me.. it's october, so u know what that mean, i hav started working at night... i guess it's ok.. XD i dunno.. recently i feel no motivation.. feel depressed and so useless.. if i was more smarter, maybe i wont feel this down *sigh* The first nite, for some reason i feel soooo nervous.. i wonder why lol i was quite busy.. and then the 2nd nite, there was no pk, so i was quite free, and time seems sooooo slow.. the 1st nite, i didnt feel very sleepy, but the 2nd nite (maybe coz there wasnt much work), i felt really sleepy.. i just wanted to go home and sleep... btw, aitsu asked me, and i answered very simple.. of course, i was so happy to see him and also that he talked to me, but it was so suddend that my mind went blank and i was.. seems cold to him.. or sumthng... and now i feel so guilty... gah, really want to forget.. ok, enough of that.. seriously, when i talk about my life, it always make me feel depressed..

let's talk about fandom.. i wacthed the gintama x sket dance crossover lol it's just so epic lol the humor kinda overdone, but i really like the seiyuu jokes XD and nw i m downloading sket dance ep that hav gintama's characters.. hihi..

oh, also merlin shud hav started to on 1st oct.. and dexter, 3rd oct.. i'll download those later too.. cant wait to watch..

emmm.. so, what else? oh, tegomasu new pv.. tegomasu no maho? lol i havent finished streaming the video, but my commnt from the 1st few sec of the pv: damn yuya looks like a girl! like, omg!! 0_0 and massu, cute as usual :3

em. i think that's all for today.. gudnite..

Random talk session 203: Life and tv series update

hello diary.. today is 25/9/2011, Sunday..

ok.. so, finally went to the kite festival.. it was so cool, especially the group perf.. here are some pictures:

i love how the puffer fish is like all "OoO" LOLOLOL

more fishes lol

ah, and dang i missed akim's af performance!! arghhhhh!! there goes my chance of seeing that cute face of him LOL thankfully i am not really his fan or anything.. but still, gahhh!!! kuyashiiii sssuu~!!

emm.. ok, next, like i said yesterday, wanna talk about tv series... Supernatural new season (season 7) has started.. and i just watched ep 1 not too long ago... my comment??? emmm.. (OK, SPOILER ALERT) Actually i was really sad that Castiel became the bad guy.. but looks like he came to his senses at the end of the ep, until that thing called Leviathan or sumthing just had to control his body.. Misha playing the bad guy T_T i miss the cute, innocent Castiel T_T. And then seems like Lucifer is back??? Where has Sam gone too???? And LOL at dean watching hentai LOL

ok, that's it i think lol Hopefully season 7 not gonna be too disappointing..

Merlin is premiering on 1st of October, while Dexter is on 3rd October. Cant wait to watch these shows ^o^.

em, wat else? seems like i hav no idea again lol

so, that's it for today yeah.. bye..

Random talk session 202: Life and anime updates

hello siary.. today is 24/9/11. Saturday..

went to town tis morning.. bought another phone lol.. wow, now that i hav money, i buy things like crazy lol. Next time i want to buy some stuffed toys XD.

anyway.. there's also a kite show at town.. but i didnt go coz i dunno how to go there lol tomoro i m going to town again, and try to watch the final show of the kite festival..

em, oh, another update.. seems like i am gonna be working in shift this october.. but my boss really knows how to scare me and get me so unmotivated.. all that responsibilities.. can i really do it? well, like always, i just go wit the flow of life *sigh* But i guess i m glad i m gonna be in shift coz i dun need to wake up so freakin early every morning 6 days a week! .... emm.. anyway.. what else.. oh.. the guy.. i miss him.. gah.. missing him everyday.. what am i gonna do wit this troublesome feeling of mine *sigh* oh, and the other day,i finally got close enough wit him (yes, i am afraid of getting close of him) and then i smell his nostalgic smell *sigh* ok, enough of that.. next, gonna talk about anime~ ehehe..

so, this few weeks, i m wacthing anime again.. last time, i was in a j drama mood, and now, finally got the anime mood kicks in again XD Actually it was the j drama that made me watch anime again lol... To be more precise, it was the Wallflower drama.. i wanted to watch Yuya, so i dwld-ed the drama lol.. it was ok i guess, but then i got curious of the anime, so i dwld-ed the anime too.. and what do u kno, i think it is not that bad XD As a matter of fact, i think the anime is better and funnier than the drama... The wallflower.. i guess it's ok.. my fav character.. well, i d say Takenaga XD He's just so kakkoi XD

next! Dennou Coil. Downloaded this coz it was in my 'wanted to watch' list in myanimelist lol. It is not bad, really. And i cried so freakin hard at one part in the last ep (DENSUKE T_T)... Anime that manage to make me cry is consider "great" anime to me XD。 Anyway, my fav character is... Haraken! i am surprised myself lol Usually i hate male characters that is voice by a female seiyuu.. but for some reason, i really love this boy +_+ (i am no pedophile yo!! lol).. And then i realize i guess it's ok if it's Paku romi XD She's too cool~ Now i wanna watch more anime that has her voice XD i think my pass obsession of ueki also contribute some of this too lol (strangely, i kinda dislike her as hitsugaya in bleach though...)

ok, enough of dennou coil, moving on, 3 new animes tat i currently downloading.. Sket Dance, Arakawa Under the Bridge and Mr. Keaton. Ok, first, Sket Dance. I decided to download this coz the characters are gonna appeared in Gintama episode.. So, i wanna check their characters lol.. i think this anime is really.. plain/dull/boring.. the comedy is... ok, i guess, but not that hilarious.. and then, i think it's too much of resemblance to Gintama.. But i am stickin to this series coz i wanna c Tsubaki LOL At first, i thought he is really interesting and funny, and then after i watched ep 19, i just totally fell in love wit him XD he's soooo cutttttteeeeee +_______________+ i wanna cuddle him XD OK, some comments on the trio main characters.. The leader Bossun, i dun actually feel anything.. He's just too ordinary.. Actually i thought of the same thing to Gintoki too in Gintama (yes, he is not exactly my fav characters until, like ep 100 sumthing lol).. who knows, maybe someday, Bossun gonna do sumthing that will make me like him? lol... and then, we hav usui kazuyoshi a.k.a. Switch.. Apparently he is supposed to be an ikemen.. But, once again, i think he is.. plain... He is not bad. Really. i admit, he is really good looking, but in a very plain way. emm.. ok, next, the female of the trio, Himeko. She's ok i guess... thankfully, not that annoying lol... em.. dunno what else to comment lol.. oh, a special mention of the president of the student council, agata soujirou (?).. Sekitomo~!!! GAHHH I MISS HIS VOICE DANG ITTTT +_+ And now i am actually desperate to watch anime that has him in it... guah.. really, long time since i hear his voice.. and, i realize i hear lots of sugita these days lol he was in wallflower, in gintama that i hav been watching regularly, he was usui in sket dance and also in the next anime i m gonna talk about, Arakawa under the bridge.

Arakawa under the bridge.. why in the world did i watch this..lol. ok, i think it's bcoz of the live action too XD i mean, the anime was just aired not too long last year, and then it also adapted into a live action not long after that.. so, the anime must be really popular.. so i wanted to kno what's so good about this anime XD.. ok, first of all, my comment when i watch the 1st ep: KAMIYA!!! LOL gah, love this guy LOL anyway.. So, yeah, kamiya voiced the main character.. and then, like i said bfore, there's also sugita as the weird hoshi lol.. oh, about this anime.. wow, WEIRD. in a good way LOL. I thought gintama was a crazy anime, and then, i watched Hetalia, which was also crazy and weird, and now, Arakawa under the bridge. This anime is in the same categories wit Gintama and Hetalia coz of it's off the wall humor LOL. Oh, note: Zetsubo sensei is also weird, but i hate tat anime lol

lastly, Mr. Keaton. Ok, watched this just bcoz it is adapted from the manga by Urusawa Naoki. i only watched until ep 3, and i find it's quite boring lol but i am still gonna watch this, coz it is Urusawa Naoki for goodness sake.

ok, i also watched summer wars... read few posts that highly praised this anime., so i figured i try it. but it did not give such impact to me.. it's just ok i guess..

emm.. wow, that was really long.. i think this is it from me for now.. will post again next time, and talk about my fav tv series..

bye!

Random talk session 201: Depression

hello diary.. today is 12/9/11.. it's monday..

today i am feeling very down.. gah.. really hate this feeling.. i feel so useless... i dunno how to work, i am not smart, etc.. gahhhh i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so depressed wit this feeling..

not to mention, this feeling of that certain someone.. i am supposed to like him, but why do i feel sad and mad whn i think of him.. am i angry at him? why? he didnt do anything or say anything that could hurt me.. but then again, maybe that is EXACTLY the reasons i am feeling this way.. i'm sad coz he didnt talk to me at all.... i want to hear his voice, but cant even get myself to talk to him.. i want to c him, but i refuse to hav an eye contact wit him.. my actions are different from what my heart want to do..

i hate this complicated feelings.. i want to forget about him so that i dun hav to feel this way again.. oh, emotion, please go away..

today.. is quite depressing for me.. i hope tomoro is a better day..

-ja-

Random talk session 200: wow, 200!!!!

hello diary! today is 10/9/2011, saturday...omg, IT HAS BEEN MONTHS!!!! MY LAST POST WAS... ON APRIL.. THAT WAS LIKE, 5 MONTHS AGO !!! HOW ARE YOU MY VIRTUAL DIARY?? I AM REALLY SORRY FOR ABANDONING YOU!!! AND OMG, IT TAKE ME THIS LONG TO REALIZE THAT I FINALLY COME TO MY 200TH POSTS!!! OH MY!!! 200 YO!!! LET'S AIM FOR 300 BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR. YES/NO? XD

anyway.. i think i shud start blogging again.. i dun want my memories just fade away like that.. especially when it's about.. him... *sigh*

ok..let me start... of coz,, it's about my kataomoi...yesterday.. 9/9/11. He made me look twice!!! Like, seriously!! i was standing near the door, wit.. i dun even remember wit whom, nor what we were talking abt, then i saw him and i thought, "oh, there he is" (yeah, i kinda want to see him too), and was gonna take a peek at him... but he totally made me look twice.. and dang, once again that feeling come rushing in... my heart was like shouting, "SUKI DESU! SUKI DESU!! KEKKON SHITE KUDASAI!!!!!" yeah, my reactions were kinda extreme than the usual lol i think it must be bcoz "that day of the month" ... Also, he was wearing a black shirt underneath.. gah that is so kakkoi.. and his hair... his unruly hair... dang my hair fetish LOLOLOLOLOL YEAH, NOW I REMEMBERED. IT IS THE HAIR. I LOOKED TWICE BECOZ OF THE HAIR. Emmm.... ok, anyway, mm.. where was i.. oh, so yeah, and then he went back to **** (censored for classified purpose lol).. i was kinda disappointed coz i want to look at him for a little longer lol .. and then, he did come back. ah, i was happy.. and this time, i want to talk to him, so i kinda look at him, and want to ask/say sumthing, but my mind went blank.. Y? COz he was looking at me back... Thankfully, he knew, so he asked, how's my condition, "r u still sick?" (awww~ i wanna hug him).. i replied, (shyly), "yes". and he asked again, "really, still sick? wht illness?" (LOL seriously???) And i replied again (more shyly, i even look away and went closer to the table"), "Yeah, still sick.. Flu.........." My head once again draw a blank... I dunno what to say.. Y u ask? coz when i looked at him carefully, i realized he had a hige LOL GAWD AGAIN THOSE FEELINGS... i wanted to ask if he's ok too (coz at that time, our boss asked that coz he looked kinda tired..) after that.. i dunno what happened.. i simply hav no memories of what happened next coz all i remember was his unruly appearance and that moment when he asked how i was doing.. *sigh*

it's sept... wow,so this kataomoi also has been last for 5 months.. i dunno what else to write.. i shud write a long post since i havent update for 5 months, but i just hav no idea.. so i guess that;s it for today..

ja..