Hello diary
Today is 25th april...
Sad to say.. I m so sad. It has since yesterday. In another words, i m heartbroken.. Ahhh... I m so so sad.. I want to cry..
Alan.. And his scandal.. Why wouldn't he just date a normal person??? Whyyy??? He is surrounded by so many cute girls in the company (like e girls) and his co star, like Nagano Mei, but why must be go for the ones he dont supposed to fall in love with!! Not to mention, FOR THE 2ND TIME!! AHHH IT MAKES ME SO MAD!! I know it is not fault, i m trying so hard to defend him from myself. I want to hate him so much, i want to forget him. And yet, there is another side of me, telling myself that i shouldnt blame him for what happened.. if he is at fault for falling in love with someone he shouldn't have, then, i am at fault too, coz i also fell in love with him.. me, who has closed my heart to anyone, but he still managed to get through and sneaked into my heart... and i accepted him... he became the light of my life..
i am so affected by this, coz he is my bias. i never admit it, but ok, here, i m gonna say it, he is my ultimate bias. If he was not part of Gene, i think i will never get into the group at all. I am so charmed by him.. I think, deep down, i knew he was gonna be a heart breaker, so i tried to find someone that i can love more than him... and i unconsciously, choose Ryuto.. For his birthday December last year, i made a Ryuto post everyday. so, i was watching more Ryuto than Alan.. at one point, i was questioning myself, "Do i love Ryuto more than Alan now??? What if i go to another concert, i wonder which one i will choose to look at???" Coz, last time, it was totally Alan, i cant get my eyes off of him at all.. and finally, during their China Tour, that i was able to go to, i got the answer. Alan is still magic after all. For the opening, i looked at Ryuto first, i cant stop staring at him.. but then i saw Alan, and then, my eyes just on him. Even though, Ryuto is much easier to watch from where i am, i still looked at Alan...
i guess, there is a reason, why my theme song for Alan is "Love You More" i will always love him more... as for Ryuto, his theme song is "Always with You" coz i want to be with him always.. even though my love is for alan?? lol!! ahh.. my feelings are so complicated... watching Alan now is just so hard for me.. it makes me so sad.. so i have stopped watching Gene videos... i dunno when will i recover from this... maybe until he updates? who knows... even if he updates, can i overcome this sadness in my heart? i guess we will have to wait and see..
Alan... i still love you so much...but it is so hard to see you..
ok diary.. until next time..
April 25, 2018
April 24, 2018
Random talk session 298: Mad Cyclone China Tour
hello diary! today is 26th april. and this is my very very very delayed update on my China trip for Mad Cyclone Tour~
so, i wrote this a month or so ago,but only publishing it on April..
like i said before, i manage to go to the Shezen show. There were too many hardship that i went through, that i dont feel like doing a report. Dont get me wrong though, the live was one of the best moment in my life, but the things i had to went through to, is also one of the worst experience of my life..
the very first problem i had was getting tickets. As i m not from China and i dont have any friends or relatives in China, how can i buy the tickets??? Out of desperation, i messaged someone on Instagram, and asked her to help me to buy tickets, in which she agree, thank you random girl! But, sadly, she couldnt get for me tickets for any of the shows! i was soooo devastated!! i totally underestimated the chinese fans... they were too many of them... But then, this girl, recommend me to buy from Taobao (it is like a 3rd seller).. so, i, who just wanted to secure a ticket and dont even care of the possibility of the tickets being fake (fraud seller) just went and bought 1 ticket. Since i cant read the chinese text, i had my boss helped me to buy it lol!!! so.. i finally got ticket.. then i also booked flight ticket to Shenzen... a few days later, suddenly i had a change of mind, and want to buy another show.. and i did.. lol.. i bought the 3rd march show... (before this, i bought the 2nd march show). of course, becoz of this, i had to buy new flight ticket again... and then, like less than a week of the show, i face another problem, and that is, address to send the tickets to.. thankfully, i kinda remember the instagram girl, so i use her address.. and finally... i got the damn tickets.. seriously, i was crying in the night thinking what if the tickets wont come in time??? ahh i was so stressed.. and this was just the process of getting the tickets.. not to mention, communicating with the 3rd seller person was sooo hard coz he didn't understand english! i had to use google translate to communicate with him.. it was also, so stressful lol
in the end i finally got the tickets.. 2nd march and 3rd march show!
and then, the day i was supposed to go to shenzen, i cant board my flight coz i didnt have visa!!! i was busy worrying about the live ticket i absolutely forgot the most important thing, to apply for visa!!! i was sooooo devastated omg just remembering this makes me so sad i m crying while typing this… after everything i went through to get the tickets for the live, but i cant go to China!!!!!!!! and for visa application, i need at least 4 days.
greatly disapointed, i went home on a 12 hour bus trip… and still googling on getting express visa, and i found out that i can get to Shenzen via Hong Kong, as they have a special Visa on Arrival, which i can get immediately.. i had to google all the information i had to know where and how to get the visa and also the flights, with my lousy old phone which has less than 50% battery, in a bus, at 3 in the morning. At times, i was like, can i go? will i go? i was still debating with myself… finally i arrive home, and took the taxi from the bus terminal to the airport. Ah, i cant let it end it just like that, i went and bought last minute flight to Kuala Lumpur and then Kuala Lumpur to Hong Kong. I still remember the face of the guy at the AirAsia ticket counter when i said i want to buy last minute ticket to Hong Kong (the flight is like in 4 hours). He asked, “Why??” i didnt answer, but in my head, i was like, “i m chasing the loves of my life…” anyway… finally i was at hong kong, and my last hurdle. To get the visa on arrival, which is not 100% guarantee, since the Shenzen imigration still can deny my application… everything is still up to luck to the very last minute!!!!!!! like, what if my application get rejected and i got send back to hong kong??????????? oh my god.. why does it is so hard for me to see them… i just wanna see my babies… I got to the visa office at about 10pm.. i filled in the application form, and waited for the officer to call me… and finally, finally, the visa is on my passport!!!!!!! i can finally go to shenzen. finally.. .bcoz of all these, i missed the first show that i bought. and only manage to go to the 3.3 show..
onto to the reports..
okay, the venue is Shenzhen Poly Theatre
My seats were in the 3rd row.. on Mandy’s side.. (Stage) Position wise, when they were performing, Reo is usually right in front of me…
What to say lol… i dont usually write reports…
The set list is the same with Mad Cyclone tour in Japan, except Big City Rodeo, which was included in the set list, and not sung during encore.
okay here are some things..
MC part, i dont really understand them, coz they were talking in Chinese!
- Hayato making fun of Ryuto (also, it was a Chinese word that i dont understand… Hayato was repeating it over and over lol)
- Reo forgot how to say his speech in Chinese lol.. he turned his back on us, (possibly reading on his notes..lol reo sooo cutee!!)
High five part
- most memorable part is Ryota.. coz he was looking at me soo intensely! lol..i was just high five-ing Reo, and was gonna see him, but he was already looking so hard at me lol.. this guy, thank goodness, i m not that really into him, i would be so dead if i was lol...
- i was calling out there name one by one lol!!!
- i dont remember Ryuto and Alan session at all.. my mind was totally shutting downn ahhhhh
- finally snapped at hayato's high five, coz he was so loud! lol!!
and finally the show end.. ahhh... it was one of the best day of my life... to see my dearest.. in such a close distance.. and to high five them.. ahh.. i will remember this moment forever..
additional post:
Memory of Mad Cyclone
Last year, when i watched the song live at Saitama Super Arena, the moment the song started playing, and the big screen (??) thingy lifted up, and i saw Gene with my own eyes for the first time, heard Ryuto for the first time, oh my god. What a feeling.. To hear Ryuto’s voice live.. and the first person that i went to look for is.. Alan.. And i think my eyes was on him for the whole minute.. until i finally look at the others..
fast forward to 8 months later, when i went to Shenzen to watch them again, and as usual, it start with Mad Cyclone. Song started, and once again, to hear Ryuto’s voice live omg and at a much closer range omg i was really dying, my hand on my mouth, and i was rocking back and forth, i feel like vomiting coz i was too overwhelmed.. This time, my eyes were on Ryuto for a whole minute lol.. until.. i finally decided to look for Alan and i saw. omg.. nope. He is still magic after all. From my seat, the person in front of me is Reo. After watching Alan for like 2 or 3 minutes and my neck got kinda hurt from looking to the side too much, i finally look to the front, and saw Reo lol… So, Reo is part of my Mad Cyclone memory too now..
ok.. i think that is for my report.. bye!
so, i wrote this a month or so ago,but only publishing it on April..
like i said before, i manage to go to the Shezen show. There were too many hardship that i went through, that i dont feel like doing a report. Dont get me wrong though, the live was one of the best moment in my life, but the things i had to went through to, is also one of the worst experience of my life..
the very first problem i had was getting tickets. As i m not from China and i dont have any friends or relatives in China, how can i buy the tickets??? Out of desperation, i messaged someone on Instagram, and asked her to help me to buy tickets, in which she agree, thank you random girl! But, sadly, she couldnt get for me tickets for any of the shows! i was soooo devastated!! i totally underestimated the chinese fans... they were too many of them... But then, this girl, recommend me to buy from Taobao (it is like a 3rd seller).. so, i, who just wanted to secure a ticket and dont even care of the possibility of the tickets being fake (fraud seller) just went and bought 1 ticket. Since i cant read the chinese text, i had my boss helped me to buy it lol!!! so.. i finally got ticket.. then i also booked flight ticket to Shenzen... a few days later, suddenly i had a change of mind, and want to buy another show.. and i did.. lol.. i bought the 3rd march show... (before this, i bought the 2nd march show). of course, becoz of this, i had to buy new flight ticket again... and then, like less than a week of the show, i face another problem, and that is, address to send the tickets to.. thankfully, i kinda remember the instagram girl, so i use her address.. and finally... i got the damn tickets.. seriously, i was crying in the night thinking what if the tickets wont come in time??? ahh i was so stressed.. and this was just the process of getting the tickets.. not to mention, communicating with the 3rd seller person was sooo hard coz he didn't understand english! i had to use google translate to communicate with him.. it was also, so stressful lol
in the end i finally got the tickets.. 2nd march and 3rd march show!
and then, the day i was supposed to go to shenzen, i cant board my flight coz i didnt have visa!!! i was busy worrying about the live ticket i absolutely forgot the most important thing, to apply for visa!!! i was sooooo devastated omg just remembering this makes me so sad i m crying while typing this… after everything i went through to get the tickets for the live, but i cant go to China!!!!!!!! and for visa application, i need at least 4 days.
greatly disapointed, i went home on a 12 hour bus trip… and still googling on getting express visa, and i found out that i can get to Shenzen via Hong Kong, as they have a special Visa on Arrival, which i can get immediately.. i had to google all the information i had to know where and how to get the visa and also the flights, with my lousy old phone which has less than 50% battery, in a bus, at 3 in the morning. At times, i was like, can i go? will i go? i was still debating with myself… finally i arrive home, and took the taxi from the bus terminal to the airport. Ah, i cant let it end it just like that, i went and bought last minute flight to Kuala Lumpur and then Kuala Lumpur to Hong Kong. I still remember the face of the guy at the AirAsia ticket counter when i said i want to buy last minute ticket to Hong Kong (the flight is like in 4 hours). He asked, “Why??” i didnt answer, but in my head, i was like, “i m chasing the loves of my life…” anyway… finally i was at hong kong, and my last hurdle. To get the visa on arrival, which is not 100% guarantee, since the Shenzen imigration still can deny my application… everything is still up to luck to the very last minute!!!!!!! like, what if my application get rejected and i got send back to hong kong??????????? oh my god.. why does it is so hard for me to see them… i just wanna see my babies… I got to the visa office at about 10pm.. i filled in the application form, and waited for the officer to call me… and finally, finally, the visa is on my passport!!!!!!! i can finally go to shenzen. finally.. .bcoz of all these, i missed the first show that i bought. and only manage to go to the 3.3 show..
onto to the reports..
okay, the venue is Shenzhen Poly Theatre
My seats were in the 3rd row.. on Mandy’s side.. (Stage) Position wise, when they were performing, Reo is usually right in front of me…
What to say lol… i dont usually write reports…
The set list is the same with Mad Cyclone tour in Japan, except Big City Rodeo, which was included in the set list, and not sung during encore.
okay here are some things..
MC part, i dont really understand them, coz they were talking in Chinese!
- Hayato making fun of Ryuto (also, it was a Chinese word that i dont understand… Hayato was repeating it over and over lol)
- Reo forgot how to say his speech in Chinese lol.. he turned his back on us, (possibly reading on his notes..lol reo sooo cutee!!)
High five part
- most memorable part is Ryota.. coz he was looking at me soo intensely! lol..i was just high five-ing Reo, and was gonna see him, but he was already looking so hard at me lol.. this guy, thank goodness, i m not that really into him, i would be so dead if i was lol...
- i was calling out there name one by one lol!!!
- i dont remember Ryuto and Alan session at all.. my mind was totally shutting downn ahhhhh
- finally snapped at hayato's high five, coz he was so loud! lol!!
and finally the show end.. ahhh... it was one of the best day of my life... to see my dearest.. in such a close distance.. and to high five them.. ahh.. i will remember this moment forever..
additional post:
Memory of Mad Cyclone
Last year, when i watched the song live at Saitama Super Arena, the moment the song started playing, and the big screen (??) thingy lifted up, and i saw Gene with my own eyes for the first time, heard Ryuto for the first time, oh my god. What a feeling.. To hear Ryuto’s voice live.. and the first person that i went to look for is.. Alan.. And i think my eyes was on him for the whole minute.. until i finally look at the others..
fast forward to 8 months later, when i went to Shenzen to watch them again, and as usual, it start with Mad Cyclone. Song started, and once again, to hear Ryuto’s voice live omg and at a much closer range omg i was really dying, my hand on my mouth, and i was rocking back and forth, i feel like vomiting coz i was too overwhelmed.. This time, my eyes were on Ryuto for a whole minute lol.. until.. i finally decided to look for Alan and i saw. omg.. nope. He is still magic after all. From my seat, the person in front of me is Reo. After watching Alan for like 2 or 3 minutes and my neck got kinda hurt from looking to the side too much, i finally look to the front, and saw Reo lol… So, Reo is part of my Mad Cyclone memory too now..
ok.. i think that is for my report.. bye!
January 28, 2018
Random talk session 297: 2018
helo diary! it is 28 january 2018! omg i m sorry i m so late..
it is 2018.. and marks the 10 years i hav been writing on blogspot....
i dont really write here anymore, but.. i still need to do the yearly meme lol
What fandoms did you acquire in 2017?
GENERATIONS FROM EXILE TRIBE
- OMG i m so obsessed wit them now!!!!!!!!!!! i just cant!!!! i love them so much i wanna explode!!! i should not be fangirling anymore, but yet, here i am, i cant believe it.. these guys manage to thaw my ice cold heart.. i was so tired of jpop and idols... i just wanna fangirling voices and anime characters.. i hate real life people...
What fandoms did you let go of in 2017?
- bcoz of my new obsession, i have let go of most of the previous fandom! i dont watch supernatural anymore... heck, i m watching nothing! anime, series, movie, nothing at all!!! i just wanna watch Gene.. i m suffering so much!!!!!!!!!
What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2018?
- NONE! coz i m still so freakin obsessed with Gene!!!!!!!!! OMG HELP ME
ok.. i need to tell the story of this.. so, yeah, i have been wanting for a world tour since last year.. sadly, none, but they got China tour! and of course i was overjoyed when i heard the news! my hands were trembling!! i was planning to go to all shows! lol.. but of course, i was too naive. Little did i know.. the hardship of getting tickets.. .it is like a roller coaster ride.. my feels.. i am so sad and depressed now bcoz of it.. i feel like i wish i dint even know them... this feels is so heavy.. i m so so very sad...
it kinda hurts to remember it again... but oh well, i need to record this event...
so after i found out about the tour, i checked out various things. to prepare for the trip. i searched for flight tickets, accommodation and transportation.. then, the ticketing site finally opened.. and i saw "payment only by Alipay and wechat paymant" and i was like.. omg no debit card???? ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i opened up Alipay, and made an account, but it seems without a bank account in China, cant make transaction.. ahhhhhh GETTING TICKET IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME. Out of desperation, i message this girl from Instagram, she's from China, and ask for her to buy for me. And she agreed to help!!! What a nice girl!! Thank you random girl! Next, on the day of ticket sales, the battle begun!!!!!!!!! and I LOST AHHH I M SO SADDDDD OK TO SHORTEN. SHE COULDNT GET TICKETS TO ANY OF THE SHOWS I M SOOOOO SADDDDDDDDDD I WANNA CRYYYY THEN SHE RECOMMENDED THIS RESELLER ON TAOBAO, AND BCOZ I JUST DONT CARE ANYMORE I WENT AND BOUGHT THE RESELLER TICKETS AT MUCH HIGHER PRICE I DONT CARE THAT I GET SCAM I JUST WANNA TRY EVERYTHING SO THAT I WONT REGRET MY LIFE LATER
so yeah... actually more story to it.. but i kinda dont hav the mood to write it here.. it makes me too sad.. everyday i m woken up to this sadness... i feel miserable.. i cant wait for the ticket to arrive so i can end this misery...
ahhhh i hate this... i wanna stop now.. i cant..
bye..
December 30, 2017
Random talk session 296: 2017 is almost over..
hello diary! today is 30/12/2017
quite a long time huh.. well, i was quite busy with my tumblr lol.. the same thing that happen in 2015... when i was busy posting my seiyuu posts on tumblr, i didnt write much here in blogspot..
anyway... ermm.. i seriously dunno what to write.. oh, maybe i'll talk about ryuto a bit.. since it was his birthday 2 days ago.. ryuto is 25~ aww... this crazy muscle man is 25.. congrats ryuto... i love him so much now.. even more than alan maybe? that is why i will never say my bias, coz it will definitely change lol.. but i m not saying ryuto is my bias now of course.. i dont hav ultimate bias anyway.. i can say, these 2 are my top 2 though.. at the beginning, i admit, i am more into alan, but now, i feel like the feels is more towards ryuto lol shhhhssshh dont let the tumblr people know of this! lol
anyway.. yeah, ryuto.. i guess, bcoz of his family history, i admit i kinda hav soft spot for him lol... i dunno why i tend to be savage to people i like now lol.. must be influence from the internet.. but not (much) to ryuto lol... he can be so crazy at times, and i only can facepalm at his antics lol
ermm.. what else? lol..
ermm... oh yeah.. gene dome tour!! ahhh.. i m happy for them, but i wish for a world tour more!! i want to see them more closer!! i will go to the dome tour too as well, but i just want to see them more closer, and dome is too far!! ahhh.. i m still hoping though.. even if it's only 4 or 5 shows, please make it happen hiro-san!!! i love gene so much!!! i havent felt this way, since news.. aiiihh..
ok that is all for today? this is gonna be the last entry of this year!! good bye 2017 hello 2018~ please be good to me!!
this is one of the first gene pics i saw:
and my impression, i still vividly remembers that "dislike" feeling i had lol.. i was like, "what a bunch of bratty kids" lol and i was like "*shaking my head* NO". and look at me now. like, how did this happened????
but still, when i first heard of their world tour, i was like, seriously, thinking about to go to their live, just to check thm out! like, for real, i really did think of buying the tickets! but after a while, my "dislike" kinda took over (coz i was more into sandaime at that time) lol and i was like, "not worth my money" lol...
ok..bye for real now!! bye2 2017!!
November 21, 2017
Random talk session 295: Gene 5th anniversary
Hello diary! today is 21st November! it is a tuesday!
Apparently today is Gene's 5th anniversary.. 5 years huh. That is quite some time. And i have been a fan for only, like 5 months ago? To be honest, i never really got catch up to all the 5 years stuffs..i was looking at tumblr, and there were some gene blog before. But they kinda not active anymore now. While browsing those blogs, at one point, i got so overwhelmed, and had to put my phone down, and i just close my eyes (laying on the bed). There was a sting in my heart. i was on the urge of crying. All those times that i missed. i…. was sad, that i wasnt part of it..
erm, i guess i can add more of my life regrets. Why didnt i know them earlier? What did i do these 5 years?? Sure, i got into some fandom, but still.. this happiness of knowing them.. i..
ok, to be honest, they are not the first jpop group that i was obsessed with. But then, over time, i kinda got bored of idols and jpop. i m sick of them. i dun want to fangirl real people again. I was more of a anime person, and fangirling voice yes, it’s a thing years and years past… one day, i was like “ahhh i wanna watch a jdrama, been too long since i watch one” “oh, what about that one show that clamp once drew" and that how i started to watch high and low, and got interest in exile tribe. Long story short, i watched casino exile and saw alan.. and since i need more alan, i went to check his group and here i am now.
all my time and money is for thm.. in exchange, they made my life better now.. when i was busy working, get irritated at all the works piling up, i’ll just think of them, and suddenly the world is better. When i feel so lazy to work in the mornings, i just think of them, and i get my energy for the day
this may seems like a exaggerations, but i really really love these people so much.. my life was more colorful now that i know of them..
i wanna see them.. i miss them so much..
ok that is all for today...
October 30, 2017
Random talk session 294
hello diary.. today us 30 october 2017... it's almost november.. how time flies..
anyway... october, nothing much. work tiring as usual, but this month extra tire, coz 2 plants were running.. had too checked sample from 2 plants, so double the work.. so tired!! thank goodness, one plant has shut down, so back to normal.. erm... wat else in life?? nothing much.. only fandom matters now... and at tis moment it is generations.. i m so obsessed now..
i pre-order their calender... i mean, a calender that cost rm100++ i mean, even i feel it's ridiculous. but i still buy them anyway.. not to mention, i m buying from proxy, so yeah, more money spend... last time i bought their tour shirt, cost me almost 2 times of the shirt original price.
alan's also releasing his first photo album this november.. of course, i m buying lol damn tis guy.. ok, let's talk bias.. my fav in gene is alan, ryuto and reo. And then there's the anomaly, hayato, the bias wrecker lol alan is my ultimate, but sometimes, when i watched their live, i think i m more drawn into ryuto, coz damn his voice!!!! nghhhhh!!!!!!!!!! like just yesterday, i was watching big city rodeo live performance, ahh ryuto.. ryuto.. ryutoo.. my heart was crying for him!! actually the past days,i feel like i m more into ryuto than alan lol it got me thinking, like who is exactly my no.1 bias???? damn maybe i m favoring alan coz he is the one that got me hooked into the group, so yeah.. i also dunno.. and then there's reo. damn dont get me start on this brat. i'll die for him, i'll even kill ryuto or alan for him lol reo must be protected at all cost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol see how complicated my bias list is???? lol ahh i dun want to think about it... all i kno they make me happy.. if only i known them sooner... i love them so much..
ok, i wanna talk about otp lol... it is actually alan x hayato.. they are too cute!!! when i first get into the fandom, i kinda notice fans tend to ship these 2.. at first, i was like "eh, why??" i dont understand it at all lol but after watching more genekou and reading some trivia on generations, i finally understand lol.. hayato really adores and respect alan so much, even though alan can be quite unreliable at times lol while alan, he tends to rely on hayato very much, especially when it comes to become the mc of the group.. in the past, the always went to eat together, but in the recent years, not anymore, i guess alan got kinda popular, wit his movies and dramas.. so there was not much free time for them to hang out, just the 2 of them i mean (they often goes out together as a group though).. but yeah.. hayato x alan for life lol .. oh btw the ship name is hayalan lol what a weird ship name.. japanese fans called them komohama though lol erm, yeah.. hayalan is a cute otp. i really cant wit them.. check out my hayalan tags on tumblr
erm, i think that is all for today?? until next month lol... really, i dunno wat to write here anymore now..
bye~
anyway... october, nothing much. work tiring as usual, but this month extra tire, coz 2 plants were running.. had too checked sample from 2 plants, so double the work.. so tired!! thank goodness, one plant has shut down, so back to normal.. erm... wat else in life?? nothing much.. only fandom matters now... and at tis moment it is generations.. i m so obsessed now..
i pre-order their calender... i mean, a calender that cost rm100++ i mean, even i feel it's ridiculous. but i still buy them anyway.. not to mention, i m buying from proxy, so yeah, more money spend... last time i bought their tour shirt, cost me almost 2 times of the shirt original price.
alan's also releasing his first photo album this november.. of course, i m buying lol damn tis guy.. ok, let's talk bias.. my fav in gene is alan, ryuto and reo. And then there's the anomaly, hayato, the bias wrecker lol alan is my ultimate, but sometimes, when i watched their live, i think i m more drawn into ryuto, coz damn his voice!!!! nghhhhh!!!!!!!!!! like just yesterday, i was watching big city rodeo live performance, ahh ryuto.. ryuto.. ryutoo.. my heart was crying for him!! actually the past days,i feel like i m more into ryuto than alan lol it got me thinking, like who is exactly my no.1 bias???? damn maybe i m favoring alan coz he is the one that got me hooked into the group, so yeah.. i also dunno.. and then there's reo. damn dont get me start on this brat. i'll die for him, i'll even kill ryuto or alan for him lol reo must be protected at all cost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol see how complicated my bias list is???? lol ahh i dun want to think about it... all i kno they make me happy.. if only i known them sooner... i love them so much..
ok, i wanna talk about otp lol... it is actually alan x hayato.. they are too cute!!! when i first get into the fandom, i kinda notice fans tend to ship these 2.. at first, i was like "eh, why??" i dont understand it at all lol but after watching more genekou and reading some trivia on generations, i finally understand lol.. hayato really adores and respect alan so much, even though alan can be quite unreliable at times lol while alan, he tends to rely on hayato very much, especially when it comes to become the mc of the group.. in the past, the always went to eat together, but in the recent years, not anymore, i guess alan got kinda popular, wit his movies and dramas.. so there was not much free time for them to hang out, just the 2 of them i mean (they often goes out together as a group though).. but yeah.. hayato x alan for life lol .. oh btw the ship name is hayalan lol what a weird ship name.. japanese fans called them komohama though lol erm, yeah.. hayalan is a cute otp. i really cant wit them.. check out my hayalan tags on tumblr
erm, i think that is all for today?? until next month lol... really, i dunno wat to write here anymore now..
bye~
September 20, 2017
Random talk session 293
hello diary! today is 20/9/2017... Wednesday.. about 1 hour need to go to work ugh i feel so lazy
anyway.. so yeah... i still like gene? lol like, seriously, how did i come to like these guys.. i am still questioning myself on this.. if there is one thng i m really tired of it is freakin jpop and idols.. like, i can like them casually, and all, but i nvr thought i would get overly obsessed with idols ever again after news.
there is no one else to blame, but freakin shirahama alan guy hiiieeee how did he managed to break this wall in my heart?????? since i wanna see more of him, i had to watch his group too lol damn it gene.. i m too old for them too... one thing i can say about gene is, they are really crazy brats lol... they are kinda similar to kanjani?? becoz of the craziness?? lol but i nvr even interested in kanjani back in the days... so, it is def not their crazy antique that got me to like them.. what about music then? nothing special also.. ryota sounds like tegoshi to me, for some reason lol.. only ryuto is somewhat sumthing fresh to me. i really like the tone of his speaking voice...
damn.. why do i like gene??? it is not their crazy antique, nor their music or their style??? they just has this charm??? and i am strangely attracted to them?? it is surely one of the mystery of my life..
i guess i m thankful for them, coz my life seems to be colorful again after i get to know them.. real life has been so hard to me last year and beginning of 2017..
i think that is all for today..
anyway.. so yeah... i still like gene? lol like, seriously, how did i come to like these guys.. i am still questioning myself on this.. if there is one thng i m really tired of it is freakin jpop and idols.. like, i can like them casually, and all, but i nvr thought i would get overly obsessed with idols ever again after news.
there is no one else to blame, but freakin shirahama alan guy hiiieeee how did he managed to break this wall in my heart?????? since i wanna see more of him, i had to watch his group too lol damn it gene.. i m too old for them too... one thing i can say about gene is, they are really crazy brats lol... they are kinda similar to kanjani?? becoz of the craziness?? lol but i nvr even interested in kanjani back in the days... so, it is def not their crazy antique that got me to like them.. what about music then? nothing special also.. ryota sounds like tegoshi to me, for some reason lol.. only ryuto is somewhat sumthing fresh to me. i really like the tone of his speaking voice...
damn.. why do i like gene??? it is not their crazy antique, nor their music or their style??? they just has this charm??? and i am strangely attracted to them?? it is surely one of the mystery of my life..
i guess i m thankful for them, coz my life seems to be colorful again after i get to know them.. real life has been so hard to me last year and beginning of 2017..
i think that is all for today..
