Random talk session 297: 2018

helo diary! it is 28 january 2018! omg i m sorry i m so late.. 

it is 2018.. and marks the 10 years i hav been writing on blogspot.... 

i dont really write here anymore, but.. i still need to do the yearly meme lol

What fandoms did you acquire in 2017?

GENERATIONS FROM EXILE TRIBE

- OMG i m so obsessed wit them now!!!!!!!!!!! i just cant!!!! i love them so much i wanna explode!!! i should not be fangirling anymore, but yet, here i am, i cant believe it.. these guys manage to thaw my ice cold heart.. i was so tired of jpop and idols... i just wanna fangirling voices and anime characters.. i hate real life people... 

What fandoms did you let go of in 2017?

- bcoz of my new obsession, i have let go of most of the previous fandom! i dont watch supernatural anymore... heck, i m watching nothing! anime, series, movie, nothing at all!!! i just wanna watch Gene.. i m suffering so much!!!!!!!!!

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2018?

- NONE! coz i m still so freakin obsessed with Gene!!!!!!!!! OMG HELP ME

ok.. i need to tell the story of this.. so, yeah, i have been wanting for a world tour since last year.. sadly, none, but they got China tour! and of course i was overjoyed when i heard the news! my hands were trembling!! i was planning to go to all shows! lol.. but of course, i was too naive. Little did i know.. the hardship of getting tickets.. .it is like a roller coaster ride.. my feels.. i am so sad and depressed now bcoz of it.. i feel like i wish i dint even know them... this feels is so heavy.. i m so so very sad... 

it kinda hurts to remember it again... but oh well, i need to record this event... 

so after i found out about the tour, i checked out various things. to prepare for the trip. i searched for flight tickets, accommodation and transportation.. then, the ticketing site finally opened.. and i saw "payment only by Alipay and wechat paymant" and i was like.. omg no debit card???? ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i opened up Alipay, and made an account, but it seems without a bank account in China, cant make transaction.. ahhhhhh GETTING TICKET IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME. Out of desperation, i message this girl from Instagram, she's from China, and ask for her to buy for me. And she agreed to help!!! What a nice girl!! Thank you random girl! Next, on the day of ticket sales, the battle begun!!!!!!!!! and I LOST AHHH I M SO SADDDDD OK TO SHORTEN. SHE COULDNT GET TICKETS TO ANY OF THE SHOWS I M SOOOOO SADDDDDDDDDD I WANNA CRYYYY THEN SHE RECOMMENDED THIS RESELLER ON TAOBAO, AND BCOZ I JUST DONT CARE ANYMORE I WENT AND BOUGHT THE RESELLER TICKETS AT MUCH HIGHER PRICE I DONT CARE THAT I GET SCAM I JUST WANNA TRY EVERYTHING SO THAT I WONT REGRET MY LIFE LATER 

so yeah... actually more story to it.. but i kinda dont hav the mood to write it here.. it makes me too sad.. everyday i m woken up to this sadness... i feel miserable..  i cant wait for the ticket to arrive so i can end this misery... 

ahhhh i hate this... i wanna stop now.. i cant.. 

bye..

Random talk session 296: 2017 is almost over..

hello diary! today is 30/12/2017

quite a long time huh.. well, i was quite busy with my tumblr lol.. the same thing that happen in 2015... when i was busy posting my seiyuu posts on tumblr, i didnt write much here in blogspot..

anyway... ermm.. i seriously dunno what to write.. oh,  maybe i'll talk about ryuto a bit.. since it was his birthday 2 days ago.. ryuto is 25~ aww... this crazy muscle man is 25.. congrats ryuto... i love him so much now.. even more than alan maybe? that is why i will never say my bias, coz it will definitely change lol.. but i m not saying ryuto is my bias now of course.. i dont hav ultimate bias anyway.. i can say, these 2 are my top 2 though.. at the beginning, i admit, i am more into alan, but now, i feel like the feels is more towards ryuto lol shhhhssshh dont let the tumblr people know of this! lol 

anyway.. yeah, ryuto.. i guess, bcoz of his family history, i admit i kinda hav soft spot for him lol... i dunno why i tend to be savage to people i like now lol.. must be influence from the internet.. but not (much) to ryuto lol... he can be so crazy at times, and i only can facepalm at his antics lol

ermm.. what else? lol.. 

ermm... oh yeah.. gene dome tour!! ahhh.. i m happy for them, but i wish for a world tour more!! i want to see them more closer!! i will go to the dome tour too as well, but i just want to see them more closer, and dome is too far!! ahhh.. i m still hoping though.. even if it's only 4 or 5 shows, please make it happen hiro-san!!! i love gene so much!!! i havent felt this way, since news.. aiiihh..

ok that is all for today? this is gonna be the last entry of this year!! good bye 2017 hello 2018~ please be good to me!! 

this is one of the first gene pics i saw:

and my impression, i still vividly remembers that "dislike" feeling i had lol.. i was like, "what a bunch of bratty kids" lol and i was like "*shaking my head* NO". and look at me now. like, how did this happened???? 

but still, when i first heard of their world tour, i was like, seriously, thinking about to go to their live, just to check thm out! like, for real, i really did think of buying the tickets! but after a while, my "dislike" kinda took over (coz i was more into sandaime at that time) lol and i was like, "not worth my money" lol... 

ok..bye for real now!! bye2 2017!! 

Random talk session 295: Gene 5th anniversary

Hello diary! today is 21st November! it is a tuesday!

Apparently today is Gene's 5th anniversary.. 5 years huh. That is quite some time. And i have been a fan for only, like 5 months ago? To be honest, i never really got catch up to all the 5 years stuffs..i was looking at tumblr, and there were some gene blog before. But they kinda not active anymore now. While browsing those blogs, at one point, i got so overwhelmed, and had to put my phone down, and i just close my eyes (laying on the bed). There was a sting in my heart. i was on the urge of crying. All those times that i missed. i…. was sad, that i wasnt part of it.. 

erm, i guess i can add more of my life regrets. Why didnt i know them earlier? What did i do these 5 years?? Sure, i got into some fandom, but still.. this happiness of knowing them.. i..

ok, to be honest, they are not the first jpop group that i was obsessed with. But then, over time, i kinda got bored of idols and jpop. i m sick of them. i dun want to fangirl real people again. I was more of a anime person, and fangirling voice yes, it’s a thing years and years past… one day, i was like “ahhh i wanna watch a jdrama, been too long since i watch one” “oh, what about that one show that clamp once drew" and that how i started to watch high and low, and got interest in exile tribe. Long story short, i watched casino exile and saw alan.. and since i need more alan, i went to check his group and here i am now. 

all my time and money is for thm.. in exchange, they made my life better now.. when i was busy working, get irritated at all the works piling up, i’ll just think of them, and suddenly the world is better. When i feel so lazy to work in the mornings, i just think of them, and i get my energy for the day

this may seems like a exaggerations, but i really really love these people so much.. my life was more colorful now that i know of them.. 

i wanna see them..  i miss them so much.. 

ok that is all for today... 

Random talk session 294

hello diary.. today us 30 october 2017... it's almost november.. how time flies..

anyway... october, nothing much. work tiring as usual, but this month extra tire, coz 2 plants were running..  had too checked sample from 2 plants, so double the work.. so tired!! thank goodness, one plant has shut down, so back to normal.. erm... wat else in life?? nothing much.. only fandom matters now... and at tis moment it is generations.. i m so obsessed now..

i pre-order their calender... i mean, a calender that cost rm100++ i mean, even i feel it's ridiculous. but i still buy them anyway.. not to mention, i m buying from proxy, so yeah, more money spend... last time i bought their tour shirt, cost me almost 2 times of the shirt original price.

alan's also releasing his first photo album this november.. of course, i m buying lol damn tis guy.. ok, let's talk bias.. my fav in gene is alan, ryuto and reo. And then there's the anomaly, hayato, the bias wrecker lol alan is my ultimate, but sometimes, when i watched their live, i think i m more drawn into ryuto, coz damn his voice!!!! nghhhhh!!!!!!!!!! like just yesterday, i was watching big city rodeo live performance, ahh ryuto.. ryuto.. ryutoo.. my heart was crying for him!! actually the past days,i feel like i m more into ryuto than alan lol it got me thinking, like who is exactly my no.1 bias???? damn maybe i m favoring alan coz he is the one that got me hooked into the group, so yeah.. i also dunno.. and then there's reo. damn dont get me start on this brat. i'll die for him, i'll even kill ryuto or alan for him lol reo must be protected at all cost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol see how complicated my bias list is???? lol ahh i dun want to think about it... all i kno they make me happy.. if only i known them sooner... i love them so much..

ok, i wanna talk about otp lol... it is actually alan x hayato.. they are too cute!!! when i first get into the fandom, i kinda notice fans tend to ship these 2.. at first, i was like "eh, why??" i dont understand it at all lol but after watching more genekou and reading some trivia on generations, i finally understand lol.. hayato really adores and respect alan so much, even though alan can be quite unreliable at times lol while alan, he tends to rely on hayato very much, especially when it comes to become the mc of the group.. in the past, the always went to eat together, but in the recent years, not anymore, i guess alan got kinda popular, wit his movies and dramas.. so there was not much free time for them to hang out, just the 2 of them i  mean (they often goes out together as a group though).. but yeah.. hayato x alan for life lol .. oh btw the ship name is hayalan lol what a weird ship name.. japanese fans called them komohama though lol erm, yeah.. hayalan is a cute otp. i really cant wit them.. check out my hayalan tags on tumblr

erm, i think that is all for today?? until next month lol... really, i dunno wat to write here anymore now..

bye~

Random talk session 293

hello diary! today is 20/9/2017... Wednesday..  about 1 hour need to go to work ugh i feel so lazy

anyway.. so yeah... i still like gene? lol like, seriously, how did i come to like these guys.. i am still questioning myself on this.. if there is one thng i m really tired of it is freakin jpop and idols.. like, i can like them casually, and all, but i nvr thought i would get overly obsessed with idols ever again after news.

there is no one else to blame, but freakin shirahama alan guy hiiieeee how did he managed to break this wall in my heart??????  since i wanna see more of him, i had to watch his group too lol damn it gene.. i m too old for them too... one thing i can say about gene is, they are really crazy brats lol... they are kinda similar to kanjani?? becoz of the craziness?? lol but i nvr even interested in kanjani back in the days...  so, it is def not their crazy antique that got me to like them.. what about music then? nothing special also.. ryota sounds like tegoshi to me, for some reason lol.. only ryuto is somewhat sumthing fresh to me. i really like the tone of his speaking voice...

damn.. why do i like gene??? it is not their crazy antique, nor their music or their style??? they just has this charm??? and i am strangely attracted to them?? it is surely one of the mystery of my life..

i guess i m thankful for them, coz my life seems to be colorful again after i get to know them.. real life has been so hard to me last year and beginning of 2017..

i think that is all for today..

Random talk session 292: MAD CYCLONE TOUR

hello diary! today is 11/8/2017

lmao, here is my delayed reaction post.. ok,, so yeah i went to saitama for the gene's mad cyclone live tour... it was so good!! and i miss them ever since!! T.T

anyway.. yeah, i went to the 3rd august and 5th august shows. i think i shud do mini report, but i really dunno how lol my seats were so so. not that good, neither it was bad. it was on the 200 level. but i wish i had an arena seats though. it was really close, coz it was a center stage layout! both of my seats are abt the same..

when i first arrived in saitama, i was kinda lost lol i dun hav internet!! lol thank goodness, i was able to find my hotel in the end.. damn i thought i was done for lol i arrived there at about 3pm, and fangirls were already roaming the place lol so, i checked in at the hotel, and went down to saitama super arena at about 5pm. the road from the hotel to the arena was connected, i m so glad i booked that hotel!! it was a breezed..  and then, 2nd wall lol.. i dunno where the ticket exchange place lol the staffs also dunno english, so it was kinda hard to communicate.. but again, at last, someone who knew about the ticket exchange place appear, lol and i got my ticket. this is why i hate going places, i m always lost and dunno what to do... but went anyway, all bcoz i love gene too much.. sometimes i hate my obsessed self... it contradicts my personality..  i hate travelling so much i feels wanna puke when i m at a new place. 

erm..so yeah.. i went to the arena.. it was kinda, smaller than i thought lol dun get me wrong, it's big, just not as big as imagine lol so.. i waited for the show to start omg i cant wait to see my boys!! my heart was pounding all the time i was waiting.. until, finally, the theme song playing (mad cyclone) and the screen board thingy (i dunno how to call tis lol) lifted up!! AND THERE THEY WERE!!! MY BOYS!!! I WAS LOOKING AT THEM SO HARD THEY WERE SO SURREAL I FELT LIKE I WAS WATCHING A 3D OR SOMETHING AND OF COURSE I WAS TRYING TO FIND MY DEAR ALAN AND I SAW HIM AND HE LOOKED MAJESTIC AND BEAUTIFUL I JUST CANT AND THEN AFTER STARING AT ALAN FOR SOME TIME I ALSO WANT TO SEE RYUTO AND REO AND I SAW AND DAMNNNNN RYUTOOOOOOOO REOOOOOO I CANT CONTAINED MY FEELINGS ALSO HAYATO LOL RYOTA LOOK SO TALL LOL MANDY AND YUTA LOOK THE SAME AS ON TV LOL OF COURSE 

also, seeing them dancing live, is really different from seeing them on tv.. so, i didnt really look at the screen. i watch them on dvd later anyway lol so yeah, i was mostly focusing on alan, reo and ryuto on the first day lol only when they are not on my side, i'd watch the screen. on the 2nd day, i think i almost never look at the screen.. i got really frustrated when ryuto and alan are both on my side lol like, WHO DO I LOOK AT???? LIKE I WANT TO LOOK AT ALAN BUT RYUTOOO DAMNNNN BUT OF COURSE ALAN WINS DAMN ALAN I WANNA SEE RYUTO TOO LOL ESPECIALLY DURING MAKE YOU MINE LIKE OMG QUOATING MY FACEBOOK STATUS: RYUTO WAS SO HOT BUT ALAN WAS FREAKIN LAVA!!! HE FREAKIN TOOK HIS SHIRT OFF I WAS LIKE "OH MY GOD" I REALLY SAID IT OUT LOUD OMG MAKE YOU MINE PERFORMANCE WAS SO GOOD I CANT WAIT TO WATCH IT ON DVD 

erm..what else.. oh, also, on the 1st day (3rd august) they celebrate alan's birthday lol it was kinda funny...actually.. they brought him a slice of cake lol (yup, it was really, just a slice lol) then alan eats the whole cake, and he got some on his mouth. freakin ryuto then be like, take some of the cake on alan's mouth and then he licks his finger lol indirect kiss lololol omg dun ruined my ship ryuto dont just dont. also, after that, ryuto give alan protein lololol ryuto pls alan is not like u lol also, they throw alan to the air for 24 times lol (coz it was alan's 24th birthday) on the 15th and above they were already getting tired lol i was worry they drop alan or sumthing lol... after it was finally the 24 count, hayato said, "everybody's count was incredible, if it wasnt for that, we would just stop at 4 actually" lolololol 

also, omg there was this mini pic skit.. wit all the ships!! i dun want to repeat myself, but here is the report on tumblr. MAN I M SO SAD NOT MUCH HAYALAN MOMENTS DURING THE 2 DAYS SHOW I WENT  TO...OK THERE WAS ONE, ON THE 1ST DAY BUT KINDA NOT REALLY?? I THINK?? LOL during ageha, i saw hayato was running, trying to catch up to alan, but alan kinda stops abruptly, so hayato kinda crash onto him, they fell to the ground!! it was kinda dangerous!!! forget hayalan, i was more concern of injuring themselves lol anyway, that is about all the hayalan moment i saw T.T i m so sad!!!! 

erm.... what else to say?? i am really not good wit concert report lol

so i guess tat's it for today???

bye!!

PS: WORLD TOUR PLS

Random talk session 291: GENE HAS BECOME MY LIFE

HELLO diary...sorry for caps lock lol.. anyway, today is 13/7/2017.. it is 1.19am.. today is thursday..

as usual, wanna talk about my fandom.. my life is totally all bout generations now.. i m so obsessed!! i even bought tickets to their mad cyclone tour.. i m going in less than a month lol when i first find out about the tour (somewhere in may), i was actually thinking of going, but cancel eventually coz ticket is really hard to get anyway, so i was only aiming for a world tour next year. but then, suddenly, they make available a general ticket for international fans!! and i was like, omg!!!! what's more, they announced it late june.. , and after much thought (as if!! lol) i decided to buy tix for the august shows!! only a month for preparation!! lol i m so freakin scare!! like no kidding!! i hate travelling!!! oh, why didnt i buy the nov or dec show then??? of course, at first, i was like, ermm... which prefecture shud i go lol.. it is a good chance to visit other places in japan anyway, i was thinking of going to osaka or mie (hayato's hometown!! haha) but then i remember alan's birthday is on august 4th lololol and i was like, omg surely thy are gonna celebrate him!! i need to see it live!! lol so, yeah, i decided to buy the shows in august, which is in saitama lol.. sadly, only a month to prepare everything!! flight tickets are expensive as hell!! also, hotels near the venue are all book out!! like omg!! i havent book accommodation.. ughh i m just still confused ok!! ughhh i m going crazy to be honest... all for these guys!! damn it!! i hate being a fan with money lol now that i have money of my own, i m spending it like water, just to freakin see these people live lol.. anyway... oh yeah, i wanna talk about the days before i was this obsessed with them lol

so, yeah, back in march, when i was watching high and low.. when i heard the song, "run this town" i thought it was very jpop lol it was catchy alright.... and then, i also downloaded high and low the live. but i only watch the performances of the theme songs from the show.. so, i watched run this town performance.. with no emotions lol i dun hav much impression towards the group at all lol.. i dun even watch their other songs lol... one thing i remember from watching them, is one of them had dyed their hair all white lol and i was like, he looks funny.. lol.. that was one of first gene's perf that i watched lol...

fast forward again.. so yeah, after watching too much exile casino, i coincidentally heard the song never let you go from one of the episode.. at first, i was only listening to the song (i downloaded the mp3) but i kinda got curious of the music video (I SWEAR THIS WAS THE TURNING POINT) so i i went to youtube and watched it... AFTER THAT I KINDA REPEATED THE MV FOR LIKE THOUSAND OF TIMES AND SUDDENLY I M A CERTIFIED FANGIRL. DAMN I M SO WEAK. after that i also check their other pvs and yeah, tldr i am obsessed!! 

like, i dont watch any anime at all for the past 2 months.. and all i wanna do is watch gene and listen to their songs.. THEY ARE THE FIRST THING I THINK ABOUT EVERY TIME I WAKE UP AND BEFORE I WENT TO SLEEP. WHEN  I WAS FEELING SLEEPY AND COULDNT WOKE UP, I WENT TO CHECK INSTAGRAM/TWITTER TO SEE IF THERE ARE ANYTHING NEW ON THEM WHEN I AM SO FREAKIN TIRED WORKING I'D THINK OF THEM THIS IS ALL FOR THEM I M WORKING TO EARN MONEY TO BUY THEIR STUFFS AND GO TO THEIR LIVE LIKE I M NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING HERE THEY ARE ON MY MIND 24/7 

I M SO OBSESSED!!

BYE