Random talk session 199

hello diary.. today is 28/4/2011.. it's thursday.. can u believe it, almost 2 months i m at bintulu..

anyway.. yeah, got some bad news.. these few days, my mole on my hand has been hurting so much.. so i look into it in the internet.. found out some scary stuff.. it might be skin cancer.. and reading the symptoms, it probably is.. and i ve been trying toto c the dermatologist, but has no time and i am so afraid.. i am so sad.. what will become of me?? i just dunno what to do.. i feel like crying..

emm... i just dun hav any mood to update anymore.. eventhough it's about that my kataomoi.. it doesnt really matter anymore.. i dunno.. *sigh*

well, i think that is all..

Random talk session 198: ano hito to mou hitotsu no hito?

hello diary! today is sunday, 17/4/2011.. em, it's almost 11pm, and i am stil not asleep.. tomoro is gonna be hard to wake up..

so anyway... need to say this somwhere.. so, these few week, seems like i've change my 'target' LOL i dunno.. ever since that day.. maybe coz i dun see him as much anymore.? so he has become much more precious? LOL. and recently, i think of him more than my original crush.. besides, i dun even feel as nervous when i m near that crush of mine.. *sigh* i dun even know.. guess i am gonna wait for that 'want to vormit feeling' to confirm this feeling LOL i just feel nervous and shy when he's near... much alike when i was in the first stage of felling crush towards the my original crush (i dun even sure of my feeling towards this crush anymore.. seems like i am overwhelmed by the other guy..) the comparison:

crush: likes to talk (talkative) & extrovert (gets along wit everyone)
potential crush: does not talk much (but nt that quiet.. he's the kinda guy that only talks of the important thing..), not introvert, but not extrovert too.. just in the mddle? LOL

crush: average takaso LOL (i am not gonna reveal everything xD)
potential crush: takai su!! XD

crush: nice guy, not that..how to say.. mischievous?? yeah, that sounds about right XD
potential crush: also nice, and kind.. ur typical nice, decent, smart guy.. (sometimes can be schematic LOL)

crush: personality: cute (personality wise LOL) and funny XD
potential crush: personality - neither of the above LOL well, i guess his main quality is he's hontoni yasashii!! and i think that is the main reason why i m feeling this way..

em, i m really sleepy right now.. so, tat is for today.. gonna think of other comparisons in my sleep XD

ja~!

Random talk session 197

hello diary.. today is 4/4/2011.. it's monday..

i made a huge blunder today.. i think i just broke the pump for doing the impurities in lab 1.. gahhhH!!! i knew it!! that sumthing bad is waiting to happen coz today i feel kinda happy.. the main plant sample's testing and also the storage tank's, hav been moved to lab 2, so i was kinda free.. beside, i dun need to meet that someone that i dun really like... and then, i also went sampling anohito to.. aitsu, aikawarazu, omoshiroi deshita..

ok, now to the bad part.. about the pump.. i feel sooooo bad about it.. i will regret this for a long time.. aiiiihhhhh... stuuupppppiiiiddd meee!!!1 GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

em.. enough of blaming self.. some extra thing.. tht guy.. he cut his hair.. so it is shorter now.. what a shame.. he look really hot when he's hair is longer LOL em, how i wish he didnt cut it! LOL

em, that's all for today.. i still feel pretty bad now, so actually dun have any mood to write anymore.. or even to do anything..

PS: oh, i forgot.. Gintama's new season is aired today.. so fast.. i still remember when i keep hoping april to come faster... But, truthfully, i am still sad about what happened today, so i am not really excited about it..

Random talk session 196

hello diary! today is 1/4/2011.. it's april fool? LOL today is friday..

ok, actually lots of things happened, and sadly i didnt manage to blog it (or maybe too lazy to write it lol) but today is overflow wit emotion, so i am gonna blog it LOL

emm.. then again, it would be dangerous to write it coz then everybody would kno what i think LOL but anyway, i am gonna write it anyway LOL even if he finds out, i want to say this, "dun worry, it's not that i 'like' u XD i have another crush anyway XD i just think u r hot lol"

ok, so i was in the lab.. blah blah.. and the sampling team this time is D and J (lol sorry, no real name XD)... and then, they are back, and guess what, D's shirt is not tug in anymore LOL well, that's a given since they had to climb the storage tank and take many samples.. and wit that sweaty looks *self stabbed many times*.. he looks so freakin amazingly HOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT *_____________* hey, u r already handsome wit your skema looks, but wit another image, u falls into the "HOT" category XDD the other day, one of the staff said, "D was popular and used to be fitter and handsome in the past" in which he replied, "no lah" HAHAHAHAHAHA how humble can u get??? gah, this guy just prove that there is still a handsome good /kind guy left in the world LOL and then, to comment the staff said. He is still handsome LOL

anyway, so, D looks so smokin hot wit his shirt not tug in XD.. but, this is not the first time i saw it actually LOL he didnt tug in before too, and i thought it was hot too XD but i guess when he's all sweaty, it adds in the HOT factor LOL but today is different, he didnt tug in the whole day and i was a little distracted by the hotness LOLOLOL i dunno, maybe he just forget to? he is usually the smart, decent, good guy.. so, when he suddenly changed his image, it has a more deepen impact XD LOL what the hell am i talking about LOL

... and then.. ano hito mou kitanda.. hontoni bikurishimashita! it was kinda a while since ano hito wo deata LOL and then everything starts going wrong wit me! i was so nervous and cant concentrate at all wit aitsu around.. seriously, i was a mess!! nothing i do was right that time... i feel like grinning when aitsu wo chikazuite.. omg, i cant stand this.. i cant work wit aitsu iru.. ano hito miteru toki wo, i guess the feeling is nice, but not that good.. kinda like drug? LOL

emm... that's all i think LOL oh, and if someone who knows me and knows D reads this, pls dun misinterpret ok? i do has a crush, but not D. he is just someone that i like to see coz he's nice, kind and well, handsome XD

bye bye!

PS: i feel like i am talking about ono daisuke, coz his nickname is also D lol