Random talk session 204: October..

Hello diary.. today is 4/10/11.. tuesday.. since it's already passed 12am.. now is 1:23am btw..

so, what's up wit me.. it's october, so u know what that mean, i hav started working at night... i guess it's ok.. XD i dunno.. recently i feel no motivation.. feel depressed and so useless.. if i was more smarter, maybe i wont feel this down *sigh* The first nite, for some reason i feel soooo nervous.. i wonder why lol i was quite busy.. and then the 2nd nite, there was no pk, so i was quite free, and time seems sooooo slow.. the 1st nite, i didnt feel very sleepy, but the 2nd nite (maybe coz there wasnt much work), i felt really sleepy.. i just wanted to go home and sleep... btw, aitsu asked me, and i answered very simple.. of course, i was so happy to see him and also that he talked to me, but it was so suddend that my mind went blank and i was.. seems cold to him.. or sumthng... and now i feel so guilty... gah, really want to forget.. ok, enough of that.. seriously, when i talk about my life, it always make me feel depressed..

let's talk about fandom.. i wacthed the gintama x sket dance crossover lol it's just so epic lol the humor kinda overdone, but i really like the seiyuu jokes XD and nw i m downloading sket dance ep that hav gintama's characters.. hihi..

oh, also merlin shud hav started to on 1st oct.. and dexter, 3rd oct.. i'll download those later too.. cant wait to watch..

emmm.. so, what else? oh, tegomasu new pv.. tegomasu no maho? lol i havent finished streaming the video, but my commnt from the 1st few sec of the pv: damn yuya looks like a girl! like, omg!! 0_0 and massu, cute as usual :3

em. i think that's all for today.. gudnite..

Random talk session 203: Life and tv series update

hello diary.. today is 25/9/2011, Sunday..

ok.. so, finally went to the kite festival.. it was so cool, especially the group perf.. here are some pictures:

i love how the puffer fish is like all "OoO" LOLOLOL

more fishes lol

ah, and dang i missed akim's af performance!! arghhhhh!! there goes my chance of seeing that cute face of him LOL thankfully i am not really his fan or anything.. but still, gahhh!!! kuyashiiii sssuu~!!

emm.. ok, next, like i said yesterday, wanna talk about tv series... Supernatural new season (season 7) has started.. and i just watched ep 1 not too long ago... my comment??? emmm.. (OK, SPOILER ALERT) Actually i was really sad that Castiel became the bad guy.. but looks like he came to his senses at the end of the ep, until that thing called Leviathan or sumthing just had to control his body.. Misha playing the bad guy T_T i miss the cute, innocent Castiel T_T. And then seems like Lucifer is back??? Where has Sam gone too???? And LOL at dean watching hentai LOL

ok, that's it i think lol Hopefully season 7 not gonna be too disappointing..

Merlin is premiering on 1st of October, while Dexter is on 3rd October. Cant wait to watch these shows ^o^.

em, wat else? seems like i hav no idea again lol

so, that's it for today yeah.. bye..

Random talk session 202: Life and anime updates

hello siary.. today is 24/9/11. Saturday..

went to town tis morning.. bought another phone lol.. wow, now that i hav money, i buy things like crazy lol. Next time i want to buy some stuffed toys XD.

anyway.. there's also a kite show at town.. but i didnt go coz i dunno how to go there lol tomoro i m going to town again, and try to watch the final show of the kite festival..

em, oh, another update.. seems like i am gonna be working in shift this october.. but my boss really knows how to scare me and get me so unmotivated.. all that responsibilities.. can i really do it? well, like always, i just go wit the flow of life *sigh* But i guess i m glad i m gonna be in shift coz i dun need to wake up so freakin early every morning 6 days a week! .... emm.. anyway.. what else.. oh.. the guy.. i miss him.. gah.. missing him everyday.. what am i gonna do wit this troublesome feeling of mine *sigh* oh, and the other day,i finally got close enough wit him (yes, i am afraid of getting close of him) and then i smell his nostalgic smell *sigh* ok, enough of that.. next, gonna talk about anime~ ehehe..

so, this few weeks, i m wacthing anime again.. last time, i was in a j drama mood, and now, finally got the anime mood kicks in again XD Actually it was the j drama that made me watch anime again lol... To be more precise, it was the Wallflower drama.. i wanted to watch Yuya, so i dwld-ed the drama lol.. it was ok i guess, but then i got curious of the anime, so i dwld-ed the anime too.. and what do u kno, i think it is not that bad XD As a matter of fact, i think the anime is better and funnier than the drama... The wallflower.. i guess it's ok.. my fav character.. well, i d say Takenaga XD He's just so kakkoi XD

next! Dennou Coil. Downloaded this coz it was in my 'wanted to watch' list in myanimelist lol. It is not bad, really. And i cried so freakin hard at one part in the last ep (DENSUKE T_T)... Anime that manage to make me cry is consider "great" anime to me XD。 Anyway, my fav character is... Haraken! i am surprised myself lol Usually i hate male characters that is voice by a female seiyuu.. but for some reason, i really love this boy +_+ (i am no pedophile yo!! lol).. And then i realize i guess it's ok if it's Paku romi XD She's too cool~ Now i wanna watch more anime that has her voice XD i think my pass obsession of ueki also contribute some of this too lol (strangely, i kinda dislike her as hitsugaya in bleach though...)

ok, enough of dennou coil, moving on, 3 new animes tat i currently downloading.. Sket Dance, Arakawa Under the Bridge and Mr. Keaton. Ok, first, Sket Dance. I decided to download this coz the characters are gonna appeared in Gintama episode.. So, i wanna check their characters lol.. i think this anime is really.. plain/dull/boring.. the comedy is... ok, i guess, but not that hilarious.. and then, i think it's too much of resemblance to Gintama.. But i am stickin to this series coz i wanna c Tsubaki LOL At first, i thought he is really interesting and funny, and then after i watched ep 19, i just totally fell in love wit him XD he's soooo cutttttteeeeee +_______________+ i wanna cuddle him XD OK, some comments on the trio main characters.. The leader Bossun, i dun actually feel anything.. He's just too ordinary.. Actually i thought of the same thing to Gintoki too in Gintama (yes, he is not exactly my fav characters until, like ep 100 sumthing lol).. who knows, maybe someday, Bossun gonna do sumthing that will make me like him? lol... and then, we hav usui kazuyoshi a.k.a. Switch.. Apparently he is supposed to be an ikemen.. But, once again, i think he is.. plain... He is not bad. Really. i admit, he is really good looking, but in a very plain way. emm.. ok, next, the female of the trio, Himeko. She's ok i guess... thankfully, not that annoying lol... em.. dunno what else to comment lol.. oh, a special mention of the president of the student council, agata soujirou (?).. Sekitomo~!!! GAHHH I MISS HIS VOICE DANG ITTTT +_+ And now i am actually desperate to watch anime that has him in it... guah.. really, long time since i hear his voice.. and, i realize i hear lots of sugita these days lol he was in wallflower, in gintama that i hav been watching regularly, he was usui in sket dance and also in the next anime i m gonna talk about, Arakawa under the bridge.

Arakawa under the bridge.. why in the world did i watch this..lol. ok, i think it's bcoz of the live action too XD i mean, the anime was just aired not too long last year, and then it also adapted into a live action not long after that.. so, the anime must be really popular.. so i wanted to kno what's so good about this anime XD.. ok, first of all, my comment when i watch the 1st ep: KAMIYA!!! LOL gah, love this guy LOL anyway.. So, yeah, kamiya voiced the main character.. and then, like i said bfore, there's also sugita as the weird hoshi lol.. oh, about this anime.. wow, WEIRD. in a good way LOL. I thought gintama was a crazy anime, and then, i watched Hetalia, which was also crazy and weird, and now, Arakawa under the bridge. This anime is in the same categories wit Gintama and Hetalia coz of it's off the wall humor LOL. Oh, note: Zetsubo sensei is also weird, but i hate tat anime lol

lastly, Mr. Keaton. Ok, watched this just bcoz it is adapted from the manga by Urusawa Naoki. i only watched until ep 3, and i find it's quite boring lol but i am still gonna watch this, coz it is Urusawa Naoki for goodness sake.

ok, i also watched summer wars... read few posts that highly praised this anime., so i figured i try it. but it did not give such impact to me.. it's just ok i guess..

emm.. wow, that was really long.. i think this is it from me for now.. will post again next time, and talk about my fav tv series..

bye!

Random talk session 201: Depression

hello diary.. today is 12/9/11.. it's monday..

today i am feeling very down.. gah.. really hate this feeling.. i feel so useless... i dunno how to work, i am not smart, etc.. gahhhh i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so depressed wit this feeling..

not to mention, this feeling of that certain someone.. i am supposed to like him, but why do i feel sad and mad whn i think of him.. am i angry at him? why? he didnt do anything or say anything that could hurt me.. but then again, maybe that is EXACTLY the reasons i am feeling this way.. i'm sad coz he didnt talk to me at all.... i want to hear his voice, but cant even get myself to talk to him.. i want to c him, but i refuse to hav an eye contact wit him.. my actions are different from what my heart want to do..

i hate this complicated feelings.. i want to forget about him so that i dun hav to feel this way again.. oh, emotion, please go away..

today.. is quite depressing for me.. i hope tomoro is a better day..

-ja-

Random talk session 200: wow, 200!!!!

hello diary! today is 10/9/2011, saturday...omg, IT HAS BEEN MONTHS!!!! MY LAST POST WAS... ON APRIL.. THAT WAS LIKE, 5 MONTHS AGO !!! HOW ARE YOU MY VIRTUAL DIARY?? I AM REALLY SORRY FOR ABANDONING YOU!!! AND OMG, IT TAKE ME THIS LONG TO REALIZE THAT I FINALLY COME TO MY 200TH POSTS!!! OH MY!!! 200 YO!!! LET'S AIM FOR 300 BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR. YES/NO? XD

anyway.. i think i shud start blogging again.. i dun want my memories just fade away like that.. especially when it's about.. him... *sigh*

ok..let me start... of coz,, it's about my kataomoi...yesterday.. 9/9/11. He made me look twice!!! Like, seriously!! i was standing near the door, wit.. i dun even remember wit whom, nor what we were talking abt, then i saw him and i thought, "oh, there he is" (yeah, i kinda want to see him too), and was gonna take a peek at him... but he totally made me look twice.. and dang, once again that feeling come rushing in... my heart was like shouting, "SUKI DESU! SUKI DESU!! KEKKON SHITE KUDASAI!!!!!" yeah, my reactions were kinda extreme than the usual lol i think it must be bcoz "that day of the month" ... Also, he was wearing a black shirt underneath.. gah that is so kakkoi.. and his hair... his unruly hair... dang my hair fetish LOLOLOLOLOL YEAH, NOW I REMEMBERED. IT IS THE HAIR. I LOOKED TWICE BECOZ OF THE HAIR. Emmm.... ok, anyway, mm.. where was i.. oh, so yeah, and then he went back to **** (censored for classified purpose lol).. i was kinda disappointed coz i want to look at him for a little longer lol .. and then, he did come back. ah, i was happy.. and this time, i want to talk to him, so i kinda look at him, and want to ask/say sumthing, but my mind went blank.. Y? COz he was looking at me back... Thankfully, he knew, so he asked, how's my condition, "r u still sick?" (awww~ i wanna hug him).. i replied, (shyly), "yes". and he asked again, "really, still sick? wht illness?" (LOL seriously???) And i replied again (more shyly, i even look away and went closer to the table"), "Yeah, still sick.. Flu.........." My head once again draw a blank... I dunno what to say.. Y u ask? coz when i looked at him carefully, i realized he had a hige LOL GAWD AGAIN THOSE FEELINGS... i wanted to ask if he's ok too (coz at that time, our boss asked that coz he looked kinda tired..) after that.. i dunno what happened.. i simply hav no memories of what happened next coz all i remember was his unruly appearance and that moment when he asked how i was doing.. *sigh*

it's sept... wow,so this kataomoi also has been last for 5 months.. i dunno what else to write.. i shud write a long post since i havent update for 5 months, but i just hav no idea.. so i guess that;s it for today..

ja..

Random talk session 199

hello diary.. today is 28/4/2011.. it's thursday.. can u believe it, almost 2 months i m at bintulu..

anyway.. yeah, got some bad news.. these few days, my mole on my hand has been hurting so much.. so i look into it in the internet.. found out some scary stuff.. it might be skin cancer.. and reading the symptoms, it probably is.. and i ve been trying toto c the dermatologist, but has no time and i am so afraid.. i am so sad.. what will become of me?? i just dunno what to do.. i feel like crying..

emm... i just dun hav any mood to update anymore.. eventhough it's about that my kataomoi.. it doesnt really matter anymore.. i dunno.. *sigh*

well, i think that is all..

Random talk session 198: ano hito to mou hitotsu no hito?

hello diary! today is sunday, 17/4/2011.. em, it's almost 11pm, and i am stil not asleep.. tomoro is gonna be hard to wake up..

so anyway... need to say this somwhere.. so, these few week, seems like i've change my 'target' LOL i dunno.. ever since that day.. maybe coz i dun see him as much anymore.? so he has become much more precious? LOL. and recently, i think of him more than my original crush.. besides, i dun even feel as nervous when i m near that crush of mine.. *sigh* i dun even know.. guess i am gonna wait for that 'want to vormit feeling' to confirm this feeling LOL i just feel nervous and shy when he's near... much alike when i was in the first stage of felling crush towards the my original crush (i dun even sure of my feeling towards this crush anymore.. seems like i am overwhelmed by the other guy..) the comparison:

crush: likes to talk (talkative) & extrovert (gets along wit everyone)
potential crush: does not talk much (but nt that quiet.. he's the kinda guy that only talks of the important thing..), not introvert, but not extrovert too.. just in the mddle? LOL

crush: average takaso LOL (i am not gonna reveal everything xD)
potential crush: takai su!! XD

crush: nice guy, not that..how to say.. mischievous?? yeah, that sounds about right XD
potential crush: also nice, and kind.. ur typical nice, decent, smart guy.. (sometimes can be schematic LOL)

crush: personality: cute (personality wise LOL) and funny XD
potential crush: personality - neither of the above LOL well, i guess his main quality is he's hontoni yasashii!! and i think that is the main reason why i m feeling this way..

em, i m really sleepy right now.. so, tat is for today.. gonna think of other comparisons in my sleep XD

ja~!

Random talk session 197

hello diary.. today is 4/4/2011.. it's monday..

i made a huge blunder today.. i think i just broke the pump for doing the impurities in lab 1.. gahhhH!!! i knew it!! that sumthing bad is waiting to happen coz today i feel kinda happy.. the main plant sample's testing and also the storage tank's, hav been moved to lab 2, so i was kinda free.. beside, i dun need to meet that someone that i dun really like... and then, i also went sampling anohito to.. aitsu, aikawarazu, omoshiroi deshita..

ok, now to the bad part.. about the pump.. i feel sooooo bad about it.. i will regret this for a long time.. aiiiihhhhh... stuuupppppiiiiddd meee!!!1 GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

em.. enough of blaming self.. some extra thing.. tht guy.. he cut his hair.. so it is shorter now.. what a shame.. he look really hot when he's hair is longer LOL em, how i wish he didnt cut it! LOL

em, that's all for today.. i still feel pretty bad now, so actually dun have any mood to write anymore.. or even to do anything..

PS: oh, i forgot.. Gintama's new season is aired today.. so fast.. i still remember when i keep hoping april to come faster... But, truthfully, i am still sad about what happened today, so i am not really excited about it..

Random talk session 196

hello diary! today is 1/4/2011.. it's april fool? LOL today is friday..

ok, actually lots of things happened, and sadly i didnt manage to blog it (or maybe too lazy to write it lol) but today is overflow wit emotion, so i am gonna blog it LOL

emm.. then again, it would be dangerous to write it coz then everybody would kno what i think LOL but anyway, i am gonna write it anyway LOL even if he finds out, i want to say this, "dun worry, it's not that i 'like' u XD i have another crush anyway XD i just think u r hot lol"

ok, so i was in the lab.. blah blah.. and the sampling team this time is D and J (lol sorry, no real name XD)... and then, they are back, and guess what, D's shirt is not tug in anymore LOL well, that's a given since they had to climb the storage tank and take many samples.. and wit that sweaty looks *self stabbed many times*.. he looks so freakin amazingly HOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT *_____________* hey, u r already handsome wit your skema looks, but wit another image, u falls into the "HOT" category XDD the other day, one of the staff said, "D was popular and used to be fitter and handsome in the past" in which he replied, "no lah" HAHAHAHAHAHA how humble can u get??? gah, this guy just prove that there is still a handsome good /kind guy left in the world LOL and then, to comment the staff said. He is still handsome LOL

anyway, so, D looks so smokin hot wit his shirt not tug in XD.. but, this is not the first time i saw it actually LOL he didnt tug in before too, and i thought it was hot too XD but i guess when he's all sweaty, it adds in the HOT factor LOL but today is different, he didnt tug in the whole day and i was a little distracted by the hotness LOLOLOL i dunno, maybe he just forget to? he is usually the smart, decent, good guy.. so, when he suddenly changed his image, it has a more deepen impact XD LOL what the hell am i talking about LOL

... and then.. ano hito mou kitanda.. hontoni bikurishimashita! it was kinda a while since ano hito wo deata LOL and then everything starts going wrong wit me! i was so nervous and cant concentrate at all wit aitsu around.. seriously, i was a mess!! nothing i do was right that time... i feel like grinning when aitsu wo chikazuite.. omg, i cant stand this.. i cant work wit aitsu iru.. ano hito miteru toki wo, i guess the feeling is nice, but not that good.. kinda like drug? LOL

emm... that's all i think LOL oh, and if someone who knows me and knows D reads this, pls dun misinterpret ok? i do has a crush, but not D. he is just someone that i like to see coz he's nice, kind and well, handsome XD

bye bye!

PS: i feel like i am talking about ono daisuke, coz his nickname is also D lol

Random talk session 195: "Crush" is a weird feeling

hello diary, today is 14/3/2011.. it's monday..

em.. today i wanna talk about sumthing call "crush"... when i had a crush, i had this feeling, "butterflies in my stomach".. and at times, i even feel want to throw up. At first, i am confuse of this feeling.. When that someone i like is near, or when i think of him, i suddenly feel sick and want to vomit.. I thought i didnt like him anymore, coz, normally, anything that disgust u make u want to throw up right? not the thing that u like.. but then, i look it up on the internet, and turns out it is a normal feeling after all lol

having a crush is a weird sensation, but falling in love must be much more wonderful feeling.. i dunno if i will ever fall in love... all i have all this time is only little crush and tegomasu's song, kataomoi no chiisana koi is my fav theme for my crush LOLOL Here's the translation lyric:

i really love you that I cannot sleep
I just thought that this love will never be
It's because of you, it is all because of you
As I tried to sleep, I just thought of something

Everything 'bout you is so beautiful
As if I cannot reach you after all
I've tried to forget and erase you in my mind
But now you're troubling me from deep inside...

Please tell me if there is an end
To the unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
But please do listen to my plea--feel me in every beat
Of this heart that loves you in a way that's irreversible...

"Are you alright? Does something bother you?"
You asked me one day with a worried face
It's because of you, it is just because of you
But I want to hide everything running in my mind...

Your words are very gentle to my ears
That all of my face couldn't help but blush
How I wish that I could tell you every single thing
That bothers me every now and then...

It's just fine if there is no end
To this unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
Please let me protect this feeling that's very dear for me
But often I can't do anything--
Yes, that is me, indeed...

What if I just told you everything
Then I'll never be able to see you (shining) smile again...
But I'm satisfied to keep this to myself...
This, I'll never regret...

It's just fine if there is no end
To this unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
Please let me protect this feeling that's very dear for me
For I still cannot do anything...

Please tell me if there is an end
To the unrequited love that I am feeling for you...
But please do listen to my plea--feel me in every beat
Of this heart that loves you in a way that's irreversible...

..... been repeating this song for days now LOL My fav part is:
Kono kataomoi ni owari ga nai no nara Sore demo ii Kono kataomoi wo mamotte hoshii Mada nani mo dekinai boku nan desu

XD

............ on a random note, i think i really like Kamiya now LOL just a matter of time until i add him in the official list LOL

Kamiya: i m #1

LOL isnt he's just so preciously cute? XD

dang it, and now, i also think that Nakamura guy is not bad XDDD how many seiyuu would i fall for??? they all are so.... charming XD emm... i think that's all from me today.. until next time! bye..

Random talk session 194: Depress!!

hello diary! today is 11/3/2011.. Hisashiburi!!! Quite a while since i update.. well, i have been busy coz of my new job and i feel so lazy to reload my broadband..

anyway, yeah, like i said, really been a while, and there are lots of things happened that i didnt managed to blog in.. so many things actually..

i am now at bintulu.. precisely at the GT Plywood quarters... been here for about 2 weeks..

anyway, to make it very short, i feel depressed working in the lab.. i has forgot everything i've learned in university.. i cant do the analysis.. to sum up, i suck so bad!!! aarghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate myself.. seriously. i cant do anything right.. arrghhh!! i feel so frustrated..

aii, enough of that.. next, is about.. my new kataomoi LOL so yeah, atarashii no kataomoi ga mitsuketanda.. LOL new place, new kataomoi, how typical of my life.. anyway.. there's a bit story on it, so before i forgot, i want to wrte about it..

it started on the first day that i went to the.. that place lol... And, soko de, ano hito ga iru.. at first, i dun think of anything towards aitsu, demo.. when anohito watashi ni hanashita, i think that was the time that i starts to.. u kno, koi wo hajimeru?? LOL haiya, it's so hard to tell the story wit my random japanese wording lol

and after the 2 weeks, today i got the infamous feel like throwing up when i think of anohito.. LOL

emm... i think that's it for today.. actually there are lots of things i want to write, but somehow, i dunno how to lol

Random talk session 193: crush and burn

hello diary! today is 19/2/2011. friday..

now at kuching. arrived yesterday. went to kuching to sent my big bro to the airport. he got a new job at selangor.. today got up so early coz of that. i woke up at 3am...

emm.. on another story. so after we sent him off, we went back to my cousin's house.. i fell asleep again lol and i had the strangest dream.. *sigh* no, strange is not the word...it's about watashi no kata omoi.. in the dream, for some reason, i took a glimpse of ano hito, then, watashi ga, try really hard to find ano hito.. watashi wa sagashite, sagashite, then i wake up, and.. i feel so sad coz ano hito aeru mae ni, yume ga mezameshita...

and i realize sumthing, watashi wa, ano hito no koto ga sugoku aitai desu.. ai tai, ai tai wo tamaranai.. i hate part of me that feel this way.

the end.. yeah, very short i kno.. just wanna record that i had this feeling before...

Random talk session 192: finally got a job

hello diary! today is 10.2.2011. thursday..

got some news today.. the kirana company from bintulu, finally call.. and yeah i got the job. i am not happy at all. now, that is weird. like i said, things that i dun want, i will always got. aii.. i guess i am going to bintulu.. i hate this..

ok, let me start again.. i was sleeping actually until the phone rang. i thought it was that stupid person coz the number is maxis. so ignored it. and then suddenly there was a message (i thought that stupid person again..) but turned out it was the chemist from kirana. she call me to tell me i got the job. i didnt feel happy at all.. i waited until like 2 hours to message her and told her to call me call her back coz i dun have enough credit.

that's about it..

em, ok, another story, my father bought a new car today, so i was at home alone when i received the call..

i am not happy wit the car coz it is so expensive for a 2nd hard car!!

em... ok, actually yesterday something happened.. a mouse suddenly ran pass my feet his fur brushed my feet lol i this like some kind of sign of what's happening today? who knows lol

i was very surprised, but i guess i am not that creep out by mouse. what i really hate is creepy crawlers, spider especially..i cant stand just seeing them!! *goosebumps*

ok, i think that's all for today.. em, today was some day.. emm..

k, bye!

Random talk session 191: Time capsule

hello diary! today is 9/2/2011 it's wednesday

ok, so today, after giving answer to yahoo answer, i suddenly decide to visit my old gendou music account.. and then i started to read the posts tat i posted at the forums, way back then! haha the result, omg, amusing!!! hahahahahaha!!! omg i sounded so.. hyper and happy??? lol and back then i often used Japanese words randomly, omg i feel embarrassed reading them for some reason hahahaha

and reading the posts, i once again realized i really, really, really love anime back then.. it was my life..

and wow, i actually love seiyuu frm 2005! and my fav seiyuu was seki tomo hahahaha it's funny reading my post about it haha and i also like houshi souichiro and miyata kouki.. haha..

ok, here are some more of my discoveries lol
- i was seriously mad in love wit yuki LOL i keep calling him my husband lol
- i used to love naruto. like, really love it. but now...*sigh* i feel like i have betrayed myself T-T
- i proclaimed sasuke as my fav character lol and it seems i also love kakashi and itachi <3
- i used to think raito is a hot villain omg lol
- i also love tamahome (lol of coz XD even now i guess XD)
- back then, i didn't have any idea how to download anime hahahh

- seriously, i was so.. like a different person.. is this really me? LOL
- lol and then, at some point, i dun say sekitomo as my fav seiyuu anymore... it has changed to noriaki sugiyama (and that is totally bcoz of sasuke lol)
- my habit of writting "bcoz' is since 2005 hahahahaha
- oh, i also love Mr. K. i wonder if i realized okiayu's voice back then haha
- lol @ my point of view at shika x temari
"i dont think masashi kishimoto's sensei will go deep into the character's pairing.....hey,after all naruto is not a romance manga/anime....
but, i still think shikamaru & ino is better than shimaru & temari
reasons: 1.temari is older than shikamaru
2.shikamaru is shorter than temari
hehehe O_o "
- hahahaha wow, i use to like shika x ino???? but now i kinda support choji x ino hahaha
- em, and i also love gin (bleach) (and still am now of coz XD)
- "Re: Any Manga's you would like to see as Anime's?
Hitman Reborn" hahahaha i also love reborn back at the days XD and i only watched the anime, 3 years later XD
- wow...looks at this: "Re: Are you a fan of Naruto
i totally love naruto!!! from the begining until forever~" my heart seriously hurts so much right now... i am now saying the same thing to Gintama... but in the future, this is gonna change.. i made up my mind!! i wont say gintama my fav anime anymore (except for questions in YA haha.. it just from now on, i wont say it so.. bluntly? or sumthing like that..)
- em, i thought i love sasuke, but in the thread about fav naruto character, i answered kakashi sensei.. and itachi... emm..
- Quote "to me, anime(and manga) is my life! it is the only thing that make me really happy.
i would be very sad also when people critize anime (they dont even understand what it is)"
- another quote, a long one

"Re: Share your favorite anime n' why..

i love anime so very much!!! it is my life!!!! without anime, i dont think my life is worth living for...

Dragon Ball is the most special anime to be. i read it's manga when i was 10 years old, i watched the anime when i was 13.

Now, i hav watched a lot of anime....so much that i dont know which one is the true my fav. Saw this, loved it, beacame my fav...then, watched that, loved it too, and became my fav also, then it goes on and on.... "

- just....just.. wow...
- my reply to the peach girl thread: "the ending is quite predictable(at least to me...)" what?? so i watched the anime before???? really?? i dun remember at at all! o_o

haha, it was so much fun reading my old posts.. it reminds me of the old days that i have forgotten... this is why i want to make blog like this.. so that, in 10 years in the future, i would read this blog again, and just remembering the good old days...

and.. ah, this gendou website, my friend introduced it to me.. i kinda miss her.. havent contact her for a while, i hope she has not forgotten me.. aimi, do u remember me? T-T

Random talk session 190

hello diary! today is sunday, 6/2/2011.

em, so these days i've been thinking about mikishin a lot lol dang this is seriously bcoz of that dream i had lol and now i dun want to watch/hear any yaoi anime/bl drama that has him in it lol it feel awkward lol

ok, anyways... em, dunno what else i want to say... guess that's all..? lol just want to write about mikishin??

now, this is what i call a real quick post lol

maybe i'll add sumthing if anything comes up to mind lol

EDIted on 7/2/11 XD ok, i am kinda bother that this post is too short lol

anyway, continue from my miki shin story.. i listen to abunai series 1 once again recently.. it has the 3 nostalgic lol i meant sekitomo, koyasu and mikishin XD i love miki shin character here lol

before this, i hear about the word "moe" a lot and actually i dunno what is this moe, what kind of character is moe??? but after listening to the drama, now i know lol especially when mikishin said, "kyaa!" LOLOLOLOL NOW THAT"S WHT I CALL MOE LOL

haha, ok that's all hahahaha

Random talk session 189: INTOXIC BY VOICES

hello diary..it's 1/2/2011.. tuesday... continue from the last entry lol

nnnnnnnngggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh toochika koichi (yay, i memorized his name lol)

gah, ok, starts from here, when i get this 'excited' feeling, i'll call it intoxic lol

gah! this guy voice nnghhh.. but then again, actually i havent hear his usual talking voice in the song lol

ok, back to the original entry that i wanted to make lol

anyway.. i was watching/downloading one of weiss perf from utube... the song is called it's too late... love this song.. hehe.. actually i downloaded the song quite a time ago, and this afternoon, i so happen to listen to it again, and ever since then i ve been repeating it lol and then i found the live perf in utube.. so, wanna comment some few things heh

1stly, lol this is the 1st time i see mikishin since that awkward dream i had lol i still feel shy when i see him hahahaha and kya love the way he hold the mic XD

and then, sekitomo looks restless lol he is wit the most movement XD koyasu singing so.. what's the word? like, so unenergetic or sumthing XD he looks kinda tired lol yuki and mikishin also doesnt have any movement, but it;s not bad as koyasu lol no, i'm not complaining XD i think he's really tired.. he;s like sweating a lot! poor guy XD

emm....i think that's all.. lol

Random talk session 188: valentine kiss rants

hello diary! today is 1/2/2011. it's tues..and whaddaya kno, it's feb...and i'm still jobless... so sad..

anyway.. i was listening to vk.. and forgot to blog about it XD this year vk already leaked in the internet XD and it is sung by ohtori and michiru (i dunno who's this guy was lol)

.....namikawa daisuke and kishio daisuke.. both are daisuke s LOL

this is the 1st time i hear kishio sings XD it was ok i guess.. and that michiru guy is so funny LOL

ohtori vk is..fine i guess XD he sounds so weird at first XD i dunno maybe it's bcoz i hear too much italy song haha

ah, really love how hyoutei sings the song every year lol now it's only jirou and kabaji who havent sing... who knows, maybe even the kantoku will get too sing it lol

emm...what else i wanna talk about...

i'm stumped XD guess that's it XD bye..

edit:

am listening to digimon memorial song.. gah.. it's that excited feeling again!! GAHHHH the guy voice is soooo nnnnghhhhhh!!!!! ok, as of now, the seiyuu tht has able to make me feel this way are: okiayu, suwabe, kiuchi, yusa (the most current one i guess XD), sugiyama, mikishin, sekitomo..that's it i think.. lol while hiroki's eiji always make me feel amaze lol

edit 2

the guy that made me go all 'nngghh' lol his name,.. i think it;s tochika? lol i shud start memorizing his name lol at first i thought it was kondo takashi's voice.. how can i make this terrible mistake lol (well, in the past i even mix toriumi and namikawa voices lol they are like so differen when i come to kno their voice XD)

Random talk session 187: weird dream

hello diary! today is 29/1/2011 it's saturday..

this is just a very quick post.. just wanna write down my weird dream last night... i dreamt of MikiShin LOL kinda scary? i didnt see any of his pic or video.. and yet i still dreamt about him lol i only hear one of his song yesterday XD

and now i am gonna feel awkward of him for a while XD

ok, tht's all haha

Random talk session 186 i love layton & pokemon

hello diary.. today is 27.1.2011. it's thursday..

and i am at the bintulu terminal bus station... am going back to betong.. taking the 11:30pm bas.. now is still 10:50pm..

emm.. so, i had the interview this afternoon. once again, complete fail. i cant speak properly, i was incoherence, i mumbled...darn it i hate myself..

em, actually i kinda want the position, but after the interviewed, i kinda dun want it anymore lol i dun want to work on saturdays!! i dun mind the shift, but working on saturdays??? Gahhh!!! i hope they dun take me lol but for some reason, thing that i dun like, i usually get..and truthfully, i really, really dun want this job lol

about the interview, it was nothing much.... just ordinary, nothing skema or anything... em, for some reason i dun want to think of it.. ok, i'm dropping this subject..

what else can i talk about? i have no more idea, so i guess that's it XD bye2 until next time..

EDIT 1:
ah i forget to mention.. i've also finished playing prof. layton and the unwound future game... i was so impatient to know the ending, so i didnt think much of the puzzle, and usually just go to the super hints button lol

and what can i say.. i cried at the ending... especially the part when layton starts to cry, my tears was already running on my cheeks lol gah i love that dang gentleman. seriously XD hershel layton, i declare u as one of my fav anime people from now on XD

and then, we finally got to see what's under layton's hat.. (and for some reason, now i am reminded of the naruto ep when they try to see kakashi's face lol)... ok, and then, i was also sad when luke cry coz he and the prof. hav to part ways..awww i wanna hug him >,<

ok, about the plot, i kinda expect they were really not in the future XD but of coz! XD the 2 previous game r the proofs XD nothing is what it seems XD and also i kinda guess future luke was the evil mastermind XD gah, oguri sounds so hot XD haha..

the secret to the 'future' london was really amazing too lol just like the secrets in the curious village n the diabolical box..

kya.. really love the kinda mystery in prof layton game.. cant wait for the next installment hehe

EDIT 2:
oh, besides that i also finish playing pokemon diamond hehe.. i defeated the elite 4 and the champion.. next, i want to play the heart gold version hehe..

So now i only havent finish apollo justice game... i am so slow i know lol i guess it's bcoz i dun really like apollo that much compare to phoenix.. eemm.. i think that's all.. until next time. (again).. haha..

bye..

Random talk session 185: Quick update

Hello diary! it's 24.1.2011, monday... 6:27am now... emm..

Ok, i am going for an interview this thursday. at bintulu for goodness sake!!!!!!!!!! i feel so lazy to go la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i just sleep, play game, and browsing the internet forever??? i am so lazy to work and even lazier to go for any interview.. that is what i've been thinking recently..

ok, another news, i finally finish playing ace attorney investigation miles edgeworth... i downloaded the ROM last year LOL took almost a year to finish the whole game.. and i havent even finish Apollo Justice which i downloaded even earlier LOL

and now i am playing pokemon diamond & prof. layton unwound future...

ok, that's all.. i so lazy to update anything...

bye..

Random talk session 184: 1st post of the year 2011

hello diary! (2am) today is 11/1/2011. Tuesday..

ah, i am really dun have any mood to blog recently.. i mean, it's already 2011 now.. i dun even have a new year blog post. actually, even now i am still not in the mood to blog... i am just gonna do the regular meme post.. thingy..

--Meme on the year 2010--

Meme for this year:

What fandoms did you acquire in 2010?

DAVID ARCHULETA!!!! XDD

I also watched more american series LOL Before this, i already watched and love CSI. House, Heroes and Supernatural. Now, i am adding Dexter and Merlin into the list XD I specially love Dexter XD The series is really.. dramatic and so emotional XD there is so many times when i feel sympathized towards Dexter,, even-though he's a serial killer...

Also, Durarara!! is my fav anime in 2010 XD Read more about it on the question below..

What fandoms did you let go of in 2010?
another year of not watching any bleach or naruto ep LOL and now, even Reborn is having the same fate...i still watch Hetalia though XD haha and then as usual. some people that i obsessed of and love in 2009, for some reason, i dun feel the magic anymore.. but i still like them nonetheless..

i had a sudden fandom hiatus (anime, news and seiyuu) when i went for the GEMS program... and there was also someone distracts me from my fandom LOL and then, Gintama ended on March, making me grows more distance from the anime fandom.. it was until i watched Durarara!! (sometimes around oktober/november?) that i begin to watch anime again XD

Found it, -THIS- is the entry i talk about durarara and how did i come to watch it XD

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2011?
............ i'm thinking of watching for american series XD But no specific fandom...

What fandoms do you think you might let go of in 2011 unless things significantly improve
LOL kinda bullseye to the question in 2010, i didnt care much about reborn nowadays... as for this year.. emmm... fandom that i might let go in 2011 ka...dunno.. maybe, Merlin? LOL i am looking forward what will be my respond next year XD

What fandoms do you think you'll never let go of no matter how crappy they get? Why?
NEWS and the whole anime fandom..maybe?? though, i have to admit, i dun have that passion like before (then again, what is my passion now really?? seems like nothing seems to satisfied me anymore... *sigh*

What show impressed you most in 2010?
Durarara!! and Dexter? LOL they both start wit the letter 'D' XD

What show impressed you least in 2010?
Supernatural. I was rather disappointed at season 6...

end!!! :)