Random talk session 296: 2017 is almost over..

hello diary! today is 30/12/2017

quite a long time huh.. well, i was quite busy with my tumblr lol.. the same thing that happen in 2015... when i was busy posting my seiyuu posts on tumblr, i didnt write much here in blogspot..

anyway... ermm.. i seriously dunno what to write.. oh,  maybe i'll talk about ryuto a bit.. since it was his birthday 2 days ago.. ryuto is 25~ aww... this crazy muscle man is 25.. congrats ryuto... i love him so much now.. even more than alan maybe? that is why i will never say my bias, coz it will definitely change lol.. but i m not saying ryuto is my bias now of course.. i dont hav ultimate bias anyway.. i can say, these 2 are my top 2 though.. at the beginning, i admit, i am more into alan, but now, i feel like the feels is more towards ryuto lol shhhhssshh dont let the tumblr people know of this! lol 

anyway.. yeah, ryuto.. i guess, bcoz of his family history, i admit i kinda hav soft spot for him lol... i dunno why i tend to be savage to people i like now lol.. must be influence from the internet.. but not (much) to ryuto lol... he can be so crazy at times, and i only can facepalm at his antics lol

ermm.. what else? lol.. 

ermm... oh yeah.. gene dome tour!! ahhh.. i m happy for them, but i wish for a world tour more!! i want to see them more closer!! i will go to the dome tour too as well, but i just want to see them more closer, and dome is too far!! ahhh.. i m still hoping though.. even if it's only 4 or 5 shows, please make it happen hiro-san!!! i love gene so much!!! i havent felt this way, since news.. aiiihh..

ok that is all for today? this is gonna be the last entry of this year!! good bye 2017 hello 2018~ please be good to me!! 

this is one of the first gene pics i saw:

and my impression, i still vividly remembers that "dislike" feeling i had lol.. i was like, "what a bunch of bratty kids" lol and i was like "*shaking my head* NO". and look at me now. like, how did this happened???? 

but still, when i first heard of their world tour, i was like, seriously, thinking about to go to their live, just to check thm out! like, for real, i really did think of buying the tickets! but after a while, my "dislike" kinda took over (coz i was more into sandaime at that time) lol and i was like, "not worth my money" lol... 

ok..bye for real now!! bye2 2017!! 

Random talk session 295: Gene 5th anniversary

Hello diary! today is 21st November! it is a tuesday!

Apparently today is Gene's 5th anniversary.. 5 years huh. That is quite some time. And i have been a fan for only, like 5 months ago? To be honest, i never really got catch up to all the 5 years stuffs..i was looking at tumblr, and there were some gene blog before. But they kinda not active anymore now. While browsing those blogs, at one point, i got so overwhelmed, and had to put my phone down, and i just close my eyes (laying on the bed). There was a sting in my heart. i was on the urge of crying. All those times that i missed. i…. was sad, that i wasnt part of it.. 

erm, i guess i can add more of my life regrets. Why didnt i know them earlier? What did i do these 5 years?? Sure, i got into some fandom, but still.. this happiness of knowing them.. i..

ok, to be honest, they are not the first jpop group that i was obsessed with. But then, over time, i kinda got bored of idols and jpop. i m sick of them. i dun want to fangirl real people again. I was more of a anime person, and fangirling voice yes, it’s a thing years and years past… one day, i was like “ahhh i wanna watch a jdrama, been too long since i watch one” “oh, what about that one show that clamp once drew" and that how i started to watch high and low, and got interest in exile tribe. Long story short, i watched casino exile and saw alan.. and since i need more alan, i went to check his group and here i am now. 

all my time and money is for thm.. in exchange, they made my life better now.. when i was busy working, get irritated at all the works piling up, i’ll just think of them, and suddenly the world is better. When i feel so lazy to work in the mornings, i just think of them, and i get my energy for the day

this may seems like a exaggerations, but i really really love these people so much.. my life was more colorful now that i know of them.. 

i wanna see them..  i miss them so much.. 

ok that is all for today... 

Random talk session 294

hello diary.. today us 30 october 2017... it's almost november.. how time flies..

anyway... october, nothing much. work tiring as usual, but this month extra tire, coz 2 plants were running..  had too checked sample from 2 plants, so double the work.. so tired!! thank goodness, one plant has shut down, so back to normal.. erm... wat else in life?? nothing much.. only fandom matters now... and at tis moment it is generations.. i m so obsessed now..

i pre-order their calender... i mean, a calender that cost rm100++ i mean, even i feel it's ridiculous. but i still buy them anyway.. not to mention, i m buying from proxy, so yeah, more money spend... last time i bought their tour shirt, cost me almost 2 times of the shirt original price.

alan's also releasing his first photo album this november.. of course, i m buying lol damn tis guy.. ok, let's talk bias.. my fav in gene is alan, ryuto and reo. And then there's the anomaly, hayato, the bias wrecker lol alan is my ultimate, but sometimes, when i watched their live, i think i m more drawn into ryuto, coz damn his voice!!!! nghhhhh!!!!!!!!!! like just yesterday, i was watching big city rodeo live performance, ahh ryuto.. ryuto.. ryutoo.. my heart was crying for him!! actually the past days,i feel like i m more into ryuto than alan lol it got me thinking, like who is exactly my no.1 bias???? damn maybe i m favoring alan coz he is the one that got me hooked into the group, so yeah.. i also dunno.. and then there's reo. damn dont get me start on this brat. i'll die for him, i'll even kill ryuto or alan for him lol reo must be protected at all cost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol see how complicated my bias list is???? lol ahh i dun want to think about it... all i kno they make me happy.. if only i known them sooner... i love them so much..

ok, i wanna talk about otp lol... it is actually alan x hayato.. they are too cute!!! when i first get into the fandom, i kinda notice fans tend to ship these 2.. at first, i was like "eh, why??" i dont understand it at all lol but after watching more genekou and reading some trivia on generations, i finally understand lol.. hayato really adores and respect alan so much, even though alan can be quite unreliable at times lol while alan, he tends to rely on hayato very much, especially when it comes to become the mc of the group.. in the past, the always went to eat together, but in the recent years, not anymore, i guess alan got kinda popular, wit his movies and dramas.. so there was not much free time for them to hang out, just the 2 of them i  mean (they often goes out together as a group though).. but yeah.. hayato x alan for life lol .. oh btw the ship name is hayalan lol what a weird ship name.. japanese fans called them komohama though lol erm, yeah.. hayalan is a cute otp. i really cant wit them.. check out my hayalan tags on tumblr

erm, i think that is all for today?? until next month lol... really, i dunno wat to write here anymore now..

bye~

Random talk session 293

hello diary! today is 20/9/2017... Wednesday..  about 1 hour need to go to work ugh i feel so lazy

anyway.. so yeah... i still like gene? lol like, seriously, how did i come to like these guys.. i am still questioning myself on this.. if there is one thng i m really tired of it is freakin jpop and idols.. like, i can like them casually, and all, but i nvr thought i would get overly obsessed with idols ever again after news.

there is no one else to blame, but freakin shirahama alan guy hiiieeee how did he managed to break this wall in my heart??????  since i wanna see more of him, i had to watch his group too lol damn it gene.. i m too old for them too... one thing i can say about gene is, they are really crazy brats lol... they are kinda similar to kanjani?? becoz of the craziness?? lol but i nvr even interested in kanjani back in the days...  so, it is def not their crazy antique that got me to like them.. what about music then? nothing special also.. ryota sounds like tegoshi to me, for some reason lol.. only ryuto is somewhat sumthing fresh to me. i really like the tone of his speaking voice...

damn.. why do i like gene??? it is not their crazy antique, nor their music or their style??? they just has this charm??? and i am strangely attracted to them?? it is surely one of the mystery of my life..

i guess i m thankful for them, coz my life seems to be colorful again after i get to know them.. real life has been so hard to me last year and beginning of 2017..

i think that is all for today..

Random talk session 292: MAD CYCLONE TOUR

hello diary! today is 11/8/2017

lmao, here is my delayed reaction post.. ok,, so yeah i went to saitama for the gene's mad cyclone live tour... it was so good!! and i miss them ever since!! T.T

anyway.. yeah, i went to the 3rd august and 5th august shows. i think i shud do mini report, but i really dunno how lol my seats were so so. not that good, neither it was bad. it was on the 200 level. but i wish i had an arena seats though. it was really close, coz it was a center stage layout! both of my seats are abt the same..

when i first arrived in saitama, i was kinda lost lol i dun hav internet!! lol thank goodness, i was able to find my hotel in the end.. damn i thought i was done for lol i arrived there at about 3pm, and fangirls were already roaming the place lol so, i checked in at the hotel, and went down to saitama super arena at about 5pm. the road from the hotel to the arena was connected, i m so glad i booked that hotel!! it was a breezed..  and then, 2nd wall lol.. i dunno where the ticket exchange place lol the staffs also dunno english, so it was kinda hard to communicate.. but again, at last, someone who knew about the ticket exchange place appear, lol and i got my ticket. this is why i hate going places, i m always lost and dunno what to do... but went anyway, all bcoz i love gene too much.. sometimes i hate my obsessed self... it contradicts my personality..  i hate travelling so much i feels wanna puke when i m at a new place. 

erm..so yeah.. i went to the arena.. it was kinda, smaller than i thought lol dun get me wrong, it's big, just not as big as imagine lol so.. i waited for the show to start omg i cant wait to see my boys!! my heart was pounding all the time i was waiting.. until, finally, the theme song playing (mad cyclone) and the screen board thingy (i dunno how to call tis lol) lifted up!! AND THERE THEY WERE!!! MY BOYS!!! I WAS LOOKING AT THEM SO HARD THEY WERE SO SURREAL I FELT LIKE I WAS WATCHING A 3D OR SOMETHING AND OF COURSE I WAS TRYING TO FIND MY DEAR ALAN AND I SAW HIM AND HE LOOKED MAJESTIC AND BEAUTIFUL I JUST CANT AND THEN AFTER STARING AT ALAN FOR SOME TIME I ALSO WANT TO SEE RYUTO AND REO AND I SAW AND DAMNNNNN RYUTOOOOOOOO REOOOOOO I CANT CONTAINED MY FEELINGS ALSO HAYATO LOL RYOTA LOOK SO TALL LOL MANDY AND YUTA LOOK THE SAME AS ON TV LOL OF COURSE 

also, seeing them dancing live, is really different from seeing them on tv.. so, i didnt really look at the screen. i watch them on dvd later anyway lol so yeah, i was mostly focusing on alan, reo and ryuto on the first day lol only when they are not on my side, i'd watch the screen. on the 2nd day, i think i almost never look at the screen.. i got really frustrated when ryuto and alan are both on my side lol like, WHO DO I LOOK AT???? LIKE I WANT TO LOOK AT ALAN BUT RYUTOOO DAMNNNN BUT OF COURSE ALAN WINS DAMN ALAN I WANNA SEE RYUTO TOO LOL ESPECIALLY DURING MAKE YOU MINE LIKE OMG QUOATING MY FACEBOOK STATUS: RYUTO WAS SO HOT BUT ALAN WAS FREAKIN LAVA!!! HE FREAKIN TOOK HIS SHIRT OFF I WAS LIKE "OH MY GOD" I REALLY SAID IT OUT LOUD OMG MAKE YOU MINE PERFORMANCE WAS SO GOOD I CANT WAIT TO WATCH IT ON DVD 

erm..what else.. oh, also, on the 1st day (3rd august) they celebrate alan's birthday lol it was kinda funny...actually.. they brought him a slice of cake lol (yup, it was really, just a slice lol) then alan eats the whole cake, and he got some on his mouth. freakin ryuto then be like, take some of the cake on alan's mouth and then he licks his finger lol indirect kiss lololol omg dun ruined my ship ryuto dont just dont. also, after that, ryuto give alan protein lololol ryuto pls alan is not like u lol also, they throw alan to the air for 24 times lol (coz it was alan's 24th birthday) on the 15th and above they were already getting tired lol i was worry they drop alan or sumthing lol... after it was finally the 24 count, hayato said, "everybody's count was incredible, if it wasnt for that, we would just stop at 4 actually" lolololol 

also, omg there was this mini pic skit.. wit all the ships!! i dun want to repeat myself, but here is the report on tumblr. MAN I M SO SAD NOT MUCH HAYALAN MOMENTS DURING THE 2 DAYS SHOW I WENT  TO...OK THERE WAS ONE, ON THE 1ST DAY BUT KINDA NOT REALLY?? I THINK?? LOL during ageha, i saw hayato was running, trying to catch up to alan, but alan kinda stops abruptly, so hayato kinda crash onto him, they fell to the ground!! it was kinda dangerous!!! forget hayalan, i was more concern of injuring themselves lol anyway, that is about all the hayalan moment i saw T.T i m so sad!!!! 

erm.... what else to say?? i am really not good wit concert report lol

so i guess tat's it for today???

bye!!

PS: WORLD TOUR PLS

Random talk session 291: GENE HAS BECOME MY LIFE

HELLO diary...sorry for caps lock lol.. anyway, today is 13/7/2017.. it is 1.19am.. today is thursday..

as usual, wanna talk about my fandom.. my life is totally all bout generations now.. i m so obsessed!! i even bought tickets to their mad cyclone tour.. i m going in less than a month lol when i first find out about the tour (somewhere in may), i was actually thinking of going, but cancel eventually coz ticket is really hard to get anyway, so i was only aiming for a world tour next year. but then, suddenly, they make available a general ticket for international fans!! and i was like, omg!!!! what's more, they announced it late june.. , and after much thought (as if!! lol) i decided to buy tix for the august shows!! only a month for preparation!! lol i m so freakin scare!! like no kidding!! i hate travelling!!! oh, why didnt i buy the nov or dec show then??? of course, at first, i was like, ermm... which prefecture shud i go lol.. it is a good chance to visit other places in japan anyway, i was thinking of going to osaka or mie (hayato's hometown!! haha) but then i remember alan's birthday is on august 4th lololol and i was like, omg surely thy are gonna celebrate him!! i need to see it live!! lol so, yeah, i decided to buy the shows in august, which is in saitama lol.. sadly, only a month to prepare everything!! flight tickets are expensive as hell!! also, hotels near the venue are all book out!! like omg!! i havent book accommodation.. ughh i m just still confused ok!! ughhh i m going crazy to be honest... all for these guys!! damn it!! i hate being a fan with money lol now that i have money of my own, i m spending it like water, just to freakin see these people live lol.. anyway... oh yeah, i wanna talk about the days before i was this obsessed with them lol

so, yeah, back in march, when i was watching high and low.. when i heard the song, "run this town" i thought it was very jpop lol it was catchy alright.... and then, i also downloaded high and low the live. but i only watch the performances of the theme songs from the show.. so, i watched run this town performance.. with no emotions lol i dun hav much impression towards the group at all lol.. i dun even watch their other songs lol... one thing i remember from watching them, is one of them had dyed their hair all white lol and i was like, he looks funny.. lol.. that was one of first gene's perf that i watched lol...

fast forward again.. so yeah, after watching too much exile casino, i coincidentally heard the song never let you go from one of the episode.. at first, i was only listening to the song (i downloaded the mp3) but i kinda got curious of the music video (I SWEAR THIS WAS THE TURNING POINT) so i i went to youtube and watched it... AFTER THAT I KINDA REPEATED THE MV FOR LIKE THOUSAND OF TIMES AND SUDDENLY I M A CERTIFIED FANGIRL. DAMN I M SO WEAK. after that i also check their other pvs and yeah, tldr i am obsessed!! 

like, i dont watch any anime at all for the past 2 months.. and all i wanna do is watch gene and listen to their songs.. THEY ARE THE FIRST THING I THINK ABOUT EVERY TIME I WAKE UP AND BEFORE I WENT TO SLEEP. WHEN  I WAS FEELING SLEEPY AND COULDNT WOKE UP, I WENT TO CHECK INSTAGRAM/TWITTER TO SEE IF THERE ARE ANYTHING NEW ON THEM WHEN I AM SO FREAKIN TIRED WORKING I'D THINK OF THEM THIS IS ALL FOR THEM I M WORKING TO EARN MONEY TO BUY THEIR STUFFS AND GO TO THEIR LIVE LIKE I M NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING HERE THEY ARE ON MY MIND 24/7 

I M SO OBSESSED!!

BYE

Random talk session 290: fandom life

hello diary... today is 12/6/2017

erm, i wrote this post. like a week or something ago lol but i hav no proper internet, so i didnt post it.. so here it is..

Part 1:

The time that i really become a fangirl, was, actually during 2007 lol that was 10 years ago. It started after i watched nobuta no produce. I was strangely attracted to the character called akira lol and of course,i had to search him on the internet. And that was how i become a news fangirl. Omg i was such a devoted fangirl, for like, 3 years i think. After that, i guess i got kinda bore coz thy like dont hav any activities for so long. And then 2011, my fandom life not so much, coz i started working.

Phase 2, year 2012. Curious of the catchy song i heard from the radio, i went to YouTube. And boom, i m suddenly a Directioner lmao. Yes, one direction. I was a full blown fangirl again, i bought magazines that hav their posters lmao

Phase 3, i think 2014? I was watchin anime again, and kinda miss the seiyuu fandom. I was in the seiyuu fandom from 2008 but not in the hardcore way lmao .. So.. Yeah.. Gradually losing feels as a Directioner, i become a seiyuu fan again.. Shimono hiro, nakamura yuuichi, those were my bias lmao, but then i watched maji love live, and saw how cute suzu was.. And, suddenly i become a full fledged suzu fan lmao i was a fan to the point that i was willing to travel abroad to catch him live. If it wasn’t for my intense fangirl feelings, there was no way i would travel coz i really hate going to new places.. After that, i kinda focus on seiyuu only.. Until.. One day..

Phase 4.. This year, 2017. There was this meme i would do every year, and every year i be like, “i m too old for fandom, i m not falling for any fandom again damn it” and then.. I just have to watch high and low drama. Gun-chan, sandaime, omigun. To be honest, i am really, really, really tired of jpop idols lmao i was a seiyuu fangirls. I was enthralled by voices. More over, my biases are 40 years and above lmao. With that kinda mind set, i still manage to get suck in to a new (idol) fandom. That was like 3 months ago. I gave the sandaime fandom a month lmao kinda bull eye on that, bcoz of their lack of activities i kinda lost interest in them too. Until… Freakin generations. Like, curse my life. Why. Why. Why. I hate myself for feeling this way. They are kinda very active nowadays, so they fuel my fandom engine lmao i m so obsessed now like seriously.. I can even say i like them better than sandaime? (even though i say i m more of a sandaime fan)
Ok, that was a little history on my fandom. But actually tat was not the thing i wanted to talk about when i start this post lmao.

part 2:

Insignificant
All of the exile tribe members actually (except the high and low casts) lol
After finishing high and low, of course i had to watch all the promotions and interviews. And, the music.video, specifically, higher ground pv. since i was still a noob, only the characters from high and low were matter to me lmao. Also, when i watch shabekuri 007, to me, alan was only known as the person that look at the mirror 100 times a day, and also the person that kept tidy gun’s shoes lmao 

i think he kinda looks weird? Lmao no wonder, he was actually half Filipino. He got a very distinctive feature.. And that jawline 😱. And as for reo, the bratty kid that gun has known since he(reo) was 10 years old..

My first impression, he looks so much like korean.. The same thing i thought watching him in the drama and the higher ground pv

but now he has become such important thing in my life T.T i love him so much.. i want him to be my son.. not husband, not lover, not boyfriend. i want him as my son. bcoz a parents love is much more, how to say, more value?? love towards your family is eternal. i believe in that.. that is why i want him to be my son lol.. my current bias is actually alan, but he is someone i enjoy to fangirl at lol i feel like i m not  making any sense lol but yeah.. lol

i think that is all for today! bye bye~

Random talk session 289: alan...

hello diary.. today is 13/5/2017, saturday..

ok..today i wanna talk about tis guy called, shirahama alan.. 

like... my head is fill wit him these few days lol.. 

and it got me thinking, like, when did he managed to sneak into my heart??? like seriously?? last month, i was into 3jsb, erm, omi and gun especially. i was so obsessed wit omigun lol i was looking at their pic and vids.. so, how did alan came in the picture?? 

but like i said in the previous post, i think maybe it is when he did the candle challenge. he was so cute there lol.. but then again, or maybe it was the miracle shot challenge lol i seriously dun remember.. after that i remember i saw his ghost taxi prank too lol i wanna hug him seeing him so scare lol and then, i became to like him so much, i even watch sugarless... 

erm, but seriously though, he freakin manage to sneak in my heart, i am really amazed by that lol this wall,, in my heart, it was supposed to be for omigun only.. these 2, and also, 3jsb as a group. but alan somehow manage to break that wall, and went for my heart. and i fall in love lol

he has such a endearing laughs too lololol 

omigun & 3jsb has no activity at all nowadays, so my feels are for alan and generations now lol

ok, i m kinda sleepy now, cant really think straight lol guess that is all for today...

until next time, bye!

Random talk session 288: sugarless and one declaration..

hello diary. today is 9/5/2017 it's tuesday

so, yeah, i watched sugarless, like a week ago, or so? and i feel like i need to write my comment on it lol erm, yeah, as expected, the drama is kinda, bad and cringey lol it is just not that good.. i was only watching it for alan the casts lolol 

but, the humor is, good. some of the scene made me really laugh out loud lol.. and, also, even though it is a story about high school delinquents, the most word come out of my mouth was "CUTE" 

also, me "d'awwww" - ing cant count how many times  lolol i cant help it at all lol alan so cute!! taiki so cute!! and especially sanoo guuuguuuguuu i wanna pinch his cheeks and hug him and kiss his nose!! lol he's such a precious little angel!!! 

i didnt recognize taiki at first in the drama lol... only when he speaks, i was like, "ehh??? wait.. that voice... taiki???" lol and after he have more spoken lines, i was already convince, it was really him lol he looks so thin in the drama lol and, i think he was 16 in the drama? awww~~ i wanna pinch his thin cheeks lol sano was also, like 16 too lol i feel like a pedophile watching the drama lololol

and, one thing to comment, i never skip the opening song lolol thank you god of fanservice lol also, thanks to that, i also got addicted to the song, brave it out by generations. and ugh even though i said i wanna avoid watching their pvs, i still went to check out brave it out pv. and damn, it just made me like them even more ughhh damn it!!!!!!!!!! and damn, the pv is really good!!! i dunno, i feel like generations kinda hav better (fun to watch) choreo than sandaime???

 i think i need to say it now... i need to declare it here. i finally gave in today. 9/5/2017. i am officially generations fan. i am gradually checking out their vids now lol.. damn i m seriously so weak!! 

ok, i think that is all for today. bye~

Random talk session 287: ugh i m so weak

hello diary. today is 3/5/2017/ (wed)

so............... i am currently watching generations' music video. never let you go. damn catchy song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have been repeating it from yesterday.. at first, i was only listening to the song, but then i just had to get curious of the music video, so i went to utube and watched it..and what a wrong move that was. WHAT A WRONG MOVE. damn. watching it makes me crazy coz everyone is soo cute!!!!!!!!!!! i am so weak damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just kno i will fall for all those cutie pies ughhhhhh like seriously... 

it all started wit high&low.. my world started to change. life started to get cloudly..

and then, watching interview and stuffs, and for some reason, i started to fall in love wit gun..  and my world starts to crumble from that moment.. the earth cracked, my life is on the verge of falling,, 

so, i watched more of gun.. and watch his band.. and i found out about exile and it sub group. but sandaime though. omi though. omigun though. my world starts to fall, while spontaneous combustion right on the spot. my life is on freakin fire while falling to the fandom pit. sandaime why why why i want to die watching their live.. ugh should i start talking about them too??? ok i should. at first i was only gonna talk about generations, but nope. i want to talk about sandaime too. (even though i already talk about them in the previous post?????) ok, so yeah.. i watched more of their pvs and listen to more of their songs. to the point i finally able to distinguish omi's and ryuji's voice. omi though ughhh after gun, i just had to fall for this guy???  and also his relationship wit gun is so cute??? i feel like he spoils gun so much??? i feel the love so much?? lol but sadly, nowadays i feel like not much of omigun love. they are so busy wit individual works. is it bcoz they are getting more popular i guess??? back in the days, omigun would always hav a date of their own like going to disney sea and las vegas, just the 2 of them  it's so cute i wanna cry but now, as if thy dont interact at all.. it makes me so sad. erm, what else, oh yeah, about sandaime.. i become to like the grup so much, i want to watch their live too someday. when i found out abt them, i thought thy are just another regular jpop artist, and not as big as johnny's..... HOW WRONG WAS IT. they are quite popular actually and getting to their live is as bad and as hard as getting live to johnny's concert.. damn it!!!!!!!!! whyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! i was so upset.. whyyyy???? i wanna see them wit my own eyes. watching from the computer screen is not enough.. ughhh oh yeah, so, i was looking at sandaime's website to check their concert tour, i even considering to spend rm5000 for a front row seat.. lol considering ok lol i m not that rich ok. but still, it makes me so sad and mad.. why did i just had to fall for a popular grup!!! i hate popular grup coz their live is always impossible to get. anyway, yeah.. about their concert. they actually had one, a dome tour. starting from nov/dec 2016? i forgot,, also in jan and feb 2017.. and last one is gonna be in august. i think that august one was actually postpone?? i dunno wat happened though?? yeah, that was the live that i was considering to buy for rm5k lol but maybe i will not.. who knows.. i just hope this obsession will go away by the time lol but looks like it is not??? damn heart!!! ... ok, while looking for sandaime's live i also found out about generations' world tour. you kno, tat time, i was like, SO ANGRY at them lol like, WHY DID YOU GET A WORLD TOUR???? SANDAIME IS MORE POPULAR THAN YOU BRATS" i was seriously, resent them just for that reason lol everytime there is a vtr abt them in casino exile or any video related to sandaime, i would always skip their part lol THE HATE WAS SO REAL... but as they are in the same circle as sandaime, i nvr actually can avoid them... while hating the group, a flicker of light also appear deep down lol.. they are just too cute!!! i just kno i will like them too someday! that is also why i try to avoid their stuffs.. coz i hate them and i kno i will like them eventually!! my emotion is so complex lol ok.... so yeah.... 

generations. they are so young it breaks my heart lol i hate this feelings. ok.. so.. erm.. i think at first, i was actually attract to katanose ryota? when i was watching the higher ground pv... he looks so cute and damn a very sweet voice too. he is like gun, has that "perfect prince" image to him. but maybe bcoz i dont really watch much videos about him, i actually kinda forgot abt him?? lol... and currently, i m actually liking.. shirahama alan lololol omg.. and maybe kazuhara ryuto and komori hayato too. but mostly alan now. lol. of all people right??? lol i m trying to remember when is it i actually come to like this guy??? i think i saw him first in the race viceo, lol when gun still wit the wild type image lol tbh i thought he looks kinda weird?? lol he has a very define feature actually, and it is most probably coz he is half filipino lol how dreamy lol i also saw him wit the shabekuri feat the high&low casts (coz i was in high&low mood at tht time) dont really hav much impression towards of him at all.. i was busy fangirling gun looking so cute wit the hat lol i think the moment that i really got to like generations was after i watch the casino exile ep when they had to eat spicy food lololol that was so hilarious!! sano vs spicy food is so freakin cute lol i wanna form a #protectsanofromspicyfood squad after watching that video lololol also, as a seiyuu fan, i need to say this, i really, like sano and hayato's voice lol they got such a deep voice for a very cute lookin face lolol ... and then i watched more of casino videos, and of course, i watched ryuto's kendama challenge. he always succeed in doing the challenge!! amazing ryuto!! i just had to like him.. also, his talking voice ugh.. tamaranai desu yo!! lolol anwyay, yeah, and then, there's alan.. now i remember.. the moment that my heart got captured lol is.. when he was doing the blowin the candle challenge lol that face when he said "ikemasu??" lol i dont usually post pic in my rant, but here: 

his face so epic lol i wanna hug him everytime i see this cutie pie now lol dammmmmm so much feels!!!! i cant handle it ugh ugh ugh guh guh guh ugh ugh 

so, yeah,,, em.. i dunno what else to write anymore lol gudbye until next time~

Random talk 286: obsession talk, (gun-chan, omi, takahiro, keiji)

hello diary. today is 11th april 2017

so, i m still in 3jsb mood lol omi and gunchan especially.. so, i wanna talk about them, before this feeling goes away in a few months? lol so short? i really hope i will get over this obsession quickly, coz i really cant handle this intense feelin. 

anyway, firstly, i wanna talk about iwata takanori aka gun-chan. like i said in the previous post, i saw him in high & low drama, and didnt feel a thing for him lol i guess his character, cobra is cool and all, but i didnt feel him at all lol... i even like chiharu more among the sannoh rengokai group lol  also, one thing about him, his voice was too low,, i was like, "dude, why are your voice so low??? pls talk normally i kno u dun sounds like that in real life" lol i cant seem to like him at all even after watching season 2 and the movie. it was only after i watch high & low interviews/promotion and watch him not being cobra, i begun to like him. he looks so freakin good wit black hair and damn he got a clean and fresh face too lol and he's such a good dancer, and that was when i fell in love lol damn tis guy manage to capture my heart! i mean, to be honest i really dun want to get obsessed on any idol anymore. it is so exhausting and ughhh being a fangirl is so tiring ok. anime character is the only exception.i dun mind fangirling an anime character, but when it is a real person, i will always hav this feeling of want to see them wit my own eyes! i want to scream my hearts out at him!! he makes me happy, and yet he makes me sad. you feel me?? i hate him for making me feel this way. aiii i m so hopeless..  so, i wanted to watch more of him, so i check out his group, called the sandaime j soul brothers. and then. i just hav to freakin like his bandmate, tosaka hiroomi. omi, 

yes, next, omi. i dun even remember when i begun to like him?? i think becoz he was always in the videos i were watching for gun-chan?? i think?? i dunno, i feel like that is not the reason? lol i dun remember..  for my first encounter, also in high&low series, he is hiroto, one of the amamiya brothers. i remember my first impression of that character though lol like, i dislike him. lol hate is such a strong word to use lol anyway yeah, i dun like him the very first time  he appeared. why? becoz he looks so much like a kpop star lol i was like, reading the comments, and people are like, "wow hiroto is so handsome!!!" and i was like "seriously people??? what so good about him?? i bet people only like him just bcoz he looks like a kpop star" lol i dont get his popularity at all.. even after watching few of j soul brothers videos i was like.. erm.. no. i think i actually like him after watching videos of him wit takahiro?? i think i like takahiro first before him lol so, i was like, erm, this guy (takahiro) is cute, i might as well watch more videos of him.. and coincidentally, omi also appears a lot with him.. ? i think after watching him in videos wit gun-chan and takahiro, my heart slowly opens for him too lolol especially now that i can hear his singing voice i m like ughhh i want to die!!! ughhh omiiii why u so cute and handsome!!! lol like seriously, i feel like i like tis guy more than gun-chan now lol omg 

ok next..  for the rest of the member, elly, naoto, naoki, kenjirou and ryuji. i m still not feeling them lol coz my head is kinda fill wit omi and gun-chan right now lol anyway, i can say ryuji is on his way actually lol.. one thing i need to say, about ryuji, damn, i really like his voice, and i mean, speaking voice, not his singing voice. i m saying this, as a seiyuu fan. i have a thing with "voice" ok,  and damn, i need to say this again, i really love ryuji's speaking voice!! i love gun-chan and omi. but their voice is something i consider, normal,just the usual, like nothing special. but ryuji. even before knowing him, i was like, "what is wit that voice...wow" he shud do voice acting job in the future lol i dont think he will though lol erm, also others... elly.. he's a very creative person, he choreograph most of the dance that i really like.. and then naoto.. i swear he kinda remind me of someone but i will nvr figure out who lol this guy, i m gonna talk a little bit about him in later section lol then, naoki, haha, the tall yakuza look alike, even though he has a very intimidating face, he is really a kind person,, i can tell. and then kenjirou. the kansai person lol.. the talkative, funny guy of the group. erm that is all for sandaime members. next, takahiro.

takahiro. not much i can say, i think he is a very handsome guy haha.. and kinda perverted too lol but he is also a fun guy to watch. and that dimple ughhh i feel so attacked every time he smile haha.. he is masaki, one of the amamiya brothers in high&low. he was one of my fav character, so i hav to like the actor as well lol.. also i nvr even notice he has a dimple until i watched the very cute anime special drawn by clamp. i take notice of him more after i knew that fact lol this guy is also on the way into my heart lol.. but my heart is now for gun-chan and omi lol.. i wonder who is gonna barge in next lol... 

ok, i am also kinda staring at the generations boys like omg.. i m soo weak. thy are soo cute. i think someday i m gonna let these people in my heart too one day.. but i m tying not too lol i m avoiding all their videos now, coz once i do, i just k now, i m gonna obsessed over them too..

next.. so, like i said, on my way feeding my obsession, i watched quite a few of youtube videos related to exile/omi/gun-chan/takahiro..  like,, that one nite, i watched utube for 6 hours straight omg my eyes,, at first, i watched most of gun-chan.. then some sandaime stuffs.. and now, i think i m watching more videos related to exile tribe..  oh, also, there was this video, mechaike vs exile tribe and that is when, i begun to like, this guy called, "keiji" lol  omg tis guy.. why am i attracted to him?? lol he manage to slip in my heart a little bit lol.. but i m still holding the fort lol i think? lol he is definitely there lol.. i was watching that mechaike vs exile tribe, when he was participating in the nanpa game, which he lost anyway lol he was so bad at nanpa, but that makes him so endearing. lol i also watch him in more videos, and damn, the guy is really cute!! he is like 36 years old (tis year) but i just wanna pat him and hug him and spoil him like a kid lol he's so cuteee!! i wanna squeezee his face lololol anyway, as usual, i saw him 1st in the high&low series, as rocky, the boss leader of white rascal. ok, another character that i kinda dislike lol.. their theme song is too kpop like, i m always triggered when they appeared lol but in an ep, there was a kakkoi side of him too.i still cant stand their theme song though lol.. anyway, ok, keiji, ok..erm.. so, back to the nanpa episode. he fail lol so, takahiro had naoto to be his wing man lol naoto did a better job lol but i feel like shipping these two after i watched that episode lolol so, coz i kinda ran out of gun-chan's and omi's video to watch on youtube, i begun to watch more videos on the old exile, (before sandaime era) wow, i really like their chemistry actually? i think they got it better than sandaime?? anyhow, i just need to comment on naoto's style back then lol it was.. so weird? lol it is the facial hair actually. ok, who am i to say this, gun-chan's transformation is even greater than naoto. he was more buff back then, and wit more facial hair lol he is now doing the "prince" image wit the clean look lol and i dig that damnnnnn why am i like this *punch the wall* aiiiihhhh ok, also i think i m beginning to feel for this guy name "shokichi" too lol omg send help pls i m feeling.. lolol

erm, looks like the essay is getting to long lol actually i wanted to talk about sandaime's song too, but maybe another time lol this post is already long enough lol

jaa~~ until next time!!

Random talk session 285: omg new obsession..

hello diary!! today is 26th of march. it's sunday. like the title says, yes, i hav a new obsession. it started almost a few days already, but finally got time to write it here lol

and.. it's iwata takanori and his band j soul brothers i guess? lol damn..  at one time i almost die from hyperventilation watching the band's music video lol 

anyway, i wanted to write how did i come across this guy lol

so, a few months ago, i saw this article, about clamp drawing the characters from a drama called high and low. for some reason, i dunno why, but i like got interested.. ok, actually, it's bcoz the drawing was kinda cute lol so, i got curious, about tis show. so i went to watch the first episode. at first, omg the intro is so long and boring lol.. my first impression of this show, was it has the anime feel to it. like the way they handle the long ass boring intro prologue lol and the characters, they are very colorful. and the humor is A+. these are the 2 main reasons that i kept on watching, and actually finishing all 10 ep in a day lol (1 ep is like, only 25 min long lol anime much?) the serious part of the story is really boring to be honest. and also, very very cliche. for example, the 5 groups that don't get along. i just know they are gonna combine their strength in the later arc to fight a more powerful enemy. and that did happen. so anyway.. yeah, it was ok i guess. then i also proceed to the 2nd season, which also i finished watching in a day lol my eyes and then.. i also watch the movie.. after the movie, i was like. erm. feel empty? lol damn i guess no matter how cliche the story was, i was really entertain by it lol... so, i went to youtube and look for any extra stuff, like interviews and some stuffs lol.. and then, i also did some research on the show.. like, it was a project made by this group from "EXILE"? and i thought, "erm, exile? they are kinda familiar..." yup, i heard of them from anime or drama i cant remember lol i m not that familiar wit japan's pop artist lol so yeah, then i was like, wow. ok. and then i found out that most of the actors are from that group.. so i wanted to see this group, and look at their music video. at first i was like amused seeing the characters dancing and singing lol and i watch some more music video from the series itself.. and for some reason i was attracted to the actor who play as cobra. he was the perfomer in this exile tribe group, also, on his own group, j soul brothers.  i watch more videos related to the series...and then before i knew it, i was falling head over heals on the actor lol he looks really really good wit black hair. btw his name is iwata takanori lol and i watch more videos with him, and one thing about him. he is absolutely the perfect guy lol damn boy y u do this to me lol 

also, i think now i m kinda into hiroto's (amamiya) actor too.. lol i will fangirl over him another time. fangirling iwata is already exhausting enough lol

my other notes from watching the series:

- white rascal's theme song sounds too much like kpop, i m kinda triggered everytime i heard the song lol at one point i thought the leader (omg i forgot his name?? ice i think?? [edited:it was actually rocky] lol) was kakkoi. i was applauding at him while muttering "mvp, mvp, u r mvp tonite" lol

- murayama got the most character development dont fight me on this

- amamiya masaki is so funny lol while his little brother get all the cool scenes lol hiroto looks too much like a kpop star i m always triggered seeing him lol (but his actor is sooooo cute..)
- my fav character was actually murayama lol but i ended liking cobra's actor lol

i think that is all for today.. i wanna watch more gun-chan on youtube lol "gun-chan" is iwata's nickname lol

bye

Random talk session 284: it still hurts, meme, and initial d

hello diary..  it is the new year already. i wanted to abandon this blog completely. but alas, i cant..  too many memories i guess? even if there are the bad ones,,

i m still not over my crush.. i want to, but everything still reminds me of him.. tat is why i try to abandon this blog too, coz my feelings are still here.. i feel so stupid.. i wanna forget.. ughh i hate myself..

anyway.... the point is ths post is actually is the yearly meme.. so, yeah.. last year --> 2016 edition


What fandoms did you acquire in 2016?
 initial d lol and also, boykira the game.. as of date, i spend about rm700 on the game.. i am not even that good at that game.

also, i wanna tell the story of my initial d obsession lol.. i clearly remember, in the past, i was like, "initial d" that is the one anime tat i swear i will nvr watch coz the art is so ugly lolz but now.. it has become one of the best anime i watched! how did it started then? at first, i was kinda in a sekitomo mood, coz omg his voice ugh.. after tat, i was like, i wanna hear more of him.. after a certain recommendation, i went to watch initial d. and what do u kno, i actually like it. the anime is very cheesy actually, but the reason i love it that much, is actually the seiyuu. the 3 golden trio. miki shinichiro, seki tomokazu and koyasu takehito.. ah who am i kidding, these 3 are not just golden trio, they are like, the holy trinity. no  matter how much i love the newer seiyuu, they will nvr compare to these 3 oldies i wanna cry

What fandoms did you let go of in 2017?
none? i kinda getting bored of supernatural also lol 

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2016?
more seiyuu craze

highlights for 2016 is, that i finally went to japan. 

that is all i guess? i cant stay here too long..