Hello diary! today is 21st November! it is a tuesday!
Apparently today is Gene's 5th anniversary.. 5 years huh. That is quite some time. And i have been a fan for only, like 5 months ago? To be honest, i never really got catch up to all the 5 years stuffs..i was looking at tumblr, and there were some gene blog before. But they kinda not active anymore now. While browsing those blogs, at one point, i got so overwhelmed, and had to put my phone down, and i just close my eyes (laying on the bed). There was a sting in my heart. i was on the urge of crying. All those times that i missed. i…. was sad, that i wasnt part of it..
erm, i guess i can add more of my life regrets. Why didnt i know them earlier? What did i do these 5 years?? Sure, i got into some fandom, but still.. this happiness of knowing them.. i..
ok, to be honest, they are not the first jpop group that i was obsessed with. But then, over time, i kinda got bored of idols and jpop. i m sick of them. i dun want to fangirl real people again. I was more of a anime person, and fangirling voice yes, it’s a thing years and years past… one day, i was like “ahhh i wanna watch a jdrama, been too long since i watch one” “oh, what about that one show that clamp once drew" and that how i started to watch high and low, and got interest in exile tribe. Long story short, i watched casino exile and saw alan.. and since i need more alan, i went to check his group and here i am now.
all my time and money is for thm.. in exchange, they made my life better now.. when i was busy working, get irritated at all the works piling up, i’ll just think of them, and suddenly the world is better. When i feel so lazy to work in the mornings, i just think of them, and i get my energy for the day
this may seems like a exaggerations, but i really really love these people so much.. my life was more colorful now that i know of them..
i wanna see them.. i miss them so much..
ok that is all for today...
