Random talk session 141: Life in GEMS part 21

hello diary...today is 25/4/2010..it's sunday..

emm...lots of things happened the past week, but i am so lazy to update..i guess, the reason that i update so much before this was bcoz i want to say sumthing about the guy..but since i dun see him anymore, i really dont have the mood to update..

i am still sad..

so...

i dunno what to say...

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Random talk session 140: Life in GEMS part 20

hello diary! today is thursday, 15/4/2010.

wow, been 3 days since i updated...

emm...today is the 2nd day for the problem solving module...this module is ok..bcoz it doesnt involve interacting with people, but more on how to solve problems..

yesterday..was not so good day..for this week's speaker corner, we r doing impromtu speech..i, once again, cant control my emotion and starts to cry when i cant do the speech for speaker corner. i dun want to cry, but tears just keep on flowing!! i am so mad at myself!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID EMOTION!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's y i hate presenting..emm...

what else happened? .... emm...nothing much i guess... this week i do newsletter...lol, tu pun nk bgtau...

i still havent see the guy... it's more than a week now... maybe he quit being t he secretriat??? nooooo!!!!!!!!!!! i am so sad T_T he is the sunshine in my rainy day, he is the moon in the lonely nite, he is the joy in my sad GEMS life...T_T i hav the feeling that i wont be seeing him again...this is so freakin sad...

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edited on 5:34pm..
emm..the internet is so sllow..i cant attach the newsletter... ok, the real reason for this edit.

during the gathering of all the companies who r doing problem solving module, one of the secretriat took the pictures. that made me thinking...looks like he really isnt here anymore... T________T i mean, this job is usually done by him...

aiiii....

Random talk session 139: Life in GEMS part 19

hello diary! today is 12 april. it's monday. today starts the interpersonal comunication module. truthfully, i hate this module. but what can i do? i still must give my full attention and participate in the class. i just dun care anymore...whatever la... i still hate speakin in front... just doing this for the sake of the company...arggghh!!!!!!!!! i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..enough about that..

wanna tell the story of what happened this weekend. On friday, i go back to my hometown. in the morning, i go to our company..something not so good happened...it's like a express ur feeling session..what am i not satisfied with?? nothing. really nothing. if there is someone or something i am not satisfied with, it's just me. i hate myself for being so incompetent, for being so lack of knowledge and so not smart...ok, this is getting depressing, let's move to the next topic..

on saturday, i go to sri aman for the SPA test.. i dunno how to answer the questions.. esp the general knowledge part. and then the math test, i only manage to answer half of the questions. and then the essay..wow, i am only writing nonsense. even the penyelia peperiksaan said what i wrote is wrong...

and then on sunday, i go bcak to kuch..arrive at penview at about 1pm. and then later that evening, i suddenly received a phone call from my friend, and invite me to go to jalan2 and karaoke-ing. There was 5 of us. at first we went to Spring, but sadly, the place is full. so then we went to BDC. After that we went to eat at pizza hut. yum~ i have been wanting to eat pizza for a while..i still want to eat..hehe.. That night, we actually had briefing with Tn Haij, so we were really worried that we were gonna be late, thankfully we did make it on time..after thet briefing, we go out again...at first we want to go watch movie, but it was close. so we just went to water front and eat the donuts that we bought in spring earlier..we went home at about 1:30am..wow.. so late..hehe

ok, next topic...the cute guy!! omg i havent seen him for almost 1 week!! i wonder where he is!! where??? :0 i miss that darn guy so much!!!

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Random talk session 138: Life in GEMS part 18

hello diary~ today is 6/4/2010. it's tuesday. emm..today i present again..so many presentation..well, it is the presentation skills module...emm...i still dun like speaking.. maybe i've gain a little bit knowledge on presentation skills, but my speaking skill isnt improving...

emm...i m sad. i did some blunder...i am so bad in doing things... and what's more, i didnt see the guy today... when i'm sad, i miss him even more...aiiii...

dunno what else to write..

emm...ok...what abt this...this guy i am always stalking..i wonder how old he is...i thought he is 20 sumthing, maybe even older than me..but, most probably i'm wrong. i heard some rumor that he just finish his spm..that's means, he's 17 sumthing. omg and i have been liking this guy like crazy. i so dont want to be a pedophile!! haha..well..i guess, no matter what, i am still gonna gaze just a little bit longer at him..as he and his smile is the ease for my sad heart..

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Random talk session 137: Life in GEMS part 17

hello diary! today is 5/4/2010. it's monday...now is 1:13pm. i had just lunch and now at the lab com.

today we start a new module, which is presentation skills. oh, and also today is my 3rd speaker corner. the topic is "the most memorable moment in my life" i told the story about my PKN times. my speech this time, i guess a little better than the last time, but still very bad. i am just never gonna good speaker, as i really hate to speak and i totally hate people looking at me.

today, during lunch just now..i saw the guy XD ahhhhhh seriously i cant stand to c him bcoz he's sooooo cute!!!! geram tengok dia XDD he was taking the drinking water, and that time i also wanted to take the water. at first i just want to look at him from the back, but it would look too obvious if i just stand there. He went to take the glass, and then i took mine too. i smell the glass, and then he was like, smell his glass too. oh god he's sooooooooooooooo cute XDDD somebody kidnap him for me please!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDD

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Random talk session 136: Life in GEMS part 16

Hello diary..today is 3/4/2010, it's saturday..

emm, as usual, this week was a busy week, i didnt update my blog for days...

today was the english fair...i am so happy bcoz our company won the newscasting category. yay!! good job mellisa, norlida and mildred!!

2 days ago on 2/4/201o, i was really sad bcoz we were beaten at the semi final for debate... we also didnt get to the final for the sales presentation..but i still want to say good job to all the members..eventho we didnt win, we did try our best..

ok next...dun remember anymore..

about the guy.. today.. i saw him..and he was kinda close (maybe about 30 cm) kyaahhhhh...i am so happy XDDD i wanted to see him a little longer, but there were so many people, so i cant be to obvious...i want to c him again..aarrghhh..this feeling...i dun like it, but i also like it...so complex...

dunno what else to say...

oh..on thurday, i slept so late bcoz i was doing the newsletter...i slept at 3am...

what else...emm...dunno anymore..so..

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