Random talk session 164: me in the web

Hello diary! it's 31.10.10. Sunday..

happy halloween day! em, today, there was a cosplay competition at the hills. it was rather amusing lol i love the judge who cosplayed wolfwood haha XDD he's kinda good looking mah hahahaha

......ok, as usual.... i think i can forget him now? can i? i want to forget really bad! but, this is one of the time that i think i am starting to forget him. i guess it's thanks to david XD

dunno what else to write.. that's all...bye..

edit: i am not satisfied that this post was too short, so i am editing.. hehe..

i have many site/account in the web, so this is me, listing it down, for fun lol:

1. of coz, this blogspot. was originally called unknownsolution.blogspot,com, but i changed it since my fren found out about it.. this is the place where i write about my life. it started as my 2nd fandom blog, where i write about seiyuu and anime, but gradually i started to write more about myself.

2. my multiply site. unknownsolution.multiply.com. yeah, u can see, i really love the phrase 'unknown solution' haha.. where i write about my fandom, esp NEWS. but nowadays, i rarely write there. it's kinda sad. i used to love NEWS like crazy! my posts there has come to more than 200 (i was really obssessed!).

3. my twitter. i think u can guess my url haha yup, it's unknownsolution again.. nothing much there. i just created it to support my fandom..hehe..

4. my facebook. the only thing that i keep locked from public lol

5. youtube channel. also unknownsolution. actually that's my second account. my 1st one was deleted. argh, so mad! well, what can i do.. haha...

6. almost forget. my another blog. livejournal. which is basically dead. lol just using it to view various community and to comment on them..

i think that's all? is there more? emm... nope, dun think so.

Random talk session 163: kataomoi chiisana koi

hello diary. it's 29.10.10. friday.

writing from the office. at lunch hour. so, hmm. today i feel sick to my stomach. when? after i got a called from him. i feel like throwing up when i think of him. he make me sick! i obviously hate him *roll eyes* and, i just had to say this sumthing. he called me the 2nd time, and it was really awkward. especially the ending, i dunno if he hung up or not, bcoz i can hear it's not. the sound is like he's waiting for me to hung up or maybe he thought he already hung up. seriously, it was really awkward!

well, i think that's all for today...bye..

Random talk session 162: kimi ni mune kyun

hello diary.. it's 28/10/10. thursday nite...

hmm, i ve been updating almost everyday lol if u look at the archieve, there was a time when i didnt write for 2 months or so (june and july). i realize sumthing. same thing happened before. seems like i write more when watashi ga koi ni ochiru haha more like kata omoi though haha.. ahh.. moshi ga koi wa konnani suteki nara...

lol dang it, now i have to write in broken japanese so that nobody understand if any of my friends found my blog again lol

but anyway, aii.. actually now i feel like i wanna throw up when aitsu ga omoidasu.. argh..

ok. i think i should write the iro iro no koto when ano hito wo iru..

1. neko! lol there was this time, there was suddenly a cat jumps onto him lol kawaii deshita yo!

2. gin iro no kuruma i seriously need to get this out of my system, like seriously!

3. i drank too much, but i was too embarrass to tell that i wanted to go to the toilet, so i held it. i even drank some more lol but in the end i had to borrow one of the participants toilet lol ok, fast forward to time, then it was his turn to want to got to toilet lol it was kinda funny, bcoz i remembered he was also feeling sleepy.. lol i have a thing when watashi no kata omoi wined lol argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh there it is again, that feeling!!! the butterfly in my stomach T-T

when i started to list them, seems like the memories i had is not that much... about no.3, that was also the time when this guy makes a lot of jokes. (i can tell, he was really bored and very sleepy lol) i dunno why i feel very very amused. it was so hard for me to contain my laughter. omg i miss those times T-T that was one of watashi no saikou omoi desu yo.. to be futari kiri ,ano hito to..

*siiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

i think that's all..

bye..

Random talk session 161: Anata wo omou hodo mune ga kurushii

hello diary! It's 27.10.10, tuesday.

Now at grand margerita for sedc integrity day. The chief minister is here lol emm..nothng much. Listening to cermah,etc on integrity. So boring. Blah. Ok,that's aside. Aitsu ga kuru! Omg i dunno wht to freakin feel abt this.. I guess i am a little ureshii,demo,this is gonna be so awkward since my friend found out my blog and my himitsu lol And also, my mijikai minikui kami wo miserarenai wake ga nai yo! (lol i so fail at my japanese).

edited:

argh... i was on my way back to the office and was thinking of a way to avoid him.. there i was, punched my card and was about to go in and i saw boss, my thought: "oh, boss, what he's doing there?" few mili second later i saw a red shirt... i know who it is right away (though i dun even saw his back, just saw the red shirt lol). i was having doubt of going in, but finally i went, bcoz i need to settle about the payment... and then, we went to boss' office.. and talk about the bill format.. well, not a very good 'meeting' bcoz i feel very very very very very bad and very very very very guilty. it's one of those days when i feel like it's better if i was not here.. if other people were assigned to this, i think things will go more smoother. this feel of guilt, it's so overwhelming. usually i cry, but for some reason, my tears just wont come out. i dunno if it's bcoz of ano hito, or maybe some other reasons..

i also want to say 1 thing to ano hito... i am sorry. hontoni gomensai. Oh God, please let him kno that i am really sorry. whether it's through a dream, a thought or whatever, i just want him to kno, i am really sorry... i want this feeling anata wo todoke.. Gah, almost cry there..

i went in the file room to get a moment alone, and listen to music loudly. my friends were kinda worried that i cry inside lol thanks all.

emm, what else? oh, want to comment sumthing. about that akai fuku lol GAH KAKKOI DESU YO XD

GAH ....................................... I HATE THIS FEELING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aitsu no koto wa wasurenai demo wasurarenai..

i said to myself, DAIKIRAI!!! DAIKIRAI!!!!. and when i think of it, nanka, nami ga.. please, make this feeling go away. my heart is to weak to bare it. omae nanka, ni doto ai ta kata, ni doto kangai ta..

that's all..

Random talk session 160: no title

hello diary. today is 26/10/10. it's tuesday...

lot happened today. so much office drama lol it's not really thing i want to keep in memory, so i guess i dun want to write about it haha... ah, but then again, . it's just about the payment. and bil format. HAR made a different fornat from the other suppliers.. it was kinda a big deal. a whole rombongan came to sedc to talk about this lol

ok, wanna talk about other things. just found out that legenda hang tuah will be animated by japanese studio...lol it's cool, but seeems like they are gonna make it in malay! there goes my hope of hearing my fav seiyuus in this 'anime'

emm... i think tat's all for today....

Random talk session 159

hello diary....today is 25/10/10. it's monday..

emm,. i still havent finish my claim.. argh.. i admit, i am kinda slow, but this is too slow... arghhh... i hate myself..

emm.. ok, new topic..1 thing i learned after my fren found out about my blog is that it's better if i dun talk about my crush too much, (bcoz it's so damn embarrassing!) but dang i cant... it's new, so my feeling towards that person is quite strong now. when i see anything related to him, i'll automatic think of him, eventhough i am trying very, very hard to forget about him... argh.. stupid emotion...

i have this weird urge to write all the things that remind me of him also the memories about him. u kno why? bcoz i am sure, i'll forget about him after this. so, i need to write it, so that in the future i kno, i had this feelings before..

but i am kinda busy these days. i wonder if i will have the chance to write those things...

em, that's all for today. until next time.. bye..

EDIT: it's funny that i want to write sumthing that remind me of him when i am trying to forget him lol

Random talk session 158

hello diary. today is 23/10/10. it's saturday,

at MaryBrown again today. is downloading SPN ep 5. heck, i havent even finish watching ep 4. these days busy watching Dexter XD He's a serial killer, but i always feel sad seeing him with his problems.. poor guy.. *shakes head*

what else... emm.. i changed my blogspot url. gah, and i really like the previous url.. well, shoganai yo, after what happened..

i realized sumthing, my blog is so wordy haha em, i dun have any interesting pict to post..

........................... my mind is blank. so, that's all i guess? haha.. another pointless post for today..

bye2..

Random talk session 157: speechless

hello diary...today is 22/10/10. it's friday..

now at marybrown.. dun want to go back home yet..

still havent finish the claim.. i am seriously so slow, it makes me mad... aii... well, tomoro i'll go to the office again and try to finish it..

em, sumthing happened today. seeems like my fren found this blog. omg i should have known this would happened after he found my wordpress... eventho i said i want to delete this blog, but that's just not possible. this thing is basically is me. in reality, i dun really show my emotion. u can say, i am tezuka-ish lol poker face XD i dun really show how i feel to the world, well, except when i'm sad. sadness. that's one feelings i totally cant hide.. few ocassion has been the proof of that.. anyway (ah, i think i havent use this word for quite some times haha) what was i saying, oh yeah. i dun show my emotion , but i write about it. this blog records my happiness, my sadness, my anger which i almost never show in public. if i delete it, it's like i'm deleting my own life... oh, i think i know a solution.. emmm... so, i guess now my fren know my most embarrassing secret, which is my crush. eventho i dun really say it directly, but i think he figure it out. actually i dun really mind if he reads this blog, but what's really make me so embarrass i bcoz i wrote to0 much about that crush of mine... it's only a crush ok. this feeling totally not gonna last. heh, it's funny that i dun like changes (wear the same things, buy the same things, eat the same things, etc) but when it comes to feeling of crush/like/love, it never last.. that's y i cant get married. i'll totally have scandal haha..

what can i say, i already kn0w the risk of making my blog public. if i wanted privacy, of coz i'll use LJ or MP.. em, what else.. oh, i think i should talk about what i wanted to talk bout yesterday. about my hair.

my hair is so short right now. it's really saddens me. u see, i have this pact i that i make about 2 or 3 years ago, when my obsession wit NEWS was at it peaks. my hair was already long, and i made this weird promise that i wont cut my hair until i go to Japan and meet NEWS. But i think after i join GEMS, i kinda neglected NEWS, and when my GEMS friends told me to cut my hair, i just compliance wit it. i guess, my dreams of going to japan is not that important to me now.. this is kinda sad... the old me would be so disappointed.. emm.. i think that's all..

until next time.. bye..

Random talk session 156: lots of things stuff in 1 post

(edited) alt title: a day in the life, david arculeta in malaysia, and layton vs ace attorney game..

hello diary, it's 21/10/10. thursday..

emm. at the office now. wow, i think it's the first time i wrote from the office.. emm, i have so many works to finish, and yet i stll hav time to blog.. yeah, it's true, i'm stress and i am postponing my works..

need to finish the claim asap.. i dun want to make boss disappointed. he said, dun be slow, and i am trying not to be, eventho, i am a really slow person in whatever i do... it's sad...i know..

emm.. what else to say.. i dun have idea..this morning, bought McD. emm... seriously dun have anything to blog now..

that's all i guess? another short one.. if i'm rajin, i'll edit this later..

bye..

EDIT: (at about 10pm)
was reading about a rumored / unconfirmed news about david archuleta coming to malaysia . omg, if only it's true, then i will be very happy! and this time, i'll make sure i go to his con haha XD last year, he did come to malaysia, but i didnt kno at all. i guess it's bcoz i was still in the mood of another fandom. that's the benefit of having a blog, i can re-trace what i like lol at that time i was in monster mood. i love tenma so much lol

ok, next one, about the crossover game. layton vs phoenix! actually found out a little earlier, yesterday i think, i think i was too excited, i forgot to blog about it haha.. i saw the trailer and omg omg it's so beautiful! and the fact that these 2 are my most fav ds games. love the trial, and also love the puzzle (eventhough i cheat at times hahaha XD) i cant wait to play the game! i think the english version will take longer time to be released...so sad! em, that remind me, i really, really, really need to finish apollo justice and also ace investigator ASAP, and also Layton's third game, the unwound time...gah..i dun have time... mmm.. i think that;s all for today. actually there is 1 more topic i want to write, but i think i'll save that for tomoro... hehe..

bye.

next post preview: (LOL) i had always this pact wit my hair, but obviously, i had broke it...

Random talk session 155: My hair tragedy

hello diary.. today is 16/10/10 saturday..

i had a hair cut earlier and i didnt like it bcoz it's too short!!!!! I HATE ITT!!!!! I HOPE MY HAIR WILL GROW FASTER!!!!!!

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........SO FREAKIN SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually before this, i dun really mind of my appearance, but now i kinda care bcoz there is someone who i kinda like... something about love, huh.. love make people do stupid things and also make people feels stupid things... i hate this. i wanna forget him so freakin much!!!! i dun want him to c my hideous hair style T_T i hope he wont be coming to SEDC againnnnn!! but sadly, what i really wish usually dun come true.. arghhhh i am so afraid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! before this, i hope he would come to sedc again, but now, i really, really hope he wont be coming back..

oh God. please give me strength to forget him...

i hate this... that;s all or today.. bye..

Random talk session 154

halo diary :P today is 14/10/10, thursday..

em...nothing much to write. or should i say, what i dun write.. been thinking of it lately. i dun really keeping update wit NEWS as much anymore. i dun even write about them. Bcoz of this, my Multiply site, which was dedicated to NEWS, has no update for the longest time... i just dunno what to write about them. it's like i am slowly abandon them.. i dun want that to happen, but looks like it is happening right now. but i guess it's not just NEWS, but also the other fandom, such as anime, or should is say, my interest in japan has decline. like i said before, now i rarely listen to any japanese songs or even watched any japanese drama/anime/movie. my interest now is david archuleta (music) and english series such as spn and merlin... but, seeing how my previous fandom have become, i think it just a matter of time untill i lost interest in these things too... em, wait, but i had always prefer to watch english series than japanese drama XD

it's not just NEWS u see. i also dont have the mood to watch any anime now, or read any manga.. so lazy lately.. besides tat, there's also the seiyuu fandom. i still love the voices, but i dun even bother to check any new videos/songs/pictures of my fav seiyuu...

it's like i changed my interests so easily. not just on music or tv, but also in love. now, i am kinda having a crush wit someone (that i seriously shouldnt hav), but i am pretty sure, after a month or so, i am so totally gonna forget this feeling.. just like how i forgot about my crush at penview lol i think it's bcoz i didnt see him ever since then...

em, i think that's all from me today...

bye..

PS: i havent finish my work, so i am so afraid of going to work tomoro i bet boss is gonna ask me about it *sigh*

Random talk session 153

Hello diary, today is 13/10/2010. it's wednesday.

emm.. i started watching Dexter today. this series is really psycho! haha.. i mean, the hero is a serial killer! at first, i didnt think the hero (dexter) was handsome, but after watching until ep 3, i think he's kinda ok XD the series is not bad i guess, i guess it's bcoz i like the investigation kinda story XD i wonder who is the ice truck killer! emm... guess i'll have to watch XD i am now watching until the middle of ep 4 XD i didnt finish bcoz i wanted to online...and then go to sleep XD haha.. continue tomoro...hohoho..

emm.. there is sumthing i want to wrrite, but i cant remember.. lemme see... what was it...

oh, i remembered!

i eat a lot these days! eat much more than usual.. and u kno what that means, i am a little upset and sad... what else, it's about my work at sedc.. *sigh* i eat when i upset. but when i'm really sad, i'll not eat anything at all... ahah... ok. that is the thing that i want to mention.. haha..

until next time~

Random talk session 152: 2nd post of the day

hello diary. yup. it's still 10/10/10 ahaha.. i dun want to edit the previous post XD

emm... today went to unimas to c my fren (her graduation day)... and then we went to the spring to eat sushi. yummy~ thanks for the food friend!! she paid rm100. so expensive! 0_0

she didnt kno the way to go to kuch, so she dropped me at saberkas's bus stop. i took the bus to go home. i was walking at india street when i heard elevator (david's song) lol elevator is only a song from the album, so i was really shocked when i heard it. i wonder if it's from the radio.. elevator needs more love! everybody should listen to it XD a very catchy song~

ok, enough about that..i wanna blog of sumthing else...

when introvert like me had a crush.. the more i like a person, the more likely i will NOT talk to him. he gets me nervous and he makes me wanna get away from him, yet i wanna stay close to him.. it's so complicated... emm... i was thinking sumthing, it's totally the hair lol i hope he cuts his hair so that i wont think he's cute anymore, and i can forget of him faster.. *looooong sigh*

.......oh yeah, finally i downloaded david archuleta's album, the other side of down. i havent finish listening to them. sadly, i still havent really like them much... and now still looping SBL and elevator, and also the newest obsession, touch my hand XD that remind me, bcoz of this newest obsession for david archuleta, i havent watch any japanese dramas or songs lately, i am kinda afraid that i will forget that language XD emm... i better listen to NEWS album now... haha..

em, i think i am gonna rants about the series i currently watching. Merlin and Supernatural.

Merlin season 3 ep 5: Crystal Cave. i dun really like this ep. i cant stand Morgana. Merlin's guilt also kinda annoying. i dun like both uther and morgana, let them kill each other lol

ok, next, supernatural season 6, ep 3. 1 word: CASTIEL !!!! Hello love, i miss ya! haha.. My comment, sam is really getting more and more annoying.. argh.. come on, sam!!! there is really sumthing wrong with him... aiii.. i m really sad seeing him this season...

ok, i think that's all... until next time :) bye,,,

Random talk session 151: 10 OCT 2010

hello diary! today is 10/10/10 very nice date eh? ehehe... it's sunday.. and yes, it's also sakata gintoki's birthday~ WOOT~ happy bday love~

emm... actually i dun really have no idea what to write... now, suddenly obsessed with david archuleta's song, touch my hand. omg love this song~ so catchy~ i watched some more of his video in utube earlier, and he's really too cute i almost cry lol

i really hope he can occupy my mind for this time being.. i dun want to think of that person T-T please make me forget about him asap. i hate this feeling arrrghh...

emm...what else...i dun even know...i think maybe that;s all. another short entry from me..

bye..

Random talk session 150: u make me bingung...

hello diary...today is 8/10/10. it's friday..

my fav word now is "bingung".... aiihhh...

so..i want to quit next week, but i feel bad to just go like that.. there are too many things i need to do.. argh....

got a free lecture from that 'someone' i like today lol i know la, i know, but i cant easily change myself ok. i dun even like the way i am. i want to change, but i am so stubborn, not towards others, but towards myself...... *sigh*

suddenly i wanna sing 'something bout love'...sumthing bout love that breaks ur heart... yes.. it really breaks my heart..

love hurts so much, i wish i never had that feeling in the first place..arrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............hate this feeling..!!!! arghhhh!!!!

i dun even know why i like guy so freakin fast!!! arghhhhh I HATE THISSSS!!!!!!! GO AWAY EMOTION!!!!!! DAVID ARCHULETA, PLEASE NEUTRALIZE THIS FEELING!!!! I CANT STAND THIS HURTING IN MY HEART T_T

Random talk session 149: woo hoo!

hello diary. today is 6.10.2010. It's wednesday. today, went for 'delivering" again. actually it's more of getting the pengesahan" haha.. megabumi still havent finish, still 1 more. most probably tomoro, and that wil be the official last of my delivering..so sad T_T. i regret for not going myself for the delivering. all of them are good and nice guys XD

today, was...what can i say? i am really happy that i get to get out of the office.

i went to matang/bau/lundu/santubong. arrived home quite late, at 6.30pm sumthing...

i just wanna say this, that haziq guy is really funny. lol. he made me want to LOL so hard! haha.. it was so hard to contain my laughter. i had to think of all the troubles and problems i had... haha.. thanks for making my day dude! and now, some bad things are awaiting me, bcoz i had a really good day today. and i am really scared now...


that's it...lol very short

Random talk session 148: Even my patience has limit

hello diary! today is 1/10/2010. it's friday,

lots of things happened this week. once again, my patience is tested by that inconsiderate person. YOU ARE SOOOO ANNOYING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO ANGRYYYYYYYY!!!!! i hate this feeling!!!! GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i almost explode yesterday... i took a breathe, and managed to control my anger.

ARRGGHHHHH!!!!! I FEEL LIKE QUITTINGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this morning, i cried thinking of my problems.... argh, so embarrassing... so many people saw me.. aii...

em, this whole week, i went delivering. ah, so happy bcoz i dun need to see that annoying face in the office. i mostly went wit HAR. today was the last delivering, i am gonna miss them, hehe. ah, i also miss the satok jaya guys haha. i saw them on wed, and they still remember me. haha..

i think that's all..