Hello diary
Today is 25th april...
Sad to say.. I m so sad. It has since yesterday. In another words, i m heartbroken.. Ahhh... I m so so sad.. I want to cry..
Alan.. And his scandal.. Why wouldn't he just date a normal person??? Whyyy??? He is surrounded by so many cute girls in the company (like e girls) and his co star, like Nagano Mei, but why must be go for the ones he dont supposed to fall in love with!! Not to mention, FOR THE 2ND TIME!! AHHH IT MAKES ME SO MAD!! I know it is not fault, i m trying so hard to defend him from myself. I want to hate him so much, i want to forget him. And yet, there is another side of me, telling myself that i shouldnt blame him for what happened.. if he is at fault for falling in love with someone he shouldn't have, then, i am at fault too, coz i also fell in love with him.. me, who has closed my heart to anyone, but he still managed to get through and sneaked into my heart... and i accepted him... he became the light of my life..
i am so affected by this, coz he is my bias. i never admit it, but ok, here, i m gonna say it, he is my ultimate bias. If he was not part of Gene, i think i will never get into the group at all. I am so charmed by him.. I think, deep down, i knew he was gonna be a heart breaker, so i tried to find someone that i can love more than him... and i unconsciously, choose Ryuto.. For his birthday December last year, i made a Ryuto post everyday. so, i was watching more Ryuto than Alan.. at one point, i was questioning myself, "Do i love Ryuto more than Alan now??? What if i go to another concert, i wonder which one i will choose to look at???" Coz, last time, it was totally Alan, i cant get my eyes off of him at all.. and finally, during their China Tour, that i was able to go to, i got the answer. Alan is still magic after all. For the opening, i looked at Ryuto first, i cant stop staring at him.. but then i saw Alan, and then, my eyes just on him. Even though, Ryuto is much easier to watch from where i am, i still looked at Alan...
i guess, there is a reason, why my theme song for Alan is "Love You More" i will always love him more... as for Ryuto, his theme song is "Always with You" coz i want to be with him always.. even though my love is for alan?? lol!! ahh.. my feelings are so complicated... watching Alan now is just so hard for me.. it makes me so sad.. so i have stopped watching Gene videos... i dunno when will i recover from this... maybe until he updates? who knows... even if he updates, can i overcome this sadness in my heart? i guess we will have to wait and see..
Alan... i still love you so much...but it is so hard to see you..
ok diary.. until next time..
April 25, 2018
April 24, 2018
Random talk session 298: Mad Cyclone China Tour
hello diary! today is 26th april. and this is my very very very delayed update on my China trip for Mad Cyclone Tour~
so, i wrote this a month or so ago,but only publishing it on April..
like i said before, i manage to go to the Shezen show. There were too many hardship that i went through, that i dont feel like doing a report. Dont get me wrong though, the live was one of the best moment in my life, but the things i had to went through to, is also one of the worst experience of my life..
the very first problem i had was getting tickets. As i m not from China and i dont have any friends or relatives in China, how can i buy the tickets??? Out of desperation, i messaged someone on Instagram, and asked her to help me to buy tickets, in which she agree, thank you random girl! But, sadly, she couldnt get for me tickets for any of the shows! i was soooo devastated!! i totally underestimated the chinese fans... they were too many of them... But then, this girl, recommend me to buy from Taobao (it is like a 3rd seller).. so, i, who just wanted to secure a ticket and dont even care of the possibility of the tickets being fake (fraud seller) just went and bought 1 ticket. Since i cant read the chinese text, i had my boss helped me to buy it lol!!! so.. i finally got ticket.. then i also booked flight ticket to Shenzen... a few days later, suddenly i had a change of mind, and want to buy another show.. and i did.. lol.. i bought the 3rd march show... (before this, i bought the 2nd march show). of course, becoz of this, i had to buy new flight ticket again... and then, like less than a week of the show, i face another problem, and that is, address to send the tickets to.. thankfully, i kinda remember the instagram girl, so i use her address.. and finally... i got the damn tickets.. seriously, i was crying in the night thinking what if the tickets wont come in time??? ahh i was so stressed.. and this was just the process of getting the tickets.. not to mention, communicating with the 3rd seller person was sooo hard coz he didn't understand english! i had to use google translate to communicate with him.. it was also, so stressful lol
in the end i finally got the tickets.. 2nd march and 3rd march show!
and then, the day i was supposed to go to shenzen, i cant board my flight coz i didnt have visa!!! i was busy worrying about the live ticket i absolutely forgot the most important thing, to apply for visa!!! i was sooooo devastated omg just remembering this makes me so sad i m crying while typing this… after everything i went through to get the tickets for the live, but i cant go to China!!!!!!!! and for visa application, i need at least 4 days.
greatly disapointed, i went home on a 12 hour bus trip… and still googling on getting express visa, and i found out that i can get to Shenzen via Hong Kong, as they have a special Visa on Arrival, which i can get immediately.. i had to google all the information i had to know where and how to get the visa and also the flights, with my lousy old phone which has less than 50% battery, in a bus, at 3 in the morning. At times, i was like, can i go? will i go? i was still debating with myself… finally i arrive home, and took the taxi from the bus terminal to the airport. Ah, i cant let it end it just like that, i went and bought last minute flight to Kuala Lumpur and then Kuala Lumpur to Hong Kong. I still remember the face of the guy at the AirAsia ticket counter when i said i want to buy last minute ticket to Hong Kong (the flight is like in 4 hours). He asked, “Why??” i didnt answer, but in my head, i was like, “i m chasing the loves of my life…” anyway… finally i was at hong kong, and my last hurdle. To get the visa on arrival, which is not 100% guarantee, since the Shenzen imigration still can deny my application… everything is still up to luck to the very last minute!!!!!!! like, what if my application get rejected and i got send back to hong kong??????????? oh my god.. why does it is so hard for me to see them… i just wanna see my babies… I got to the visa office at about 10pm.. i filled in the application form, and waited for the officer to call me… and finally, finally, the visa is on my passport!!!!!!! i can finally go to shenzen. finally.. .bcoz of all these, i missed the first show that i bought. and only manage to go to the 3.3 show..
onto to the reports..
okay, the venue is Shenzhen Poly Theatre
My seats were in the 3rd row.. on Mandy’s side.. (Stage) Position wise, when they were performing, Reo is usually right in front of me…
What to say lol… i dont usually write reports…
The set list is the same with Mad Cyclone tour in Japan, except Big City Rodeo, which was included in the set list, and not sung during encore.
okay here are some things..
MC part, i dont really understand them, coz they were talking in Chinese!
- Hayato making fun of Ryuto (also, it was a Chinese word that i dont understand… Hayato was repeating it over and over lol)
- Reo forgot how to say his speech in Chinese lol.. he turned his back on us, (possibly reading on his notes..lol reo sooo cutee!!)
High five part
- most memorable part is Ryota.. coz he was looking at me soo intensely! lol..i was just high five-ing Reo, and was gonna see him, but he was already looking so hard at me lol.. this guy, thank goodness, i m not that really into him, i would be so dead if i was lol...
- i was calling out there name one by one lol!!!
- i dont remember Ryuto and Alan session at all.. my mind was totally shutting downn ahhhhh
- finally snapped at hayato's high five, coz he was so loud! lol!!
and finally the show end.. ahhh... it was one of the best day of my life... to see my dearest.. in such a close distance.. and to high five them.. ahh.. i will remember this moment forever..
additional post:
Memory of Mad Cyclone
Last year, when i watched the song live at Saitama Super Arena, the moment the song started playing, and the big screen (??) thingy lifted up, and i saw Gene with my own eyes for the first time, heard Ryuto for the first time, oh my god. What a feeling.. To hear Ryuto’s voice live.. and the first person that i went to look for is.. Alan.. And i think my eyes was on him for the whole minute.. until i finally look at the others..
fast forward to 8 months later, when i went to Shenzen to watch them again, and as usual, it start with Mad Cyclone. Song started, and once again, to hear Ryuto’s voice live omg and at a much closer range omg i was really dying, my hand on my mouth, and i was rocking back and forth, i feel like vomiting coz i was too overwhelmed.. This time, my eyes were on Ryuto for a whole minute lol.. until.. i finally decided to look for Alan and i saw. omg.. nope. He is still magic after all. From my seat, the person in front of me is Reo. After watching Alan for like 2 or 3 minutes and my neck got kinda hurt from looking to the side too much, i finally look to the front, and saw Reo lol… So, Reo is part of my Mad Cyclone memory too now..
ok.. i think that is for my report.. bye!
so, i wrote this a month or so ago,but only publishing it on April..
like i said before, i manage to go to the Shezen show. There were too many hardship that i went through, that i dont feel like doing a report. Dont get me wrong though, the live was one of the best moment in my life, but the things i had to went through to, is also one of the worst experience of my life..
the very first problem i had was getting tickets. As i m not from China and i dont have any friends or relatives in China, how can i buy the tickets??? Out of desperation, i messaged someone on Instagram, and asked her to help me to buy tickets, in which she agree, thank you random girl! But, sadly, she couldnt get for me tickets for any of the shows! i was soooo devastated!! i totally underestimated the chinese fans... they were too many of them... But then, this girl, recommend me to buy from Taobao (it is like a 3rd seller).. so, i, who just wanted to secure a ticket and dont even care of the possibility of the tickets being fake (fraud seller) just went and bought 1 ticket. Since i cant read the chinese text, i had my boss helped me to buy it lol!!! so.. i finally got ticket.. then i also booked flight ticket to Shenzen... a few days later, suddenly i had a change of mind, and want to buy another show.. and i did.. lol.. i bought the 3rd march show... (before this, i bought the 2nd march show). of course, becoz of this, i had to buy new flight ticket again... and then, like less than a week of the show, i face another problem, and that is, address to send the tickets to.. thankfully, i kinda remember the instagram girl, so i use her address.. and finally... i got the damn tickets.. seriously, i was crying in the night thinking what if the tickets wont come in time??? ahh i was so stressed.. and this was just the process of getting the tickets.. not to mention, communicating with the 3rd seller person was sooo hard coz he didn't understand english! i had to use google translate to communicate with him.. it was also, so stressful lol
in the end i finally got the tickets.. 2nd march and 3rd march show!
and then, the day i was supposed to go to shenzen, i cant board my flight coz i didnt have visa!!! i was busy worrying about the live ticket i absolutely forgot the most important thing, to apply for visa!!! i was sooooo devastated omg just remembering this makes me so sad i m crying while typing this… after everything i went through to get the tickets for the live, but i cant go to China!!!!!!!! and for visa application, i need at least 4 days.
greatly disapointed, i went home on a 12 hour bus trip… and still googling on getting express visa, and i found out that i can get to Shenzen via Hong Kong, as they have a special Visa on Arrival, which i can get immediately.. i had to google all the information i had to know where and how to get the visa and also the flights, with my lousy old phone which has less than 50% battery, in a bus, at 3 in the morning. At times, i was like, can i go? will i go? i was still debating with myself… finally i arrive home, and took the taxi from the bus terminal to the airport. Ah, i cant let it end it just like that, i went and bought last minute flight to Kuala Lumpur and then Kuala Lumpur to Hong Kong. I still remember the face of the guy at the AirAsia ticket counter when i said i want to buy last minute ticket to Hong Kong (the flight is like in 4 hours). He asked, “Why??” i didnt answer, but in my head, i was like, “i m chasing the loves of my life…” anyway… finally i was at hong kong, and my last hurdle. To get the visa on arrival, which is not 100% guarantee, since the Shenzen imigration still can deny my application… everything is still up to luck to the very last minute!!!!!!! like, what if my application get rejected and i got send back to hong kong??????????? oh my god.. why does it is so hard for me to see them… i just wanna see my babies… I got to the visa office at about 10pm.. i filled in the application form, and waited for the officer to call me… and finally, finally, the visa is on my passport!!!!!!! i can finally go to shenzen. finally.. .bcoz of all these, i missed the first show that i bought. and only manage to go to the 3.3 show..
onto to the reports..
okay, the venue is Shenzhen Poly Theatre
My seats were in the 3rd row.. on Mandy’s side.. (Stage) Position wise, when they were performing, Reo is usually right in front of me…
What to say lol… i dont usually write reports…
The set list is the same with Mad Cyclone tour in Japan, except Big City Rodeo, which was included in the set list, and not sung during encore.
okay here are some things..
MC part, i dont really understand them, coz they were talking in Chinese!
- Hayato making fun of Ryuto (also, it was a Chinese word that i dont understand… Hayato was repeating it over and over lol)
- Reo forgot how to say his speech in Chinese lol.. he turned his back on us, (possibly reading on his notes..lol reo sooo cutee!!)
High five part
- most memorable part is Ryota.. coz he was looking at me soo intensely! lol..i was just high five-ing Reo, and was gonna see him, but he was already looking so hard at me lol.. this guy, thank goodness, i m not that really into him, i would be so dead if i was lol...
- i was calling out there name one by one lol!!!
- i dont remember Ryuto and Alan session at all.. my mind was totally shutting downn ahhhhh
- finally snapped at hayato's high five, coz he was so loud! lol!!
and finally the show end.. ahhh... it was one of the best day of my life... to see my dearest.. in such a close distance.. and to high five them.. ahh.. i will remember this moment forever..
additional post:
Memory of Mad Cyclone
Last year, when i watched the song live at Saitama Super Arena, the moment the song started playing, and the big screen (??) thingy lifted up, and i saw Gene with my own eyes for the first time, heard Ryuto for the first time, oh my god. What a feeling.. To hear Ryuto’s voice live.. and the first person that i went to look for is.. Alan.. And i think my eyes was on him for the whole minute.. until i finally look at the others..
fast forward to 8 months later, when i went to Shenzen to watch them again, and as usual, it start with Mad Cyclone. Song started, and once again, to hear Ryuto’s voice live omg and at a much closer range omg i was really dying, my hand on my mouth, and i was rocking back and forth, i feel like vomiting coz i was too overwhelmed.. This time, my eyes were on Ryuto for a whole minute lol.. until.. i finally decided to look for Alan and i saw. omg.. nope. He is still magic after all. From my seat, the person in front of me is Reo. After watching Alan for like 2 or 3 minutes and my neck got kinda hurt from looking to the side too much, i finally look to the front, and saw Reo lol… So, Reo is part of my Mad Cyclone memory too now..
ok.. i think that is for my report.. bye!
