Random talk session 287: ugh i m so weak

hello diary. today is 3/5/2017/ (wed)

so............... i am currently watching generations' music video. never let you go. damn catchy song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have been repeating it from yesterday.. at first, i was only listening to the song, but then i just had to get curious of the music video, so i went to utube and watched it..and what a wrong move that was. WHAT A WRONG MOVE. damn. watching it makes me crazy coz everyone is soo cute!!!!!!!!!!! i am so weak damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just kno i will fall for all those cutie pies ughhhhhh like seriously... 

it all started wit high&low.. my world started to change. life started to get cloudly..

and then, watching interview and stuffs, and for some reason, i started to fall in love wit gun..  and my world starts to crumble from that moment.. the earth cracked, my life is on the verge of falling,, 

so, i watched more of gun.. and watch his band.. and i found out about exile and it sub group. but sandaime though. omi though. omigun though. my world starts to fall, while spontaneous combustion right on the spot. my life is on freakin fire while falling to the fandom pit. sandaime why why why i want to die watching their live.. ugh should i start talking about them too??? ok i should. at first i was only gonna talk about generations, but nope. i want to talk about sandaime too. (even though i already talk about them in the previous post?????) ok, so yeah.. i watched more of their pvs and listen to more of their songs. to the point i finally able to distinguish omi's and ryuji's voice. omi though ughhh after gun, i just had to fall for this guy???  and also his relationship wit gun is so cute??? i feel like he spoils gun so much??? i feel the love so much?? lol but sadly, nowadays i feel like not much of omigun love. they are so busy wit individual works. is it bcoz they are getting more popular i guess??? back in the days, omigun would always hav a date of their own like going to disney sea and las vegas, just the 2 of them  it's so cute i wanna cry but now, as if thy dont interact at all.. it makes me so sad. erm, what else, oh yeah, about sandaime.. i become to like the grup so much, i want to watch their live too someday. when i found out abt them, i thought thy are just another regular jpop artist, and not as big as johnny's..... HOW WRONG WAS IT. they are quite popular actually and getting to their live is as bad and as hard as getting live to johnny's concert.. damn it!!!!!!!!! whyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! i was so upset.. whyyyy???? i wanna see them wit my own eyes. watching from the computer screen is not enough.. ughhh oh yeah, so, i was looking at sandaime's website to check their concert tour, i even considering to spend rm5000 for a front row seat.. lol considering ok lol i m not that rich ok. but still, it makes me so sad and mad.. why did i just had to fall for a popular grup!!! i hate popular grup coz their live is always impossible to get. anyway, yeah.. about their concert. they actually had one, a dome tour. starting from nov/dec 2016? i forgot,, also in jan and feb 2017.. and last one is gonna be in august. i think that august one was actually postpone?? i dunno wat happened though?? yeah, that was the live that i was considering to buy for rm5k lol but maybe i will not.. who knows.. i just hope this obsession will go away by the time lol but looks like it is not??? damn heart!!! ... ok, while looking for sandaime's live i also found out about generations' world tour. you kno, tat time, i was like, SO ANGRY at them lol like, WHY DID YOU GET A WORLD TOUR???? SANDAIME IS MORE POPULAR THAN YOU BRATS" i was seriously, resent them just for that reason lol everytime there is a vtr abt them in casino exile or any video related to sandaime, i would always skip their part lol THE HATE WAS SO REAL... but as they are in the same circle as sandaime, i nvr actually can avoid them... while hating the group, a flicker of light also appear deep down lol.. they are just too cute!!! i just kno i will like them too someday! that is also why i try to avoid their stuffs.. coz i hate them and i kno i will like them eventually!! my emotion is so complex lol ok.... so yeah.... 

generations. they are so young it breaks my heart lol i hate this feelings. ok.. so.. erm.. i think at first, i was actually attract to katanose ryota? when i was watching the higher ground pv... he looks so cute and damn a very sweet voice too. he is like gun, has that "perfect prince" image to him. but maybe bcoz i dont really watch much videos about him, i actually kinda forgot abt him?? lol... and currently, i m actually liking.. shirahama alan lololol omg.. and maybe kazuhara ryuto and komori hayato too. but mostly alan now. lol. of all people right??? lol i m trying to remember when is it i actually come to like this guy??? i think i saw him first in the race viceo, lol when gun still wit the wild type image lol tbh i thought he looks kinda weird?? lol he has a very define feature actually, and it is most probably coz he is half filipino lol how dreamy lol i also saw him wit the shabekuri feat the high&low casts (coz i was in high&low mood at tht time) dont really hav much impression towards of him at all.. i was busy fangirling gun looking so cute wit the hat lol i think the moment that i really got to like generations was after i watch the casino exile ep when they had to eat spicy food lololol that was so hilarious!! sano vs spicy food is so freakin cute lol i wanna form a #protectsanofromspicyfood squad after watching that video lololol also, as a seiyuu fan, i need to say this, i really, like sano and hayato's voice lol they got such a deep voice for a very cute lookin face lolol ... and then i watched more of casino videos, and of course, i watched ryuto's kendama challenge. he always succeed in doing the challenge!! amazing ryuto!! i just had to like him.. also, his talking voice ugh.. tamaranai desu yo!! lolol anwyay, yeah, and then, there's alan.. now i remember.. the moment that my heart got captured lol is.. when he was doing the blowin the candle challenge lol that face when he said "ikemasu??" lol i dont usually post pic in my rant, but here: 

his face so epic lol i wanna hug him everytime i see this cutie pie now lol dammmmmm so much feels!!!! i cant handle it ugh ugh ugh guh guh guh ugh ugh 

so, yeah,,, em.. i dunno what else to write anymore lol gudbye until next time~